beau

[beausvalentine]

Lawson couldn’t help the small groan that left his lips. “But..” He trailed off looking at Beau. “I don’t care if I look like I’ve just been fucked. Honestly it would be kinda hot, everyone would know I’m not to be fucked with.” He tried to point out as he pouted before he nodded. “Okay okay, I’ll wait, but it’s your fault if I can’t keep my hands off ya after the show.” He spoke as he felt Beau play with his hair. “Another reason to the list of reasons on why to take all of me now.” He teased kissing his way down the others jaw line and collar bone as he pinched one of his nipples. 

The brunette whimpered softly as he felt the other’s lips teasingly press along his jaw and collarbone. His eyes closed gently, drowning in all the affection that the other was giving him. His fingers gripped Lawson’s hips, smirking a little as he felt the other pinch one of his nipples. Beau smacked his hand away. “You were being cute until then, don’t ruin it,” he chuckled, cupping the other’s face and pulling him in for another kiss. “Kiss me again, pretty boy.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson held his man closer to him. “I know you don’t.” He replied with a nod as he caressed his face. “Our past, now our present. You and I engaged. My first show performing knowing my fiance is in the crowd. How am I going to be able to concentrate?” He asked with a smile. Pecking Beau’s lips more than once. “Can’t help the fact that I have the strong urge to take you to bed and make love to you before we have to head out.” He commented trailing his hands down the others chest. “Either that or I’ll wait until after the show.” He whispered with a small shrug. “You do tend to go inexpensive, and I love it, but you don’t have to, I have enough to provide for us both.” He spoke as he leaned in once more capturing Beau’s lips. 

Beau couldn’t take his eyes off Lawson’s, his kissed Lawson back every time his lips pressed against his own. “I’m pretty sure if you fuck me now, you are going to walk on the stage looking like you’ve just got fucked, or done the fucking,” he chuckled with a shake of his head. “You can wait until afterwards, pretty boy. We’ll have the whole place to ourselves then.” He confessed. Beau played with the long hair on Lawson’s head, messing with the brown strands. “You’re so fucking attractive.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson got up as he pulled Beau closer to him as he looked into his eyes. “Lawson Valentine, yeah, nice ring to it.” He spoke as the instrumental track repeated in the background. “Imagine seeing that on tour ticket stubs, billboards, and lighting up ever venue as I take you across the world with me when I go world wide.” He replied swaying them softly, happily. “I think we can settle on doing both Beau and Lawson Kingsley-Valentine. I would adorn them both proudly.” He whispered caressing Beau’s cheek. “They can laugh, let them. What matters in the end is that I have you, I always had you, but now I continue keeping you. People can look, hell they might try to touch, but you’re mine.” He chuckled as he leaned forward and pecked the other brunettes lips. “All mine.” He spoke grasping Beau’s shirt and pulling him forward as he stumbled backwards. “As I am all yours.” He whispered and with a firm yank at the seams sent the buttons flying as he leaned in brushing his lips against B’s. “How many is that, lost count. You should seriously stop wearing things with buttons if you know the outcome, or just start wearing mine, I don’t mind walking around half naked half the time.” He shrugged as uttered the words against the others lips before kissing him pushing his shirt off his arms. 

Beau wouldn’t mind having a double-barrel surname. Beau Kingsley-Valentine had a nice ring to it. It would be a mix of his own surname, and his boyfriend’s as well. “I don’t give a fuck about anyone else. It doesn’t matter who tries to step in and step out of our life. People are in my past for a reason.” He shrugged. Beau watched as the buttons on his shirt pretty much all popped off of his clothing and looked down laughing. “Oh my god, your so rough with me,” he chuckled against the other’s mouth. “Thank god most of my clothing is cheap, right?” Beau owned tracksuits and sweat bottoms and pants that were branded, but most the time he wore casual shirt which either fit him tightly, or hung lose on him. It depended where he was going, and who he was seeing. He was usually in sweats all the time.

[beausvalentine]

Lawson bit his lip as he watched Beau’s reaction. He almost had to hold his breath before letting it out as he listened to his boyfriend. “I could wait, of course I don’t mind, wait.. you said yes.” He replied as he looked at his fiancé with a smile as he leaned up meeting his lips half way. “Beau and Lawson Kingsley, the Kingsley’s.” Law tested his last name out as he pulled the other brunette to him. “No more of that Valentine shit for you in the near or distant future.” He smirked taking the ring and sliding it on his finger. 

Beau didn’t want to see anyone else with Lawson. Lawson was his, and was extremely special to him. The brunette couldn’t imagine his life with someone else. Although the two of them had ups and downs with one another, Lawson was all that Beau wanted in a partner. “Lawson Valentine also sounds good though,” he grinned. “Could even be double-barrelled. Beau Valentine-Kingsley,” he muttered, trying out that word. “I don’t mind the name valentine. It’s unique. It’s just something people laugh about all the time.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson looked at Beau and nodded. “You have a way at showing them while I sing or talk about mine.” He remarked as he smiled. “I do love when your actions show through how much you love and care about me.” He replied leaning into Beau’s frame. “You mean a lot to me too.” He responded before nodding. “I don’t think you know this one babe, so no worries. It’s a new one that’s not been released.” He spoke as he lifted the remote to the music player and pressed play on the stripped version his band did of his newer song. Feeling his fingers fall in place with the keys on the piano he sung the first verse before going into the chorus and second verse. “And you need to know that nobody can take your place. And you need to know that I’m hella obsessed with your face, your face.” He sung chuckling softly as he looked at Beau for a moment. Breaking into the chorus again he smiled. “Oh, my heart hurts so good. I love you, babe, so bad, so bad, oh yeah.” Repeating the line he let the instrumental track continue as he got up and took Beau’s hand guiding him with him. “Oh, my heart hurts, oh, my heart hurts, oh, my heart hurts, so bad, oh yeah.” He sung the words softly looking into Beau’s eyes as he managed to dropped down onto one knee. “You can tell me no, you can tell me yes, you can just look at me with that adorable confused expression like the one you are wearing now because ya don’t know what the bloody fuck I’m doing and I’m not sure I do either. I just know I feel safest with you. I feel loved and cared about. Trusted. I know I want to be with you for as long as you’ll keep me and even after I still will keep fighting for you. I have loved you before I knew you B. It seems crazy, a bit impossible, but the moment I laid eyes on you outside that bar that night before we officially met I knew I had to have you. You’ve saved me too many times for me to count and we have our flaws babe. God knows we fight and argue, but at the end of the day we share a bed, we share a place, we love each other and I want to be able to continue our growth.” Fishing in his pocket he pulled out the box. “I’m not asking you to marry me today, or tomorrow, or next week, or even a few months from now, I’m asking you to marry me one day, to wear this ring around your finger or even around that chain of yours to signify that it is to happen one day.” He spoke opening the box. “So Beau Valentine, yes I know you hate your last name and we can change that, will you be my fiance?” 

The brunette watched as his boyfriend’s hands found the keys on the keyboard. He watched as the notes were played together, listening to his boyfriend sing the first verse. He watched his boyfriend’s face, smirking at some of the lyrics to the song that he was singing, swaying his head from side to side. “I know you love my face babe. I have no doubt about that,” he playfully commented between the song. The brunette watched as his boyfriend dropped onto his knee and raised his eyebrow, not knowing what Lawson was doing. Every thought was running around in Beau’s mind. He sounded as if the other was going to ask him to marry him, but Beau continued to listen not knowing if this was part of the song or if he was teasing him. Beau watched as Lawson got serious with him and asked him be his fiancé and went speechless. He tried to speak and get some words out but nothing came to mind. Beau brought his hand to Lawson’s hair and played with the strands, nodding his head. “I’d love to be your fiancé,” he confessed, leaning down to peck him. “I’d love to be able to marry you okay day.”

[beausvalentine]

“To stubborn to care, but we care a lot about each other.” Lawson replied as he bit down on lip. The feeling of his heart fluttering was enough for him to decide he wouldn’t wait a second, not when Beau was here confirming his feelings and being open with him, not when he felt this safe with the other brunette and knew that before another stint with his ex came up he wanted what he did. Getting up he looked at Beau taking his hand and lead to the piano after he put in his bands backing tracks in. “I know you do and I know it’s not often, but I feel as if my words say it enough for the both of us two. Your actions do speak louder, the way you are more open about holding me when I’m emotional for one speaks volumes. You’re growing babe.” He whispered as he leaned in to press a gentle peck to his lips. Sitting down on the piano bench he patted the spot next to him. “Let me sing you something I was holding out on, I know I was going to wait, but I can’t not when we don’t know what to except, B. I want you to listen to me. Think you can do that for me?” 

Beau didn’t like talking about his feelings. He wasn’t an open book and never had been. It was rare that he opened up. He found talking about his feelings awkward and weird. “I’m more affectionate with my actions. I know that. I feel like my actions show how much you actually mean to me. I’m crap at talking about that shit - but it’s the truth. You mean a lot to me.” Beau wandered over towards the piano, sitting in the space besides his boyfriend. “Let me hear what you’ve got,” he commented. “I’m not singing along though. My voice sounds like a dead cat.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson couldn’t help the moan that escaped his lips as his boyfriend wasted no time doing what he asked. Running his hands through the other brunettes buzzed hair he looked down watching him. “You truly are sinful.” He muttered as he bit his lip. “Putting that mouth to use for better things than back talking me.” Law spoke with a smirk as he listened to the small choking sound and gently eased himself halfway out before jutting his hips forward slowly. 

Beau liked giving Lawson head because he reacted well to him. His eyes not leaving his boyfriend’s as he bopped his head up and down the other’s length, making sure he took as much as possible. He couldn’t help but smirk at the other’s comment about his back talk and playfully rolled his eyes at the other’s comment. As he pulled up he slapped the other’s chest. “Enough with the cheek you,” he commented. “I’m doing you the favour here.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson looked at Beau and watched him play with the material on his shirt. “You don’t have to beg for me to love you. I never will stop loving you even when things get hard.” He spoke caressing the brunettes face. “We’re going to fight, we’re going to argue, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you B.” Kissing his lips softly he pressed their heads together. “I know you love me, your name is above my beating heart for a reason.” He whispered.

“We’re always going to fight and bicker. Both of us like getting our own way,” he chuckled. The brunette didn’t mind that the two of them argued from time to time. It kept things moving and rolling with one another. Beau looked into Lawson’s eyes and smiled as he felt Lawson’s lips press against his own. “I do love you. I don’t tell you that all the time as it’s cheesy, but I do love you a lot.”

[beausvalentine]

Watching Beau he bit his lip. “Look at you. I’m about to be in you and you have all the control you want.” Lawson moaned as he felt the other wrap his palm around him. “No babe, instead of pumping me you should put that pretty mouth to use, it’ll make it easier without the lube.” He spoke with a soft smile. “Pick the speed, but eventually I’ll end up bucking up into you.”

Beau looked up at his boyfriend as the other told him that he wanted to be blown. Beau wasn’t against giving someone head. He actually liked doing that. He moved from his current position and lent between Lawson’s parted legs, taking the other’s length into his mouth with ease, taking as much as he could, choking slightly.

[beausvalentine]

Lawson looked at Beau. “In what way do you want in babe? He asked as his eyes looked into the others. “Riding me like I do you gives you some control as long as I’m not holding you down on top of me.” He spoke with his knowledge of what he knew as he pulled his lovers pants down biting his lip. “No one’s allowed to touch us. I think I can deal with it that.” He whispered. “However I can’t keep my hands off you, so I guess being my worst nightmare works out perfectly.” He replied with a smirk.

The brunette stepped out of his own trousers and pants and threw them off into the corner of the room before bringing his hand towards Lawson’s pants, slowly unzipping them before working on getting he other’s boxers down. His hand brushing over the other’s length over his under boxers to get him hard. “I’ll get you hard first, and then I’ll ride you,” he confessed. “But I’m picking the speed as bottoming is still new to me,”. 

[beausvalentine]

Lawson looked at Beau for a moment after he sucked marks into his boyfriends neck to claim him. Looking at Beau he was silent as he listened. “You can’t go anywhere, not when I promised my mum I found the guy that gets her ring.” He whispered as he looked over at the box he threw at Beau laying next to them. Looking back at the other brunette and then at the box again he snatched it up before the other could. “But you also shouldn’t have almost let me walk out that door. You shouldn’t have let me almost end it.” He spoke quietly. “Not when you and I both know you love me as much as I love you.” He sighed.

The brunette looked at Lawson, playing with the material on his boyfriends shirt. “I don’t like being toyed with or messed around with. I’m not going to beg you to love me. If you want to love me, that has to be on your terms. I can’t force it.” The brunette admitted, biting down on his bottom lip. “You know I love you. I care about you a lot. That’s never going to change. Just because I don’t say it much, doesn’t mean I don’t feel it.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson knew how Beau worked and even if the other was to be on the bottom he wasn’t fully out of control. Feeling the other meet his lips as he felt himself tugged forward, he then felt his hair gently pulled and the moan that escaped his mouth into the others. Having felt the kiss break he looked at Beau. “Don’t question me, I haven’t topped for anyone else B.” He replied as he looked into the other brunettes eyes as his hands traveled down to his pants to unbutton them. “Would you like us to bottom and top for someone else then, hm?” 

Beau liked having some form of control in every aspect in his life. If he didn’t have some form of control he felt himself slipping. The brunette sat up a little as Lawson messed with the button on his pants, allowing Lawson to undress him. “No. I don’t want to bottom or top for anyone else, and I don’t want you doing it either,” he confessed. “If you do it and I find out. I’ll be your worst nightmare.”

[beausvalentine]

“It doesn’t mean it hurt any less.” Lawson replied as he looked away upset. Having be terrified by his fans unintentionally saved him from one of the things Law knew he would have regretted doing later. Feeling the hand on his back he felt himself be pulled back by the shirt before the door closed. Beau had saved him a third time now, not that he had counted. Feeling himself being pulled down into his boyfriends lap as the bags fell from his hand, he turned straddling Beau’s lap and fisted his shirt in his hands as his command made way to his ears. “Hold me.” He whispered knowing it was something against their code, but in situations like these Beau took no time to wrap his arms around him like the first time his ex showed back up and held him until he was alright. “’M sorry for thinking I could protect you fr-from him when I can’t even protect myself, just don’t leave me.” He said quietly as he buried his face in the others neck. 

Beau didn’t want Lawson interacting with his fans while he was upset and emotional. His fans didn’t need to see that side of him. He wanted them to support Lawson, but not get involved in his private life.  The brunette wrapped his arms around Lawson’s frame, keeping him sat firmly on top of him as the rest of the day went by for everyone else. “I’m not going anywhere. I shouldn’t have made that comment. I was just saying I can stick up for the two of us. I don’t need you fighting my battles. I didn’t think I was causing an uproar between the two of us by saying that.”

[beausvalentine]

Lawson wiped away his tears as he looked at his boyfriend. “You can’t see that what you said has hurt me.” He replied sniffling as he wiped at his nose hoisting the bags higher. “You can’t see that since the first incident I’ve been more on edge.” He remarked as he tried to push the tears back. “I-I can’t do anything right. Y-you forget that you did the same to me Valentine but in the end you didn’t give m-me a choice. We could have just t-talked this all out. You and I-I, but you made the threat, y-you did this.” He choked out as his voice wavered. “No you don’t have to put up with anyones shit, just like in school with trying to p-push me away you’ve actually got wh-what you wanted.” Law spoke as his eyes looked at Beau. “You may not hate yourself anymore, you may not f-feel the things you had felt before we got together again, but don’t come at m-me with the I’m leaving you bullshit. Not when you have n-no idea how I’m feeling on the inside or h-how much this is effecting me. You may not be the old you, but who said I-I’m old me.” He spoke as the door was opened. “I-I loved you. I fought for you, but now I think we need..” He began as his lips quivered before hearing the screams of his fans causing him to jump in fear and fall forward cowering as he curled up shell shocked. “WILL YOU JUST GO AWAY.” He screamed and rocked himself. “Get h-him away from me B.” He muttered out as he zoned out momentarily. “Pl-please.” He whispered going against the part of the argument where Lawson thought it was a good idea to protect Beau from his ex.

“It was a fucking empty threat, Lawson,” Beau exhaled. Beau couldn’t believe this argument had come about because he had told Lawson to not get involved with his ex. Beau had added that if he did anything with his ex - Beau would leave him, and now Lawson was upset with him for his empty threat. Beau didn’t want someone fighting his battles. He didn’t need someone looking out for him. He could fight for his relationship. The brunette approached the other brunette as the two of them almost walked out on Lawson’s fans all screaming for him.  Beau approached Lawson and put his hand on the other’s back, watching him zone out a little. He grabbed the back of Lawson’s shirt and pulled him away from the fans, not wanting shit wrote about Lawson on social media. Beau sat on the floor, pulling the other on his lap. “Sit.” He muttered. “Take a moment, you seemed out of it then,”.

[beausvalentine]

Lawson looked at him as he shrugged. “What would be hotter than you bottoming out after an argument of ours?” He asked with a small chuckle leaving his lips as he took Beau’s hand and lead him down a small alleyway between two shops. “I know this babe. I wouldn’t let anyone else try to take what I believe is over reserved for me.” He replied as he ran a hand along his cheek. “No trust is needed to be had. I plan on being your one and only main focus.” He spoke leaning forward as he leaned forward pressing his lips against the others. 

Beau gripped the front of Lawson’s shirt as the other lent forward and pressed their lips together. Beau wasn’t someone who could be completely submissive, and he was sure that Lawson had figured that out by now. Beau’s hand moved to the back of Lawson’s head, gently pulling on his hair as the two kissed one another. “It’s only reserved for you?” He answered back. “You sound pretty smug about that, Law.”

[beausvalentine]

“Fine I’ll gather them myself.” He hiss slamming the front door closed and walked back into their room as he collected a bag and began slinging his shit into it. Lawson shook his head sniffling as he opened the first drawer grabbing his boxers out and shoved them in with the rest of his things. “Don’t you fucking blame me for wanting to protect you.” He turned as he looked at his boyfriend with hurt in his eyes. “Don’t you blame me for feeling the way I do. You knew who I was. You knew what I was like when getting into this relationship with me and yet you want to mention that you’ll leave me for wanting to protect you. Was you not leaving me once because you wanted to ‘protect me’ not enough? You may have stuck up for me, but we both know what caused me to be upset.” He murmured out as he pulled the square box out and threw it at Beau. “I knew what I wanted. This whole time I have, what’s in that box is proof enough, but I’m not dealing with a person that thinks he gets to walk out on me a second time for wanting to do the same thing he did for me.” He spoke as a quiet sob left his lips as he zipped up his bags. “I got a show tonight, I guess, I know not to be expecting you there after this. You should go back to school.” He spoke as he lifted the bags and brushed by Beau to the door. Sniffling once more Law turned to look at him as he opened the door. “I really hope you find someone worth staying for….” He got out as his eyes began to shed fresh tears. 

Beau wasn’t going to hand over Lawson’s things to someone else. If Lawson was set on leaving, he could collect his own things. The brunette wasn’t going to go to his own place and pack away everything that belonged to the brunette. He wasn’t anybody's cleaner. “No I’m mad because your dramatic. You keep going to suck up to your fucking ex, and it isn’t on. I said I wasn’t cool with him dipping in and out of your life whenever he wants, and I mean that.” He confessed. “I’m not putting up with his shit.”  Beau stumbled back as Lawson brushed by him after packing his belongings. “I really hope you learn that I can fight my own battles now. I’m not the broken Beau I once was, and your acting like I can’t stick up for me and us.”

[beausvalentine]

“That mouth does work a certain kind of wonder.” Lawson spoke with a playful nudge as he eyed the other. Looking at him and studying him amused with it all he couldn’t help the chuckle that left his lips. “B, would you like to go somewhere and let me prove how good of one you are?” He asked quirking a brow. “No, you’re a great top. I think with us I like you filling me more, but I have my urges, my urges to show you I’m the only one that you like in ya and it’s that way for a reason.”

Beau wouldn’t let a lot of people top him. He had to have a certain kind of bond with someone in order for him to feel comfortable doing that in front of someone. “You want me to bottom now?” He asked as a smirk spread across his lips. “I will only ever let you top me. I wouldn’t feel comfortable with letting anyone else do it,” he confessed. “I need trust with the person.”