[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Susan Jeffers

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Mary Lambert

[blairesnaps]

blaire snaps

[weltenwellen]

Andrea Gibson, Lord of the Butterflies

[flowerytale]

Kate Chopin, from The Awakening

[weltenwellen]

Erika L. Sánchez, from "Prodigal Daughter"

[weltenwellen]

Andrea Gibson, "DEPRESSION [VERB]", Lord of the Butterflies

[beautifulfaceuglysoul]

Dear life,

I am 28 now.

When I was here I was 20 and lost.

Now I am 28 and lost.

Sometimes I feel like when I was 20 I had more balls. More balls to not give a fuck. I was insecure, but there was a certain secureness around the insecurity. I had a certain drive to live, an inner fire.

Now I feel I am stuck in my head sometime.

The fire is burning lower, I am constantly thinking, what would others think of me, I have trouble being completely ME, being completely FREE.

Alcohol used to help me release that wall around. But hey we said goodbye to that friend for this time on the journey. So we have to do it alone with all the pains

So yes dear life.

This is how it can go…

You are a 20 year old business student thinking you would work a corporate job and live a life in a city, studying graduating working, having fun in the weekends and being in a relationship

And yet here she was,

A 28-year old free soul. Roaming around the world. Roaming around India. Having no job, just this body. And this experience.

Mama india taking care of me and messing with me, showing me all my insecurities, all my dark sides, pointing me towards: here, you go here, you hate yourself there, so you can love yourself there, hopefully (still figuring this out).

So.. here we go again.

To this life I am living now.

To a time of breathing through it,

Through my depression

My anxiety

Through my sadness.

Om shantih.

#me

[thomas-hanks]

[1995june]

[genterie]

Vampyros Lesbos (1971)

[sunsetquotes]

“A long time ago I learned not to explain things to people. It misleads them into thinking they’re entitled to know everything I do.”

— Lisa Kleypas; Dreaming of You

[tanyaaloves]

[genterie]

[weltenwellen]

Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[salemwitchtrials-deactivated202]

every morning i wake up & get my coffee & i recite in my head this excerpt from ‘invitation,’ by mary oliver:  “it is a serious thing just to be alive on this fresh morning in the broken world.” & i just say it over & over again until it sticks to my mind for the rest of the day. it is a serious thing. i am alive. i am so lucky. this fresh morning i get the chance to live again & again & again