got nowhere to go

beck collins. 26. half-merfolk. just an old soul. we are the reckless, we are the w i l d youth, chasing visions of our futures. one day we'll reveal the truth that one will die before he gets there. and if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones, 'cause most of our feelings, they are d e a d and they are gone. we're setting fire to our insides for fun, collecting pictures from the flood that wrecked our HOME. it was a flood that wrecked this.

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Isabel stared at him for a brief moment, a quick intake of breath kept her from becoming impatient with him as pain tended to make people angry. However, it took a good deal of control to keep anger and sadness from her own tone of voice. “I can’t disagree with you. Make sure it’s well taken care of, Beck.” She looked over him once again, before turning away. She pushed back as much emotion as she could and focused on her task at hand as she made her way back inside. 

“I will.” Beck had all but managed to find himself in the cool winter air, letting out a grimace while trying to find others he could help and support in the moment. Maybe this made him more selfish than he thought he was, or maybe this just motivated him to keep on living. Either way he looked at it, Beck felt like he couldn’t tell anybody about the reason, seeing as though he had been in a bad place for a while already. He couldn’t even stop her from going inside before someone was rushing him towards the onslaught of ambulances to get checked out while people were still trying to figure out what to do, and he grumbled slightly before turning his back to her.

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Isabel blinked her surprise at the tone he had, taking a deep breath as her temper flared for a brief second. Once outside, she took a look at the wound, frowning deeply. “It might just be a gash but they can get infected just as easily.” She reached with tentative fingers to look at more, inhaling sharply at his next words. “You need to have it cleaned and to make sure there is no pieces. Beck, you’re first priority to me, I wouldn’t count helping people as a hero, but my job.” Her tone was brisk as she tried to hide the hurt behind what he had said to her. 

“I can take care of it.” His snappy tone was something he wasn’t all too used to either, but it came out as if he had been using it his whole life. He bit the insides of his cheeks to keep the pain at bay while looking back to her with frustrations painted all over his face. “Clean it and get it stitched up I’m sure.” He muttered back as he let his hand cover the wound again, using his shirt to help stop the active bleeding in the cut. “It’s your job, I get it. Go do your job then. But you’re risking your life too.”

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Izzy stopped for a brief moment, checking to make sure he could get past some of the items with his wound. “But what about those in unstable conditions, Beck? The ones that they can’t move yet because of the trauma or wounds?” She gave him a small smile, offering an arm as they made their way forward to help him for balance. “I’ll be all right, Beck. I don’t plan to stay long in here, and if the need is greater outside then that is where I will be. I promise I’ll be cautious, and if something feels off, I will leave. Don’t worry, I’m not hurt badly. You, however are. And once we get outside will you let me take a look at it finally? Or would you rather someone else take care of it?” 

“I...I don’t know” He uttered, his words coming out in a hesitant stammer as he tried to rationalize the whole thing. He wanted Isabel to help everybody, and he wanted to help others too, but this wasn’t the time to make the sacrificial play. “There are people helping...People who have triple your strength, and can lift people out of here like they weigh nothing.” He tried still, flinching as he stretched over the last bit of rubble. “Fine.” He gave a soured and final look before finding the exit to get out of there. “It’s not bad, just a gash I think.” He uttered, unbuttoning his shirt to show her the bloody wound marked by the shrapnel that had cut his side. “I’ll be fine. Go be a hero.”

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Izzy ignored his question for the moment, attempting to locate the way out. “I’m aware it won’t last for long, Beck. I will of course work on people outside of here, but there are also people trapped in here that can’t get outside yet.” She was quiet, soft spoken and worried about him. “We will get out, but I have to come back. I’m able bodied and willing to get some of the people out of here if I can… If something happens then it happens, but I can’t sit back with some of these people unable to leave by themselves.” She didn’t look at him, stubborn and unwilling to let him change her mind about the fact. She was scared he would convince her to not come back in and help, and if he did so, she would never forgive herself. “You mean a lot to me, getting you out right now is my number one priority.” Izzy focused on climbing over and through debris after locating the exit. 

He shook his head, knowing that there were people helping, and Izzy wanted to be one of them. Even as he pushed himself up, wanting to flee with her and at least make it outside, he couldn’t help but want to stop her from going back inside once they got out. “There’s...a whole crew of people helping Iz. People who...aren’t human...who have healing abilities, full vampires and werewolves that can get people out quicker.” He continued to try as he looked to her for a brief moment, before trying to navigate out of the debris and overturned furniture everywhere.

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Izzy shook her head as his shirt began to stain, biting her lip. “Okay.” She didn’t push him, instead, slowly getting to her feet as she winced. “I’ll help you get out of here, but I can’t leave all these people, Beck. I swore to help other and I plan to do that. I’m not in a bad shape. Make sure, if you won’t let me look at it, that you get it looked at anyway.” She frowned, crossing her arms as she began to look around the dimly lit and smokey room. “It’s hard to tell where everything is now that it’s all… Destroyed.” Her voice was weak, but she was determined to at least get him to safety. 

“I will get it looked at, but right now, that’s not even a priority.” Beck uttered as he looked around the place, trying to find the exit. “How are you supposed to help anybody if you aren’t around to do anything?” He asked back, the building being under surreptitious conditions. “I don’t care what sort of oath you gave, this building is not going to last long, and you can treat people outside.” He tried still, as he glanced back to her.

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Izzy heard Beck’s voice, pushing away from the person for a moment as she found a steady pulse. She groaned as she pushed up from the floor, then realized it was useless as she didn’t quite have the strength yet. Her head pounded, and her arms were aching from where she had subconsciously covered her face to avoid getting hit with shrapnel. Her eyes settled onto Beck’s eyes as he reached her. “I’m okay. I was further than… Well…” She turned her head to look over at some of the people strewn around. Closing her eyes, she breathed in slowly, trying to gain composure. “Are you all right?” She looked back at him, looking down at where his hand covered a wound. “I need to see that wound, Beck. I’m not the one who needs to get out, there’s so many people who need help. You included. This isn’t a safe place, but we need to put some type of pressure… Something…” She bit her lip, reaching up to touch his hand gently. “Please? Let me look?” The last she needed was to lose Beck in this mess and the words weren’t coming to her well enough to actually speak them. Beck was the closest friend she had here that trusted her, she wanted to be sure he was okay before she moved onto anyone else.

As Beck watched over the other, trying to hold his own composure, he managed to lift his hand slightly from the gash on his stomach, the blood already staining his button up shirt and jacket as he gave a slight sigh towards her. “I’ve been better. But I’m not the worst off, I promise. I can barely feel it.” He muttered back, trying to stay strong for the sake of no worrying her. “We both need to get out of here if we know what’s good for us.”

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opheliasocean‌:

“I hope so,” she giggled, as she flowed with the rhythm of the song.  Staying close to the young man without stepping on his toes.“Not anymore, I’ve got your company now. I was hoping to see some friends, but I didn’t find them–not yet anyway.” She hadn’t really made a lot of friends, sure she had Mariana and Rowan, but that was it and they’d have people to see and talk to–she was mostly on her own. But maybe that wasn’t so bad. “What about you? You here on your own too?”

“No friends to find, no problem—I’m glad that somebody here is out to have a good time tonight though.” Beck grinned back as he danced freely to the song with the young woman, the moment becoming an easy hit in the line of events for the night. “I came by myself, yeah. I know there’s a couple of people around here that I need to say hi to, make sure everything is okay and what not, but I’m also here to enjoy the party too.”

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izzyxlockgaurd‌:

Isabel stood among people she barely knew, her eyes set on the mayor as she spoke. The speech was empathetic, and meant to build a strength in community that Isabel admired greatly. She reflected upon each word, ignoring the fact that not long before she had been moping around. She hadn’t felt quite herself since she had had Beck over, and it was nice to hear encouraging words. However, encouraging words were quickly forgotten as one moment she was standing among the crowds of people, and the next she was on the ground. She hurt, her whole body screamed in pain with every little movement. Opening her eyes, she looked around, trying to breathe through the panic that hit her. There were people laying all over the room, many in a very bad way. She sat up, hissing out a painful breath of air, but determined to help. This was where she felt comfortable, and was able to push aside her own needs in order to help others. Crawling forward, she reached for the person nearest to her and checked for a pulse. “You’re going to be okay. We’ll get you out.” 

He was slammed back, after getting a rather close view of the speech, and without a camera on hand either. There was no excuse for him to be so close, and yet, after the moment of explosion pushed him back, debris and shrapnel leaving his suit in a dirty and jagged mess, Beck pushed himself to sit up, finding some sort of energy left within him to glance around to see if anybody he knew was around. “Isabel!” He saw immediately, unsure if the other was checking on people and helping them or just getting out of there. “Isabel!” He called out again, a soreness hitting him in the gut where a piece of metal must have given him a gash. He held one hand to the wound and used the other to stand, walking wearily over to the redhead with unease. “Are you okay? Let me get you out of here.”

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amarabloom‌:

Her head nodded slowly, “I guess I can see your point in all of it. You have to give your life some meaning for it to be at least a little worth it.” Amara paused, not wanting to admit how little friends she had, really any outside of her brother. He might be a little obnoxious, but there were worse people to be friends with. “There isn’t too many exciting things to learn about me. I’m afraid you might be disappointed in the end if you really get to know me.”

“Yeah.” He wasn’t sure what that meaning was yet, or even if life was all that worth it. Still, he had to keep up appearances. “Oh, I’m sure there are plenty of exciting things about you, and if not, then you can always make life more exciting I’m sure. Plus, a friend doesn’t have to exciting all the time. Maybe I’ll just be your one exciting thing.”

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dxllxsfxllstxn‌:

“Well that explains the smell of the sea.” He chuckled and looked over beck. “I cannot but those who dont have the class for it usually don’t like it.” He said as he sipped his. “So any ladies or people catching your eyes?”

“Funny, I didn’t think half merfolks smelled like anything. Perhaps you’re just getting a whiff of a full one.” He shrugged over at the other. “That’s very presumptuous, but, I guess, what do I know, huh?” Beck merely glanced off towards the larger crowd, adding a slight chuckle. “Oh, all of them I’d say. Everyone looks divine, I don’t even know where to begin in mingling.”

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ottiliexhollingsworth‌:

“You’re a photographer?” Lottie said, suddenly more upbeat than she was just a moment earlier. “That’s so cool! I can never really figure out all these new fancy ones, but if I could just get my hands on a simple one my life would be so much easier.” she said with a slightly exaggerated groan. “I’m a painter and sometimes trying to go off memory if more upsetting than profitable because I’m always afraid it’ll be too wrong, or that I’ll lose some important detail.”

“I am. Freelance mostly, but that just involves me not having to deal with a bunch of paperwork with the newspaper. Saves us both time.” He grinned cheekily with a sly shrug. He enjoyed it far more than he cared to admit. “Oh, there are plenty of cameras that I’m sure you’d be able to figure out. If it’s something simple you want for a great price and a quality capture, I might have a few I could recommend some time.” Beck offered freely. “Pictures can definitely help capture the little details that you may have forgotten!”

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lostnfoundlolly‌:

Charlotte couldn’t help the guilt she felt. She left to seek help, but left everyone in the dark.  The last thing she wanted to do was lose Beck. She tried her best to keep in touch, but after what she did she felt she needed to make up for all that time. “Of course,” she beamed as she spoke, her smile stretching ear to ear. “I wouldn’t miss it. And I think we’d both agree I need to get out more.”She was getting used to the idea of making roots, but even as ready as she felt to settle in something held her back. The town was under fire and if things got bad–could she hold on or would she run?  Either way, she wasn’t going to leave him behind. “Oh no, they got someone else covering this tonight’s event. I’m here to have some fun. And I hope you are too. They don’t have you sneaking pictures do they?  You are our best photographer, but its not a party without you letting loose.” 

“Oh, no doubt about that. You can’t keep holing yourself up. There’s a whole world that’s just begging to be explored by you.” Beck intercepted, grin pulling up as he nodded back at her. “No, I didn’t even bring my camera tonight, which I’m still regretting, because everybody looks beautiful. But...I can live with not having to be stuck behind a lens tonight. Experiencing it first hand is all I need.” The night had seemingly gone off without a hitch as the night continued. “I’ve had a few drinks, danced a few times, and mingling with everyone, so I’d count that as having fantastic evening.”

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opheliasocean‌:

Ophelia always seemed to get lost on the dance floor at these events. Maybe it was the thrill of taking a stranger by the hand and pulling them in for a dance or maybe it was how easily she forget her troubles and feel happy again. Ophelia turned as she heard him call out. She giggled as he offered to join her. “I would love a partner,” the playful smile growing on her lips as she stepped up to him, taking his hand into hers. “Let’s see if you can keep up.” 

“Oh, I’m sure I’ll have no problem.” He uttered out easily, letting a short smirk play across his face as he joined her in the dancing. It was easy to slide right into a rhythm, falling into the dance as he added, “Are you here by yourself tonight?” He was curious, seeing that she hadn’t been with anyone at the time, or if she was just branching out on her own for now. 

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amarabloom‌:

“Did you?” She questioned, “Find some meaning.” For first time, Amara was actually interested in what he might have to say. She’d never felt the need to ask anyone before, yet here she was. A short chuckle escaped her, “It must be my charming people skills. I hide it rather well.” She played into the teasing, even if it was about herself. “Are you hanging out with me then in the hopes of remedying my loner status?”

“I don’t know if I’m pretentious enough to admit I found any sort of real meaning, but I’m just happy to at least take a breath, you know?” It was refreshing to stop and smell the roses he thought. “Life is meaningless, to a point where we try and give it some meaning I guess is what I’m trying to say.” Offering a shrug, he added, “Clearly, because I keep coming back. And, honestly, I’m just curious about you. And maybe because I thought you needed a friend.”

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amarabloom‌:

“Right, I did call you that.” Though she might have called anyone she met elitist, wondering why he took it as far as to question his life. “You really took it as far as to rethink your life. I’d love to learn what you found out about yourself.” Amara was surprised she even asked the question, debating if she really wanted to hear what he had to say or was being polite. “Not typically. I enjoy spending time by myself. It’s easier that way.”

“You did.” Beck repeated the words, with a sure nod before only shrugging slightly at the next words out of her mouth. “It’s not that I rethought my whole life. Just bits and pieces, you know? See a bigger picture and the future of what I’m doing now. Give some meaning to things and stuff.” While his dad had forever, and that was the concept he grew up with, he knew he didn’t have forever, so he needed to make things worth the now. “So, you’re a loner then? I never would have picked up on that.” He teased her back sarcastically.

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ottiliexhollingsworth‌:

“Thank you!” Lottie said, placing a hand over her heart. “Not many people understand what I mean when I go off on one of my color tangents. And again, I’m really sorry about that I know I can be fifty shades of annoying with it.” She smoothed down some of the shirt of her dress, suddenly needing something to do with her hands. “I’m so happy seeing that everyone is in agreement that this was a much needed party for us.” She glanced around again. “I should really invest in a nice camera.” She’d never be able to capture this moment, of the whole town dressed to the nine’s and enjoying everyone’s company, in paint from memory.

“Yeah, no. Me too. I can be a lot for people. Not something I try to overwhelm anybody with, even though it’s just sort of who I am.” He shrugged back rather off-handedly before letting a sly grin pull at his lips. “Oh, the one time I don’t have my camera on me. I’ve got a professional one and sometimes sell to the newspaper, but I decided to take a step back tonight from actually working. You know, to stop and smell the roses.”

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“You came?” Beck hadn’t seen much of the other, but tried to stay in contact. She was a good friend after all, and Beck didn’t want to lose that no matter what happened, even if he was thinking of leaving or not. Charlotte had easily become a great reason to stay in town, and with her at the celebration, Beck couldn’t help but grin to himself as he figured she was enjoying herself. “Surely this isn’t just for an editorial for the paper, right? You’re actually here to have a good time, right?”

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