Becoming Rowen

Out of character information on how I built my Walter Boy Rowen costume and character.

[trekkiebeth]

The Spine | photo by trekkiebeth

[beppski]

[cheskamouse]

I think he is catting enough for two, maybe three cats.

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

MAXIMUM CAT

[thepurpleglass]

Cat. It is a verb now. And you know exactly what it means. Thanks, internet.

[bunnybennett-deactivated2014050]

Guys I’m starting an emo band. I just haven’t cut myself enough yet. But I have a pretty sharp spoon back home. Gonna carve “boobs” into my wrist. It’ll be tits. You’ll see.

[marble-hyuugas]

I never add comments to posts, I very rarely talk about opinions on things, I’m terrified of conflict. But this is very very important to me, so.. I’m going to try.

Bunny, I love and look up to you a lot. But I completely understand what you mentioned earlier, you are under NO obligation to act differently just because you’re famous. I agree. But, was saying something like this really necessary to get that point across…? This isn’t really so much a matter of offending people as hurting people.

I don’t talk about this stuff, like, ever. And there are likely people who will read this that I never wanted to know these things about me. But I’m going to say them, because I want you, on the off chance you read this, to understand how harmful saying things like that can be, I guess. Though I feel really pretentious saying that like I have any right to be trying to teach a lesson or whatever.

I’ve been struggling with self harm for a few years now. I quit for the first time recently, and lasted almost 4 months. A couple days ago, I relapsed for the first time. I’m back in the habit now. And it’s horrible. I feel horrible. I hate myself for it. It was particularly bad today. I’m trying desperately to get it out of my head, maybe try to stop again if I can. But then I see this. And things similar. Everywhere. Making light of what I- and so many other people- deal with when I already feel ridiculous. And it makes me feel so much worse. Like I’m really just a joke.

Was this really worth it?

[bunnybennett-deactivated2014050]

Self harm and poor body image are awful things that many people suffer with. Myself included. The amount of times I’ve fantasized about ending it all or punishing myself is by no means special or unique…but it’s something I want to kill before it kills me. Draw strength by laughing at these monsters. Because a smile won’t hurt you. It’ll take you out of the dark. Even if just for a moment…that doesn’t mean you’re ignoring them or not taking them seriously. Laugh at yourself as much as I laugh at myself. Because you’re a beautiful person and deserve it.

[becomingrowen-blog]

As someone who used to self harm and still struggles with it, this is hilarious and I'm in agreement with Bunny.

[hearthdragon]

Impromptu Acoustic Captain Albert Alexander.

One of the many impressive things about this performance is Matt Smith there on the left with impromptu and completely workable percussive accompaniment to David’s guitar.

There were high winds that day so when people pause and look back at the windows it’s because the wind seemed like it was going to rattle the panes out of the supports. The wind had fantastic dramatic timing as well.

Thank you to the people who saw this video earlier, before I meant to post it and were understanding about my obsessive compulsive behavior on posting this in order. :3

[trekkiebeth]

Michael Reed | photo by trekkiebeth

[trekkiebeth]

The Spine | photo by trekkiebeth

[nerdgeekdorkyes]

Beth you are a true artist xD

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

When do we get to sign these as a print at shows?

Ima put so many XOXOs on mine. XD

[becomingrowen-blog]

I'm going to sit on the floor and cry if we can't buy these as prints at shows!!!

[secretlyredpants]

Oh hi! How’re you!?

Not the best photos, they make the makeup look muddy but hey!

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

Woooooo!

[becomingrowen-blog]

You guys need to learn that if you joke about something, you've reached that point where fans will just do it, now.

[becomingrowen-blog]

The art from my friend in the picture with me. David asked and he shall receive.

[newkidsonmycock16]

here i am

[quinsecticide]

Here is the picture on its own

I mean he y David asked for it

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

OH YEAH! Keep them coming internets O_O

[becomingrowen-blog]

Beautiful!

[goat-herder-of-meh]

Everett SPG autograph line. “Here Lies Sarah who died of dysentery LOL that’s super diarrhea”

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

FTW

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

Can we get some fan art of Sarah’s tombstone with Sarah as a ghost sobbing next to it with liquid ghost poo seeping out of her? Extra points if it’s done super super serious. :|

[becomingrowen-blog]

Dylan, the lovely robot next to me, should totally do a commission of that ;)

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

A bit we do on stage turned cosplay :3

[becomingrowen-blog]

That feeling you get when David Michael Bennett uploads your picture to tumblr

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

The best part was the poo stains on the back of the dress.

Disgusting, but the attention to detail was lovely. :3

[becomingrowen-blog]

Ah, that means a lot. I was only planning on wearing it to one concert, but now I have to make it a regular thing!

[davidmichaelbennett-deactivated]

A bit we do on stage turned cosplay :3

[becomingrowen-blog]

That feeling you get when David Michael Bennett uploads your picture to tumblr

[becomingrowen-blog]

Bye Bye Speakers

Was listening to 'Go Spine Go' while cleaning my condo and when David hit that high note when he singings 'No, I won't' it blew out my speakers.

Worth it.

[danregal]

Weapon of Choice

This is what happens when you hold down the shutter on our camera. Made from unedited jpgs straight from the camera.

[spiffarific]

Yaaaaaaaasss! Just all of the yes….

[becomingrowen-blog]

BUNNY HIPS!

[becomingrowen-blog]

Driving back from SPGs Yulemas show and was going to play cards against humanity. This was the first card I got.

Lol, that’s super diarrhea.

[officialsteampoweredgiraffe]

Join the band tonight at 5 PM in Bakersfield, CA for our Yulemas Special Show! Details at www.steampoweredgiraffe.com