BedyCanWrite

My name is Bedy. I'm an author and a screenwriter in training.

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"Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head!"

For some people it is hard to express their feelings.

I am one of those people.

I am terrified when I have to do such thing, I would rather run a 10k. (Note: I despise running.)

But sometimes having a blog to do it without that person knowing is great!

This is what this post is about.

I want to express my feelings about a boy.

His name is Paul. (Not really. I just felt the need to give the guy a name and since I've had a major crush on the lead singer of Interpol, Paul Banks, I figured that was the name to make up. Go ahead, Google him. Promise he's good to look at in that rocker, dorky sort of way.)

Well anyway. Paul is a guy I've known for centuries. (Obviously an exaggeration.) We've known each other since as long as we can both remember. But the difference is that I've had a crush on him.

I always wanted to believe he shared the same sentiments. I did my best to read "signs" that were never there of proof that he clearly likes me.

Even when he's had a girlfriend I always believed that there were mutual feelings beyond friendship between the both of us.

Right now he is with one of his new girlfriends.

She's pretty, I'll give her that.

But what changes this one is that today I had a HUGE/MASSIVE realization.

He doesn't like me as more than friends.

He would have made it known by now.

The reason I had the realization today is because I was checking out his Facebook.

Paul has all these posts of how he's out and about with his GF and how they're having so much fun and spending so much time together.

Not only did I realize this has been his longest girlfriend (they have been together for over a year now) but I also realized that he can possibly marry her and I will be here at home dwelling over my feelings for him.

So today is a brand new day thanks to that realization. I am officially on the road to forgetting about him as ever being a potential boyfriend.

I just truly hope that I won't start with my feelings all over again next time I see Paul.

I will try my best to remain strong.

I can do this!

I am Boot Camp Tough! (End cheer we do at the end of Boot Camp class everyday :) )

That is all for now.

Au revoir,

Beddie X

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I Should Be Doing Homework

Because of procrastination, I realized I forgot to post a snippet for Imperishable Life last month. So here is another long one for both February and March. Enjoy.

Grunting and grabbing onto his stomach as he stood up, he headed to the bathroom and once again stared at his reflection.

His cuts were already healed. The only proof left behind of the fight were the faint yellow marks of the bruises.

Sean stepped into the shower and cleaned up. Not that it mattered. He was only planning to get blood all over his clothes again.

He walked out into his bedroom and dressed himself. He pulled on a pair of black combat boots. Perfect for what he has been doing the last few days. And perfect for where he was going today.

Sean walked out of the hotel room and slipped into his navy blue Ferrari, realizing he forgot the knife.

He doesn’t need it, though. Not anymore.

Au Revoir,

Beddie X

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Apart from film and writing, music is my other passion. Listening to it, at least (har, har). Listen and enjoy my favorite band playing my favorite song.

Au revoir,

Beddie X

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A Piece of Me

Going into college I did not know what I was going to do with my life. I had an idea, though. I wanted to get my degree in business and go into the fashion institute at the same time. But when it came to getting my portfolio ready for the fashion institute interview, I realized it was not my passion. I did not want to do that.

So the next semester I thought I wanted to be a photographer but taking the art classes at school really made me realize I did not want to do that either.

Finally, after working on writing stories during my spare time, I realized I wanted to be a writer. So I figured I would major in English and focus on creative writing but after taking my last required English class I remember thinking, "That's it! No more!"

The next semester I took a screenwriting class and I had fallen in love. I had a realization that I was supposed to be there. It was my destiny to be a film major.

Since then, I have never had the feeling of dragging myself to those classes. I really enjoy them, more than ever since I am taking the upper division classes now.

This is my passion.

This is my life.

Au revoir,

Beddie X

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Here it is!

As promised, a LONG snippet of Imperishable Life. Enjoy! :)

Sean sighed and closed his eyes, waiting and ready for the airplane to take off.

The first image that came to his mind was of Scarlett. Not the peaceful Scarlett he usually willed himself to think of or the Scarlett that had talked to him in his dream. It was the Scarlett that was harmed…bleeding.

He didn’t see her die, but he could picture her just as clearly since he did return later that night and saw where and how her dry blood remained on the floor.

Sean imagined her there…her breath heavy, her blood spilling uncontrollably. Except he always pictured himself there with her. He pictured himself kneeling to her, kissing her despite the blood that spilled through her lips. And…he pictured himself telling her he loves her right before she let out her final breath with a pleasurable smile to finally hear him say those three words.

"Are the lights too bright for you, sir?"

Sean’s eyes snapped open and he stared at the flight attendant who had disturbed him. "They’re fine," he said, not withholding the annoyance he felt.

Don't forget Immortal Words is now available via e-book!

That is all for now!

Au Revoir

X

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Si tu me cherches, tu me trouves.

According to my last blog post, it has been seven months since I last logged in and WHOA did I not expect tumblr to be so different! I literally just spent an hour trying to figure out how to change my profile picture!

On another note, if you still have yet to buy my book, SHAME ON YOU you're in luck because today it became available as an e-book! (You get to save some money!)

Here's the regular paperback link: http://www.lulu.com/product/paperback/immortal-words/13395778

Here's the e-book link: http://www.lulu.com/product/ebook/immortal-words-a-forsaken-series-novel/18790399

Since I'm on the book topic already, I should mention--because I have received many questions of whether or not I am working on the second book--that yes, I am working on Imperishable Life. I know I am taking my time with it but it is for good reasons; it being the last book, I want it to be really, really, really GOOD! ;)

But I will say this, starting January, I will post snippets of Imperishable Life once a month!

That is all for now.

Au Revoir! X

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Updates!

Originally there was going to be three books in the series. But since there haven’t been many sells with the first one, there will only be two. Imperishable Life (the second book) will only be out to answer the questions that were left unanswered in Immortal Words and because it had been announced at the end of the book. Unless the situation changes, there might be a third, but it is certainly not guaranteed.

I would have loved if there was a third book but I don't think there will be. If that's the case, I'd be glad to briefly summarize what the book would have been about. For now, all I can say is that the book will be would have been titled, "Infinite World." Until I am sure that there will be no Infinite World, then I will gladly display what the story was going to be.

Right now I am currently working on finishing "Imperishable life." As you can imagine, there are many stuff I'm trying to cram in there for which I originally planned to place in the third one. There will only be one loose piece of information I will leave out just in case but if the third book never happens, I think we can all live without that piece of information.

I am also working on finishing my young adult fiction novel, "Kiss and Tell." That one is my favorite. So hopefully you will all like that one better than my Scarlett Lutz stories (though I still have yet to hear ANY review at all).

That is all I have for now.

Au revoir!

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I finally bought my Riedell Quad Skates.

I need to start training because apparently I don't remember how to skate.

I bought these so I can try out for the roller derby team and show to myself and my friends and family that I can commit to something (that is, if I make the team).

:)

I hope my outdoor wheels come soon so I can start training outside and not around my kitchen. After a week I think I'll be back to where I was before on skating.

That's it for now. Will start blogging more soon. (whenever I have no school stuff to deal with).

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What?!

I did not realize my books were out on other sites, or even mentioned.

I was surprised to find that my book had a wikipedia page in a succubus website with information about my book that you couldn't otherwise know unless you actually read it. CHECK IT! http://www.succubus.net/wiki/Immortal_Words_%28Novel%29

ALSO, the book is now selling on US Amazon: http://www.amazon.com/Immortal-Words-Berenice-Chavez/dp/0557783909/ref=sr_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1295192373&sr=1-2

UK Amazon: http://www.amazon.co.uk/Immortal-Words-Berenice-Chavez/dp/0557783909

JP Amazon: http://www.amazon.co.jp/Immortal-Words-Berenice-Chavez/dp/0557783909

AND

BARNES & NOBLE: http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Immortal-Words/Berenice-Chavez/e/9780557783908/?itm=1&USRI=immortal+words+berenice+chavez

BUYBUYBUYBUYBUY <--My marketing technique. ;)

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Life.

I should be studying but I decided to write a blog entry instead. I need to get my procrastination out of the way before I begin.

I had this realization today: I need some major cojones.

I wish I can be like one of my characters, where I can blatantly state my feelings to that guy I have been crushing on since we met way back when.

I seriously wish I can just stand up straight when I see him, look him directly in the eyes and say, "I like you. A lot. As more than friends." And just leave it at that. I would just leave it up to him to make the next move or not. If it's the latter, then oh well, at least I would be able to say I tried.

But that's never going to happen because I have always been a shy girl and doing something like that to me would feel as if I am making a speech that will be seen internationally.

I always tell myself, though, that if he felt the same way, he would have done something, right? He would have made it known by now.

Yeah, I'm pretty positive about that assumption.

On another note, I am currently watching Terminales, an AMAZING TV show in Spanish about this girl who discovers she has cancer and decides to live her life a different way. I guess I can say it was my inspiration for writing this post. I wanted to state my feelings out there, as discreetly as possible. :)

The show kind of makes you think. What if...?

What if I found out I had cancer? What and/or who would I live for?

My mind boggles. I have yet to figure out the answers to these questions for myself. Maybe I won't know them unless I ever do have a timeline as such.

I'm glad I don't. I thank God everyday for my current health.

Now I will return to watching the show. Then bed time.

Be kind,

Beddie X

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Like!

The Forsaken Series by Berenice Chavez

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My book!

If anyone is interested in buying my book, here is the link!! :)

http://www.lulu.com/product/paperback/immortal-words/13395778

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Playlist for Immortal Words

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Fourth

& hopefully the last. I'm hoping that I won't have to post a fifth quote because whoever cares enough will already own the book and not have to look for teasers! I promise that this book will be published sooner than anyone expects! ENJOY! :)

“Unfortunately, there are consequences. When we’re angels, we feel nothing; no pain, no aging, no death. We’re created one way and remain that way forever, though we can shift into the people we want to look like. We’re immortal. This body was my last one before I fell so it’s the one I’m stuck with. Every day, Connor, I’m dying slowly and painfully."

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Third

July Quote:

Because this is the month of my birthday, I've decided to post my favorite passage of my story. Enjoy!      "Have you fallen in love before?" Scarlett whispered out.      "No," he was somehow much closer to her.      "I have," she was still whispering and her breath tickled his lips while her eyes were lazy with clear hunger to press her lips on his. "And it's a beautiful thing not to be scared of. Even the pain after someone has ruined the relationship, doesn't compare to the wonderful moments spent. Love overrules pain. Eventually."

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Second

June quote:

      "Okay. I get it, Tyler. I'm leaving now," he said, his amused smile never leaving his lips. His eyes were on Scarlett now but he made it seem as if he was still addressing Tyler, "But I will see you again. Soon."        A shiver went down Scarlett's spine.

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First

Here is the Immortal Words quote of the month of May:

Scarlett stared at his worried green eyes. It was as if the pupils in them were swirling around and glowing like a cat's would when the headlights of a car shines on them. But that's crazy, right?