Just a Nobody

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Hard not to feel

Sometimes when i lay in my bed. Late at night. Tears just start streaming down my face. I take a look back at how i am today and what i wanted to be and it doesnt look good at all. I just feel a heavy thud in my heart. A pain. The feeling of being a failure. I have set such high goals and dreams for myself and it feels like i’ve done nothing. Nothing to make me feel that I am something. Someone that matters. I am nothing. That’s the truth.

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[danger]

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[the-suicide-effect]

Clouds Cry Too

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life’s a big hot mess

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Choices

They always say, you cannot please everyone. Somebody will always disagree with you no matter what. which is true.

but when the people that disagrees with you are the most important ones. It’s a whole different story.

I am torn between my choices right now. A choice of love and the choice of respect. I can’t express how i feel because i don’t know what im feeling.

I am happy. Happy that someone is willing to fight an unbeatable foe for me.

Angry. Yes I am angry because i don’t have the freedom to choose what i want to do.

I am at the same time sad. I am feeling miserable for the things that i actually have control with but cannot actually control it.

I am embarassed. For the troubles that i’ve brought to the people around me.

You know that feeling that you can make a choice for yourself. to be happy

BUT

You can’t make that choice. Just because. You can’t.

You’ll stay miserable but happy.

You’ll stay heartbroken but inlove.

You are lucky but unlucky.

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504 . . . . #ttctoronto #slowmotion #streetcar #trippin #canada150 (at Toronto, Ontario)

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Throw some flowers 🌺🌸💐 . . . . . #igflowers #whiterose #clarksonvillage #mississauga (at Clarkson, Mississauga)

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Distance Sign . . . . . . . #toronto #centreisland #summer #nottoofaraway #almost (at Toronto Centre Island)

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a different view. 🍂🍁🍂 . . . . . . . . . #autumnleaves #fallcolors #clarksonvillage #mississauga #saugacity #ontario #bradleymuseum #canadianautumn (at Clarkson, Mississauga)

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Columns and Arcs. . . . . . . . #london #travelgoals #architecture #admiraltyarch

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Rising Horizon. . . . . . . . . #paralleluniverse #skylines #saugacity #ontario #ohcanada #iphoneshot #whatisee #morningglow (at Clarkson, Mississauga)

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