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Ok babes...as you might have seen I haven't been active lately for more than a reason. One of them is that life get the best of me, and I find myself being extremely busy and unfortunately my lack of activity lead also to a lack of muse and it honestly broke my heart. When I first started here ( +6 months ago maybe??? ) As bella ( tbh I think I was one of the few roleplaying bella on tumblr at that time and kinda proud of that lol? ) I had NO idea that I would stay that long. So it was a true surprise to see me enjoying playing this babe THAT much? I literally had a BLAST roleplaying as Bells. I mean when I first started I obviously already loved Bella, but i've literally became IN LOVE with her? She's amazing and I couldn't be happier to support her in every way possible.

But Bella face was not the only thing that gave me so much joy. I mean you guys have been literally awesome? I HAD SO MUCH FUN roleplaying with each one of you, you literally gave me so much feels?? And it was a pleasure to log on on this account. But unfortunaly come a time when it don't feel like the same. I feel like in those amazing 6 months I've explored everything that I wanted to, which has been nothing but amazing but which is also heartbreaking at the same time because it means that I have to let it go. I feel like it's not fair for me to hold back Bella, who has became a popular fc over the months, to someone who might want to bring her back in this amazing group. I had my time, MY AMAZING TIME, and I'm will to let another awesome roleplayer having that amazing time here too. And believe me it broke my heart to let it go, because with that amount of time you guys became my second family, and I met SO MANY amazing people that I literally want to cry? And If I don't feel like listing anyone, I'd like to believe that they know who they are. We've created some amazing friendship that I'll cherish forever.

You guys have no idea how much you helped me come through some hard time in my life, or even basic things but who will help me in my daily life. Like English? I tend to believe that I've improved my english skills, and knowing the fact that I might leave in the US in a few months, that definitly something that i needed to!!

With that being said and because I feel like I already said enough ( and mostly because i don't want to cry ) I would like to thanks again Kitkat, Goddess, Zozo, and Miranda for being such AMAZING admins. You guys have been nothing but awesome, and I think that the group being open for more than 7 months tell a lot. I wish you NOTHING but the best, to you, but also to all those amazing roleplayers in this rp. Thank you, THANK YOU for everything. I had an amazing time and it's all because of you all. And who knows? Maybe one day we will run into each other.♥

Love, Ali and Bella.

PS: and don’t forget me ok? Because I will never.

@bellahadid: Tu sais que je t'aime. Assez pour te laisser partir.

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@ArianaGrande: @bellahadid moooood

@bellahadid: lets be moody together dangerous woman @arianagrande

#( tweet. * )#ily ok

@bellahadid: 😞😞

#( tweet. * )#mood

@Real_Liam_Payne: I don't believe i have and i don't think i want to

@bellahadid: PLEASE DO I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE IN THIS @real_liam_payne

#( tweet.* )#LMAOOO BUT SAME???#like you could NOT talk to me when i was watching tbh #i was pushing everyone #that was my damn thing #ESPECIALLY THE TUBBY TOAST

@bellahadid: there is no way my daughter is watching teletubbies lmfao i'm telling you

@bellahadid: have you ever heard tinky winky voice? it's been haunting me for hours

#( tweet.* )#and i used to be OBSSESSED WITH THIS when i was like 5?#im crying

#( ooc.* )#sigh sound

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bella hadid behind the scenes of private ig: tylerford

#( self.* )#QUEEN #and should be here tonight

What was the worst punishment you had when you were a child?

Alright, that’s actually a good one. As far as I can remember it was being private from dessert, or something like that? Every food punishment are extremely hard to deal with. Especially when there was ice-cream.

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if you could be anywhere with anyone right now, where would you be and with who?

I could really use my sister’s company right now but don’t feel like going further on the reasons who are remain to be personal. I just need her to tell me that it’s going to be ok. @jfchadid

#( sissy.* )#ooooo

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Honest hour. Nothing will be deleted. Just come and ask.

✧ Self para –– “ i won’t let nobody hurt you. “

It was safe to say that Bella was completely exhausted. The youngest hadid sister had spend two week between europe and australia, so she was glad to get some rest when she landed to Los Angeles not so long but yesterday. The countless hours of plane honestly got the best of the young girl, not mentionning the fact that it was her first time away from her daughter and it was way harder than she thought. And her disease, that people tend to forget since Bella is so quiet about it was not making the things easier either. But Bella never complained, not even once. She never felt like she had the right to do. She was incredibly blessed, the festival de cannes was one of them, and launching Misha collection in Australia was a dream come true. Never even once Bella regretted her choices, as much exhausting as they can be. She made the choice to keep going with her career a few months after her daughter's birth, and each day she would proves that she did what was good. Bella loved her daughter more than anything, but she needed something aside, something to tell her that she's more than just Kaylee's mom. And in some way it was a pride, to be able to combined her two favourite job. In that way Bella was fulfilling. But sometimes it left the nineteen years old mentally exhausted and today it was one of those day. Kaylee's finally asleep, it left Bella in a empty room. She hated it. This is why most of the time she would fill the room with music, or would let the tv sound as a background, so she won't have to be left alone. Left alone with the millions thoughts that was running on her mind. And today there was one who was particurally painful and who left the youngest hadid in tears.

CANNES, MAY 17TH.

Bella was about to take the red carpet by storm with that gorgeous red dress designed by Alexandre Vauthier. She was absolutely outstanding and would make everyone agree, even the more recalcitrant, and that's what she did. The compliments haven't stop, even when she closed the door of her hotel room with what she thought being her old friend. " You were gorgeous Bells. " He said at what the youngest hadid replied with a smile and a thank you. Bella never get used to compliment, and she was always easily blushing which was honestly quite cute. " Why are you blushing? " He said while he gets strangely closer to her, he got one of those smile who was making the nineteen years old unconfortable. " That's what I always do, don't feel like I'll get used to compliment one day. " She replied as she lets out an embarrassed laugh, as to masked the heavy atmosphere that slowly fill the room as her older friend was acting more filtry and awkward. " Come on bells, Abel's not going to know, no one will know. That's between the both of us. You're so fucking gorgeous, I need you. " Everything was drifting apart, and Bella was terrified. Her long time friend, that she used to love and trust, twenty years older than her, was strolling his hands on her hips. " Get the fuck out of me I'm not kidding! " She tried not to beg, but he doesn't seemed to listen as he moved his hands to his breast and that's when Bella slapped him. " I said get the fuck out of me! Who do you think you are? " She finally screamed in panic, as her throat tightens, feeling her members getting paralyzed the more she was getting scared of what might happen." Bella, what's going on here? " At the voice of her friend and publicist entering the room, Bella broke in tears as she couldn't say a word, as that old man who used to have her trust made his way out of the room, shameful but probably not as much as Bella was feeling right now. She was feeling terrible. Why, why does this happened? Did I've done something wrong? Did I gave wrong signals? Why does I feel so ashamed? Why I can't feel like talking to someone ? Why does I feel dirty? Why does I need to take three shower? So many questions that was left unanswered but that left her with no sleep.

MALIBU, MAY 20TH.

Bella was in her room, Kaylee was next to her peacefully asleep. Wiping her tears from her wet cheeks, she finally lay down next to her daughter as she let one of hand running in her baby curly hair. " I won't let nobody hurt you baby. Mommy makes you this promise. Everything to protect you and keep you safe. " That what she mumbled as she gave her daughter a forehead kiss, before leaving for the bathroom where she would take her third shower of the day.

#( self para.* )#tw: violence #tw: assault #NO I'M NOT CRYING :)

x

#i should be mobile for the rest of the night #but if you want a text message from bells feel free

text ✍ zayn

Zayn: everyone can write. it doesn't have to make sense, so long as it helps you express your feelings. you know that might help? i know gigi wishes that she could do that right now, and i hope that our daughter takes that trait from her. but yeah, you should definitely find yourself something that's gonna bring you back to reality ya know? it's gonna help you in the long run.

Bella: can't deny that you got a point but idk. I'm back to l.a so I think I'm gonna went for that. Like literally. And I'm sure she will. I need our daughters to be on horses because this is everything?? but yeah quite hard to work on it with my state of mind but at least I'm on it

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text ✍ jay-jay

Justin: u may make the point but i'm always the pencil sOooo... i don't know i just don't tolerate people sO im always over something !! let's go with 00003. seconds

Justin: iTS OKAY I DON'T NEED TO HEAR UR OPINION CAUSE I KNOW IM SWAGGED OUT GOODBYEeEeEeE butyes i'm home where i belong

Bella: LMAO ACTUALLY THAT'S KINDA CUTE? or that's me being jetlag idk. But u know us being complementary!! but same tbh?? i mean that depends on the mood.... Oh wow that much?

Bella:.........wouldn't like to broke your dreams :( you already broke your intestine a week ago...don't want this to be too much LMAOOO ok great you know that you're always welcome?? and i'm sure kay would love to see you

#( text.* )#LIKE HOW MUCH

@bellahadid: should i try musical.ly? i'm trying to be productive while not leaving my bed

#( tweet.* )#she will sleep for the five upcoming weeks probably

text ✍ gi

gigi: thank yoooooooou !! i feel like my competetive side kicked in maybe a bit /too/ much but no regrets :P and i got a burger ?? i was living life

gigi: idk babe.. i feel like i'm a bit all over the place rn

gigi: she's doing gooooood. feels like it anyways

Bella: but the dude literally fucking cheated?? how on earth marshmallow and s'mores are even alike?? i was so mad tbh he would have got two slap from me. He actually did....but in a long distance way

bella: yes i get that!! i def need some rest after three weeks but I should be able to make it maybe at the end of next week :)

bella: lmao i have no doubt about her making sure that she's alive and doing good

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