Belly Deep

A little place to send out my words into the universe.

[bellydeep]

I wrote this in 2020 during the pandemic. There were good days and bad days during lockdown...this was a good day.

Today was a good day

a little light peaks

awakened eyes

staring down possibilities

wiggling and stretching

fingertips lined like

the birds in the sky

swoop down past children

giggling outside

It was a good day

humans connecting,

helping, easing souls

reaching out, standing strong

like peaks of mountains

rocks trickle down

collecting and spreading to

billions of breaths

gently, but fearlessly

Today was a good day

as dusk approached

defeat faded into stillness

calamity into blessings

silence into a distant dog barking

bodies slowing, but rippling

like reflections in the water

giving in like the sun

when the day is done

[bellydeep]

Little Light

Little light

trickling along

a dark shadowed wall

prepare to fight

prepare to dance

over the night

Little light

you mustn’t fade

into the contrast

you’ve already won

you’re ready for East

to bring you the sun

[bellydeep]

darkness cuts corners

I want to form a straight line

thoughts can be still

then you enter my mind

one woman, you told me has a hold on you

why you're here with me now I haven't a clue

[bellydeep]

You let me inside of you 
I never felt so alone
 watching people on the street
 waiting by an old pay phone 

I hear your voice 
you’re a thousand miles away
 and I can’t help but hate myself
 ‘cause it’s the best part of my day

[bellydeep]

You watched me as I played my game, waiting for me to shoot fire at consequence; flipping my hair, full of motion as I pushed my limits, mind heavy, walls high, eager to prevail.

But, you convinced me to surrender so I layed down my arms. With your hands in my hair, you saw me broken, you saw me cold. You asked me my name and I lied, but you guessed right.

[bellydeep]

I see farther and I feel deeper don’t know what you’re thinking but I feel the map between my fingers

maybe we should leave here maybe it’s too late for that we’ve been at a stand still for hours there’s nothing left to do, but crash

[bellydeep]

I got a glimpse of you of what I already knew and do u remember my name?

‘Cause it’s gone now, that time, it’s mine I still feel that bitter wine, but for you it all tastes the same

[bellydeep]

like a drop from my skin you will taste what I see wrapped around what is mine for all eternity

[bellydeep]

hopes are high possibilities linger within and the harder the fall without tough layers of skin never knew what I know and believe me, if I did would have swallowed it whole to avoid all of my sins

[bellydeep]

I’m wounded, bring the gun no time left, the day is done your ego, your wasted life a fixed blade hunting knife take your shot, it’s the end don’t go bragging to your friend It's all over, bring the gun no time left, the day is done

[bellydeep]

let’s be young for our time is precious it constructs our body with preconceived missions let’s be young while our bodies age from fire and water our spirits will wander

untamed

[bellydeep]

It’s morning time darkness is still holding on to the sky I can hear the cars passing by, holding on to your skin, stretching mine like an oyster revealing a secret my one little pearl, I give away

[bellydeep]

they tell you to forever doubt it they tell you life is lost without it well, tell me what you want and i will see what i can do about it   these foggy, twisted, achy strains are running rapid through my veins until the day you're through with me you don't know what you do to me

[bellydeep]

As pain is to nerves         is the sensation of life. Black and blue wrestled         to its tender submission.

As nerves is to boldness         is the sensation of courage. Mind and spirit struggled         to its continued existence.

[bellydeep]

Wrote this when I was a teenager (ha ha): You were my favorite secret, I followed you around like you were dead with good intentions on your mind and my faith balancing on your head. So much time faded into nothing, something that made my bones ache. Misery threw me onto the floor and gave me a handfull of pills to take. I am now my own secret, vanished in between the walls of my cell with paintings of red hostility and the struggles of heaven & hell. So much of me has faded into nothing, the walls are closing in on me fast. I'm so tired...God, I need something else, this bottle I have...will never last.

[pilgrimsoulinme-deactivated2012]

I fear how many of our inside jokes  will one day pin me against the wall.

A bowl of tangerines today will tomorrow grow into hooked nails rusting from my tears. 

[bellydeep]

There is no hope in the aching parts of my limbs, but my soul remains unscathed, innocent as a child’s laugh. I was left out on the pavement to die while the fire that burned everything in its path warmed my cheeks. I stick my tongue through my lips and lick the pavement. The taste distracts me from my pain.

The sound of sirens are in the distance circling, screeching, and hurting my brain. But, like a flower in the winter, I breathe in the icy air as the frost breaks my petals. I enjoy my last bit of life, as the soft snow buries me in my seasonal grave.