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[belovedbow]

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call me bow and this is my audio rp sideblog. i try to draw. im an adult.

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[homopessimist]

fear of intimacy

neon genesis evangelion s1e4: "hedgehog's dilemma" / black wing - "twinkling" / the living end (1992) dir. gregg araki / c.s. lewis, the four loves / league of legends game chat / babylon 5 s1e10: "believers"

[fumifooms]

"The immortal x mortal relationship dynamic [is about] loving something you know will die. It is about vulnerability, vulnerability in the face of centuries of pain, centuries’ worth of trauma, centuries of experience jading someone. And the strength and vulnerability and hope that it takes to love something after that, when you already know how it is going to end.

That’s the metaphor, right, like we have terrible experiences, we have terrible relationships and you go into a relationship thinking you know how this is going to end but you have to do it anyway and that’s really hard. And the [immortal creature] take on that is pushing it to its extremes, it’s telling a story about someone who has unthinkable level of bad experiences and traumas, who knows for a fact how it’s going to end, even if it goes perfectly by human standards: there is an expiration date. And you have to choose to do it anyway."

Biz Barclay, When Allegory Fails, 3:22:00

[belovedbow]

dahlia sleep

inspired by x

[benihana-circumcision]

[can-i-make-image-descriptions]

[Image ID: Tweet form lil h (@/ bigsnugga) on 06 Apr 24 reading: i was raised on silk shirt rnb so all that incel shit never hit for me, i believe in beggin for the pussy. outside in the rain, crying, throwing up, just for a sniff. thats your role as a man /End ID]

[belovedbow]

vampire kisses

is that lipstick, blood or both? 🤷‍♀️

[belovedbow]

happy holidays to everyone still around 🫰

[belovedbow]

"it's so hard for men to not turn alt-r*ght cuz the left is mean to them" people are dying

[wontonsoupinthemorning-deactiva]

message to all bitches

please survive

[inkmothnexus]

i have to defend fictional women who aren't good people because if i don't who else will

[inkmothnexus]

the two flavours of this feeling are "i think she is flawed and going through it and figuring her shit out and that's a very human quality that i appreciate seeing in a female character" and "i think it's good she killed and ate those people and i think it's really hot that she didn't feel bad about it because confidence is attractive"

[memendoemori-deactivated2025020]

The best quality a fictional man can have is being deeply, pathetically, wretchedly in love with someone, I think

[belovedbow]

“You weren’t used to someone being so affectionate publicly.“

[belovedbow]

truly you don't know how much you're missing someone till you realise you can't share with them the source that just caused you psychic damage

[belovedbow]

[angelicaether]

Redacted Appreciation

I’ve seen a few posts like this going around but it’s always in the context of “popularity” which just feels like a way to divide the community instead of uplifting each other. So instead of sharing who I think is “popular” in the community I figured I’d share some people who inspire me to create ^^

These are in no particular order and if you want a more comprehensive list of fic authors/artists to check out I recommend looking at @autisticempathydaemon 's recommendation lists.

@litlkim - One of my favorite Redacted people, a dear friend, and one of the OG lore keepers!

@ryoko-san - Eve is one of the first RA artists I ever came across and getting to see their OC development and AUs is so fun!

@zozo-01 - A wonderful fic author and all around lovely person, highly recommend

@spookybeandoodle - She has one of my favorite Alexis designs and is a joy to work with for comms!

@pinksparkl - Genuinely one of the nicest people I've ever met with some of the best fics to boot.

@deviarisa - Super sweet and super creative! Always love hearing her ideas!

@lovelylonerliterature - One of my favorite fic writers in the community, and always a pleasure to talk to!

@androgynouspenguinexpert - My dear beloved friend and a wonderful artist! I love seeing traditional work with her designs!

@gingerbreadmonsters - Another wonderful author, super unique ideas, always beautifully executed!

@frenchiefitzhere - Ms. Marie herself, one of the sweetest people I think I've ever met in my life! Her songs are always a delight!

@thefablefoxart - Another wonderful artist! Fable's David was the first design of him that I ever really latched onto!

@ejunkiet - A great fic writer, her Imperium fics are so so good!

@teafairywithabook - Another wonderful author, super creative, and a great person to talk with!

@mars-mell - Mars' Goobers live rent free in my brain all the time, I love seeing these little guys on my dash.

@belovedbow - Bow's style is so romantic and I love their work so so much. It's lovely!

@stardreamers25 - Super cute art! They have this adorable Sam/Darlin' piece that lives rent free in my mind!

@sylentnights - Another great artist, I adore their Ash design its so friggin cute!

@agentplutonium - If you want a good Milo fic, Pluto is your go to and it's tasty every time

@sainthowlzon - A wonderful artist, their listener icons are so fun and their scribble dolls are so cute!

@nortyourself - My dearest friend, a wonderful artist who's drawn such a fun array of characters, but their Hush design is top tier for me!

@replaycamera2 - The other OG lore keeper! Chloe is truly a foundational member of the community and she helps keep us canon compliant whenever we need help

@dominimoonbeam - One of my favorite fic authors, I adore their fics and I'm excited to dive in to their original works soon!

@mr-laveau - Super talented artist! Their stylized work is so fun and recognizable and I love their designs!

@penncilkid - Another dear friend, their rarepairs are so good and always have so much thought behind them + they're always ready to encourage other people's creativity!

@autisticempathydaemon - Lexi Sun is so creative, her match ups and busybee pairings are so fun and she's put together great rec lists for the community, also a delight to talk to!

@cashandprizes - Lexi Moon is one of the nicest, most creative people I've ever spoken to and she is so ready to help unleash my nonsense at any time

@your-local-mom-whore - She's about to make her fic debut and y'all don't want to miss it! Lucy is one of my most beloved friends and mutuals and always encourages me creatively!

@sincerelywhistler - Another super recognizable artist, Whistler's art is so fun and unique and they have a ton of really cool OCs!

@pycth - And last but not least, the illustrious Pycth who I have convinced to draw David more times than they would care to admit but it's so fun every time! Plus they jumped on my silly AU nonsense so fast and I love it.

This is by no means an entirely comprehensive list but these are the people that I've had the pleasure of talking to or interacting with and they're so lovely, I really recommend taking a look at their work! Like I said, most of the posts I've seen along these lines have been about popularity and I just don't think that's a great mindset to have. Instead we should be uplifting each other and sharing each other's work! Fandom isn't about popularity, it's about community!

[artisimpossible]

At some point, you gotta stop asking yourself "why does everyone prefer bad books over mine" and start asking yourself "what are these badly written books doing to connect with people that mine aren't?"

Every time I hear an author lament the fact that people only like "bad" books and no one appreciates their artistry anymore, all I hear is "I never take the time to evaluate what makes something interesting to people who aren't me, and I value the rules of craft and other arbitrary elements I've posited as the crux of good writing over the art of actually meeting people where they are and giving them something that holds value to their lives."

[artisimpossible]

I actually want to talk about this again because I think people see "real art" as "never compromising your work by creating for someone else", and if you want to make art that never considers anyone else, that is a totally real thing you can do.

But there is a community minded way to view your art and an individualist minded way to view your art. Writing to connect with your community, to speak on things that are relevant to the whole, to fill in gaps where community is lacking, vs. writing whatever you specifically enjoy and want to read.

And look, these are not mutually exclusive things. My stories are very community minded, but the way I execute them is to prioritize putting things in a way that *I* personally enjoy. It's a blend. But I see a lot of people getting angry that their "very personal, just for me, just everything I want" art is not being well-received by the masses, arguing that everyone just has terrible taste now and nobody cares about *real* art, and like... Have you ever considered that your audience isn't ignoring you because they don't appreciate the quality of your craft but simply because they were never your audience to begin with? If your only audience is you, how can you be mad that only you care to read it?

If you want to reach people, consider what you're doing that keeps you from *reaching people*. Sometimes you're looking in all the wrong places, and sometimes you're writing for an audience of one but expecting a crowd. People who write for larger audiences have mastered a *different skill than you*. If you want what they have, you have to master *that* skill. It's not that people just "like bad books". It's that some authors know how to write for their community, and some only know how to write for themselves, and it is perfectly okay to be either type, but shitting on your peers and your future potential audience because you refuse to evaluate *why* your work doesn't connect is not going to help you reach people.

The fact of the matter is that most readers read for *content* not *craft*. That doesn't mean they dislike your university-learned craft (some might, but most won't). It just means that if they have to choose between "high craft, pointless to them substance" or "weak craft, valuable to them substance", they're going to choose the second. If you don't care to provide substance that's valuable to them, that's totally fine, and you should continue crafting just for you, but it is not some phenomenon of people suddenly hating good craft. It's a phenomenon of authors learning how to "craft" but never how to "connect".

And frankly, this is why fanfic authors tend to do so well even with original fiction. Fanfic doesn't [inherently] teach you craft, but it teaches you to connect. These are completely different skills.

[belovedbow]

it's hotboi springback in the server! here's my piece of eli proving his magic to sunshine during camping before they got together. sunshine already believes him, but where better to show off one's magic than at a camping trip.