there’s nothing beautiful about
counting calories every day of your life
spending hours in supermarkets
reading the nutritional information
there’s nothing beautiful about
the guilt for eating the smallest amounts
getting used to hunger pains
and embracing them as a sign
that you finally did something right
there’s nothing beautiful about
nearly fainting and feeling weak
running on caffeine and cigarettes
diet pills and Diet Coke all day long
wondering how you’re still running in the first place
there’s nothing beautiful about
your body rejecting because
it’s been empty for too long
and you can’t stop throwing up
even though you’re dizzy and tired
yet you force yourself to go for a walk
to burn those extra calories
at 1am just so the scale might go down
but it never goes down fast enough
and every day you hate yourself a little more
picking up old habits along the way
even though you swore to never cut again
please get help as soon as you can
before it’s too late
there’s nothing beautiful about
Developing an eating disorder
just because you want to be a little thinner
telling yourself you’ll stop once you are
But you won’t
cause it’s never gonna be enough
yes I have bulimia
and I hate it
and I don’t deal with it
cause I can’t stop
and I hate myself for it
every day
and Im still not skinny
even though it’s been so long
the only thing that’s dropped
is not my weight
but my self esteem
please get help
please stop as long as you still can
If this only helps one person
this post will not have been made in vain
