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You can't control the world, but you can damn well try to fix it.

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

Alexander. You tell him from me that he if he’s not good to you that I will fuck up his entire life. Okay? I will fuck him up. I never wanted to- *sighs* They’re signaling me. I have to go. But Benji, I never wanted things to be over and done with with you. I kept trying to let you move on though and I kept failing. Really failing and I felt like I needed to step back until you thought you were ready to come to me and I just… wish I hadn’t. I just wish I’d been there. I should have been there for you. Anton’s doing something or other to try and get me out now. I don’t know. After everything, I don’t even give a shit about that guy anymore. *sighs, leaning on the wall.* I know, Benji. I know you will. And you’re always going to have a part of me. You always have. Since forever. I had one piece off before when all that stuff happened with Tobey and it went to you, not him. It was the broken piece that did fit for us. I have to go, Benji. Officer Hendricks is gonna cut me off…

[benjamin-itboy]

I'll tell him, but he's too sweet Asher. I...I actually really do like him. -grits teeth- Asher, don't make this hard for me. Not when I still love you... -hisses a breath of air, all emotion caught in his throat- I love you. But you belong with Amir. Go ahead...I'll call you sometime soon. And you call as well when you get the chance. Be careful Asher...and stay safe... -waits for a moment and clicks the end call button, letting tears slowly roll down his cheeks- Asher...

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

-smiles and nods-  Alright.  I’ll pack light.  Just the essentials I’m assuming?  -moves a little closer, looking at him a little playfully- Would you like to come to my place for the night?  Just to help pack and make sure that we aren’t late, waiting for the other…

[benjamin-itboy]

Yea toothbrush, contacts, the light stuff. -chuckles then blushes and smirks lightly- Hmmm... -bites own lip then grips his hips lightly- Yea I would actually.

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

-raises a brow and looks at him with a sweeter smile-  I’ll make sure to make things less professional between the two of us then… -looks at him curiously-  as in tomorrow? Should I be packing right now?

[benjamin-itboy]

-smiles softly- I was hoping you'd say that. -chuckles and nods- Yupp, tomorrow. Don't pack too much. I have a home. You can wear some of my clothes -winks chuckling-

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

Because I’m a jackass. Because I was scared and I… I don’t know, I panicked and I felt so incredibly guilty about everything because I wasn’t supposed to want anything from Cam. I didn’t wait until after Japan because it felt like I was lying to you and I’ve never been anything less than fully honest with you and I just… I couldn’t handle that. I can’t handle it still. Japan broke me into little pieces and I broke all over you and I’m so sorry for that, Benji. You deserve so much better than a break up like that. *rubs at his cheeks and eyes* I know you have been. It’s why I’ve been trying to stay away. I had been, at least. I thought maybe if I- I don’t know, maybe if I didn’t push you, you’d be able to. *voice shakes, trying to not sound like he’s crying and probably failing miserably* Benjamin, I swear to god, I hurt you so, so much, but you were literally the first person who ever treated me like you did and if anyone ever, and I mean ever does a fucking thing to hurt you, I will find a way to destroy them. Do you understand that? You took care of me for so long, I will destroy every inch of someone who hurts you, okay? I did plenty of it and I- I’m done letting that happen to my friend. Understand? I swear to fucking god.

[benjamin-itboy]

You were always honest. Thank you for that. I just...I wish I could have been what you needed Asher - what you wanted. -wipes his own tears away a bit roughly and sighs deeply- I know you'd destroy them...but I don't think Alexander would hurt me...but Asher...don't be a stranger. I'll call as well, but...for us to have been through as much as we have together and to just drop everything...It'd kill me. And if Amir ever hurts you...God I almost murdered the new reporter alone for the things he said! So just know that I could never hate you...and I will always protect you. Love you. Even if you don't want it. And I know I can't...but you'll always have a piece of me.

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

Well, I plan to get to know you fairly well since I will be a large part of your new company.  Papers and legal situations, all that jazz.  -smiles slyly at him-  So, when are our flights at?

[benjamin-itboy]

-blinks and blushes barely, rubbing the back of his neck- Yea...well it doesn't all have to be business. -chuckles and grins- 10 am.

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

Well, aren’t you successful?  I didn’t know that.  That should be really fun then.  Can I safely assume you know your way around the place in case my gps stops working?

[benjamin-itboy]

-chuckles- There's a lot of things people don't know about me. -smiles but in his mind, thinking back on itboy and gulping at the fact the only one who really knew him was Asher- Yes. -nods with a grin- Completely.

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

I don’t have access to ice here, actually… *sighs and listens silently, then slams his hurt hand into the wall and hisses in a bit of pain* You’ve always said it doesn’t matter, how you feel doesn’t matter and it does, Benji. It matters a lot. It matters to me and it always did, I’m just too much of a tool to take care of you properly. I do, believe in love that is. You taught me how to. You did that for me and I’m just the jackass who fucked it all up for you. You have to find someone who won’t jerk you around because they’re still a stupid, stupid kid. You have to move forward because I can’t give you what you need and I never could. I’ve always told you that. You were one of the only three people I ever slept with that meant anything to me, really meant something. Did you know that? You’re amazing, Benji. You always were. But I can’t be amazing for you. Our broken pieces don’t fit. 

[benjamin-itboy]

-listens as well, wanting to protest in certain areas but listens- ...There is one thing I've always been a bit...well I guess upset is the best word... why didn't you wait until after Japan? ...Asher I.. -gulps, letting a tear roll down his cheek- We went through so much, I thought maybe...just maybe...you could love me. After we broke up...do you know how hard it was for me? I got with Silvanus. With others. And you know something? Every time I was with them, having sex or otherwise, you cme into my mind. Your hair, your smile. Everything about you. I've been a complete wreck in all honesty. Mexico. I was drunk because I wanted to forget. Forget that I loved you, still do, and probably will. You'll always be in my heart. You didn't fuck it up. I did. The moment I said "I love you" before you were ready. But you're right. Our broken pieces don't fit. And I'm glad you have Amir...I am.

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

-chuckles lightly and smiles-  Well, when you say it like that.  Your hotel?  You mean you have a timeshare or something like that around there?  I don’t know my way around Vegas, I’ll let you figure out where we go.

[benjamin-itboy]

-laughs softly- Didn't I ever tell you that I was in the hotel business? I guess not -shrugs and smiles- My father owned a couple of hotels and I inherited the business. Well best place to start is always Treasure Island. -chuckles-

[sabrinacarpntrs]

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

-chuckles lightly and shrugs lightly-  Don’t make it sound like it is obvious, I didn’t know that you liked me enough to buy me a plane ticket.  But yeah… vacation will be nice before we get to work.

[benjamin-itboy]

-smiles at him- Didn't know? Alexander, I'm surprised. Ever since the Gala you've been -just chuckles softly- We'd probably stay at my hotel down there. And you can decide where to go. I'll be your guide.

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

I did. It’s fine, just jammed. It’ll be fine again in a day or so. Apparently, you can call whenever and they’ll come get me. Making friends with the guards is a good plan, I guess… I… It’s just hard. It’s a lot easier to resign myself because if I get out, I’ll be excited but at least I don’t have that false hope if I don’t… You know right? You know it wasn’t me. You know that. *laughs, unamused* It does sound crazy. *wipes at his eyes, finally crying after all the crap that’s happened today* I’m sorry, Benji. I’m so sorry for everything I did. I’m so, so sorry. Can you just… Can we just pretend I wasn’t a dick all the time? I’m so sorry I hurt you. I’ve never felt worse about anything in my life. You were so good to me and I did nothing but hurt you all the time… 

[benjamin-itboy]

I hope so. Put ice on it if you can. Should help somewhat. Yea it is a good plan. You always knew how to make a situation better... You will get out. You're innocent. Yea, I was told what happened....I'm so sorry Asher. -gulps listening to him, just wanting to comfort him- Asher...stop...you weren't...I was wrong from the beginning and you know that. You don't believe in love. But that doesn't matter now, you're going through a lot, so no matter how I feel should not matter right now. No matter how hard that I'm trying...desperately to move on from you. Fuck Asher! I still love you! But I... -thinks of Alexander, then stops- You're fine Asher. You always were. For now, just concentrate on believing that you will get out. Because it will happen. You are innocent.

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

-looks at him shocked for a moment and clears his throat with a small chuckle-  Really?  I thought you were going to take someone else… I’d enjoy going though.  Having a little fun might be… well, fun. -smiling at him genuinely-

[benjamin-itboy]

-smiles then arches an eyebrow chuckling softly- Who else would I take? I figured a vacation wouldn't hurt before we have to start work. -chuckles- You'd like it a lot.

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

Oh, I- *pauses, thinking better of what he’s already started and sighs* Uhm, someone reached for me so I punched him and I messed my wrist up pretty bad because they have a really hard head. I’m fine, really. Yeah, I can’t really make very many calls. Just one or two and not in a day. *sighs, chewing his lips* That’s what everyone says. I’m fine right now, though. And Amir is working on things. It’s- I’m- *goes silent for a moment* I miss you, Benji. 

[benjamin-itboy]

-nods while listening to him and runs his fingers though his own hair softly- Well I'm glad you defended yourself but sorry about your wrist. If you can, have someone check it out. Maybe someone can help. Yea...sorry again. I didn't know when it would be a good time to call...if there was. -holds the phone a bit closer- Then don't doubt it. You will get out. Amir... will get you out. -gulps, looking down for a moment and sighing deeply- I..I miss you too Asher...-chuckles softly trying not to let Asher hear the emotions caught in his throat- As crazy as that sounds.

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

Oh?  Two tickets to Vegas?  I thought the new company was staying in New York…  Vacationing for a while?

[benjamin-itboy]

-nods grinning- Oh it is. I just wanted to visit home for a bit. You can go with if you want. Vegas is fun. -chuckles-

[benjamin-itboy]

Long Day

[alexander-reese-blog]

A fairly long day.  Moving and packing can be quite the hassle. aside from long, how was your day?

[benjamin-itboy]

-smiles- Yea I know. Ahhh just finishing up some paperwork, so draining as well. But.. -chuckles- I bought two tickets to Vegas for a week.

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

No, no. I’m not hurt. I think I jammed my wrist today, but I’m okay. It’s fine, you didn’t need to. I mean, I would have if I could, but I’m trying not to be pushy. I need the officers to like me here.

[benjamin-itboy]

-blinks- How did you jam your wrist?? ...You're still my friend Asher. Of course I'd call. Don't worry about it, I didn't think you could for a reason like that or another. But you'll be out of there soon. Just wait and see.

[benjamin-itboy]

Call @ Asher

[asher-ebbs-blog]

*drops the phone and scrambles to pick it back up* Benji! Christ almighty, today is the day of phone calls, huh? Sorry, Amir is the only one who called me until today, apparently. I’m- I’m alright-ish. You, though. Are you? 

[benjamin-itboy]

-blinks at all the scrambling noises for a moment- I guess. Sorry I didn't call earlier....you're not hurt though, are you? I'm...good. Just worried.