Berry Decides To Get Fit

This is my personal blog that records my journey to fitness. There will be an occasional rant and review of the workouts that I will be doing.

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My motivation is running low.

Indeed, it is easy to gain weight and hard to lose weight. I have been trying, not my hardest though, but trying to control my eating portions and squeeze in a workout a day for at least 30 mins each but have been failing to do so the past few days since i had started this blog. I was a fat kid from elementary to college days and i had tried my best to lose weight when i started working. It is true that i had succumbed to unhealthy eating fads and supplements to lose weight but around 2012 to 2014 i had managed to lose weight in a healthy way and keep it off through boxing. Then i changed my career and i broke up with my boyfriend.. That's when i started being lazy on my workout and cheated on my diet. Demands from my work kept me late in the office as well which also led to unhealthy snacking while working. Food, sleep and stress eating became my life until one day.. My clothes don't fit anymore and i began buying clothes that are 1-2 sizes bigger than my previous size. I was a size 4 and now I'm up to size 8. I tried exercising and controlling my portion intake but I'm always feeling sluggish and tired. Due to this, I can't even find the energy to workout or even start my workout. Some days I manage to workout but most days I would rather just binge on whatever food stash i have in my room. I know I should get rid of all those unhealthy snacks but I crave for them more when I give them away and end up just buying more from the grocery. Today, people at work commented on how big I am and how much weight I had gained. This made me even more sad, I feel so lost and I don't know how to start. I came home and ate dinner then afterwards started on my BBG workout but only managed to do the first 14 minutes, my legs felt like they were gonna give out. I feel so bad I really want to lose weight and I know that there is no instant gratification and result when it comes to long term weight loss. I just feel so empty and unmotivated. I wonder what drives people? I wish someone can help motivate me.

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So my journey begins

Yesterday, October 13, 2015, marked the heaviest day of my life. I weighed myself yesterday only to be shocked by the numbers on the weighing scale.. I was already 149.7 lbs!!! I was only 127 lbs a year ago wearing size 4 dresses but now i'm up to size 6 to 8. I knew i gained weight but i was too busy denying the fact that I am now really heavy..and out of shape. Seeing those numbers on the weighing scale was like being drenched in cold water. I am now big again because I got lazy with my diet and often cheated on my workout. What they really say was true.."cheating on your workout is just cheating on yourself." With a heavy heart I have decided to really focus and give my all. It is time to lose those extra pounds before the holidays or I might triple in size by 2016. I have this weighing scale at home called Karada scan and I have decided to take my baseline weight. Boy am I not proud of the numbers below.. Those numbers really increased and it really shows how much I gained. Weight: 67.9 kgs Height: 5'5" Body age: 39 BMI: 24.9 Resting metabolism: 1400 kcal Visceral fat: 5 Body fat: 30% Body area (fat percentage vs muscle percentage) Whole body : 27.5%. Vs 26.8% Trunk : 23.7% vs 20.5% Legs: 38% vs 40.5% Arms: 41.6% vs 27% I have also started my BBG workout circuits by Kyla Itsines which i have bought over a year ago and haven't had the motivation to start because I was too busy with my work or too lazy to workout. I have decided to put up this blog to mark my progress and be motivated by fellow girls who are also struggling like me to lose weight. I hope that we can all work on this and reach our ideal weight. Will keep you guys posted!