here's the thing , she knows what type of person carmy is -- because she's the same person . just in a different form , in a different mindset . she's like if he were less stressed out , externally , but stressed out internally . keeping all of her thoughts to herself , only wanting to lash out when needed . & now is one of those moments , if he's biting , then she's biting . that's how it's going to be , between them . & sydney , as shown before , as no gripe with showing her teeth , with baring them to show to others : with putting herself in positions where she's had to figure shit out .
it's funny how sydney manages to keep herself contained through all of this , like some bad breakup that she's going to emotionally put herself through because she knows that she can deal with it , as much as others have , humanly so . it's the way that she's so emotionally charged up that she could say anything , throw something his way & she knows that he would retort back , in any other demeanor , a severe language that they know & they know only , like some secret little bit that they've invented , that's what it seems like & as a good person would , she deals with it in the way she knows how , keeping it internally , until she explodes -- which , isn't very often , but when it is , everyone knows .
& it's not that she has anything against carmy , nor is it his attitude towards things when he gets frustrated , however , she thinks it's frustrating how he gets like this -- because she can't get anything out of him except for anger . " it was never an ' i told so you , carmy , " sydney muses with a little eye roll , shaking her head in the utmost way someone could roll their eyes over at someone , in the somewhat disbelief there was . " i was saying , that things wouldn't have happened if you didn't just up & disappeared on us ! " on me , she wants to say , as it's on the tip of her tongue & she's almost cursing herself for not doing it , for not being as bold as she thinks she is .
it's really no secret how she really feels about him , how composed & poised she thinks he really is , how much his opinion really means to her . how the fact that he inspires her to keep going , to keep fighting , in a sense of things . " yeah , we're good . " she replies , wanting to keep all of her bottled up anger inside , not wanting to fight with him any longer . all she's thinking about is the restaurant , how it'd be , how much she doesn't want it to be some failure like sheridan was . never that , god . even thinking about it sends shivers down her spine .
" of course we will , carmy . we're stronger together . "