There is nothing more unlovable than a boy who wants to be loved.
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(Last Update: N/A)
Very small edit: 13 April
Warning. This blog has been restarted at least three times already, so yes there are inconsistencies present. This blog also speaks on sensitive topics such as grooming, physical assault, sexual assault, trafficking, homelessness, cannibalism, child labor, self harm, and more.
Hello everyone, doing well I hope? Well, I'd like to introduce you to a very special boy. He goes by many names, crocus, white rabbit, Benji. But his official name is Benjamin Tetch, adopted son of the infamous Jervis Tetch! Though, he'd much prefer it you called him-
Bee.
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Do
Leave pg-13 asks
interact
discussion for a lore/heavy topic roleplay (just to see the dos and donts)
MIND THE WARNING AT THE TOP!!!
Don't
be transphobic
send hate
be racist
be ableist
be fascist
Bring up incest or try to involve it.
I do ask for your patience, I have a life outside of roleplaying too.
Benjamin gains crushes easily, meaning if you do not wish/are comfortable with Benjamin having a crush on your muse please just say so.
I am not my muse, we are seperate people.
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Close connections:
Jervis "MadHatter" Tetch(Jervis-in-wonderland): Father 1
"Holy shit I'm almost 16 this is weird. I'll be like every other generic teen here, everyone will look at me and think that this kid has normal trauma like everyone else and is boring and honestly not that cute, he comes from Gotham he's like every other kid there ya know. He's sooooo lame, let's ignore him. guys please I don't want that. No no no" head in hands "FREE ME FREE ME I DON'T WANNA BE 16"
"I miss my mother... Sometimes, I wish to go to her house and cuddle with her, have her pet or play with my hair as I rant about my day. I can not do that anymore, I should've taken advantage of what I had... And father is of no help, too busy... Too busy too busy, no time for eldest son... None..."
"Your dad sounds dumb, father figures are never trustworthy. They just leave you to fend for yourself, never loving you or caring for you... Useless dad... You may come to me if you need help, I'm not a father. I'm better than a father! Everyone needs help every once in awhile, even adults. Sometimes my dad needs help with... Well he rarely pays attention to me so.... B-but he lets me help him sometimes when he remembers me so!! Adults need help sometimes!! Which means a child like you should need more help than a stupid stinky adult, and I'm older so I believe I could be of great help!"
"I- I'll... Hm..." Benjamin takes his phone to show the child what a phone is. "Just to confirm, you do not have one of these devices or anything similar?"
He should probably check how much money he has... Perhaps he'd be able to buy the kid something cheap...
"It..." he moves to the kid to show him the phone, crouching next to him. "So ima turn it on like this... Uhm. This is home screen, it tells you the time and uh notifications from apps... If I swipe up and then do my password we see all these apps right? So er... Something like- oh YouTube, this let's you watch videos right? And then-"
He continues to talk about what a phone does... Because he's a nerd.
"Ain't it? If you'd like I could buy ya something similar, just so you can call me if you need help with anything, whether it be needing someone taken cared of or needing to reach the top shelf"
"Nah- just... A couple hundred dollars but it's okay! I'll... I'll get the money back... Don't even worry about it, alright? I'm buying it for you so that way you have a way to call for help, it's supposed to benefit you and uhm... Well- I already have a fun if I need help... And you're younger so- uh. Yeah..."
"It's pride month and not a single ONE of you have told me happy pride month, some friends y'all are... Sighs just kidding. I think I'ma just sit in my room and cry all month, I don't really get anything during these times and I honestly don't have any plans so like. Why care, right?"
"I miss my mother... Sometimes, I wish to go to her house and cuddle with her, have her pet or play with my hair as I rant about my day. I can not do that anymore, I should've taken advantage of what I had... And father is of no help, too busy... Too busy too busy, no time for eldest son... None..."
"Your dad sounds dumb, father figures are never trustworthy. They just leave you to fend for yourself, never loving you or caring for you... Useless dad... You may come to me if you need help, I'm not a father. I'm better than a father! Everyone needs help every once in awhile, even adults. Sometimes my dad needs help with... Well he rarely pays attention to me so.... B-but he lets me help him sometimes when he remembers me so!! Adults need help sometimes!! Which means a child like you should need more help than a stupid stinky adult, and I'm older so I believe I could be of great help!"
"I- I'll... Hm..." Benjamin takes his phone to show the child what a phone is. "Just to confirm, you do not have one of these devices or anything similar?"
He should probably check how much money he has... Perhaps he'd be able to buy the kid something cheap...
"It..." he moves to the kid to show him the phone, crouching next to him. "So ima turn it on like this... Uhm. This is home screen, it tells you the time and uh notifications from apps... If I swipe up and then do my password we see all these apps right? So er... Something like- oh YouTube, this let's you watch videos right? And then-"
He continues to talk about what a phone does... Because he's a nerd.
"Ain't it? If you'd like I could buy ya something similar, just so you can call me if you need help with anything, whether it be needing someone taken cared of or needing to reach the top shelf"
"Nah- just... A couple hundred dollars but it's okay! I'll... I'll get the money back... Don't even worry about it, alright? I'm buying it for you so that way you have a way to call for help, it's supposed to benefit you and uhm... Well- I already have a fun if I need help... And you're younger so- uh. Yeah..."
"I'm so fucking pisses right now, I'm shaking and on the verge of throwing my backpack and cry because some assholes decided they wanted to kidnap me and ruined my hair and make up and now! I can't find my come, my mirror OR MY EYELINER. UGH. I FUCKING CAN'T. FUCK THOSE GUYS FUCK THOSE GUYS."
"I'm so fucking pisses right now, I'm shaking and on the verge of throwing my backpack and cry because some assholes decided they wanted to kidnap me and ruined my hair and make up and now! I can't find my come, my mirror OR MY EYELINER. UGH. I FUCKING CAN'T. FUCK THOSE GUYS FUCK THOSE GUYS."
"I miss my mother... Sometimes, I wish to go to her house and cuddle with her, have her pet or play with my hair as I rant about my day. I can not do that anymore, I should've taken advantage of what I had... And father is of no help, too busy... Too busy too busy, no time for eldest son... None..."
"Your dad sounds dumb, father figures are never trustworthy. They just leave you to fend for yourself, never loving you or caring for you... Useless dad... You may come to me if you need help, I'm not a father. I'm better than a father! Everyone needs help every once in awhile, even adults. Sometimes my dad needs help with... Well he rarely pays attention to me so.... B-but he lets me help him sometimes when he remembers me so!! Adults need help sometimes!! Which means a child like you should need more help than a stupid stinky adult, and I'm older so I believe I could be of great help!"
"I- I'll... Hm..." Benjamin takes his phone to show the child what a phone is. "Just to confirm, you do not have one of these devices or anything similar?"
He should probably check how much money he has... Perhaps he'd be able to buy the kid something cheap...
"It..." he moves to the kid to show him the phone, crouching next to him. "So ima turn it on like this... Uhm. This is home screen, it tells you the time and uh notifications from apps... If I swipe up and then do my password we see all these apps right? So er... Something like- oh YouTube, this let's you watch videos right? And then-"
He continues to talk about what a phone does... Because he's a nerd.
"Ain't it? If you'd like I could buy ya something similar, just so you can call me if you need help with anything, whether it be needing someone taken cared of or needing to reach the top shelf"
"I'm so fucking pisses right now, I'm shaking and on the verge of throwing my backpack and cry because some assholes decided they wanted to kidnap me and ruined my hair and make up and now! I can't find my come, my mirror OR MY EYELINER. UGH. I FUCKING CAN'T. FUCK THOSE GUYS FUCK THOSE GUYS."
"I miss my mother... Sometimes, I wish to go to her house and cuddle with her, have her pet or play with my hair as I rant about my day. I can not do that anymore, I should've taken advantage of what I had... And father is of no help, too busy... Too busy too busy, no time for eldest son... None..."
"Your dad sounds dumb, father figures are never trustworthy. They just leave you to fend for yourself, never loving you or caring for you... Useless dad... You may come to me if you need help, I'm not a father. I'm better than a father! Everyone needs help every once in awhile, even adults. Sometimes my dad needs help with... Well he rarely pays attention to me so.... B-but he lets me help him sometimes when he remembers me so!! Adults need help sometimes!! Which means a child like you should need more help than a stupid stinky adult, and I'm older so I believe I could be of great help!"
"I- I'll... Hm..." Benjamin takes his phone to show the child what a phone is. "Just to confirm, you do not have one of these devices or anything similar?"
He should probably check how much money he has... Perhaps he'd be able to buy the kid something cheap...
"It..." he moves to the kid to show him the phone, crouching next to him. "So ima turn it on like this... Uhm. This is home screen, it tells you the time and uh notifications from apps... If I swipe up and then do my password we see all these apps right? So er... Something like- oh YouTube, this let's you watch videos right? And then-"
He continues to talk about what a phone does... Because he's a nerd.
"I miss my mother... Sometimes, I wish to go to her house and cuddle with her, have her pet or play with my hair as I rant about my day. I can not do that anymore, I should've taken advantage of what I had... And father is of no help, too busy... Too busy too busy, no time for eldest son... None..."
"Your dad sounds dumb, father figures are never trustworthy. They just leave you to fend for yourself, never loving you or caring for you... Useless dad... You may come to me if you need help, I'm not a father. I'm better than a father! Everyone needs help every once in awhile, even adults. Sometimes my dad needs help with... Well he rarely pays attention to me so.... B-but he lets me help him sometimes when he remembers me so!! Adults need help sometimes!! Which means a child like you should need more help than a stupid stinky adult, and I'm older so I believe I could be of great help!"
"I- I'll... Hm..." Benjamin takes his phone to show the child what a phone is. "Just to confirm, you do not have one of these devices or anything similar?"
He should probably check how much money he has... Perhaps he'd be able to buy the kid something cheap...
"Yes I know my father is a bad person, yes I know he kidnaps innocent women, yes I know he kills a ton of people, no I am not affiliated with him please stop asking about him I hate him too."
Benjamin knows he has no control over his emotions, how he feels without understanding why but knowing that if he shows them then others will get hurt or will be bothered and he- he doesn't want that. But he can't help it! He feels so much anger and jealousy of basically everyone in existence because why can they be loved when he can't? He's killed people before too! He's seen things kids shouldn't too! So why is he the only one without a single person who genuinely loves him. Who wants to stick around and care?
He wonders that often, he hates how sad it makes him. It's disgusting, even Calvin would disgusted by it... Eugh...
He's journaling his thoughts, legs swinging as he sits on the roof, a roof he knows like the back of his hand because that's his apartment rooftop. The sun has long since set and it's dark but there's light underneath him from the people bustling below and the lights of the surrounding buildings. There's some lonely folks down there, those he could relate to, and he knows he shouldn't be on the roof because those- those vigilantes may come by but who cares really? Perhaps they'll scare him and accidentally have him fall to his death. Maybe death would save him from loneliness.
He likes to think that he's not suicidal, that he had a reason to live but- sometimes he thinks he doesn't. The people he believes are his reason to live love to leave him, love to go away for so long and leave him wondering if they ever truly loved him at all. If they cared, he wished they did. That they stayed, with him, just because they want to. Is that too much to ask for?
He sighs softly before looking back to his journal as he attempts to continue writing his thoughts when a singular sound stops him. A soft heartbeat, behind him, footsteps. He calls out quickly, gripping his knife tightly in his pocket. "Hello?"
"Hey, kid." An oddly cherry voice rang out. The figure eventually came into the light, eugh.
"Put that away, blades aren't a proper greeting. If we were back at my old headquarters, maybe, but not the point." He waved his hand almost dismissively, it was difficult identifying his intention with that.
"What's on your mind, eh? You don't look too happy to see me. Which I understand, I've been busy."
Benjamin squeaks at the familiar voice, immediately slamming his journal closed and holding it close. He listens, obviously he does, and places his knife back into his pocket and pouts slightly at the older man.
"Sure you've been... It is nothing really, nothing that you should worry about anyway." he continues to hug the journal, looking away as he stares back toward the streets of the city.
