you can never go back there

31 - sad - stoned

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holy fuck....the safeway meal is going down. difficult.

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felt like everyone hated me at the grocery store. found an unexpectedly tastier seeming meal than anticipated. meal IS tasty but shockingly spicy. having a fuckin. #delicate evening it would appear

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the logical conclusion of 1. needing more beer and 2. needing dinner but idk what to do is NOT to get delivery but to go buy myself a sad dinner and more beer at the safeway and logically i know it wont even be that bad if i just GO DO IT but. you know the story

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need to figure out what to do for dinner (husband left for the festival this morning) and by god. the sweet siren song of ordering delivery. BUT I SHANT

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tumblr ads will be like "Learn the ways of longevity...from Vietnamese elders" with a terrible picture of vegetables on a cutting board and the button at the bottom will be like Explore The Secret

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our apt complex is doing some direly needed parking lot maintenance tomorrow and thursday WHICH IS GREAT but all residents have to have cars outta the lot from 8am to 6pm which like. not sure what to do abt that

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requested a refill on the 3rd and my doc just. hasnt approved it which like, hes been hella busy lately and i think tends to be a bit scattered anyhow and im chilling on it for the moment but im leaving for the festival on friday morning and im like. pls colin. i need that before i leave

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as ive said before i dont really have a problem with the neighbors toddlers because they never cause any trouble even tho it is always kind of a jumpscare when i look up from the couch and theres an unfamiliar child RIGHT there but i digress. most of the time theyre fine except they do sometimes do this thing where they go outside and just scream like theyre being slaughtered. and like...i understand this is also normal toddler behavior but good god. it is like a cheese grater to the soul

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i always forget that star trek: voyager is like. 75% actual short horror films and 25% shit like "what if a spaceship became sentient and fell in love with tom paris".

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this was a bad example because the episode of the spaceship falling in love with tom paris is also a horror movie.

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i always forget that star trek: voyager is like. 75% actual short horror films and 25% shit like "what if a spaceship became sentient and fell in love with tom paris".

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okay actually my doc did give me a little write up about my blood draw results but it is also confusing. "vitamin d levels remain very low. you have developed very mild anemia. iron levels have improved significantly from 1 year ago." WHAT DAT MEAN DOC i thought anemia meant low iron...also im taking iron and vitamin d but i guess i need more?? i know that liquid supplements are supposed to be more effective than like tablet forms so i guess maybe its time i switch to those idk. he did also say none of my results were urgent or a cause for concern tho so i guess im chillin. the mild anemia probably would account for the low energy, and i have been getting cold again lately.

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also okay i think ive been on an upswing mentally/physically; im thinking maybe my pms is getting worse and/or my birth control is just affecting me in a way that i dont want it to IDK whats been going on with me at all in regards to just feeling like shit mentally and physically all the time but i think the past week was a bit better upon reflection but also this weekend i once again just. slept so much and this morning i only got up because i wanted time to be awake and unobligated before going over for my mom's bday lunch but like. i couldve just kept sleeping. and now ive had my vyvanse AND some coffee and i still feel like i could go back to sleep. and im not really mad because my sleep was soooo fucked for a while there but i just dont understand what switch flipped or what changed for me to be suddenly sleeping SO well like almost TOO WELL. i went from having trouble falling asleep and consistently waking up really early and being unable to get back to sleep, to sleeping hard and solid thru the night, not having any trouble falling asleep, and being able to just roll over and keep sleeping in the morning if i dont have a reason to get up. again. not really mad but what the hell is going on

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it is funny when i tell people we go to oregon country fair every year because i can always tell they think i mean like, a county fair with rides and shit and its like no im going to do acid in the woods for three days. and hit the communal showers

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t-minus one week till the festival and tbh. im just scared

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im certain its the world cup but the upstairs neighbors have been absolutely PARTYING for the past like. two weeks straight or however long the world cup has been going on and mostly its just the usual banging around and hollering when someone scores which is obvs fine but sometimes. sometimes it sounds like there are two huge people having an actual no holds barred wrestling match in the entire apartment, like shit will be rattling on our walls and once again im just like. what could you possibly be doing

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can someone help me remember its the fourth of july so i stop jumping every time a firework goes off. im like a dog rn

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found out last night that bobby wagner owns a crumbl cookies franchise in renton and found out just now that tyler lockett has a published book of poetry, which i immediately bought. god i miss football. neither of those dudes even play for the seahawks anymore but i miss them :( i also just miss football season. my boss was complaining about no baseball when baseball season was right around the corner and i was like YOU DONT GET TO COMPLAIN!!!! THEYRE ALWAYS PLAYING BASEBALL!!! BASEBALL IS ALWAYS HAPPENING WHAT ARE YOU EVEN TALKING ABOUT