tug-of-war - any hard struggle between equally matched groups
conflict, struggle, battle - an open clash between two opposing groups (or individuals). There is a constant war within our heads, a battle yet to be determind. A battle which defines us moulding us in every form and virtue. It is this tug of war game that has landed me where I am today. Life's journey is about the battle. The path of right and wrong are seldom different. I no doubt I have faced my share of these on going matches, but the fact that I am here today means I must have done something right. Seldom are we given a second chance and more than often do we overlook that, that we let those moments of hope pass us by. We need to close our eyes and learn to trust our inner eyes. How many of us can say we have blindly believed in what we are doing without doubting ourselves???Every step I have taken till today we done with blind faith, Yes I failed my 8th, I thought that was the end for me. If not for my parents and family I know I would have been an introvert. Here how I learnt what it means to have blind faith.
One day during my summer holidays after my 8th std summer holidays my friend and I walked along on our street road, it had become our little habit, a way of venting our feelings, a way of bonding and off course gossiping. Little did I know my dad had asked her to come be with me. You see my father had gone to school to get my results, what he learnt there was that I had Dyslexia(a learning disability that impairs a person's fluency or comprehension accuracy in being able to read,[1] and which can manifest itself as a difficulty with phonological awareness, phonological decoding, orthographic coding, auditory short-term memory, or rapid naming.) which in other words meant I had failed. My dad reached home and told me That I had to repeat the year, Dased and confused I remembered asking if I could change my school, I was advised I couldn't as we couldn't afford to pay admission fees again. I stormed out headed for my solice "the road", follwed closest by my sister,my friend,my strength and my conscience. We walked for hours that day, I cried for what seemed like days. Silently she held my hands and said no words, for till today those are things we have learnt to communicate without. No one bothered to call us in for they knew I needed to be on my own.
Weeks passed, summer was over and the first day of school was here. We had this horrid system during our assembly where we had to sit with our classmates and at the end of the assembly get up and move to the next class. I sat there as my friends got up all happy faced and marched on to there new classes while I waited for my new classmates to come sit with me where I sat alone. That was one of the most horrid thing I've ever faced, it was for the first time I saw myself as the world saw me. The teachers looked at me with pity in there eyes. anyway the year went on, I passed with much needed help. I was now in 9th and this is were faith stepped in for the 2nd time, I was nominated for house prefect, me the reject nominated. Boy was I on cloud 9. I won and again I passed to 10th. and yet again I was nominated for house captian. I won that to, now i'm not bragging but telling you how God understands when you need a boost in your life. That year changed everything. In december we had a class out to Ooty, Teacher asked us to get permission to go with the class, I did just that but was told we couldn't afford just then. I in formed my teacher, she said that was fine and alright but what I heard was something different, I heard Get you parents to have a word to the principal, I have no idea how I heard that sentence, but I did just that. And from there on its been magic.
You see if I had failed I wouldn't have become prefect or captain, If I hadn't failed I would have gone on my trip to Ooty)after which we moved to Ooty), If I hadn't failed I wouldn't have been able to do what I which is interior Design, If I hadn't failed I wouldn't have learnt that failure IS a steeping stone to success.
Every day it is this very tug of war game we play, Chosing our own path sometime right, sometimes wrong. But trust in yourself...
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