Sometimes a friend will ask me for advice because they feel like theyâre going nowhere in life. They tell me their whole story, whether for two minutes or two hours, and I listen.
I can see theyâre totally dead inside. Their eyes are hollowed out. Their hands shake. They have that numb zombified look of giving in to lesser things. They have the desperate look of the Reaper coming to collect their corpse.Â
Itâs always because of a boyfriend. Or a lack of purpose. Or terrible parents. Or a ninth year in college. Or an addiction: porn, heroin, meth, weed, people. Or a low-grade haunting fatigue and depression and cynicism with no discernible cause.Â
Itâs all these things but none of these things. It is emptiness, and we try to fill it by finding a god in things that are not God.Â
 At this point, I tell them:
You stand on the precipice of a very difficult decision, where you can let go of your dead-end self-induced slavery and turn away from everything that is draining the light out of your eyes. You can walk away from the wreckage. A clean break. You are young and itâs not too late. Tomorrow can be a different day. A fresh start. A new you. A rediscovery of who you are and who God made you to be.Â
Because Iâve seen your story a million times. You have fun for a little while with semi-interesting people in dimly lit venues putting things into your veins while saying popular catchphrases to win your cultural zeitgeist and youâre certain that this pseudo-rebellion is everything youâve always wanted.Â
Except here you are with me, asking me for help, because on some level you know youâre settling for less and selling yourself short and doing nothing valuable and youâve become this fake version of you, and time is running short and your friends are getting younger and you feel creepier and cheaper and lonelier everyday. Â Youâre tired of being someone elseâs boredom-filler.Â
I hate to be a jerk about it and I know itâs hard: but I think you already know the answer. I think you know thereâs no easy way to do this except to crawl out of the burning building and to be free of all this stuff that is less than you. Â
Itâs going to suck, but unless you walk away, you will end up right back to this seat in front of me and ten years will have passed with the same story and the same emptiness.Â
I just love you, and God loves you, and we donât want you to fake it anymore.
I donât know what it will look like for you to turn. Smash it to pieces. Tell it goodbye. Throw it in the trash. Get your friend to stop you. Go to rehab or turn yourself in or get a therapist. It will probably be drastic and dramatic. Youâll hate giving it up, because itâs your baby, your god, your idea of you.Â
You might have to leave people behind, mostly people who want to stay there. Some might follow. It might feel like youâre killing a part of yourself. You might fail to get away for a while. Your âfriendsâ will hate your guts. Youâll think I was wrong, that you were wrong, that you were crazy to ever think of walking away. You might go back and it could even be okay, if youâre really lucky.Â
 But sometimes I see the other end of this story. I see people who really make that hard decision and really persevere and suddenly find out there must be more to life than self-entertainment and preservation.Â
They find a purpose and their God and their meaning and their value and dignity and self-respect, and the light comes back on in their eyes. They actually start doing something worth a damn.
They drop the zombie look. They take big risks with charity and generosity and big ideas and grand visions and care about all those things we always wanted to care about.
They get to âhelp peopleâ like we said we would when we were six years old dreaming of being firefighters and doctors and superheroes. They get to be on those exciting adventures like the ones we read about in those inspirational articles we share on Facebook that we could supposedly never do ourselves.Â
And thereâs nothing wrong with âpartying.â Youâll outgrow all the old stuff but you can be around it without being controlled by it: because it doesnât hold weight anymore. You actually learn how to celebrate for real: because thereâs a direction, a richness to your one God-given life. I think what you think is partying right now is actually just little kids playing grown-up, and real partying is what grown-ups do when they see their ideas come alive.Â
If you decide to wait it out: I think your existential itch will keep bothering you. The cognitive dissonance will be too much to bear. But what will hold you back from moving forward is the fear. To be honest, itâs scary as hell to leave all that comfort and your cute friends and your whole escape-routine. Everyone likes mindlessness. Itâs easier. So we just keep being afraid. I understand that.
I just donât think itâs worth it.Â
 But hey, God has grace for you whatever you decide to do. I just think that for one type of person, Godâs grace sort of gets them out of trouble and helps them barely make it. Thatâs for mostly all of us. But for the other person: Godâs grace actually empowers them for something more. It drives them to a real life. It gives them a soul. Their eyes quit being dead.
I donât mean you sell your stuff and move to Zimbabwe, unless you want to. I donât mean you go to church nine times a week and lead the choir, unless thatâs your thing. I just mean: you make a difference in your corner of the universe.
Thatâs probably really corny and it sounds like a bumper sticker, but it doesnât mean itâs untrue. I bet youâve been waiting for it your whole life. Youâve been thirsty to do something else. And I hope you let go of whatever you need to so you can make it happen, so at the very least, you can move on and stop feeling this way.
You can get out of this fog and feel like youâre breathing your own air. You can finally feel like a real human being.Â
This is morbid for me to say so: but I think youâll look back from your deathbed on this day and you wonât regret letting go. Itâll be the day you said â
âI was living however I wanted, but I knew something had to change, and as hard as it was: I walked away. I chose something better. It was the day I really became free. By the grace of God, I made something out of my life. I made something. And it was a good life.â