I am the girl who has it all
Because of the way i grew up i always felt miserable about everything that i did. Even if I did what I wanted, after i spend some time on it then I started to feel like i didn't want that anymore. i felt imprisoned and intimidated.
The thing is that everything in life is hard but that makes everything so special. I often get anxious, bored and angry when I even think about my school, the one that i manifested and studied two years to get into. First i thought that I didn't know what i wanted and I hadn't thought well about it. But all my life i knew this is what I wanted. Plus I know tons of people that study something they don't want to, even hard subjects. But they don't worry, they don't get mad or complain. They go with the flow. I constantly compare myself with people who seem to have it better, travel, studying something easier, have more connections, more job opportunities.
What I don't realise is that I'm living a privilege. Not only it is a privilege to study, but study something i like, let alone in a university, the one that i wanted to, the only university in my country that teaches my material.
I also live in the capital of my country in which I'm studying at. How many people want to visit it, study, travel, live. And yet I do, in a beautiful apartment with my sister.
I'm worried about connections, being able to find my dream job and being better than others. Well, when I focus on myself I've seen and proven what I can do. That's where delusion is needed. Delusion for me means having blind belief about oneself and acting as if you have what you want. Because acting is attracting, basic physics. By doing things you get results. It is as simple as that, so if you are reading this and you have the same "issue", yes in reality, you do have it all.
We are just all too rapped up to our heads.
People are literally jealous of you. And you know it!