I go from happy I got some work done this morning to sad and sitting here in front of the computer. Why is this happening to me. I'm just here trying to do what I can, to live. Am I truly living though? I rarely go out for fun anymore. I feel disconnected, I feel bad when I spend to much time by myself. When I was younger time to myself was precious, now time by myself is just lonely. I spend my life filling it with purpose. I was that guy that would help any friend, any time. As time went on, me the guy that didn't need help from anyone started to. Well, being on the other side of the coin is difficult when the people you know have never had to help you. I still get people asking me for help but the second I ask back the world becomes a ghost town. Or worse I get the "prayer line". Which to me means, sorry I can't help you but I wish you luck in finding someone that does. So if you are someone that is praying for me just do it and don't tell me about it. Now saying that I do believe in prayer but at times when I need help its more than prayers I need. I depend on people. Just like when someone asks me for help and I answer I hope someone will answer me. That hasn't happened yet and I'm just sitting here in pain mentally and physically.
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