Fame Has a Price

Carter Belasco. 23. Currently lighting up the big screen with a bigger smile. Yes, I'll do autographs. [ A 1x1 OC RP blog. ]

[bigscreenboy]

alaskawritcs:

Amy rolled her hazel eyes at his comment, giving him a look ‘you think?’ as she chuckled lightly, closing the planner in hand. “You definitely aren’t paying me enough and what happens in the bedroom doesn’t cover that either Mr. Belasco.” She playfully fluttered her eyelashes as they walked through the elevator doors, pressing the button to the floor they are required to be at. Amy let her hand drop to her side as she leaned against the wall, “So I was thinking, we should go visit our hometown. Now before you say no, i got a message from my sister that my dad isn’t doing well.” 

The idea of Amy going back to the deadbeat hometown had her unsure of even returning, the voices of doubt was always there to look down upon the red head choice on running off into the real world instead of staying behind like her parents did. Leaving with Carter was possibly the best decision she made but it was also lonely especially when they broke up and she missed her family and siblings. 

Carter leaned against the elevator wall, shocked. He opened his mouth. “Your dad ...?” He touched her shoulder, wanting to hold her, but then the elevator doors opened and he had to step away. There were too many people in the lobby to risk it. He wished she had brought this up sooner, when they were still in private.

“I ... I’m not saying no,” he said. “But I think we need to talk about this later. Soon. Today. But ... later.” He figured she’d fill in the blanks. They weren’t safe, right now.

[bigscreenboy]

 collateralbcauty:

Amy breathed out as she stared up at Carter, smiling gently at him as she shook her head at his response. It was her who didn’t deserve him, she was just thankful they managed to patch up their past and seeing the way they are right now just proves that they both were growing as stronger people. “That’s you, I am perfectly capable of acting like you aren’t the hottest thing on earth.” Amy rolled her eyes and followed after him. Already going into Personal Assistant mode as she scrolled through the iPad mini. 

“You have a dinner with your co-worker and a few film producers tonight to discuss future projects after this upcoming movie is finished with filming. Mr. Webb would like to have a sit down chat with you on being on Men’s Health magazine and you owe me dinner for making sure you don’t lose your job.”

Carter huffed out a small laugh. “Sure, babe. Just remember who the actor in this relationship is.” He was perfectly capable of hiding his emotions, of course, since that was what he did for a living. He just didn’t want to -- he wanted everyone to know how awesome he thought Amy was and how much he loved her. But he knew that doing that would only cause problems for them in the long run. People could be really cruel, he saw it first hand, and his manager would be angry with him.

As Amy slipped into a more professional tone, he nodded along, running a hand through his hair. He wasn’t surprised that it was busy. Comicon weekend was a good time for people to be in town. At her last jab, he smirked a little. “Whatever I’m paying you, it’s not enough,” he said glibly.

[bigscreenboy]

collateralbcauty:

She was still thankful they managed to overstep their big argument that tore a wedge between the two, when they split up and just disappeared from each other’s lives, it was hard on the red head because she pretty much lost her best friend, the one person who knew her better than she knew herself. But fate would have had it when she walked through her first day at her job with Carter seated there and the man that interviewed her, she was ready to turn around and walk out but was quickly reminded with her bills piling up and the job was decent that paid her apartment and phone bill to stay on. 

Amy’s eyes fluttered shut as she felt his lips against hers, wrapping her arms around his torso and smiling into the kiss, “He can be quite the ass when he hasn’t eaten or gotten enough sleep.” The red head chuckled while pecking his lips again, “Fine, let’s hint around at your fake lover and see if she is seeing anyone. I’ll play decoy and we can be one big happy family.” 

“But does he have a nice ass?” Carter shot back easily, grinning. He knew that he’d have to go soon. He had obligations waiting for him. But he couldn’t help clinging to every stolen moment that he got with Amy. There was something oddly exciting about it, about this thing between them being forbidden. He supposed it was human nature, the reason that Romeo & Juliet still played to packed houses every night. It made him feel a little bit like a cliche, but there it was.

When she agreed to his plan, no matter how joking her agreement was, he paused. He took her face very carefully between his hands and kissed her, long and hard and slow. When they finally pulled apart, he smiled at her. “I don’t deserve you.” And then, finally, finally, he stepped away. “Now, time to pretend like we don’t want to jump each other’s bones every time we’re within spitting distance of each other!” He grinned, grabbing his jacket and slinging it over his shoulder. “Lights ... camera ... action!”

[bigscreenboy]

collateralbcauty:

Amy smile widen leaning her head to the side against his, her fingers tugged at his shirt and rolled her eyes at him. “How could I forget the two most important things about myself. Anyone would be lucky to be in my grace.” She playfully throw her hair over her shoulder, if she wasn’t so passionate about writing she probably would have tried the whole acting career but clearly Carter took that role and she was completely fine with that. The idea of freezing in front of million of people with the camera rolling on her face, it gave her the shivers of how disastrous that would turn out. 

“Are you going to suggest I pretend date him so it wouldn’t be weird or question worthy to people asking questions?” She asked with her eyebrows raised, it would deflect the dawning questions off their actual relationship if his co-worker was dating someone. “Holding his hand and pretend being in love–actually I can totally do that to get back at the times you had to kiss those people when I first started my job.”

“I know I am,” he offered, only half-teasing. Even though he said it lightly, he really was grateful to have Amy back in his life. It was only now that he had her back, that he realized what he was missing when she wasn’t around. Here in Hollywood, he was playing a part even when the cameras weren’t rolling. Amy was the only one who looked past the hollywood pretty boy act and saw him as he really was. He guessed that was why it hurt him so bad when he thought she forgot, but they had moved past that. They were able to move past that, because they were adults and their relationship could survive anything.

Or, well, almost anything. “No, I definitely did not suggest that.” He blanched a little at the thought. “I get it’s hypocritical, trust me, but ... I don’t like the idea of watching you kiss anyone else.” He grabbed her gently by the chin, his thumb brushing over her bottom lip. “At least, unless your boss is up your ass about keeping up appearances like mine is,” he joked, pulling her in for a light kiss.

[bigscreenboy]

collateralbcauty:

“Oh I know, they can be quite the selfish lovers. I dealt with one for years.” She jokingly said, her smile widening on her face at their little banter and the fact they were both in such a good mood which was rare from the hectic schedule they had to deal with. Her eyes crinkled in laughter, wrapping her arm loosely around his shoulder and bopped his nose. “I would start to question if you were just using me to keep you organized and satisfied in bed.” 

Amy was taken back by this, the idea of coming out to his co-star was risky business especially when they could easily turn their backs upon one another. She was quite protective when it came to Carter, always over analyzing people who probably didn’t mean harm. “I mean…are you sure? I know I shouldn’t judge a book by its cover but you can’t trust people easily in this career you know. But, if you’re sure about this then I’m open to it.”

“Ah, good to hear you got out of that, then. What a trainwreck.” He buried his face in her neck, laughing against her skin. God, he had missed this. There were the big romantic moments, the sex, the dinners, all of that. All of that was good. But nothing quite compared to these silly little moments where they teased each other. “Don’t forget your stunning looks and winning personality,” he said lightly, kissing her on the temple.

He nodded when she spoke. “I hear you, Amy,” he said. And he did. He knew that good people were hard to come by. “But she seems like a basically decent person. And if she is dating someone, it probably sucks just as much for them as it does for us. It would make it suck less if we were able to complain to each other.” He laughed a little. “You know, you can chat with her boyfriend about how much it sucks to date an actor.”

[bigscreenboy]

collateralbcauty:

Amy paused from organizing his room, the desire to straighten it up had the tips of her fingers tingling as she turned to face Carter, noticing the familiar smile on his face. “I was going to you know be a person our age and go out to party–find myself a one night stand and do the whole walk of shame.” She teased lightly as she wrapped her arms around his shoulders, “Most expensive huh? Keep bribing me and tell me how much you love me.” The red head jokingly said, lifting her finger up to lightly tap her ears with a huge smile upon her face. 

“I’ll be able to sneak into your room, as long as I can get out of your room before anyone is awake to come barging in. The big guys have me running around doing things for you and your little spot light girlfriend.” Amy said bitterly, even though she had Carter fully to herself in private, she couldn’t help be a little jealous that his co-star could show him off in public.

Carter wrinkled his nose. “One night stand, huh? Just don’t bang an actor. I hear they’re all terribly selfish lovers,” he teased. He was in a good mood. And why shouldn’t he be? Comic con was fun, a chance for him to meet fans. But they could wait. He wrapped his arms around his girlfriend’s waist, pulling her closer to place a soft, lingering kiss on her lips. “... I love you,” he whispered tenderly. Then, grinning: “And I’m more than happy to bribe you.”

At the mention of his co-star, he raised his eyebrows. “Huh. Speaking of Felicity, I was thinking of telling her about you.” Before Amy could ask questions, he hurried on: “I mean, I think she already knows I have someone. She keeps sort of half-joking about it. And I think she has someone, too, but she’s afraid to say it first. Because they have a relationship like us. But she seems like the type to keep a secret, and honestly? It’d be fun to have friends we can hang out with and be a couple around. And if she’s seeing someone, I think she’d like it, too. You know?”

[bigscreenboy]

collateralbcauty:

@bigscreenboy

         Amy was stressed with the amount of work her higher boss set on her plate, with things going well in the production area of the movie and Carter finally getting into his role after a few small arguments between the two, it was safe to say that Amy was physically exhausted from being on the constant run around since they arrived back in California. The red head blew out a sigh past her lips as she walked into the hotel room, setting the outfit on the bed all the while trying to straight out Carter’s room. As much as she loved Carter, she forgot how much of a mess he was to live round, especially when they had their own apartment, way before he reached the A list actors, they would argue over who had to do the dishes next. The memory made her smile gently, it was one of the memories Amy held dear to her heart and something she couldn’t share with anyone without the information getting out about the two dating once again. 

“Carter I swear to all above universal, I’m going to throw those damn shoes out the window. Why can’t you get a new pair like a normal person.”

Carter took the outfit she offered, buttoning up the shirt and rolling the sleeves halfway up his arms. “Because they’re my lucky comicon shoes,” he explained calmly. He wore them to his first comic con, and he wasn’t about to stop now. He didn’t wear them for anything else, so it wasn’t like they smelled too bad. Not that he really needed lucky shoes. Comic con was one of the times he looked forward to most throughout the year, since it was one of the times he could actually interact with fans face-to-face without them stopping him on the street or something similarly awkward. It was a good time all around.

He paused in getting ready, smiling softly at her. “Are you going to be able to sneak into my room tonight?” He crossed the room, gently rubbing his hands up and down her arms. “You seem stressed. I’d love to help you ... loosen up.” His smile morphed into a grin. “And if that means ordering the most expensive room service and snuggling, you know I’m happy to do that, too.”

[bigscreenboy]

collateralbcauty:

She stayed silent at his response, wondering how people can handle this kind of life style, she watched how it ate up many brilliant people. Amy was deathly afraid of losing Carter toward the fame again, maybe even something worse than that too. She reached forward to cup his face and turn it toward her face, offering a gentle smile that she only gave to him. “Carter, no one can forget you–you’re well known in the world. Hell you’re an A list actor with a fan base that is amazing and supportive of you. The only way you would lose that stardom would be if you did something completely terrible. But if you want to continue doing this role and I’ll support you, help you with anything i can.”

Amazingly, some of the anxiety in his chest loosened when she mentioned his fans. “They are pretty great,” he admitted. He had heard so many fantastic stories from them, about how he inspired them or helped them. Regardless of what the critics said, even if he never had a career again, the lives he touched would be real. That had to count for something, didn’t it? He leaned against Amy, drawing her a bit closer by the waist. “I ... Still want to do the role,” he admitted. “Just ... not for five more minutes.” He buried his face in her neck, hand tracing small circles on her back. He didn’t want anything more from her. Just having her next to him was enough.

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy returned a small smile of her own, even if they fought they always managed to makeup. One step at a time, she would tell herself after the breakup happened. She understood his fear of being dropped from an A list actor so easily. Hollywood was a tough career to maintain in the spot light, she took notice of the leaps actors did to achieve the money, some not so proudly. 

“It’s all about taking a chance Carter, whether it’s scary or not. I know you push yourself a lot in this field but if you continue pushing yourself…you will burn out quicker as a star.” Amy pushed back some of his hair from his face, “You got this far with your talent, your agent saw something inside you to sign you up under the same agency as many A list actors.” The red head flashed him a grin, “Now don’t tell me you are going to start listening to the people from our home town about how we wouldn’t make it, will you?”

“I don’t know how to not push myself,” he admitted quietly, looking at his lap. “This field doesn’t exactly allow for vacations.” Sure, people took time off. But there was always that ever present fear that people would forget about him if he wasn’t in front of them every day. He was talented, and down to earth -- they liked to market the “boy next door” thing -- but he knew that there wasn’t anything particularly special about him. “There are a million people like me,” he said. “It feels like the only thing that sets me apart is the fact that I just keep going, all the time, and even that isn’t enough sometimes.” Just look at you, he wanted to add, but didn’t.

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy crawled beside him and laid on her stomach, turning her head to the side as she listened to him talk about his concerns. This was probably the first time in a long time they did this, it was always fighting and jealousy between the two that they never took the time to listen to the other’s problem or what was bothering them. In a way, they were maturing, their relationship was becoming more mature then when they were in high school thinking they knew everything. 

“Carter, you don’t see what others see when you are acting. They are blown away from how much work you put into the part or how easily it is for you to get into character. Not many actors or actresses have that mind set to separate personal and scripts from their lives.” Amy reached out and pinched his nose, “You need to stop being so hard on yourself. Even if the writers think that you are too much trouble their loss, we’ll find you a better part that you can get into character with.” 

When she reached out, he took her hand and brought her fingers to his lips. It was an unconscious romantic gesture, something he had been doing with her for years. It felt incredibly easy to slip back into it now. “I’m scared, Amy,” he said quietly. “Sometimes it feels like I’m scared all the time. You know how brutal this industry can be. All it takes is one mistake -- one flop -- one rumor -- and ...”

He made a vague hand gesture. He knew she got the picture. Hollywood had been much crueler to her than it had been to him, but that didn’t mean he didn’t have his own anxieties. He was talented, sure, but there were so many talented people out there. Sometimes it felt like more luck than hard work that got him here. He didn’t like to think that way, but the thought was there, all the same.

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy was lost with words, part of her felt terrible for quickly assuming that Carter became a shallow celebrity that she saw while working in this type of field and even through magazines and gossip. She let herself be pushed into thinking Carter was known for getting everything he wanted and she lost herself along the way. The high school Amy Reese who believed in a lot of things, the main support for Carter and would always watch the passion in his eyes and actions on stage had her falling for him harder which each performance. Amy could feel her lips turning down into a frown, she did feel terrible so terrible that she wouldn’t blame him for yelling at her and start a fight that was familiar. 

“I don’t know Carter, being in this field fogs my judgement and when you just ended things you added another nail into it having me think that every big time movie star was arrogant on what he or she did no matter what the cost. Then when we decided to try this again, seeing glimpse of you made me happy to see you didn’t lose the high school Carter I grew to know and love was still there.” She explained the best she could, toying with the end of the shirt, “I just assumed the worse in people and I’m sorry.” 

It was an apologize and she wasn’t sure how else to express it. She knew the limits of keeping her distance when he was upset, even sometimes playing along across the lines to push his buttons more. Hollywood was toxic, a thought she just assumed was because people went and got their dreams crushed. But being in the field long enough she learned a lot happens that gave her chills. Perhaps why she wasn’t able to do something in acting, she preferred being behind the screen. “If that’s not who you want to be, you need to let the writers and producers know. Tell them to be brutally honest with you on this part.”

Hearing her words broke his heart. “Leaving you is one of my biggest regrets,” he admitted. “We were fighting all the time, and I didn’t know how to make things work. But I didn’t want to try, either. I was a dumb kid who thought that love didn’t need work. I didn’t even want to try and talk things out and make things better because it felt too hard.” He reached out and took Amy’s hand.

“But I don’t want things to be that way anymore. I don’t want to be the High School Carter, and I don’t want to be Young and Dumb Carter, either. I want to be the Carter that I am now ... Someone who is older and more mature. Not perfect, but learning.” He sighed. “I just want you to see ... I’m not shallow. I care about what I do ... and I care about you. I’m going to take both seriously, just like I always should have.” He always took his acting seriously and worked hard at it. It was time to work hard at his relationship with Amy, too.

Sighing at her advice, he flopped backward on his bed. “I know you’re right. But what if they decide that I’m not worth the trouble? If they don’t really care about the acting ... if they only see me as a pretty face, well, there’s millions of those in Hollywood. I’m worried.” Success was fleeting and if he didn’t play his cards right, it could all end tomorrow. He knew that. It was why he was so hesitant to be open about his relationship with Amy. Everything he did was so scrutinized.

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy didn’t understand why he was so upset for, hell there were plenty of actors and actresses out there struggling to land a part in a movie or show yet here he was complaining on not getting a certain line right. Maybe she didn’t understand like she once did in high school, she blamed the struggle she had to face on giving up her own dreams to make sure she had a place to live, food to eat and clothes on her back. “Carter that’s–” Staring at him as she tried to get him to listen, but he dismissed her as he walked out of the room. 

She set the phone down and rubbed her face, she felt like shit the way she just dismissed his feelings on his career. Wondering when and how she turned like this, she became the usual PA and boss that Carter deals with on a daily since he entered this world. Not caring about how one person felt about a part and just focusing on publicity and money. Her hazel eyes looked up at the ceiling before following after him. 

Her feet walked along his floor until she reached back to his room, knocking on the door quietly and peeking inside. “Carter…I’m sorry I didn’t take anything into consideration. I forgot how much you want things to work and how much your performance means to you, I just…” She trailed off unsure how to word anything now. “I’m sorry.”

Carter wasn’t in the shower when she came up. How could he be? He felt like they were back at square one, fighting over everything. But somehow, this was worse. Because those little spats were about nothing, while this ... it was like she wasn’t even talking to him. Like she thought he was someone completely different than who he was. Like she didn’t know him at all, didn’t want to even bother to listen.

He wanted to accept her apology, he did. That felt like the mature thing to do, which was what he was really trying to do. But he was still deeply hurt, and her apology felt like a bandaid smacked on a bruise -- it looked good, in theory, but it didn’t really do any good and the damn thing still hurt. He rubbed a hand over his face, feeling the want to snap at her rise up. He managed to push it down this time, which felt like progress.

“How could you just ... forget?” He shook his head. It sounded too wounded. “I mean ... I don’t mean it like that. But, like ... God, Amy, if that’s the person you really think ... thought ... I am, then how can you even stand to be around me? Why even bother with something like this with someone so shallow? That’s not who I am, that’s not who I want to be.”

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy grind her molars as she let him vent out his anger, she knew he was getting overwhelmed with everything and she couldn’t do anything besides her job. Hell even the higher ups were pressuring her into coaxing Carter into picking up more things on his already over flowing plate. She was honestly ready to go head to head with Carter on arguing about the fact she was acting like a damn mother as much as she hated it, it was true and she couldn’t help it. If he wasn’t such an A list actor he wouldn’t have any of this scheduling problem. 

“Honestly Carter, why are you sweating the small stuff? You already have a roll on the movie, you’re the one actor that everyone wants with a pretty little famous girlfriend on your arm. Maybe it’s in your head about your acting, stage fright or something.” Amy waved off the conversation as she walked around him to unplug the coffee maker and moved along the kitchen to keep herself busy. She didn’t understand what he meant about his acting being terrible lately, maybe it was the fact he was dealing with a lot with such little time. 

“Just because you are getting stressed out doesn’t mean I am the punching bag ready to take your hits like last time around.” She continued on, maybe she was irritated or jealous with everything for him. Turning around to lean against the counter with her head tilted to the side. “The role was meant for you to play, hell the directors didn’t even need you to do audition since it was them asking you to play the part so I don’t understand why this is eating you up.”

“I apologized, Amy -- can’t you give me a little credit here?” He apologized within seconds of messing up, but that still wasn’t enough for her? “I know I’m not perfect, but honestly, I’m really trying here. The last thing I need is you ... Wait.” He trailed off, her words really sinking in. Not just the fact that she was annoyed with him for snapping at her (which, okay, she had every right to be, but clearly he was trying to make it better), but what came after that.

“Amy ... Jesus, Amy, are you even listening to what I’m trying to tell you?” He ran a hand through his hair. “They ... They fucking handed me the fucking part, and that’s the problem, isn’t it? They ... They expected me to be good, and I’m not, and that’s a problem. Or, maybe you’re right and it’s just because I’m famous, and that’s even worse! I mean, what, Amy, what do you think? Do you think that I’m in this for the fame? Is all I’m fucking good for just putting on a pretty boy smile and nothing else?”

It was true, he liked the fame. But before that, he liked acting. And the fact that Amy was so ready to dismiss that ... it hurt, it really did. “I really ... fucking ... out of everyone, I expected you to understand.” He was angry, but more than that, he was sad and tired. “I ... I care about my work. I want to be able to take pride in it. It ... It means a lot to me, you know?” He turned away from her. “I thought you knew. I had no idea you thought I was just some ... shallow asshole who was going to coast on roles that he was given.” He sighed. “I have to go shower.”

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy was putting the butter on the toast, humming lightly under her breath as she continued to hear her phone buzz with notification and emails. Sometimes she wondered how long she can be someone’s assistant, it paid well but it wasn’t something she was passionate about. She was happy that Carter managed to achieve his dream while she couldn’t, if he was happy then she was too, the little jealousy was still there but she kept it to herself. 

Smiling when she felt him behind her, she took a bite out of her toast and hummed under her breath. “The latest is probably two pm, you are needed on set to go over a few line readings, then we have to rush you to go on a date with Faith, then get your tux fitted for the awards that are coming up.” Amy list of all the things he needed to do, even the bitterness leaving her voice wasn’t missed. As much as she knew it was a fake dating, she couldn’t help but be bitter about the whole situation. 

“And don’t try to talk me out of getting one of those things cancelled Carter. You wanted this life and this is what comes with it.”

He stiffened, letting go of her when she snipped at him about not cancelling anything. “Christ, Amy, you aren’t my mom. Do you have to assume the worst like I’m some sort of --”

He was doing it again. Taking his frustrations out on her, when she was just doing his job. Running a hand over his face, he took a deep breath. “Sorry,” he said, softer this time. “I didn’t mean to snap at you.” He didn’t like being talked to like he was some sort of wayward child always one second away from causing mischief, but he had promised himself he was going to try and talk things through rationally instead of getting angry and picking fights. He made a mental note to bring it up with Amy later, since he had basically ruined any chance for a polite conversation about that right now.

“It’s just ... I’ve been really stressed, with this role. I haven’t been doing great with it. I don’t know if it’s the stupid Faith gimmick they’re trying to pull that’s messing with my head, or something else, but ...” He sighed, shaking his head. “I just ... I know I can do better than this. But something just ... isn’t ... connecting. My acting has been awful lately. And it’s frustrating me.” He looked at her apologetically. “I didn’t meant to take it out on you, sorry.”

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy was going through the schedule, the higher ups were getting on her ass about getting Carter to audition for several movies coming up, half of them wanted him without needing to audition. She stood in his kitchen with her hair in loose curls as she wore one of his shirts from staying the night, she may be mixing business and pleasure together but of course having to keep it hidden from the public’s eye made her a bit uneasy of getting caught. The red head sighed as she set her work cell down on the counter, agreeing with her boss that she will let Carter know about his upcoming arrangements. 

Her mind wondered off to the days in high school, so bright and full of hopes, now here she was no where near her dream job but an assistant for Carter. At least she was still here keeping him in his job and in line instead of going off and developing a bad habit that made several stars fall down from the A list celeb. 

The smell of coffee wrapped around her as she walked around the counter and poured herself a cup of Joe to start the day. “Carter, you need to get up and get ready.” She shouted loud enough to reach his room, hoping he actually got up to shower.

@jillianrps

Carter groaned, rolling over onto his stomach. He didn’t want to get out of bed today. He definitely didn’t want to go back on set. He didn’t know what it was -- maybe it was the stress of his fake relationship with Faith, or the impending pressure of having to shmooze with award nominators -- but he just wasn’t feeling into the role as of late. And his performance was suffering. He hated it when that happened, because it felt like he was proving detractors right -- that he didn’t actually have talent, that he was just a pretty boy like everyone said he was.

It was true, he liked the fame. But that didn’t mean that was the only thing he was in it for the fame. He truly cared about his acting, and hated when he got like this. He trudged downstairs, still in just his boxers, and approached Amy from behind, wrapping his arms around her.

“What’s ... like ... the absolute latest that I can leave the house?”

[bigscreenboy]

familiar.

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy wasn’t sure on what to say, she never thought of it like that. She figured he enjoyed being famous and single, she knew he had talent the hours of him practicing lines for a school play and even when they moved to California, watching him day by day practicing lines to get a role on set. Even she lend a hand to help him with certain parts, the red head understood him better than she can understand anybody else. Sliding off the table she reached forward before dropping her hand to her side, “Carter…” She trailed off, staring at his hands and reached for them, pulling them away from his face. “We both know Hollywood can be toxic, anyone would do anything to get where you are at. Yes you fucked up but now you are on the A list, the one thing we talked about when we had to get away from our families.” She breathed out, tugging him away from the kitchen her feet walking down the hallways where she figured his room would be. 

Pulling him toward the bed and crawled in, patting the spot beside her. Forgetting about her situation and focusing on the male that was showing his true feelings toward her for once, the one person she hasn’t seen in a long time. She reached up and caress his face, “I’ll stay and we can figure out how to get you back on track.”

He pulled her to him, loving the feeling of her bare skin against his. Not because of any sexual reason (although he wanted her, he always wanted her), but because she was so close. There was nothing between them. He wouldn’t let anything come between them ever again. “Thank you,” he said, whispering into her hair. “Thank you.”

[bigscreenboy]

familiar.

[bigscreenboy]

amyxreese:

Amy felt the tears threatening to fall down her face, wrapping her arms around his torso, not saying anything knowing what he said was true, she didn’t lose the man as much as she loved Carter, she don’t think she will love anyone more than him. “Carter–” She sighed and pulled back enough to grip his face, giving him a sad smile. “You left me, do you seriously expect me to just drop everything and come back, like nothing has changed? Yes I do love you and I believe I always will. But now you’re famous, who knows how your fans will act–I’m honestly surprised the papz didn’t find out about our marriage. I’m a rising author, both of our dreams came true. Do you honestly believe we can handle staying together again?” 

Carter knew she was right. His public image hinged on him being a teenaged heartthrob -- being unattainably attainable. He felt a dull throb in his chest as he took a step away from her. “I came here to be an actor,” he said. “That was my dream. But ... Somewhere along the line, I lost that. Instead of being an actor, I focused on being famous. And that ... my image ... Meant more to me than anything. I had to be ... a heartthrob, and that meant being single, attainable ... So I pushed you away. It was so fucking stupid, Amy! Why should I care about what people think of my relationship status? Shouldn’t it be my talent that matters?” He put his head in his hands. “It’s fucked up ... I fucked up ...”