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Things I Achieved Today 6.11

I want to keep a journal of things I achieve while I’m on my depressive episodes so when I feel like I can’t do anything I can look back and see the things I did in the past

First… I showered today after 4 days. I know I’m disgusting. But I don’t have school and I didn’t go out so…why would I right? WRONG! I should’ve because hygiene is important. But at least I did it after 4 days. I felt better thanks to warm water and feeling of clean hair.

Second… I took a walk on the beach at 11 pm. It was late and I don’t usually go out after dark but I was losing my mind at home so I made up a story to go out. I bought some food and came back in like 25 minutes but breathing clean air and being alone helped a lot. Watching the sea all by myself cleared my thoughts. The only bad thing is… I saw so many happy people around me. People younger than me with their partners, families, group of older people, you name it. I looked at them and I wondered if I will ever be happy like them, if I can smile like them one day. Probably when I’m on my manic episode I will. But you see, even when I’m manic this thought, this voice that tells me I’m not worthy to be loved or be happy never shuts up.

Three…I went to bar with my sister and her husband. I didn’t stay behind and sulk in front of my computer. I didn’t drink because it’s Ramadan but I missed my favorite bar because their band is playing there after 9 months. They stop playing there in winter since this is a summer vacation town. I missed the singer’s voice and guitarist’s crazy head bangs. I tried so hard not to order a tequila though. But it was pretty good. I even get in one of those giant bubbles you get in and try to walk on the water. After awhile I got claustrophobic and asked for them to pull me to side and take me out but still… it was so fun.

Yeah that’s all I guess. I hope I can do a post tomorrow. I want feel better.

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Writing a Bipolar Character

I see a lot of bipolar characters that simply… aren’t bipolar. It seems people don’t inform themselves on the mental illness before attempting to write it. As someone with the disorder, I’m going to explain it as best as I can and also give details on how it feels to experience it.

There are two parts to bipolar disorder. Mania and depression. Imagine having endless energy, so much that you can’t sleep, but you’re never tired or drowsy. You can function fine on only a couple hours of sleep or sometimes even none at all. You do things you probably shouldn’t because you become a little reckless, but it’s okay. You’re fine with it. You feel fantastic and feel like you can conquer the world. That’s mania. It’s why a lot of people quit their medication; they miss the ‘high’ times. I’ve done it before. Now, most people know what depression is. Bipolar depression is pretty much exactly like it. There aren’t many difference. You feel guilty and worthless; sometimes it’s nearly impossible to leave bed. You sleep constantly. You might even lose weight because you can’t bring yourself to eat. That’s bipolar depression.

The manic episodes have to last AT LEAST seven days to count as a manic episode and the depressive episodes have to last at least two weeks to count as a depressive episode. For a lot of people, each episode will last longer than that. Some people can have episodes lasting a month or longer. Some people have episodes that last the bare minimum. It all depends on the person.

Bipolar people aren’t necessarily angry or explosive. Some can be, but it’s not a required part of having the illness. However, mania can be a little touchy because of all the intensity and anger issues may arise for some people. And, sometimes the depression makes it a little easier to get agitated when people are bothering you when you’d rather be left alone.

When manic, people with bipolar disorder have a tendency to overspend, have a higher sex drive than normal, and are more likely to engage in any risky behavior.

Medications for bipolar are usually taken daily and are referred to as mood stabilizers. Examples of medications are lithium and abilify (technically an antipsychotic but it works well as a mood stabilizer). A common symptom of pretty much all bipolar meds is weight gain.

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by Ari Eastman. 

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Hi people of Tumblr! I just created this blog for a way to cope with my bipolar disorder and episodes. I’d be happy if you can reblog this if you blog about

• Bipolar disorder • Self care • Psychology • Social justice • Coping mechanism and other mental illnesses so I can get to know people with these conditions

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