اجعل هذا البلد آمناً

[bisateen]

Hello, if anyone is reading this please remember me and my my family in your prayers these last nights of Ramadan.

Please ask God to bring us together and allow us to live under one roof.

Thank you.

[ya-husain]

Karbala | 12/01/2022

[bisateen]

I feel alone. I feel hurt. I feel angry .

[bisateen]

I'm an absolute idiot who will never learn her lesson.

[shaikhspears]

إننا لا نبكي الميت لذهابه عنا وإنما لبقائنا دونه.

We weep not for the dead because they have left us, but for our survival without them.

[bisateen]

I just can't believe how the world doesn't stop when we mourn. How can a life that was once there be gone forever and everything has to go on as normal. We have to go back to work, we go back to school, we eat, drink, and we move on but they're not there. How is this possible. How.

[bisateen]

I'm trying to better myself. I'm trying to do right by myself. It's hard.

[keshmesheva-blog]

You, O my God, have relieved so many of my grievances (Dua Iftitah)

[bisateen]

So I accidentally read the Ramadan timetable wrong and ate after I was meant to stop eating. I was upset because I've been so focused this Ramadan on my spirituality and I hated that I made a silly mistake. I asked my mom if it was okay and she told me "any time you eat by mistake while fasting it is a gift from God and your fast still counts" and I'm about to cry honestly. Sometimes I'm so consumed with how powerful God is that I forget how merciful he is. I made a mistake. I didn't look at the time carefully. I was distracted. But God grants me this extra sip of water as a gift. I took it as a punishment for being so distracted that my fast would count for less but no it was His gift. I was distracted and didn't eat or drink when I was supposed to so he gifted me those extra few minutes where I didn't realize what time it was as a gift. I'm in awe.

سبحانك ما اعظمك و ارحمك

[bisateen]

I have a list of individuals who are sick that I pray for as often as I can and in nearly all my prayers. Many of them sick with cancer and other horrible illnesses. For a long time, it seemed like the list kept getting shorter because all those I was praying for were dying.

Today I learned a little boy I have been praying for is officially cancer free. He's hope in the midst of all this despair. He is a reminder to keep praying.

I ask you all to include my grandmother in your prayers during this month. Please keep praying for her. Maybe if God doesn't answer my prayers he will answer yours.

[bisateen]

دنيا بس قهر متنحمل ولا تنجرع

الهي صبرك و رحمتك

[shaikhspears]

"إذ نادى ربه نداءً خفيا"

أنت لا تحتاج لرفع صوتك أثناء الدعاء: فهمسة منك يسمعها سبحانه!

"When he called to his Lord a private call"

You do not have to raise your voice during supplication, for a whisper from you He can hear: Glory be He!

[a4karr]

[bisateen]

Is this what life is always going to be like? Waiting for the next tragedy? On edge all the time expecting bad news? Heart beats uncontrollably every time the phone rings? Afraid to sleep but also too exhausted to stay awake. Is there ever peace?

[a4karr]

[bisateen]

Please pray for my grandmother

[bisateen]

My heart feels heavy