I’ve been trying to get into streaming lately (more than before - I’ve been doing it casually since about 2012) and my internet connection is getting upgraded soon so that’ll allow me to actually give it a really good shot, finally. I’m pretty hype about that. Oh, and I’m not going to self-promote here all the time, I guess this is just my blogging place, and that’s what I am doing.
Basically I want to do this because I like doing it, and because it motivates me to play games I otherwise wouldn’t - if I feel a game lacks a point to me playing it, it gives me one. It also lets me chat with people, make new friends, and honestly I just hope I can brighten a few people’s days. I don’t expect to make it big, I don’t want money, but if I can have fun and create a product that rewards others, that’s perfect. Watching streams helped me through dark times and I think that really opened my eyes up, and I really don’t mind if there’s points where nobody is watching - usually when I stream I only have like 2--5 people and that’s fine.
I’m having difficulty keeping a regular schedule due to sleeping problems but this ties into everything else. With more bandwidth I have more games to choose from and it’s a lot easier to do it casually. Right now I can’t stream Minecraft, for instance, because it just blurs too much. Many games are similar - I can’t just pick up a game and stream it. Also, just last week a friend generously donated a spare video card to me (RX580) which massively improved on my old one, meaning bandwidth is the only real bottleneck for PC games right now. Oh, and I don’t want to facecam (it’s kind of obnoxious usually) so that’s not even an issue.
So it gets upgraded next month. Until then, I want to stream things that don’t require much bandwidth -- retro, mostly. There’s plenty of big games I haven’t played in years like Chrono Trigger or Earthbound which would be fine for this. Stardew Valley is something I haven’t played since 2016 which should work for a ‘chill’ stream, too. There’s also Halloween soon, so I want to do some ‘spooky’ games in the days leading up to it.
After that, in the short-term it opens up some good options: I’m saving Metal Wolf Chaos XD for then (and will time it so Americans can enjoy my True Patriotism(tm)), some Earth Defense Force, that sort of thing. It might be time to get addicted to an MMO again. (MapleStory 2 was very expensive though!)
In the long-term, I’ll look at some weirder choices. I’d love to stream old retro computer stuff (duh) but I wouldn’t want to play my favourite stuff before I have an audience! It’d be nice to have some people I can multiplayer with from time-to-time, but I’ve never really had that.
Also in the interim I’ve gotta work on making things more presentable; I need a nicer layout, an audio compressor, more audience interaction and I want to set up a Discord server so I can network with other streamers (ie they can promote), and so I can be in touch with people and receive suggestions and so on. I have been networking already and I want to continue among a broad span of interests, including artists, speedrunners and anyone else who’s just starting.
On the plus side though, I’ve got some good assets already. I’m definitely good at engaging with my audience and I do so positively, I think I can make games more interesting than they are and I know when to change games, I don’t get flustered, I ensure as best I can there won’t be technical problems in advance, and I avoid things getting derailed. I don’t mind humiliating myself by being crap at games or not getting a joke, but I want to learn. From my radio experience I know how to put on a show, how to talk the talk and walk the walk, and basically believe my own hype. I’m also both aware of the fact I’m older than the average Twitch user and I’m not gonna start with some boomer crap. Nobody owes me anything, and I want to prove I’m worth people’s time, y’know?
I think my biggest philosophies nowadays (which I can apply to this) are “I’m smart enough to know what I know isn’t very much so I should always learn from others”, and “I will constantly earn respect and trust, nobody owes me them because of something I did”. In short, I shall always have ambition to improve, I’ll never accept superiority.
Anyway, I dunno if anyone cares about this. I just wanted to voice my own thoughts instead of keeping them cooped up. Sorry for the length - it’s not that I like the sound of my own voice, it’s that I fear being misunderstood.
I doubt anyone has questions but feel free to shoot me anons or whatever.
lately I’ve been forcing myself to play stupid Mahjong Fight Club every day despite not really knowing the rules because Konami has this Bemani event right now which basically rewards you for the first play of the day on any game, but since I don’t live near many cabinets and still want the good stuff, this is like...easier I guess?
Either way I’m somehow 6kyu without really getting the rules, and yes this is costing me 100 yen per play and there isn’t a word of English...
Interestingly the app is just a stream - note the spicy compression on the last pic! I’m basically playing a real arcade game in Japan somewhere without being in Japan.
The same app also supports some Baseball game and Quiz Magic Academy, which would be great if it didn’t have really short time limits and require answers in kanji a lot. I even played a game of QMA partnered with two real (Japanese) people and I felt really self-conscious like I was letting the team down! If you’re thinking of trying to stream QMA I suggest looking up some videos first so you know how fast-paced it can get...
If you want to play, someone (not me - I lost the twitter link, sorry) wrote a handy guide here.
thewaifupillow replied to your post: I don’t post here much these days. When I slowed...
Haven’t heard from you in a while but I do still wonder how you’re doing. Thanks for updating me :)
heeey! yeah, likewise actually! I've noticed you've streamed a few times and I've been meaning to drop in and say hi, but I'm usually about to do something so I don't end up doing that, haha. but for sure, hope you're doing well! I probably should have said I'm actually doing okay enough, it's just stuff seems intense - I guess I just understand my problems better now (I hope). good to hear from you though buddy!
I don’t post here much these days. When I slowed down my posting and disappeared, a lot of bad shit was going on - I’m sure people will remember, about three years ago.
I guess I just want to say that’s the distant past for me now. I’m not the same person (am I even a person?) and I don’t expect others are too, and things back then bear no relevance to my life now but memories - some good, some bad. I mean, a friend back then is still a friend...but I mean, I had a relationship that ended really badly and fucked me up, but that’s in the past.
I just wanted to say this because if there’s anyone out there, friends or whatever, who still thinks about this, who feels I got fucked over or worries about me, or feels it affects their friendships with me, others or whatever...you don’t have to. Forget it! Relax! Let bygones be bygones.
I feel the same about my first relationship as well, even though that was a long time ago...yeah, I got fucked over, but so what? That Me isn’t the Me that exists now, and the same goes for said ex. I value what I had and I don’t want negativity to hold me back.
I’m not doing great - I’ve got major depression, GAD, ADHD and in the next few months I gotta undergo some kind of ASD testing (not just for a diagnosis). I ended up in hospital with rib damage last week (thankfully nothing broken). I just started thinking about all of this while lying on that hospital bed, really. I’m re-evaluating what matters most in life, and I doubt anyone reading this - present or future - means me harm. I just want to be friends with people!
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gonna stream Yakuza 3 Remastered in 5 mins or so, from the start. Haven’t got much to do on Tumblr these days so yeah I’m just shamelessly promoting myself but *shrug*
so like about two days ago I ingested some THC oil and I thought it’d help my neck/back pain and anxiety and stuff but instead of taking one drop I took too much so um
got stuck in a time paradox
watched animal soccer world and became convinced there was a secret organisation of ovals trying to control all the triangles in the world
‘this tree looks like bees’
described ovals as “mayor mccheese head genetics”
decided ‘the wonderful engdomachilias’ was part of this organisation
became fixated on the fact animal soccer world is animated on amiga (how I noticed this when this out of it and not before I have no idea)
decided kermit the frog was a parallel universe leonardo from teenage mutant ninja turtles who never got his shell and lived an innocent life (in particular this was the muppet babies kermit for some reason)
had some weird and dark age regression thingy which felt even darker than what I posted at the timebecame paranoid everyone would hate me so locked my twitter but only after I could figure out how the government were moving the buttons away from me
kept waking up every 20 seconds and ‘discovering’ my phone and tweeting more bullshit
tried to use a cheat code to end time
mistook shooting back pain for electricity
went on maplestory 2 and declared one of the cities was independent and we were going to add rockets to it and move to the moon which was made of cheese, then asked who wants to be mayor
then rambled about zubats
compared landscape gardening to metal gear solid 3
said skeletor was genghis khan’s skeleton because he is good at war or something
went to work and pretended everything was normal despite being completely fucked and falling asleep repeatedly
so I know I said I’d post more but I have an excuse?
murkrou replied to your photoset: I’ve been working on a thing where I go to random...
i spent so much time looking for the dog
no dog this time and when I tried to look up crime reports in this area because it's next to one of those big European-style concrete apartment towers that tend to become drug enclaves, so there was too many and yeah uh it probably is what it looks like haha
I’ve been working on a thing where I go to random cities/countries in Google Street View and look for dogs that look happy then take screenshots and links, and while it’s not quite ready yet here’s an outtake of someone probably breaking into a car
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