Why I havenāt been posting as much and maybe more posting in future?? (Hopefully)
Hello pumpkins~
Itās been a long time since Iāve last posted and I am writing this post kind of for my own clarity. I have made up my mind that I want to continue posting, so we will see how that goes (āć¼ā*)ć
When I started posting here, it was sort of like an online diary (without oversharing :p), mostly just vents/freaking out about my academic work and tests lol, and posting codes for outing and such. With all this, I have always minded privacy, all people included are anonymous, I don't show or blur faces, and nothing unprofessional. I grew up in a place where people all dressed the same and people who dressed differently were so rare I barely would ever see them ;; To make my life easier, I eased my way into VERY mild gyaru fashion in high school (though I still stood out since thatās how it goes lol) then took the opportunity when I graduated to fully evolve my style in university.
Being a gyaru is not for the weak tho. At the start of university I used to post whatever, like mostly codes and my make, (on IG, @bknmi_a20 follow me!) and gained a super small supportive following. After covid precautions ended, I began following more of my classmates as I quickly got acquainted with a lot of them. Some of these people I knew didnāt like me for no reason at all (-_-ļ½”) and others I just wasnāt that close to but that's normally how it goes. Long story short, online and offline, some people just such. Liiikeee majorly. As I got busier as well, I just started posting less.
I have been navigating some situations recently which, aside from my style, just thinking about how I choose to engage with others to honour the energy (#introvert), not overextending myself, and knowing when it's time to pull back. In more ways than one as well, I feel like I have changed significantly compared to when I started this blog, both personality wise, academically, and style wise. Like I had a banba and tsuyome period and am now expressedly onee? If I had to categorize I geuss. Also sooo predictable (THE gyaru style trend ā„20 years). I am at a moment now where I ask myself what I actually value, and I feel content in having found the answer to that kinda. Forever evolving. What I do know is I really enjoyed being able to post about my life and the things I love on this blog with you all and thank you all for reading my posts.
I tried my best to not make this the longest post ever, but I hope this helps convey where I am at. And next post will be a photo of me all dolled up for my yearbook photo! #GraduatingMedClass2026 ! See ya next time~~













