Depresso Espresso

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[starved-sapphic]

here’s a little PSA from jungkook for anyone who may need it

[bksicedamericano]

kpop stans follow my twitter @/ctrlaltbk

just making it clear that i post nothing related to my ed it's just a normal stan acct

but any type of account can follow me!!

[bksicedamericano]

my stan list:

bts

a.c.e

red velvet

twice

gwsn

ateez

got7

eric nam

the rose

[bksicedamericano]

kpop stans follow my twitter @/ctrlaltbk

just making it clear that i post nothing related to my ed it's just a normal stan acct

but any type of account can follow me!!

[bksicedamericano]

today's shitty ana food is my iced cinnamon latte

mix cinnamon, cardamom, pie spice, and cloves into the coffee grounds (5 cals per cup)

2 tbsp half and half (40 cals)

2 tbsp lite syrup (50 cals)

put ice into a 16-20oz cup

pour the spiced black coffee in almost to the top

add the cream and syrup and stir

delicious

total calories: 95

[bksicedamericano]

light academia thinspo

song rec: landscape with a fairy — aspidistrafly

[bksicedamericano]

me and my getting back on track spreadsheet did not come to fuck with yall

[dancing-angel-faerie]

maybe i was born gay, maybe i’m gay because i have looked at so many half naked women while trying to find good thinspo

[bksicedamericano]

My mom said "wow I can see you've lost a lot of weight in quarantine"

🤡🤡🤡

[fuwaprince]

US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: [phone]

Suicide Hotline: [phone]

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone]

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected]

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected]

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected]

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected]

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected]

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: [phone]

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868

FREE 24/7 suicide hotlines:

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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[uie-deactivated20230402]

ALWAYS REBLOG WHEN YOU SEE SOMETHING LIKE THIS PLEASE; ITS SO MUCH MORE THAN IMPORTANT TO PEOPLE. IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO SOMEBODY AND EVEN THOUGH YOU MIGHT NOT SEE THIS IN THE SAME LIGHT, SOMEONE MIGHT. INFACT YOU REBLOGGING THIS COULD STOP SOMEONE TAKING THEIR LIFE TONIGHT.

[kitten--aesthetics-blog]

I noticed there isn’t one here for Ireland, so

Irish free suicide helpline: 01-116 123

[caffeinated-clown]

My disorders and depression working together on another mental breakdown just for me

[bksicedamericano]

-RANT-

TODAYS MOOD IS THE FACT THAT I HAVENT POSTED ORIGINAL CONTENT ON THIS BLOG IN WEEKS, AND IM COMING BACK TO SCREAM ABOUT HOW I REALIZED THAT I FUCKING PAVLOVED MYSELF INTO AVOIDING SHOWERS BY CUTTING IN THE SHOWER. LIKE THIS AINT ABOUT JUST HATING MY BODY IN THE SHOWER ANYMORE. I REALIZED THAT MY SUDDEN URGES TO SHOWER A LOT THIS WEEK WERE JUST URGES TO CUT AND IM SO UPSET. AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY IM UPSET I DONT WANT A CLEAN STREAK. I WANT TO CUT SO BAD AND ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IS STOPPING ME SO WHY AM I AVOIDING SHOWERS????? THE ONLY THING IM SCARED OF IS OPENING UP TO MY ONE FRIEND THAT KNOWS™️!!! I HATE IT HERE

[heart-of-a-wildflower-deactivat]

[xxseesawxx]

please remember🥺

[skinnygirlhope]

It’s an everyday struggle 🥴

[strawberrigag-deactivated202203]

i feel so invalid

[i-lionheart]

[takecare-bewell]

if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘food’ labeling some good, some bad as i assign moral value to this grain of rice i might say ‘numbers’ counting, measuring, tracking calories, sizes, BMIs allthetimecalculating everysinglething if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘beauty’ complete devotion, idolization of the western standard begging for others’ envy i might say ‘attention’ desperately needing someone anyone, to notice me at all to see that i am unwell, to care if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘control’ the sick, sick result of discipline gone sour a curdling obsession i might say ‘guilt’ over being too big too plain too comfortable too needy too me if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘anger’ hating the injustice of living hating everything, everyone including myself i might say ‘pain’ a way to transpose the scars of my soul onto the body aching for congruence if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘minimalism’ my mind whirls like a run-on sentence and i can’t stand being wasteful so no thank you i don’t need anything at all really i might say ‘self-righteousness’ i’m parading the streets, declaring my holier-than-thouness because hey look! i’m better at dying than you if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘expectations’ i’ve been naturally small my entire life and now, but now i lose myself when i grow i might say ‘childhood’ reverting to my prepubescent body no breasts and when sex was just a word muddled with giggles if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say ‘addiction’ a habit that can’t be kicked craving the buzz, the high of manipulating my insides i might say ‘death’ i’m not that happy anyway so why not drive my body to the edge, tempting it to quit? if you asked me what my eating disorder is about i might say nothing because i do not know it’s not like it matters because you don’t ask because you don’t know either

—i don’t know, you don’t know, no one knows // 01.22.18

[thinmoonchild]

this is so beautiful it made me tear up

[dankmemeuniversity]

[wtfismylife2319]

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