Not That Weird

(Wrathful Tears)

[blackagainn]

Fuck I hate drama, but makes easier to express myself that way

[blackagainn]

Sorry I can't be perfect,

I thought there was no need to it,

Just wanted to be real,

But looks like it's never enough...

Thought we were real,

Thought that was our thing,

But, I've been wrong before.

Seems like I'm always trying to be me,

The wrong way,

Because I always struggle against the things I care about,

Because everyone sees my shitty steps like bad.

I thought there were no rules,

I really wanted to try, to step forward,

To push one step ahead of what everybody think as "correct" or "appropriate"

And I really wanted you to follow me in that pad,

Thought you wanted that too

Maybe...

Maybe I was, once again, wrong...

[blackagainn]

I need more rain.

[blackagainn]

Maybe I'm wrong after all, maybe I'm still a mess.

[blackagainn]

I do not have,

Any more time,

For this...

Game?

It looks like,

Recently,

I've become a man,

So why do I keep playing?

It's just time from now,

Till I grow old,

Feels like I'll be there,

In a blink of an eye.

Yeh, now I know,

Life'd shown me,

That working hard,

Is the only real way,

To get things done...

Now I just want,

To do things right,

To get my stuff done,

Just like that...

No more trouble,

No more fights,

No more doubtful minds,

Just honesty and calm.

Because life as we know,

It is just one time offer,

And I want to use it well,

So I'll have to leave behind,

All that stuff,

That leads to unnecessary,

Conflicts and bad decisions.

So now there's...

This one question on me mind,

Will I work like a man,

Or will I keep playing pretend?

(Trying to avoid growing up)

[blackagainn]

Nothing I'd say, is gonna be enough, ever.

Nothing that say either.

[blackagainn]

Tired of this sadness, I just can't let it go...

[blackagainn]

Todas las personas pueden mejorar,

Todos los caminos pueden ayudar,

Si estás ahí, si lo deseas...

[blackagainn]

I always knew,

I was addicted to sadness,

So don't feel guilty,

I just hoped

It didn't happen to you...

[blackagainn]

Life's always been messy to me...

And it looks like, it's never going to be alright.

At least I'm used to it... (But I really thought it could change)

[blackagainn]

A veces nos odiamos tanto, que no somos capaces de aceptar el afecto de los demás.

De una forma u otra, los terminamos alejando.

[blackagainn]

Hoy ya ni creo tener fortalezas, todo lo que soy es débil, jamás logró ser bueno en nada, todo en lo que creo se gasta...

Siempre me frustro antes de llegar, soy una lista de objetivos sin alcanzar, de proyectos sin concretar.

[blackagainn]

Necesito soltar el teléfono, y volver a la realidad, me siento cada vez más perdido...

[blackagainn]

Solo necesito sentirme mal un rato,

Después de frustrarme tanto,

Por no saber cómo avanzar,

O no tener la fuerza,

Ni la voluntad.

[blackagainn]

Son las 8 de la noche y otra vez, aún no hago nada con mí vida, para que mierda me quiero mudar yo me pregunto, para tener más de esto?

Tal vez te necesito más de lo que creo, pero tampoco quiero usarte para tapar mis agujeros, sinó jamás voy a aprender...

Solo pienso...

Pero a veces pienso demasiado.

[blackagainn]

And once again,

There's this quote in my head,

"you deserve better".

[blackagainn]

No importa en qué momento me despierto, siempre estoy tarde.