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Series.
Change (in the House of Dragons), on AO3: Aerion Targaryen x fem!OC (Nysera "Seastar" Waters). Dead dove, do not eat.
Aerion sees Nysera as if she is some haunted relic from Old Valyria, little more than Dark Sister attached to her father's hip, or the garnet of Rhaenyra's necklace in the hollow basin of her own collarbones.
When he thinks of dragons born again, a red star bleeding in the sky, he thinks of Nysera too. A pale apparition at his side, bastard and beautiful.
Though, he'd sooner spill her blood than taint his with it (or, so he says).
Other writings.
ęŠ Sea, Swallow Me. Aerion Targaryen x Velaryon!reader universe. Angst, smut, toxic marriage, possessiveness, etc.
Summary: Not all girls survive the sea, sometimes they become it. For a Velaryon bride, of pale-blue silk and diluted Valyrian descent, being the sea was the only defence Prince Aerion's pretty wife had left.
I. O my enemy, do I terrify? 10.1k words
...and more to come!
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Synopsis âđŚš. Aerion Targaryen's as much as an unlovable man as he was a loveless child. When he's married off to a Velaryon bride to appease that ache in him the yearns for Old Valyria, he covets her like some archaic relic of an intangible lineage. But as he longs for black magic and dragons-born-again, his lonely wife pines after Driftmark. As a girl of the sea, the Dornish marches of Summerhall and the thick, sweltering heat of the Stormlands strangle you almost as cruelly as Aerion's obsession. One night, as he sleeps fitfully, dreaming of ribbons of smoke and a sky kissed crimson by dragonfire with his arm a heavy weight around your waist, you devise a plan. Albeit, not a very detailed one, but as the wife of a possessive madman, all belligerent fire and blood, it's all you've got. You run.
Word count âËęŠď˝Ą 10.1k
Content Warnings âËŕż Aerion himself serves as a hefty warning. Toxic marriage, possessiveness, smut, fingering, cunnilingus, dry humping, breeding kink, finger-sucking, mentions of piv, primal play (I'm sorry), manipulation, obsession, ideas of 'blood purity' (i.e., Valyrian heritage), no explicit physical descriptions of the reader but I am an advocate for House Velaryon being black with Valyrian features (though, of course, you can imagine the reader as you wish), general dark/twisted themes. You're both freaks in this.
Notes â§Ë°. I'm not surely exactly what it is about Aerion Targaryen/Finn Bennett that has compelled me to step so outside my comfort zone when it comes to writing, but here we are. This is the first addition/chapter to what I'm thinking will be a universe of other Velaryon!reader x Aerion fics. Please be responsible when reading, and I hope you enjoy!
The smell of the sea lingers in you like ribbons of seaweed knotted around your sternum. Even now, two moons since your weddingâsince your silver-blue maiden shroud was stripped from you and Aerion draped a cloak of crimson silk with black trimmings around your shouldersâthe salt-air still strong in each strand of hair. Grains of sand seem to coagulate in your nail-beds, and when the days are particularly lonely in Summerhall, you swear that you can feel the cold-waters of Driftmarkâs shores lapping at the napes of your ankles.
The sea is within you, in your blood, in your very bones. And yet you still miss it. Itâs as intangible as childhood.Â
Summerhall is suffocating. The air felt thicker here. It reeked of honeysuckle and sun-scorched earth, blown over from the rolling Dornish marches. The gardens were sprawling and luscious, once attentively kept by your husbandâs lady-mother, Dyanna Dayne. He never spoke of her to you, but you knew about the traditional funeral practices of the Daynes of Starfallâthat his motherâs corpse was most likely wrapped up in a chrysalis of lavender and left on the summit of the Red Mountains to be feasted upon by vultures. The servants tend to her thickets of moon-blooms now. You suppose that responsibility may one day fall to you when Daeronâs married off to some heiress of a great house and is made lord of all she holds dear.Â
You swallow that thought down and it bobs viciously in your throat. You have no interest in being the lady of Summerhall, nor languishing in those sweltering gardens surrounded by the lilac buds nursed by a dead woman.
Home was even in the periwinkle thread you were using to stitch waves into muslin. Embroideryâs one of the only past-times you had left. When you miss the shallow waters of Driftmark lapping gently at the nape of your ankles, you put a needle to cotton. When the feeling of sun-warmed sand between your toes seemed like a different lifetime ago, you sit in the bay window of the chambers you share with Aerion, practicing your cross-stitch as you listen to the winds whistling through laburnum trees.Â
Today, youâre sewing the pale stone outline of High Tide.Â
âAnother hard day spent, wife?â Aerion muses when he returns to your chambers after supper, draping todayâs cloak over the back of the chair at your vanity.Â
You look up from the embroidery hoop in your lap, briefly glancing over that small smirk and the half-lilt of his brows. âIf you say so, husband. And you?â
âThe hunt went well. Daeron fell off of his horse, butâŚâ He shrugs, âthat was to be expected after downing a gallon of wine.â
His mouth twitches, and heâs looking at you as if heâs expecting a similar, amused kind of reaction from you. The best you can manage is a wan, pursed smile that mightâve looked more like a grimace.Â
âIâm glad your day was fruitful, my lord,â you offer diplomatically as his smirk melts into a rattled scowl.
âHmph.â Heâs displeased by your lack of reaction, but not surprised. He then gestures lazily to his crimson doublet. âCome. Help me undress, wife.â
This was something heâd make you do every evening since your wedding night. Whether he considered it a form of intimacy or control, it became a relentless part of your routine regardless.Â
You sigh, putting your embroidery down beside you on the cushioned window-seat and standing, straightening out the creases in your silks before crossing the room to him. As soon as you were an armâs stretch away from him, Aerion knocks his chin up, jutting his jaw the slightest bit. A muscle twitches there in his mandible as you step up to him, almost toe-to-two. Your skirts whispered faintly against his legs. His fingers flex at his side, reaching out just enough for his fingertips to touch at the soft satin of your gown. Â
âYou ought to wear more red,â he says quickly when you begin to work on the buttons of his doublet. âTheyâre your colours too now, after all. It is proper for a wife to represent her lord husbandâs house.â
You bite into your tongue. You have no interest in donning scarlets and blacks to satisfy your husbandâs ego. Aerionâs heart bleeds fire and blood so ravenously, he expects everyone to be so fanatic. Especially you, it seems, often regarding the sea-green and teal of your dresses with contempt. But, for a woman hundreds of miles from her home, your clothes were some of the last autonomy you had. Swathing yourself in blood-red would feel like the last bit of rebellion you had left in you rotting away.
Still, you bowed your head demurely and continued to undress him. âVery well, husband. I shall fetch for a seamstress, so they might get my measurements and fashion me something worthy of your noble house.â
If Aerion hears the sarcasm seeping into your calculated response, he doesnât care enough to acknowledge it. Instead, he lets the corner of his mouth curl viciously and counters, âWell, not before long, this seamstress shall need to take a different set of measurementsâŚto accommodate for the swell of your belly, of course.â
Your fingers went still against the ringmail-vest underneath his doublet. Another fascination of Aerionâs was the idea of you being round with his baby.Â
The first time he bedded you, it was as tradition follows. Your consummation had been a private thing, per Aerionâs insistence. Heâd bargained with his father that the maester might wait outside of the room until the two of you were finished, to only enter after the deed was done to ensure that youâd bled. After a day of feeling like you were dressed as some prized pig for the slaughterhouse, youâd taken this as a sign of chivalry. Youâd almost thought that this marriage would be something you could stomach.Â
That night, Aerion undressed you. Working slowly at the laces of your corset with your back turned to him, murmuring to himself about the humiliation of his family that nightâDaeron drowning in his cups, his cousin Valarrâs peacocking as he twirled his Tyroshi wife under his arm, and his younger siblings constant nattering. You let him complain. You thought the longer this part of the night was prolonged, the less daunting the act itself would be. But the four-poster of your marital bed lingered in your periphery like some kind of beleaguering ghost as Aerion moved your hair over to one shoulder and started tracing chaste kisses along the trembling line of your shoulder.
âYouâre scared, wife,â heâd muttered in observation, fingertips coming to feel the goosebumps along your skin.
Wife. Youâre his wife.
âNo,â you had scrambled to say, voice catching shallowly around your frantic lie. âNot scared, onlyâŚâ You shuddered at the feeling of his mouth against the top of your spine, ânervous, that is all.â
âYouâve heard the whispers then. Brightflame. The monstrous second son of the kingâs youngest son. So cruel, so capricious.â He slipped one of your arms out of its sleeve, then the other, and his chest rumbled with an amused laugh when your hands reached instinctively to clutch the material at your chest to your breasts. âDo you believe the whispers? Do you think me as frightening as they say?â
You couldnât say what had possessed you to say it. Perhaps it was the unnerving sensation in your stomach that everything was slowly getting away from youâyour dignity, your self-control, any sense of knowing your place in the world.Â
âI know that my father did not want me to marry you,â youâd blurted, hands still grasping your gown to your chest. âI know that he wouldâve rather married me off to your drunkard brother, but the court whispers that you longed for a Valyrian bride. That you long for Valyria itself. Though, the King wants to leave the days of marrying Targaryens to Targaryens behind. So, your grandfather and Prince Maekar compromised. They offered you meâŚâ The thickening silence behind you had been startling. You could still remember the pounding of your heartbeat against your ribs as he said nothing at all. Youâd swallowed and continued in spite of yourself, âThough, we lost most of our coin after the DanceâŚand, since Queen Daenaera married the Dragonbane, our dynasties have seemed to forget our old alliance. Until today.â
Aerion hummed contemplatively, the knuckle of his forefinger moving down the rosary of your spine over silk. âUntil today.âÂ
âSo no, I do not find you frightening because I think you are some cruel, erratic princeling,â you carried on. âI do wonder what you thought you could get out of a marriage with an almost penniless house from a lonely island across Blackwater Bay.â
âI assume the maester of High Tide taught you about Valaena Velaryon?â
You stilled again. âValaenaâŚ?âÂ
âLet go of your dress,â said Aerion quietly.
âExcuse me?â
âYour dress.â
Taken aback, you felt the hold on the brocade slacken. Aerion hummed in satisfaction, reaching around you to firmly close his hands around your wrists and move your hands from your breasts. The satin of the bridal gown slipped down your body as seamlessly as water, pooling at your ankles and leaving you in the silk chemise your lady mother had commissioned for the wedding. It was lacy around the neckline and hem, intricate but dainty. It left the lengths of your arms and most of your legs bare and exposed to the cold air of your marital chambers.
The hairs on the nape of your neck stood tall, and you went on instinct to cradle your palms to yourself to emulate some semblance of warmth, forgetting that Aerionâs fingers were still clasped around you. The small thrash made him press both of his thumbs into the hollows of your wrists.
âPretty,â heâd said. It made your throat swell. He then went on, âValaena Velaryon was the fairest bride of her time, they say.â Your husbandâs hands started to move up from your wrists, over your elbows, and up to the skimpy straps of your chemise, teasing his index finger under it to feel at the skin there. âA true beauty of Old Valyria. She married my namesake, did you know that? Lord Aerion Targaryen, lord of Dragonstone during the Century of Blood. He was the last rider of Aegarax. They had a fruitful marriage, Lord Aerion and his lady wife from your lonely island across Blackwater Bay. Do you know why?âÂ
All words and breath were lost to you. You were acutely aware that Aerion stood behind you, fully-dressed and entirely in control, whilst you were with your back to him, vulnerable and dressed in only a scrap of silk.
âI canât remember,â was all you could muster.
âHm.â He didnât sound particularly disappointed, nor pleased, by your answer. There was no malicious edge or self-satisfied grunt at your haziness. He appeared to be entirely collected. Then, just when he began talking again, he started to pull the flimsy straps of your chemise down your arms, âAerion and Valaena had three babes. A girl, firstâŚâÂ
Aerion did not let you cover yourself this time. As soon as the straps were gone, he merely batted your arms away and hooked his fingers into the scooping neckline at the back of the slip, taking his sweet time in pulling it down your torso.Â
âAfter their daughter, a sonâŚâÂ
When the silk caught at your hips, Aerion let out a quiet, appreciative sound, stroking his thumb over the dip in the small of your back, before tugging it over the swell of your ass. Your breath hitched at the exposure, at the cold draught whispering from the open window.Â
âAfter their heir, a final daughter.âÂ
The silk hit the floor, joining the shallow sea of your satin bridal dress with a murmur. You were entirely naked.
âAegon,â you choked then, not even bothering to attempt covering yourself again. âThe Conqueror and his sisters. Visenya and Rhaenys. Lady Valaena was their mother.â
âClever girl,â he praised, half-mocking. âLady Valaena, of your almost penniless house from your lonely island, birthed the three-headed dragon. Her womb made the Targaryen dynasty what it is today.â
Not a fraction what it was a century ago? You yearned to bite at him, but somehow had resisted the urge.
âAnd you think I am Lady Valaena born-again, to bring you forth three babes on the birthing-bed, so they might be conquerors?â you asked him.Â
âNot conquerors, wife,â Aerion mused, kissing the curve of your shoulder again, âdragons.âÂ
Before that night, youâd heard horror stories about consummation. Of splitting pain and cruel, selfish men, pawing at breasts like raw meat or spoils of a hunt, emptying themselves into their ripe wives like grunting boars.Â
Aerion was not like that. He did not mount you like some stable mare, fuck you brutal and short. It was a methodical art, the way he took you that night. He told you, between heated kisses, the filthiness of his mouth dragging against yours, that heâd had dreams of a three-headed dragon. Of flames, and the sky torn open, bleeding a comet of blazing red, as the night sung with the songs of dragons once more.
He laid you out on his bed, all bare and goose-flesh and shivering, and let the kisses move from your swollen mouth to the valley between your breasts. Your sternum arched from how you shamefully arched out of the crimson sheets and into his hunger. His mouth followed down to your abdomen, lingering over the swell of your lower-belly. Heâd looked ravenous, you remembered. As if he could already picture your womb full of him.Â
âYouâll give me dragons, wife,â heâd told you, moving himself lower, and lower, until he was brushing his spit-slick lips against the sensitive juncture of your thighs.Â
His hands came down to your hips firmly when you started to jerk them, feeling tender and unfamiliar as your cunt started to ache.Â
âThree of them.â
Then, he kissed your cunt how heâd kissed your mouth. Insatiably, dirtily, perfect. He licked at you, that tongue of his curling against a particularly tender spot of you that youâd only clumsily felt at yourself when you could not sleep. There was nothing clumsy about the way he handled you.Â
A sound came out of you that mightâve been a sob when he sunk his index finger inside of the warm heat of you. He curled it with some kind of second-nature to a sweetness within you that made you needily buck your hips and finally move your hands from where theyâd been balling up fistfuls of duvet into them.
âThe maesters donât want lesser men to know this,â heâd murmured against you, opening you up, coaxing a second finger into you, all the while tasting you and sucking at that pearl of yours, âbut a womanâs pleasure is just as important as a manâs. I think Lord Aerion treated his lady wife right, do you? Old Valyria did not treat fucking like some sin.âÂ
You could barely listen to what he was saying, his fingers stimulating a part of you that felt so deep, so intense, and so good, that it felt like it belonged to him rather than you.
âLord Aerion took care of his Velaryon bride. He fucked three dragons into her and they united all Seven Kingdoms.âÂ
He met your eyes then, his own so dark with lust and narrowed into almost slits that he almost looked like one of the beasts himself. His mouth left your heat for a brief moment, slick with your arousal and his own saliva.
âI shall do the same to you,â heâd promised.
Your moon-blood had arrived twice since your wedding, and youâd thought that might deter him. But his aspirations remain steadfast, and so does he. Your husband means to make some vessel of prophecy and magic out of you.
Every other night, heâd have his mouth on your cunt again. His fingers filling you. Heâd make you unravel at least twice before unlacing his own breeches and taking you however he saw fitâbent over the edge of your bed, sprawled across the sheets with a pillow propped under your hips, you riding him. Each time was pleasurable as the last, and youâd be a liar if you said that you didnât enjoy laying with him in such a manner. If your husband was anything, it was a good lover.Â
But he was also cold and waspish. Cruel to his younger siblings, and derisive to his elder brother. He treated servants and guards alike as if they were animals. He rarely asked about you, rarely acknowledged you as little more than the future mother of his babes. He did not care that you hated the heat of Summerhall, that you missed the sea, and the salt-air, nor that you longed to feel the sand under your feet. He did not care that Driftmark haunts you when you sleep, girlhood laughter, and chasing your brother over the beach, tiny feet splashing through the waters. Your dreams werenât deemed as important as his. If Aerion were to wake up in the middle of the night, sweating and thrashing after some nightmarish terror of cities burning or dragons slain, heâd wake you up too. Youâd try and ask him what was wrong, be the attentive wife, stroke your fingers through his short strands of silvery hair. He didnât want comfort.Â
Heâd ruck up the cotton of your nightdress, sink into you, and mouth at the column of your neck as he spoke about fire and blood, slaughtering Blackfyres, the ways of Old Valyria, and how beautiful youâd look pregnant.Â
âI pray to the Mother every day that I will one day be worthy of bearing your child, my lord,â you say then, smiling vacantly up at him as he stands there, shirtless and frowning.
Heâs so handsome, you think. Handsome in that otherworldly kind of way that only really existed now in his bloodline or across the Narrow Sea in whorehouses. You wish that he cared more. That heâd notice your homesickness, the way you gaze so longingly out of your window as you look eastwards, and offer to visit Driftmark with you. Or at least sit next to you and ask about your home, about yourself, about what you liked to do. You hate embroidery. Your fingers are calloused from needle-pricks and unbuttoning the stiff fastens of his doublet every day. You miss horse-riding. You miss running. You miss talking about things other than Valyrian histories.
You have this grotesque, needy want in you for him to just want you back, not for some royal womb, or incubator for a three-headed augury. You want to be his wife in the same way your mother was your fatherâs, and Lady Dyanna was his fatherâs. Mayhaps then youâd care more for the gardens and being lady of Summerhall.
âSuch pretty, obedient words,â croons Aerion, his knuckle caressing over your cheekbone. âI almost believe them.â
This makes your eye twitch, but you say nothing. Youâre not sure Aerion expects you to, because heâs sweeping past you and over to his wardrobe to find some night-clothes to change into. You glance down at your own dress, then out at the pinkish sunset, and glide over to your own. Pointedly, you slip into a blue shift. You hear a disgruntled sound getting stuck in his throat as he watches the loose material of it all fall over you, but remain silent to start unbraiding your hair.Â
Aerion would prefer that you have a maidservant to do these kinds of things for you, such as ready you for bed, and do your hair. Heâd rather you do nothing at all but sit somewhere, looking ornamental and pretty all day, as he hunts and spars and spits cruelties to the small folk, then returns to you, so you might open your legs like a good little wife and do your duty. You prefer keeping whatever little of your self-government you have left since becoming a princess.
He waits for you on his side of the bed. He has the levelled look of a bored princeling in his expression, but those eyes of his can no longer deceive you. Heâs cross with you. Impatient, for whatever reason. It mightâve unsettled you a moon ago, but now it only makes you languish more to prepare yourself for bed. The sunâs swallowed by the peaks of the marches by the time you climbed in next to him, smelling like the sprigs of lavender you rub against your pulse-points every night.
âHow will you have me tonight, my lord?â you ask drolly, folding your hands sensibly over your lap.
Aerion squints at you, affronted. âYou make it sound as if it is a chore.â
âItâs a duty,â you correct.
âOh, so dutiful, when youâre moaning like a wanton whore in my ear for it,â Aerion snarls. He doesnât like it when youâre short with him, nor when you get righteous about sex. âIf you do not wish to be bedded tonight, wife, you need only tell me.â
You scoff. âThatâs all I need-do, is it? Simply tell you?âÂ
âI am not some common brute. Some beggar-raper. I am your lord husband,â sneers Aerion, as if you could ever forget. âIf you donât want me to fuck you, say it. You have a tongue, donât you? A mouth?âÂ
âNoticed, have you?â
âClever girl, arenât you? So full of wit and bite.â The malice in his eyes darkens when you stare stubbornly back at him, unflinching. âGo on then, what is it? What has upset you so? Are your days spent doing your embroidery and eating lemon-cakes so trifling, wife? Does my right as a husband to expect heirs from you upset you?âÂ
You feel incensed, wroth stirring in you with a heated sensation not too dissimilar from want. âI do not begrudge you for wanting heirs, Aerion. I understand what it means to be a woman in this world. I know my place. But am I such a frivolous fool for wanting, just once, for you to return from whatever sport youâre spoiling and talk to me?âÂ
âI am talking to you! I talk to you plenty!â he returns defensively.
âYou donât! You never do. You make snide remarks and ask me to undress you. Youâre gone most mornings when I awake. We rarely break our fast together. When you do lower yourself to talk to me, itâs about seeing me round with child,â you seeth, a stinging in your eyes now. âI say child, but you do not want that. You do not want a son to teach how to be chivalrous, or a daughter to protect. You want me to labour three beasts, so you might return your house to its former glory. I knew even as a little girl that I would end up brood-mare to some lord of some castle, Aerion, but I never thought heâd only deign to converse with me if itâs to talk about your thirst for some hatchling to rip me open!âÂ
Aerion stares at you then, and the moment that ensues is long and filled with tension. The look he gives you is almost indiscernible in its multitudes. Wroth, bemusement, a hint of arousal. He likes you like this, and you know it. He loves the bite, even if he mocks it. He likens it to fire, but you know that itâs the sea. Vicious, still at times, but its belly is as ravenous as a dragonâs.Â
âFeel better now?â he then asks, cruel and grinning lopsidedly.Â
The steadiness of his voice is like nails against bone. You feel sick with anger and it makes the candlelight reflecting in his eyes resemble flames.
âYouâre incorrigible,â you tell him, hurt.
âNext time you do not wish to lay with me, wife, just say it. You neednât waste your precious breath with touching speeches such as that,â Aerion drawls, shifting to lie on his side all haughty and complacent.Â
It made you feel so humiliating and wretched, but Gods, you wanted him to fight with you. To yell at you, just how he yells with his father and Daeron. Itâs a ghastly longing, to wish that your husband would shout at you, but it was yours all the same. You remember arguments between your parents when you were growing up. Your father is temperamental as the waves that crash against the slates of Driftmarkâs rockery, and your mother, a Stark, was as brittle as winter. Their spats would oft send High Tide splitting into factions. But when they would make up, they were perfectly happy. Your mother would press her lips to the stubble on your fatherâs jawbone and heâd kiss her brow, and love felt uniquely real.Â
Now, silence torments you. Loneliness scabs over your skin like old wounds. You feel perverse for enjoying sex with Aerion when this rotten throb in the pit of your stomach yearns for more. Even if it was ugly.Â
âIs that really all you have to say?â you utter, disconcerted as you stare at his turned back. âIt is not just about not wanting to lay with you, Aerion, itâsââÂ
âSleep, wife,â he interjects coolly, âIâm sure you have another tiresome day in the morrow of needlework and staring out of your window.â
Do you know why I stare out of that window? You want to shout at him. Do you know what has been taken from me?Â
But he doesnât care. If you were to tell him about how homesick you felt, how alone and uncomfortable in your own skin, heâd surely make some crude remark about how a babe would surely make you busy enough to forget all about how forlorn you were. You did not want to be belittled anymore tonight, so you turn over, back facing him, and bury your cheek against the satin pillow. Under your skin feels so hot and nettled from your upset, but the satiny material cools it just enough for you to steady your breathing.
The windowâs on your side of the bed. Your window, Aerion called it.Â
Hundreds of leagues of grassland, moors, and plains splay out beyond the palace. Here, you werenât far from the Red Mountains, crimson at sunset, soaked with the spilled-blood of old enemies. If you were to flee west, youâd reach Blueburn river and Grassy Vale, where House Meadows preside in a flowery keep on the banks. You did not know much about House Meadows, other than that they were sworn bannermen to House Tyrell, whoâd surely send you right back to Summerhall, fawning sycophants that they were. South of here was Blackhaven, with its black basalt walls and a bottomless, dry moat. It mightâve been a good place to abscond if it werenât for it being the seat of House Dondarrion, kin to your good-uncle Baelor. Further north was just miles upon miles of fertile land, rife with farmers and livestock.Â
East, then. Stormâs End, at Durranâs Point. The Baratheons had no love for your husbandâs bloodline. Their lord paramount, Lyonel, would take you under his wing. He was fond of your mother, having even named her Queen of Love and Beauty at a tourney in their shared youth. Heâd feed you, offer you a bed, and extend you an olive branch of refuge all without sending a single raven to the Targaryens. He might find you a ship and send you on your merry way back to Driftmark before word even reaches Summerhall that youâre gone.Â
You wait.Â
Stars gather and twinkle in the sky. Each inhale, practiced to sound levelled and sleep-like, is taken like communion.Â
You glimpse over your shoulder to the curve of his skull. Heâs sleeping, you can tell. From the small sliver of his face you can see, thereâs softness and an absence of his usual strain. His sleep is dreamless tonight.Â
Good, you think. At least he wonât take up, muttering frantically about fire-scorched earth and prophecies. At least you have a head-start.Â
Leaving the castle was easy enough. Summerhallâs a royal retreat and only lightly-fortified. The guards stationed at their posts were dolts, at best. They saw you, the mad princeâs wife, treading over cold-stone in your almost-translucent nightdress and just about had it in themselves to straighten their spines and avert their eyes respectfully.Â
The gardens were luscious and thick with purpled flowers. Lady Dyanna lived in each flourishing bud of lilac. As you waded through knee-length sweetgrass and herbs, you felt a nastiness gnaw at your insides. A strange kind of jealousy, for the dead mother of your husband. Lady Dyanna was loved. Maekar loved his wife. You try to picture her as you move to the edge of her gardens. All that springs to mind is a saintly vision, of terracotta skin and angelic, violet eyes. In your mind, Lady Dyannaâs radiant and fascinating. Maekar would never let her rot in a window-pane, yearning for Starfall as she makes threads of plum-purple into the Palestone Sword. Why could they not have made their son in their image?Â
Your two-faced husband, of perversions and filth when heâs got his mouth on you, who becomes disillusioned once he is spent.Â
Thereâs a thicket of dense wood surrounding Summerhall. Your slippers traipse over splintery twigs as you move through a barren maze of red cedars, sentinels, and wormtrees. The night sky nips at your bare arms and you curse yourself for not bringing a cloak. You try to defend yourself, thinking about Aerion back in that blasted bed, and the odd uneven floorboard in your shared chambers. He could be a light sleeper at times. You couldnât have risked it creaking underfoot and stirring him.Â
The wood around you feels like a wet-breathed, living creature, slipping through the silk of your shift, lapping its roughened tongue over your bare calves. Blackberry brambles snag at the hem and leaves rustle in knotted branches.Â
You think of Lyonel Baratheonâs silver streaks in his wiry, black hair and the way he laughs from his belly. Of salt spray, of the damp smell of a ship. It spittles against your skin and catches in your head. You think of that peace and nothing but.Â
Certainly not the bed youâd left warm. Anything but the man inside of it.Â
And yetâŚ
âI hope they have your eyes,â Aerion told you one night last week, one of your legs hiked up to his waist as he cradled your face. âOur boy. Our girls. Our dragons.âÂ
A pale-blue tendril ribbons around your sternum, back through the woods, around the stems of Lady Dyannaâs moon-blooms, through the slumbering corridors of Summerhall, and to the very place you slipped away from him. Tonightâs the first night he didnât fall asleep with an arm around your wrist, chin tucked into the crook of your neck as he mumbled sleepily into your hair.Â
âImpudent little wretch,â you snarl to yourself grumpily, breaths rasping into tendrils of white before you as branches whip by in convoluted shapes.
Above, peaking through foliage, the skyâs a chipped, silver stag.
Lyonel, you try to think about instead. A warm hearth, a bowl of broth, a tankard of ale, and someone who thinks of you as a living girl rather than a walking womb.Â
Just when the air starts tasting less like the incense Aerion likes to keep burning, that thick, earthy, leatherish smell, you hear a sound thatâs not yours. Footsteps, the measured kind. Unhurried and somewhere behind you.Â
No. No, no. âShit.â
You donât glance over your shoulder to decipher whom, or what, it is that is advancing. Your heartâs a hummingbird against your ribs, and you have the frantic, mindless sort of terror of a chased rabbit or hunted fox. You run.
The fur-lined slippers on your feet slide in damp loam, splattering up the back of your calves. Sweat starts to bead from your pores, making the silk of your nightdress cling to your thighs and collarbone. Thereâs nothing but the husk of your own frightened breaths and slippery footsteps. You fool yourself into thinking itâs goneâthat whatever was chasing you grew sick of the hunt and trudged away.Â
Until, âWife.âÂ
Thereâs no wroth in it. The voice isnât even raised. It scares you more than if it was a yell, torn through the sentries.
It makes your stumble, one of your slippers catching in the mud. You abandon it in your pursuit. One of your feet bare, the unearthed twigs and rocks scratch at the sole of it. You barely feel the sting. You run harder.Â
Itâs him, you know it. You canât even hear a company of other footsteps. Itâs just him, following after you with unhurried, fluid steps that sound deceptively calm.
âYouâre making this worse for yourself,â he calls out to you.Â
His words make a whimpered sob lodge itself in your throat. You try and pick up some speed, but the muscles in your legs are burning. Everything feels hot and suffocating. Since your honeymoon, youâve been cooped up in Summerhall like a caged bird. This is the most youâve moved in two moons. Those girlhood days of racing your brother and the stewardâs son are gone. You feel sluggish, and exhausted, andâA root catches your foot. Your remaining slipper is wrenched off, and a cry tears through you.
The world morphs into a blur of snarling trees and dirt. Before your knees and jaw can slam against the filthy earth, a hand closes around your upper arm. Itâs bruising and rough. Itâs him.Â
Your spine slams into rough bark so hard that your breath abandons you, skull thudding in tandem. Tiny white stars cloud your vision until his face emerges from the fog.
Your husband, your man, chest rising only faintly as if the hunt hadnât been an inconvenience to him at all. His silver hairâs mused from sleep. No guards flanked him, no cloak rippled in the wind from his shoulders. Heâs still in the fine-cotton of his sleep-shirt, eyes mirror-bright from the moonlight. Heâs beautiful and terrifying. As pale as pearls and all yours.Â
Neither of you speak.Â
Shamefully, your breaths are the only ones that come out panting. You struggle to level them, chest heaving so hard that on the inhale it swells out to brush against his. Your teeth are chattering violently. All of your senses feel spiked and sharpened. You think you might be able to hear the footfall of a small creature from a mile away.
Aerion lowers his dilated gaze. Your bare feet are cut and muddied, wet leaves clinging to them, and the hem of your shift is torn. Youâve got your hands behind your back, fisting against the sticky bark, as if youâre protecting the last bit of yourself you can from him. It feels futile when his eyes return to yours and he has that mad, hungry look of a man who knows exactly what youâre thinking.
âYou run poorly,â he says quietly.
It hits you like a blow. âYou,â your voice is hoarse, wounded, âyou followed me.â
His head tilts. âYou didnât think I would?â
The hatred in your flares hot and cancerous, spreading into every vein. âI hate you.âÂ
An emotion twitches in his expression but youâre too frightened to understand it. He raises one of his hands and the motion makes you flinch so violently that your shoulder slips against the bark, scratching at your skin enough to splinter. It only makes him hesitate for a moment, fingers flexing in the space between you, before it flattens the palm against the trunk beside your head.
Heâs everywhere now. You feel in him your lungs. This somehow feels more intimate than sex. Heâs in your marrow.Â
âI dreamt of you. Of a nursery, bright with sunlight. I woke,â he says, darker, âand your side of the bed was cold.â Aerionâs jaw hardens, his lips so very close to yours. All hot air and want and fury. âDo you know what that felt like, wife?âÂ
You stare at him, still breathing heavily. You have no words to give him. Your own blood is trying to speak to you as something vile coils around your organs but you canât make heads or tails of it. Itâs an ouroboros that stifles you as his other hand snakes out to press your hip deeper into the tree.
âNo,â he answers for you, âyou donât.âÂ
The cedars tremble as you do, and youâre weak enough to think about Driftmark again. Itâs absurd but itâs yours, and you can almost hear the vicious breaking of black-water waves against slate. You remember being small and childlike but itâs nothing like this feeling of fragility. You want your mother and her lap, her hands combing through your tresses.Â
Your eyes start to well and you hate yourself for it. Strangely, itâs more than you hate him.
âI wanted to leave,â you confess.
âI know.â
âI meant to reach Stormâs End. Ser Lyonel.âÂ
Aerion blinks. âAnd that he might find you a maiden ship that would send you back to your lonely island? Away from here. From me.âÂ
Your heartâs in your ears, your throat, it beats and pulses everywhere. âHow do youâŚâÂ
You didnât think he knew about your homesickness. You didnât think he cared.Â
âYou talk in your sleep,â he tells you.
Itâs enough to make you dumb. Marriage is a peculiar thing. You were so sure he didnât know anything about you and yet he knows this. That your slumbering mumbles are of home and the sea.Â
Gods, you wish things were different. In another life, you might spend your days swimming and wading through shallow coves as he spars and hunts. Youâd return to him happier in the evenings. Heâd kiss the salt off your skin and youâd mouth at the swollen bruises on his knuckles. Youâd each taste of sea and fire; heâd love you completely, and youâd love him the same.Â
âYou would have frozen before dawn,â Aerion remarks at your shivering. âYou wouldnât even make the next village over.â
âIâd rather freeze than burn in your stifling palace,â you spit.
âBrave girl,â he taunts. His thumb strokes over your hipbone then and it makes you jolt. The way he smirks at you is maddening. If you didnât know any better, youâd think heâd want to splay you open and crawl inside. âDragons donât burn, wife. Havenât I told you this?â
You want to scream in his face. âIâm not a dragon. Iâm a Velaryon by blood. Salt and sea.âÂ
âAddam of Hull rode Seasmoke,â he challenges.Â
âThe Sowing of the Seeds as an abomination,â you sneer viciously. âThe mythology of House Targaryen being pure-blooded and closer to Gods than men died the day Rhaenyra let bastards claim dragons. Vermithor and Seasmoke died at the Second Battle of Tumbleton. Silverwing died alone in the Red Lake after that useless oaf, Ulf, got himself killed. No one even knows what happened to Nettles and Sheepstealer.â
You thought that he might be angry at you for talking back to him, but that smirk of his softens into an amused curl of the lips.
âYouâve been reading our histories,â he muses fondly, thumb caressing lower from your hip, down to the hollow above your thigh, where the flesh is tender and sensitive.Â
âThereâs little else to do in your prison of a castle,â you say defensively.Â
âOh, Iâm sure,â Aerion croons lazily.Â
His entire hand shifts then to cover the entire expanse of your lower belly. Underneath, you feel a mad, ugly stirring. You almost choke.
âYouâre vile.â
He bares his teeth. âAm I?â
âAnd cruel.â
âYou fled my bed in your nightdress and slippers,â he reminds you. He presses the slightest bit into your stomach, relishing in the wicked way your face betrays you. âWithout so much as a cloak to warm you.â
You glare at him nastily. âI left in haste.â
âNo. You did not take a cloak because you feared the floorboard near the bed would creak,â he states. Your lips part in shock and his own widens into a grin. âThat loose board by the windowâthird plank from the foot of our bed. You stepped over it.â
âThat doesnât mean you know me,â you seeth.
âNo?â he says. Arrogance bleeds from him. The hand thatâs next to your moves too, knuckles grazing along the curve of your torso until they brush the frayed rip of your shift. He toys with the torn threads and looks at you as if youâre a meal. âYou stare east every sunset. You rub lavender at your wrists before bed because it reminds you of spring. You sew pretty waves into your embroidery when youâre lonely. You mutter for your mother in dreams. You like it when I fuck you from the behindâŚso I cannot see how much youâre enjoying it. It makes you feel in control.â
Breath hitches in your throat.Â
Sensations invade you. The palm of his hand, greedy and warm, on the small of your back as he gets you when he wants you. The contrasting coolness of your own arms folded under your head as you gnaw on your bottom lip. Sometimes, heâll kneel for you. A kiss to each hemisphere of your backside, the backs of your thighs, on your heat. Others, he isnât as patient. Heâll have kissed your mouth first in these instances, after having you unbutton his doublet and peel away your own clothes. Heâll know that these devouring kisses wouldâve left you wet enough for him.Â
Itâll be as if he wanted to intertwine your body with his, those nights. Like he wanted to swallow you and spit you out onto his bedsheets. His fingers will reach and grab at any part of you he can find.Â
You hate yourself. You hate him.Â
âYou do not ask me,â you manage to say gravelly. âYou do not ask me anything.âÂ
He rolls his shoulder. âI notice.âÂ
âYou have a grotesque way of showing it, husband.âÂ
You snarl it as an insult but hearing the title makes him smile.Â
âDo I?â he mocks. âYou wanted a fight tonight. You wanted me to shout at you, to get angry. To prove that I want you. Is that not grotesque to you, wife?âÂ
Tears gather and the sight of him wobbles in front of you as if seen through water. âYou donât know what I want.âÂ
âI know what you think that you want. You think you want that lonely island across Blackwater Bay.â Aerion shakes his head then, hand finally daring to slip under the rugged hem of your nightdress. A strangled sound escapes you when his fingers press into the flesh of your thigh. âBut thatâs not what you really want, is it? Not deep down. Not in here,â he emphasises, the fingers splayed out on your womb moving to linger over your heart. It thuds treacherously against him. âYou want the same as I.â
You somehow have it in you to scoff at him. âDragons, born-again?âÂ
âMaybe not yet. But you want this marriage. You want me,â he says, and it isnât even arrogance now that he imbues. Itâs just the self-assured confidence of someone whoâs uttering a fact. As if he knows all of your wants and deficiencies.Â
âYou think very highly of yourself, my lord.âÂ
His teeth are pearl-like in the moonâs glow as he smirks. âMaybe.â
âYour ego is larger than the Red Keep,â you insult.Â
âGo on.â
âAnd you are mad,â you rasp, feeling the heat of his fingers just over your cunt, not quite touching. âYou treat the small folk as if theyâre not even human, looking down at them in disdain. You think youâre leagues above the whole world, as if youâre still on dragonback. Youâre addled with delusions and nightmares, I do not think you even know what is real.âÂ
âYou,â Aerion says darkly, finally letting his fingers touch you, his index and middle slipping between your folds, where you want him, where youâre wet. âYouâre real.âÂ
You keen as his thumb finds that sweet-spot of yours. âFuck,â you grit, one of your arms untucking from behind you to grasp at his wrist. Startled, you realise your slip-up and look up at his hungry eyes. Chagrined, you correct the mistake, âFuck you.â
âYou want me to?â he asks, grinning. Gods, you hate him. His fingers sink into you, both at once. The stretch is enough for you to whimper, nails biting into his skin. All the while, he keeps his eyes on yours. âYou want Driftmark, wife? Iâll find the finest captain and his best ship, Iâll take you. You want the sea? Youâll have it. You need only ask. The dragon ought never let his rider want for a single thing. I want you happy and mine. Let me?âÂ
His fingers curl then, reaching a part of you that makes you curl into him, forehead kissing his chest that finally feels like itâs at least a fraction as unsettled as yours. He drags them in and out of you at a deliciously slow pace, but your knees are weak with it. Both of your hands grasp at his arms now. He feels strong and unmoving. His mouth pecks at your hairline reverently.
âYouâre evil,â you sob. âThis is all I am to you. This is all you ever want.âÂ
Aerion merely hums. Rather than giving you reassurance, he presses an open-mouth kiss to your cheek, dewy and spit-slick. Itâs all filthy.
âI want more.âÂ
Desperation wracks you. More what? You donât even know. But youâre rocking yourself against him, grinding down onto his hands, and you want the hand thatâs still on your heart to move the slightest bit down to grasp at your breast.Â
He delivers another kiss, this time to your mouth as he nudges his forehead against yours to pry you away from the cover of his chest. He groans against your mouth, swallowing your own sob of pleasure depravedly. Itâs a messy kiss, sloppy and shameless. Youâre only distinctly aware that youâre still in the dead of the wood.
âCan you take another?â he checks.Â
Your head shakes violently. âNo.âÂ
He smiles against your mouth. âI thought you wanted more?âÂ
But he listens regardless, crooking the digits already inside of you just right, making you arch and moan brokenly.Â
âI hate you. I hate you, I hate you, IââÂ
âShow me how much, wife.âÂ
You come on his fingers, a single tear rolling down your cheek. His tongue catches it, then it catches yours, and it tastes of salt as they tangle in an even dirtier kiss than the last. It tastes like home. He works you through it, kneading comfortingly at your hip as your hips jerked against his at the overstimulation. So gently, he slips them out, holding your gaze as he parts his lips and tastes you. The sound he makes is obscene.Â
Bonelessly, you slump against him. His hand, the one that wasnât just inside of you, shifts to cradle the back of your head against his heaving chest. He smells of smoke and you.Â
âI want to go,â you pant, cunt dully aching between your weak thighs. âI donât want to sit in that room, waiting for you every night.âÂ
âThen, donât.âÂ
âWhat would you have me do? Tend to your lady motherâs flowers? Sit in your solar, gossiping with the other well-bred ladies, who all titter over how handsome you are?â Jealousy drips from your tongue and sanctifies him. You feel his smirk against your temple, and the only kindness is knowing those wretched lips of his taste like you. âWhat is it, husband, you think I do whilst I wait for your dragons to tear me open?â
Aerion waits. Thinks, perhaps. He squeezes at the flesh of your hips, rolling them closer to his. He hums again, more contemplative than the last. Then, he draws his wet mouth to the shell of your ear, and speaks,
âRun.âÂ
Your eyes blow open, gaping at him. âPardon?â
âI want you, wife,â he says, suddenly letting go of you and stepping back, leaving you on fawn-like legs and shivering, âto run.â
âIs this a trick?â you demand indignantly, one of your eyes twitching.
âItâs no trick. I want you to run,â Aerion repeats. âI want you to prove to me how little you want to be the lady of Summerhall. How all of that court gossip bores you. I want to see how much my pretty wife misses the sea.âÂ
Youâve just finished on your hand. You can still feel the slick of it between your thighs and a throbbing for more in the bottom of your belly. And yet heâs telling you to run.
âRun,â you echo.Â
His expression oozes a bright, fevered certainty. âYes.âÂ
Thereâs no mockery there or even a challenge. Itâs hunger and interest and he wants you to bite. He loves your bite, you remind yourself.Â
âYou mean to make sport of me. As if Iâm some wild boar or feral stag,â you accuse.
His mouth twitches. âPerhaps.âÂ
âYouâre sick, Aerion.âÂ
âAnd yet youâre still here?â he teases.
This is madness, but you indulge it. âWhat happens if I run?â
âI follow.âÂ
Terror waltzes along your spine. âAnd if I escape?âÂ
âThen you prove me wrong,â Aerion replies simply, daring you.
It feels like a trick, despite his reassurance that it isnât. Though, youâre sea-born enough to want to reach the horizon heâs dangling in front of you, however much of a mirage it might be.
âYouâd let me go?â you say in disbelief, prayer-like.Â
Your husbandâs gaze dissects you like youâre an animal as he remarks, âIâll let you try.âÂ
âThis is a game.âÂ
âIsnât everything?âÂ
He makes an unbridled rage swell inside of you. âFuck you.âÂ
âIs that what you want instead of running?â Aerion laughs.Â
âYou speak of me as if Iâm an animal!â you yell at him, appalled.
Aerion doesnât seem unnerved. âAre you going to do it or not?âÂ
Your heartâs in your mouth again, leaving your ribs hollow enough for dread to make itself wretchedly at home. It tucks itself away in a layer of rot as your feet move without leave. One step, then another, until a third makes a twig splinter in half under you. The pain lances through you, brief and startling, but you turn and run regardless.Â
Aerion does not come after you right away, or maybe you just couldnât hear it, for the blood that rushes in your ears and the woods that seem to swallow everything in its eerie stomach.Â
Air bludgeons you as raw as a gut-blow. The terror you feel is primitive and thrilling. It makes your body unearth a scion of girlhood from within you that dusted over after your wedding in Baelorâs Sept. Outpacing your brother over wet sand, horse-riding along Driftmarkâs cliffs, the first morning your father took you out to sea aboard his favourite ship. The gulls caterwauling above you and the entire world opening itself at your feet as if you mattered.Â
Bizarrely, an hysterical laugh nearly breaks you in half, like a wishbone.Â
Heâs driving you to madness, is all you can rationalise. Rumours spill through the Seven Kingdoms about the madness of Targaryensâbut what of their wives? Does the coin flip for them, too? How oft do the Gods hold their breaths for the brides of dragons?
The outstretching branches of trees catch at your arms and surely cut them to ribbons. You dread to think about the sorry state of the soles of your feet. As a child, splattered in sea-water and dirt, your mother would scold you for trekking dirt through High Tideâs hallowed walls. Sheâd clutch at the pearls around her neck to see you like this, soiled and brutish as you run through the woods away from your husband.
Your husband.
âDo you feel alive, wife?â he calls out to you then from within the dark, as if he knew that the thread that binds you had just given. âDo you feel in control?âÂ
Hearing his voice again excites you. A sick part of you hopes you both get lost in this forest. That the rest of your cursed marriage is spent like this. You would never have to hear the gall of a courtier again, or a buttinsky maestar fussing over your moon-bloods. It would just be the two of you. Youâd like that, you think.Â
âTired yet?â he taunts. Itâs as if he speaks through the trees. Omnipresent and haunting.Â
Heâs to you what Valyria is to him.
âCome, wife. Answer me.â You curse him as you run. How is he not out of breath? âI want to hear you. How does it feel? Do you still feel like an animal?âÂ
âYouâre a monster!â you shout hoarsely.Â
The trees laugh with him, you swear. It intermingles with the pursuit of footfall, spiking your panic. Heâs close. You feel him in your bones. Heâs in your very soul.
Your head turns to find him too late as something hits you from behind, hard enough to make the world pitch and eat you whole. You think itâs his name that you wail as you go down into damp leaves and loam. Itâs only earth for a moment, your chest flush to it. You feel like a corpse in the dirt, alone and cold against the unending body of it. All thatâs gone when a weight settles over you.Â
Aerion rolls you onto your back in one effortless motion before you can scramble or grab purchase at tufts of soil. Your hair cascades across the forest floor, torn shift twisting around your thighs. You must look unseemly.Â
Still, Aerion straddles you, knees bracketing your wildly-bucking hips. At last, his breaths struggled too. The moon ensnares him in this feral halo that can only be Targaryen. A smirk takes shape, the way a dragon mustâve once looked feasting on its prey.Â
There was a dragon over a century ago they called the Cannibal. Aerion must be him in living, human form. The membranes of his wings now exist as Aerionâs arms that snap out to catch both of your wrists and pin them above your head against the moss and foliage. Sinews and tendons strain at the column of his throat, and heâs every bit of those beasts that he longs for.Â
âGet off,â you spit, hips jerking up.Â
He grinds his own down to meet you halfway. Heâs hard. Had he been this whole time? Â
âCareful. Youâll make me think you enjoy this,â he says condescendingly.
Your glare is as filthy as your nightdress. âYou tackled me!âÂ
âI caught you. I won.âÂ
âThatâs cheating!â you protest.
Aerion blinks. âWe didnât agree on any rules.âÂ
âAs if youâd even bide by them if weâshit.âÂ
He moves your wrists into one hand and slips the other between your thighs again. Of course, youâre still wet. Itâs smeared and messy, and he teases the tips of his fingers through it, catching them at your pulsing entrance, before quickly moving them up to your clit. Heâs relentless in his desire to make a madwoman out of you.
âLook at you,â he says fondly, âmy beautiful wife.â The hard length of him presses through his breeches and against your hip. âYou look better like this than you did on our wedding night. You were a pretty bride but prettier prey, I think.âÂ
âWhat is wrong with you?â You can only marvel at his perversions. You wanted him to want you but this overwhelms your senses. Is this how he wants you? A heart thudding in fear, silk tattered, cunt slick, all as his fingers tease you.Â
âEverything that is wrong with me is wrong with you,â he tells you as he leans in to breathe in the scent of your neck. Lavender. âBlood of two, joined as oneâŚâÂ
Your spine arches away from the earth to press your breasts against his chest. Itâs enough to make his fingertips stop teasing you, settling over your clit with a delicious pressure.
âHen lantoti Änogar,â you murmur against his mouth, repeating the same words to him in Valyrian, âva sČłndroti vÄedroma.âÂ
His pupils dilate, the violets of his eyes lost in seas of insatiable black. âYouâve been learning the old tongue?âÂ
âI read about Valyrian wedding traditions,â you tell him offhandedly, as if you didnât do it to impress him.Â
He looks at you as if youâre everything heâs ever wanted and suddenly shifts his hips so that his cock presses against your slick, aching heat. The rough fabric of his breeches rubs against your bare, tender folds. It makes you writhe wantonly.Â
âAnd what other research have you been doing, wife?â Aerion asks. Heâs released your wrists entirely now and his other hand comes to palm at the soft swell of your breast. His index and thumb find your nipple deftly, rolling it between the digits. âTell me you havenât been touching yourself during your lonely afternoons, imagining it was me.âÂ
Your mouth curls into a sneer. âWhen you leave me for hours on end, you mean? To slip away into boredom? So what if I did then, husband? So what if I let my hand wanderââÂ
âAnd touch what is mine?â he interjects darkly, eyes narrowing at you. He grinds against you again. His breeches must be soaked from you. âMy filthy wife, slipping her pretty little fingers inside her dripping cunt. Do you think of me? Is it my cock you want when you get greedy and rub at yourself, or is it my tongue?âÂ
Heat ravages your body with a fever and you cannot reply to him. Your hips wiggle, seeking more stimulation. He does not give it to you.Â
âBoth, most like,â he wagers, lust roughening his voice as well as the pinch of his fingers around your nipple. âI bet you fuck yourself thinking about me. Youâre not bored, are you, wife? Youâre empty.â
âIâm not some whore from Silk Street that lives and breathes cock, Aerion. I want my husband,â you tell him raggedly.Â
His lips twist into a pout of feigned sympathy. âPoor girl. Iâve been neglecting you, havenât I? What a cruel husband you have. To spend his days hunting when he has the prettiest of prey right there in his bed, waiting for him.âÂ
His degrading words make you dizzy. Is this what you even wanted? You wanted him to want you, yes, but this? The ache in you is for him, but it feels so wrong and perverted that you have to believe that thereâs more you want. There has to be. You are not so debased as to think this is all you want from this marriage. Youâre of the sea. There must be more.
âI want you to talk to me,â you say, bucking your hips up again, moving your heat against the tent of his cock. âI want you to ask me about my home, about my day. I want us to break our fasts together, after youâve woke me up with your mouth on me. I want the whole castle to be sick of us when we fight and fuck. When they hear raised voices, theyâll know youâll soon want me. It isnât just your cock I want, Aerion, I want you.âÂ
Itâs so painfully earnest that you feel even more humiliated than you did when he fingered you against that tree.Â
But he doesnât smirk at you in sick amusement or delight in your vulnerability. Aerion stares at you, just as desperate.Â
âYou terrify me,â he says, and itâs the last thing you expected, though you understand it perfectly.Â
That terror is part of the want. Itâs a limb in this living thing that exists between you. An amorphous mass of it thatâs cancerous and obsessive. He looks fascinated by you and you hope he never loses that. You never want to be something that bores him.Â
The idea of returning to Summerhallâs tedium makes you taste bile.Â
Abruptly, Aerionâs moving from off of you and settling onto the forest floor at your side. He pulls you with him, arranging you as if you were a ragdoll until youâre draped heavily across his chest, head pillowed on the lean muscle beneath his sleep-tunic. His arms embrace you and youâre all his.Â
âYouâre right,â he admits (this must kill him). âI will do better. Iâm sure Lord Aerion broke his fast with his Lady Valaena. If youâre to give me my three dragons, I ought to give you whatever you ask, hm?âÂ
Youâre not sure what to say to that. You knew better than to think that madness would ever leave him, or his dream of a three-headed dragon. A sick part of you didnât even want it to. As long as he thought of you as otherworldly as him, you were content. Both of your wants made something salvageable out of this marriage and youâd cling to them.
He tilts your chin up then and his gaze is as deep as the ocean, though far less volatile. Thereâs a tenderness to him that youâve never seen in him before.Â
âTell me about the sea, wife.â
a/n: sorry about that abrupt ending, thought it was a fitting end! hope u enjoyed nonetheless. feel free to send in some requests for aerion & his velaryon wife. i'm sort of obsessed with them.
Aerion sees Nysera as if she is some haunted relic from Old Valyria, little more than Dark Sister attached to her father's hip, or the garnet of Rhaenyra's necklace in the hollow basin of her own collarbones.
When he thinks of dragons born again, a red star bleeding in the sky, he thinks of Nysera too. A pale apparition at his side, bastard and beautiful.
Though, he'd sooner spill her blood than taint his with it (or, so he says).
AO3: Change (in the House of Dragons)
Content warnings: Targcest, Freudian elements, smut, dead dove, dubious Consent, dubious morality, codependency, toxic relationships, degradation, hate sex, disturbing themes, etc.
thinking of going out of my creative comfort-zone a bit and writing a dark, twisted, seedy aerion targaryen fic...i'm thinking maybe a daughter of bloodraven & shiera seastar - of course, shiera would never let herself get pregnant unless it was necessary for the prophecy of it all. ik she had moon tea at the READY. but it's an interesting dynamic to explore, to have them as parents. to know her mother could've made her legitimate (despite them being bastards themselves, of course) by just agreeing to wed her father, but she continued to refuse. how this impacts her standing at court - because i don't think she'd be treated disrespectfully at all, but the rumours that must follow her, especially in the midst of the rebellions...the power imbalance between her & aerion - her as the bastard of two bastards. but she has a unique kind of authority that he doesn't. she has ties to valyria that even he cannot fathom, with her mother's blood magic, her father having dark sister at his hip, dragon dreams. aerion would be fascinated by her, covet her, torment her, be vile and cruel, feel as though she's undeserving with how in touch she is with an lineage that is legitimately his by right but should not belong to her.
there's something there for his exile to lys, too. where the women are of valyrian descent and as fair as her - where her grandmother (serenei of lys) was born. there's an entire sea between them but she's everywhere. she's in all of their faces but they're not her.
i'd call it change (in the house of dragons) yes, after the deftones song. it would be obsessive and carnal and yeah. thoughts????