"it's still pretty tough to get used to participating in all this..." without arval too, shez can't help but stick a little closer to the walls. if he treats it like one of those old jobs, then it's a little easier to relax himself but there's no way he would've ever been wearing something like this during those.
but he wouldn't be here without it. where his partner is silent in his mind, their presence is more easily felt when he dons these whites and reds. if it was arval, they'd tell him to make the most of it.
lamenting on his losses wouldn't help him in the future.














