definitions of home
She tries not to listen to him as she approaches the pigeon cages. Fingertips run along the cage bars and she tries to focus on the birds in front of her instead of her uncle's yapping. At first glance, they all seemed rather similar, but they are slightly different sizes. Even different personalities.
But she can't ignore Sigurd's ramblings completely. Not when the fondness with which he speaks of his sister mirrors her own feelings of her brother so well. Infuriating. She feels infuriated again when she realizes this similarity between the two of them.
Even if the way he speaks holds fondness and love for his sister, she can't shake the meaning of what he actually says. Turning her head over her shoulder, Altena shoots a glare at him. "You'd lie to her, then? To your own sister? You'd keep things from her and call it better? You really are a fool."
āAnd what sort of a callous and bumbling fool of a brother would I have to be, to rub her helplessness in her nose at every opportunity?ā Sigurd said it lightly, with a bubble of a laugh, but the thought left him aghast - they quarrelled and bickered, she more than he, but there could have been no force in the world that would have bid him be so cruel to his sister.
āI admit I have not been the shining pinnacle of elder brother, but when I have been given so much that she lacks, it would be unkind to do anything less but to give her a point to reach forward. We of Baldrs blood are naturally competitive - should I instead have extinguished her fire, and demanded that she find her place beneath me? Unthinkable, frankly.ā
And she would not have let him. If he had been even half the rude and boorish brute that she accused him of, then there would have been no such love lost between them that would have the advantage of saying so - she called him brute in exapseration, but not of hatred.
He could not have stood it if his sister had hated him.
Sigurd looked curiously at the girl, thoughtfully and uncommonly quiet for a moment.
āIsā¦that what your brother does?ā
Altena wonders what it might be like if she had grown up in shoes similar to Sigurd's. If she had known she was the older sibling. Would she have held back when sparring with Leif or would she have given it everything she had every time?
If she sparred with Leif now, how would she act? Admittedly, she doesn't know how to answer that question. She knows Leif is strong and capable and can take on anything that comes his way. Baldr's blood is competitive indeed. Thinking about it has her wanting to issue a challenge to her younger brother just to see how it would go.
She doesn't like the quiet that falls over her uncle. It should be a relief for him to finally have shut up but it's unnatural. It should have served as a warning for the question that he was about to pose.
"No." Altena answers far too quickly and far too sharply. She turns looking for anything to focus on other than those blue eyes attempting to peer past the walls she's tried to build up. The pigeons. She tries to focus on the pigeons.
It isn't a lie. He didn't specify which brother.
















