All Hype, No Heart

Ranna. 27. Devon UK. I’m using this to vent✌🏻 #me for meeeeee

[bpdmoonsblog]

i can't get over the fact that i feel like everyone hates me

[bleachedmindss]

I keep having really vivid nightmares about what happened and it’s just constantly reinforcing my self hatred, a constant reminder that I have never ever been someone’s one and only, that I’m not good enough for real unconditional obsessive love that I’ve always craved and I never will be.

[bleachedmindss]

I wish I understood why I’m so difficult to love

[bleachedmindss]

Honestly I hate my life with a burning passion, having severe mental health issues is so embarrassing and demoralizing. I'm probably never going to get to have a normal life and will end up alone and miserable so why are we even bothering at this point? Just let me die and we can all stop pretending.

[bleachedmindss]

I'm painfully suicidal. I've only ever just wanted to be loved, really really loved but it feels just so inaccessible to me. I don't want to be here anymore

[isakrueger]

[animatedtext]

[bleachedmindss]

I feel like there's something wrong with me... Everyone finds me funny for a couple hours or so and then it turns into irritation and aggression... Even with family...I just don't understand what I did or anything I'm just annoying I guess..

[bleachedmindss]

I don't really fit anywhere, I don't really mean much

[anxietyproblem]

[bleachedmindss]

I don't understand whats so wrong with me that no one ever actually wants to settle down with me, they'll lie and tell me they do and then switch up and change their mind and usually use my want for it as a reason for breaking up.

Do I give off bad mum/wife vibes or something? Or am I just literally something to fuck

[dissociate-d]

wow wouldn’t it be so cool not to be constantly worried about abandonment

[tunisian]

yeah im good with what i have (about to explode with yearning)

[traaumaa]

no one listened to me as a child so now i overshare on the internet 💖

[artbyjuju]

adulthood is realising no one cares about you and the show must go on

[nolongerangels]

"my child is fine" your child wanted to kill herself at 11 years old

[bleachedmindss]

Life is so unfulfilling, I'm so painfully bored