He finally broke the chain of fake meltdown videos on Speaks and uploaded this. I didn’t know what to expect but figured I’d take notes while I listen.
Says all the recent videos on Speaks are fake. He thought people would know it’s fake because he thought his acting wasn’t that good, but apparently not. A lot of people thought they were real. They think he’s homeless, he’s living in a tent, he’d actually pour kombucha on himself because his Patreon was deleted.
Says his Patreon was deleted because he posted a very nice next because he was talking about nice things from his past, he wanted to show the good times when they were nice to each other, but he forgot to crop out the top of the text. He noticed it and removed it, but people freaked out anyway. He says even though he was trying to talk about nice things it translated to doxing and it was a mistake on his part. He says he’s sorry for that.
Says he made freak out videos to make money after the loss of his Patreon income. “How can I make this negative into a positive?” He started OnisionFans.com and used the freak out videos to promote it because he knew freak out videos go viral and they did.
The first one got over a million views because people want to see what follows their narrative. They want someone to freak out if they think they’re a psychopath. They want to gaslight the person and believe this person is insane. Says anyone with common sense will hear him explain this calmly and know he’s not actually the person that freaks out in his videos.
Says he was faking seizures and faking pooping on his back for videos and people thought that was real. He didn’t realize how far he could push it and people still believed it. People really thought he traded a car and a house for a dog. People really believed when he was a child a dog hopped on his back and did horrible things to him. This was all a means for him to get more views on Youtube. That’s why he put the videos in the “entertainment” category.
What he really wanted to talk about was something he talked about in the past, but in a way that was ignorant and cruel. Says it was horrible of him. The topic of “r-a-p-e”. Says he made a lot of anti-rape videos, but says if you’ve never gone through that you should never tell people how to deal with it and that’s what he was doing. People told him he was never a victim and never had to deal with it, yet he continued. He didn’t just tell victims what to do, but he condemned them for not doing it the way he told them. He would tell them “if you don’t report this person you are helping them.” He says even if people think it’s true, you’d have to be completely emotionally detached from the scenario to think that was an appropriate agenda to push.
Says a lot of victims wonder if it’s their fault or if they go to court if they’d be believed. Says people who went through this are usually terrified to talk about it because they think no one will believe them.
Says he had a black and white view of the world, which is why he said they are as bad as their abuser and you’re helping them if you don’t tell your story. Says there is a parallel because we say people should be pro-choice because we don’t want to force victims to have the babies of the person that forced themselves on them. He says that’s true, but at the same time how could you ask someone who went through that to take on the burden of going to court and going through it once more. It might ruin their life because people might not believe them. Would it drive them to end their life?
Says he woke up too early, it’s 5:46 AM, but this was haunting him. Says he was hurtful to people who only needed support so he wanted to say sorry. Says you can tell he’s sorry because he’s correcting is actions and will make an effort to not speak for people who are at a disadvantage. You never know what people have gone through and a lot of times they won’t tell you.
Apologizes and goes though all the points he mentioned before. Says it’s the victims responsibility to heal.
