What’s Going to Happen Now?
Hello. Long post incoming.
Things will change around here and it is what it is.
I first started this blog as a way to express myself in a more isolated environment, separate from what I do professionally and in the public eye. it became a way for me to not only shed the demonization of sex embedded in me during my upbringing, but to allow myself to be comfortable with my own sexuality. I’ve grown up a lot thanks to being able to open up about things I never would have allowed myself to talk about.
I did not expect however, to gather a considerable following doing this. It was all meant to be personal, yet my work struck a chord with others. Particularly people who were happy to see positive representations of diverse body types, genders, ethnicities and consensual sex. I felt like this became much more than a personal quest, I was doing something for others. It felt good!
But… to be quite honest it eventually became very very intimidating, and I stopped updating regularly out of fear of having to commit to more than what I intended. I didn’t like feeling pressured into having to perform constantly for something that was meant to be intimate and personal. Posts started becoming irregular, and I developed a bad habit of just hiding away until I would occasionally draw something I was comfortable showing people (there is A LOT i do not show).
And now that I am faced with a realization that maybe this welcoming environment will be gone, I cannot tell if I am relieved or sad. I do know that I don’t want to just disappear. I like drawing smut, and I like to show it. It is an act of rebellion for me. Even when I feel intimidated it still means a lot to be able to be open about things like this, and this blog was the one place I could do it.
So even if most of my work will probably be deleted, I won’t be going away. Once the 17th comes around I will be posting things in a different manner. Previews to images and links on where to find them. I just sent a Patreon page for review, and set up multiple accounts where I will continue to post my art. I will update everyone over the next couple of days and hopefully will be able to rebuild the following I had here. It’s been fun, and I don’t think i want to lose this.