My Life Is Going Somewhere Vaguely Medical...

The blog of a Uni student studying (MBio) Biomedical Science.Surfer, runner, wanderer, fitness nut, dancer, bookworm, dreamer. - "Stuff your eyes full of wonder" x

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

Ever been in this situation...?

You send pics to a guy,

And then find out he’s got a girlfriend,

Lied about being single,

Of course she doesn’t believe you,

And you’re the bad guy - because it’s easy.

The truth...

Babe, say the word and I will,

Post the same damn pictures online,

Because it’s my body and my right,

And you should be more worried about what your man thinks of them,

And why he asked for them,

Than blaming another woman for a man’s dishonesty, 

My body, my rules,

I refuse to accept the blame. 

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

Tell me you’re OK, lie if you have to

I want you to tell me you’re OK,

That you’re fine, Business as usual,

That you’ve moved on, And hardly think of me,

That you’re happy, And no longer angry,

That you don’t remember the little things, Like they were yesterday,

I want you to tell me you’re OK,

So I can hold onto something that will help me let go,

Because honey,

I can’t do it on my own. 

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

Lost it all

I miss you,

And I’m not too proud to admit that I’m doing fine,

But I’m not OK,

And I don’t feel right,

I may have blown it,

I may have completely ruined us,

Lost my chance,

To never get it back again,

It’s not that I want you back,

It’s that I never wanted to leave,

I made excuses and tried to understand,

The people who didn’t deserve it,

And the only person who did,

Was you,

Is you,

It’s you,

I made stupid excuses and came up with reasons in my head,

Because I was so scared you’d realise one day,

That I’m not good enough or whole enough,

That you wanted more,

And in trying to give you it,

I lost so much of myself,

In trying to be enough,

But not lose too much,

I lost it all,

Goose,

I’m so sorry.

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

Dear Woman, Be the man he wasn't, The man he never could be, Rise up and love yourself.

Original. 

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

"And if you're ending something for someone who doesn't want you or can't love you back, what then?"  'Honestly...I have no idea'.

At war in my mind with futile hope

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

And the worst thing is,  Too much time has passed, And I'm now nothing but old news, To someone who I have loved, All this time.

It’s always been you. But I never told you.

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

Nowadays to be in love is weak, Poetry a fanciful fool’s endeavour, Sentiment to be scorned, And care only aimed at one’s self, So, when I love and love fiercely, No wonder it is not returned.

Original

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

I think I loved him more in a fortnight than I loved you in a year. But I loved you, and we still had a year. And I feel terrible about that.

Original

[marcellommii]

Non vedo l'ora che arrivi l'autunno, voi? 🍁🍁🍂

[rontes]

Врата Раја (Door of Heaven)

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

“What if the love you deserve is love you never find” - Lost

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

Long time no post...

Hey guys,

I’m sorry I’ve been inactive on here for such a long time but I have a lot of updates! So I now have a BSc (Hons) degree in Biomedical Sciences from Newcastle University....finally got that 2:1!! I also got my place on the Research Masters course and am currently studying an MRes in Transplantation science. Looks like I’m a little less ‘undecided’ after all...now just to decide whether to do a PhD or not to do a PhD ;) thanks for sticking with me this far, guys. Hope you’re all well x

[the-final-sentence]

Even if it damns us to all eternity, Even then.

Jane Yolen, from “On Meeting a God” (via the-final-sentence)

[the-final-sentence]

“I’ll risk it,” he said.

Barbara Michaels, from Prince of Darkness (via the-final-sentence)

[blogofanundecidedmedstudent]

The beauty in the small things...

My faith has just been restored in humanity.

I’ve just seen a young - maybe very early 20s - man walking down the street, wearing an oversized scarf, bundled up against the autumn cold, with a bouquet of flowers wrapped in brown paper in his hand. And regardless of whether he was taking them to someone, or simply taking them home because he wanted to, my faith has been restored that yes, people do still appreciate the beauty in the small things in life. 

[emotionalwords]

[mymedlife]

I’m totally calling it this from now on.