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[bloodebayou]

bloodebayou. indie, private, & selective gothic horror original character, lourdes malveaux, a vampire couturier. written by grunk (31, he/him). mature and potentially disturbing content, detailed below—READ RULES BEFORE FOLLOWING. 21+ only. est. december 2016.

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i. my name is grunk, pronouns are he/him, and i'm 31 years old. i'm autistic, and sometimes i can come off in ways i don't intend to or misunderstand things, so i'd like to ask for a little patience and understanding.

ii. NO MINORS. i'll block anyone under 21 who follows. i'm not interested in interacting with blogs with harry potter muses or verses. i soft block blogs i'm not interested in following back.

iii. i will not follow: those without any kind of rules or muse info readily available, bigots of any kind, those who seem sensitive to disturbing content/purity police, all white multis, and people with generally nasty vibes and attitudes. i will eventually soft block those who don't attempt to interact at all either ic or ooc—no memes, no meme replies, no likes or comments on my posts, etc. a little goes a long way with me.

iv. i'm selective and private, meaning i'll only interact with people i'm in a mutual following with, and i won't follow everyone. if you use me as a resource blog, interact with my posts or otherwise try to get my attention and i'm not following you, i will block you. i expect my rules and the basics of lola's dossier to at least be skimmed.

v. i don't jive with reply length requirements. i do what's needed for the reply. i don't expect length to be matched, but i do expect effort to be matched.

vi. please don't write me passive starters. i will not respond to them. if you're not sure what to write, it's all good. you can come talk to me to figure it out, or just don't do it at all. i won't be bothered either way.

vii. if you're following me with the expectation that i'll make a verse to write with you, it's probably not happening. if i don't have it listed, i don't have an applicable verse. i am willing to develop new verses, but selectively.

viii. i can be slow. if patience with replies isn't your strong suit, we aren't suited to write together. i'm pretty chill about most things, so you can take all the time in the world to get back to me, ic or ooc. i highly value communication as far as the writing goes, so if something doesn't work for you, tell me. if you want to adjust or change something, or even drop a ship or plot, tell me. i'm fine with all of it.

ix. this blog is multiship, but selective with shipping. i'm very comfortable writing smut. you're welcome to send smut/ship memes, regardless of if we've established anything, but be aware that lola may not be interested.

lola is gay and most interested in men well into adulthood (if they're 200 and look 21, it's a no-go). he has issues with genuine emotional intimacy and has a limited understanding of what a healthy relationship looks like. he also has a tendency to overlook, excuse, and even romanticize toxic and abusive behaviors. lola has a history of abusive partners, and some of his behaviors within a relationship will reflect that.

don't follow if any of this bothers you, and definitely do not try to ship if you don't like it. i only practice ship exclusivity with canon muses if we've really established the ship.

x. i don't care if you don't format at all, but i ask that you don't format excessively. no extra spaces and no special characters, please. please, no gifs in replies!

xi. feel free to send me all the memes you want. i tend to hang onto memes for a very long time, but don't take that as a sign that i don't like you or don't want to write with you. plotting and just discussing our muses makes it easier for me to reply to things in general.

xii. the general genre of this blog is gothic horror and will contain content consistent with that genre, and most of it will go untagged. i generally won't tag potentially triggering content unless it's particularly graphic, but my idea of graphic may differ from yours. there will be mentions and discussions of child abuse, domestic abuse, racism, and homophobia. there will be references to incest and csa. there may be instances of coercion, manipulation, and abuse, along with all that entails. if you have any particular topics you need avoided or tagged, please let me know, but if you are generally sensitive to mature content, don't follow. i'll tag smut, but i won't tag mentions of or references to sex. warnings will be tagged as "usfw--" or "trigger--", sometimes with a qualifier such as "-- mention", "-- image", or "-- text".

xiii. if i do/say anything that bothers you, i'd strongly appreciate if you discussed it with me rather than ghosting, mostly if we've had a fair amount of ooc conversations. i can't learn from mistakes if i don't know what they are.

credits. all blog graphics (including icon psd) made by the very talented ettie!

[bloodebayou]

@laperlina from here

The nearness of her finger makes Lourdes recoil, obviously and accompanied by a pronounced noise of disgust, as though he needs to make his repulsion known by her. A gloved hand, with jewels embedded on the back, raises to erect a barrier between the hovering threat of Ilayda's own.

"I do not nap," he lies, taking an unsteady step backwards to create more distance between them. "The wants of your little boyfriend are meaningless to me. I do, in fact, quite regularly deny men. It is often quite exhilarating. What I do not appreciate is being made to wait." With this, he, albeit very lightly, swats her away.

"You're here now, so I suppose it's of little importance. If you can abandon the childish taunting, I believe the evening can be salvaged."

[bloodebayou]

ok so it looks like my discord somehow got hacked. again. this time i can't get back in and am still waiting to hear back from support so let's assume the account is just gone 💀

if you get discord messages from me or have in the past couple of days they were NOT FROM ME, pls ignore and delete

[bloodebayou]

i made the new account, dm me for my username!!

[bloodebayou]

update: i was NOT hacked a second time, but discord only just responded to the report i sent a couple months back and didn't actually read it and kicked me out of my own account

[bloodebayou]

ok so it looks like my discord somehow got hacked. again. this time i can't get back in and am still waiting to hear back from support so let's assume the account is just gone 💀

if you get discord messages from me or have in the past couple of days they were NOT FROM ME, pls ignore and delete

[bloodebayou]

i made the new account, dm me for my username!!

[bloodebayou]

ok so it looks like my discord somehow got hacked. again. this time i can't get back in and am still waiting to hear back from support so let's assume the account is just gone 💀

if you get discord messages from me or have in the past couple of days they were NOT FROM ME, pls ignore and delete

[bloodebayou]

lola obviously doesn't wear a lot of color, but he does have some outfits and accessories with iridescent and pearlescent features which he'll wear for pride

[drachnslayer]

❛ no, ❜ he ducks his head, chuckling awkwardly when lourdes calls him out on talking nonsense. ❛ i mean yes. ❜ he quickly corrects himself when he truly understands the words a bit late, too distracted by the hand so close to his groin, and by their proximity. maybe there is still a bit of nervousness that comes with the pressure to perform well. lourdes is older, likely more experienced. and siegfried knows that he has high expectations. while siegfried himself so far has acted like he can exceed any expectations easily. it's a habit that stems from his own pride, or insecurity. he releases a tense breath against the skin on the other's chest.

❛ it's all yours. ❜ he whispers then, lips trailing over lourdes' chest, upwards now towards his collarbone. with the motion he crawls closer to the other, so the smaller man may reach what's underneath the towel more easily : his cock that starts to twitch against the fabric. ❛ what do you want . . . ❜

[bloodebayou]

His gasp is shuddering, a dulled sharpness elicited by Siegfried's lips against his hungry skin. Lourdes draws one hand up his bare skin, still lightly damp and warmed from the shower, the tips of his fingers dragging in a light caress along his side. The other remains where it is, fiddling tortuously with the towel.

"Hm..." he murmurs, as if he has to think over his answer, deliberately drawing out the moment to what he hopes is a maddening length. Finally, he gives the towel a firm tug, letting it loosen and hang from Siegfried's hips before he pulls it away to drop onto the floor beside them. His hand gropes his balls, massaging gently, then releasing to instead close around his dick, feeling him go hard from his touch.

"I want you to fuck me."

[nonalimmen]

© Nona Limmen {Instagram / Website}

[jeaniefranklins]

Sex scene as character study is so good. What is your relationship to your body? What is your relationship to your partner? What lessons have you absorbed from the culture about yourself as a sexual being? How much do you have to trust someone before being comfortable with intimacy? What fears and insecurities come to the fore for you when you take your clothes off? It's so good.

[headspace-hotel]

How do they communicate? How do they expect others to communicate? How well do they understand their body and their own capacity for pleasure? What do they tend to do to make their partner feel comfortable? How comfortable are they showing emotion in front of others? How much insight do they have into what their own emotions mean and are connected to? What are they focused on during the encounter? How conscious are they of exchanges of power and vulnerability? very very very good

[mournfulroses]

Sara Torres, from her novel titled "X Is Where I Am," orginally published in March 2026

[bloodebayou]

[bloodebayou]

i am taking a tiny break from tumblr! i've felt a little overwhelmed lately but i'll be back soon

[bloodebayou]

"Oh. It was your birthday?" Griffin didn't realize that was a Thing for Lourdes. "You don't want to celebrate, do you?" (He is nearly a month late.)

Frowning, Lourdes needed a moment to consider his response. "It was quite some time ago. I feel the window has closed." His expression of displeasure did not ease. He nearly asked if Griffin got him a present, but it seemed pointless when he already knew the answer.

"No, I suppose I do not." It might have been preferable had he not mentioned it at all.

[willgrahamscock]

are you aware your mutual is sexualizing body horror?

[bloodebayou]

you know, for a good portion of my life, i thought i wanted to be a successful writer in some capacity, and part of me still wants that, but the thought of people writing fanfic or rping my oc actually turns my stomach

[willjulep]

Just got a new knight! I sure hope his unwavering loyalty, mindless devotion, and tendency to kneel before me to kiss the palm of my hand before he commits atrocities in my name doesn't awaken anything in me.

[bloodebayou]

I need to know what sort of movies / television Lourdes enjoys watching (or if he doesn’t much like it at all!).

Also, I think you’ve mentioned this before, but is he still able to eat human food? Any he misses if he can’t?

he does enjoy SOME movies, but he's very picky about them, and it's really hard to get him to watch something he hasn't already seen before. he hasn't watched much television at all, and it's hard to get him to. he also doesn't like to watch things very often. the best way is to tell him he can just read a book while it's on and hope he gets interested.

that said, i have seen a lot of movies, and i've struggled to think of one that lola would really like. i don't think there are any that he loves, he just enjoys a few of them casually, which is part of why he never wants to watch anything.

as for food, he can no longer consume human food or drink at all. he actually is glad about it, too. as a human, he had a lot of issues with food, and struggled some with slightly disordered eating. while he personally has always found himself to be attractive, he has often been self conscious about his weight and worried about men finding him unattractive, since he unfortunately ties some of his self worth to whether or not they do. his issues with cleanliness naturally led him to being very anxious about the food he ate, too. it's much better now that he can only eat one thing and his weight will no longer change.