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about my blog . . .

hi! my name is blu.

i blog about my lived experiences with self realisation.

please look through my "where to start" subsection before submitting an ask.

remember that you are your best teacher so trust your own intuition and guidance. you’ll soon realise you don’t need me or anyone else.

the blogs whose teachings i learnt from are solely the ones that i follow.

godspeed. 🩵

navigation . . .

where to start:

end of all seeking 🩷 ada

4dbarbie adaptations 💜 kelly

realisophie 🧡 sophie

my reblogs 🩵

my asks:

is disidentifying just another mind activity?

how did being on antidepressants affect your self realisation?

i’m so afraid i won’t ever realise myself and that i’m not detaching correctly

can i revise a breakup and wipe my memory that i ever revised it? part 1

can i revise a breakup and wipe my memory that i ever revised it? part 2 (+ healing)

recently i think of things and then they show up instantly — how come?

how come when i think about what i want to experience, i see it happen for others and not me?

i don’t know what i want, and self realisation seems like such a tedious process

how do you actually start this process? i don’t feel anything when i apply

i keep putting off self realisation because i’m scared of my life disappearing

why do i choose wanting and daydreaming over realising self and going all the way?

how do i ignore the brain when i’m addicted to daydreaming?

how is everyone me? and how can i use that knowledge to change/revise other people’s lives?

i feel like i’m gaslighting myself when i try to apply

my life is so busy, i can’t help getting involved in it

i over consumed but haven’t experienced it for myself

i failed at manifesting with LOA but i want my desires too bad to focus on self — is there a third option?

how do you deal with loneliness?

my brain is telling me that what i want is impossible

how do you deal with impatience?

i seriously struggle with not identifying

should i go back in time or just revise everything? part 1

should i go back in time or just revise everything? part 2

i fear if i’m no longer attached to this character and her desires, i will no longer care to materialise her desires

i’m still trying to accept that this is not about having a better experience

what is life like without the desire, anxiety, attachment, depression, hopelessness and loneliness?

how can i tell if i’m still holding onto something? is it just feeling indifferent? what if i feel neutral but the physical still isn’t changing

i want to change my appearance and i really don’t know how to let this go

more about antidepressants

i only struggle letting go of this one specific thing (depression)

would you say you’re self realised?

is it ok for the character to daydream if i don’t identify with her?

what does "be aware of being aware" mean?

have you ever experienced limerence?

ada’s scale of emotions

how do i observe thoughts without getting carried away by them? i don’t feel like the observer

i’m afraid that by observing thoughts they’ll come true. why do they say thoughts aren’t mine?

does observing thoughts calm them down?

i have difficult circumstances and self realisation is stressing me out. what’s the point in this if i can’t change anything?

my annotations of my favourite book

my posts:

4dbarbie gpt questions

don’t wait. create a world. stand alone

turn inward and be independent

lovely ada 💕

everything you can imagine is real

you wake up at the rate you wake up

drop all thoughts

pick a teacher and act

it’s all right now

get off tumblr

you btw

act, apply, be

die to the past and in the morning wake up as a new man

no more questions

my favourite book <3

self knowledge is self evident

desirelessness is the highest state

don’t be too lazy to think

conversations with kelly 💜:

part 1 | part 2

other

#reblog #other

just a heads up, asks like this get blocked.

i was around when both ada and sophie deactivated. never did it cross my mind to condemn their right to do as they please with their own social media, after all the help they gave. i understood that i needed to stand independently of all ego-soothing comforts and habits, and so i did.

in ada’s words:

Is anybody charging you for any services? People are doing their best to explain what they've gained on their own journey. At the end of the day, you have no idea at all what these people went through either. Maybe when expecting empathy try practicing it as well, because demanding answers from someone who owes you absolutely nothing, who is already doing what they can FOR NOTHING IN RETURN, is more than a lot of people in today's world can say for themselves, just look at you - getting mad at someone for not doing something in your own self interest.

I gave the advice to stick to one teacher multiple times, I even told everyone to just download the books and say 'fuck off' to bloggers. The fact that you can't seem to be doing this very small thing to help yourself is only showing YOU don't care enough about yourself, how can you expect a complete stranger to do it?

whether or not my blog stays up is not a meaningful measure of my morality, the attempt to guilt trip in that regard is futile. i’m an adult, with a life and mind of my own. i will always encourage people to be selfish and brazen as opposed to subservient and yielding. 🤷

RW’s teaching…

if your understanding is still none, as your impropriety suggests, that is no one’s obligation to resolve besides your own. if you don’t understand, maybe you’re not meant for this. maybe you need to come back to it years later, when you have better discernment and a more developed brain. regardless, biting the hand that feeds you is immature and a hindrance to no one but yourself.

take initiative and responsibility for your SELF realisation, like every other person before and after you has had to, myself included.

and perhaps replace your entitlement with gratitude for the hundreds of teachings and resources you have at your fingertips.

PLEASE DONT DEACTIVATE 🙏🏾

GULP

It’s very confusing when some people say “desires don’t come from the real you, they come from the character” but then also say “awareness never desires anything it’s the character that wants”?

what about it is confusing you? those two statements are saying the same thing.

desires are born out of who you think you are.

oxana malaya wouldn’t have wanted the things that most "ordinary" children want, like to play with toys and watch cartoons and go to the park, because she was raised by dogs. her mind knew nothing of toys and cartoons and parks. her desires would’ve been to hunt/find food, to stay warm in harsh weather and to remain integrated with her pack, because that was all she knew.

without the person, who is there to want anything? and without the world, what is there to want?

dissolve the idea of being a person and you dissolve all your trouble (fears/desires).

if you realise that the entire universe exists within You, how can you possibly speak of things in it that you don’t have? do you see how ridiculous that is?

the only reason you think you don’t have is because you think of "you" as being the one in the world, when in fact You are the one for whom the world is in.

My mind is blank about questions to ask but watch when u leave that’s when I’ll have an encyclopedia worth of questions. Smh.

LOL why is this so real ☠️

i’m here for approx another week so there’s no rush

and when in doubt, just remember this and all your questions will be answered 🩷

please don't deactivate, your blog has a ton of useful information that can help so many of us. i appreciate that you spent so much of your time and energy here with us, endlessly answering our repetitive questions, and i completely understand it's time to say goodbye, but please leave up your posts, think of it as a souvenir? and who knows, maybe some day you'll feel like checking back in, just to find your inbox full of wonderful stories of people finding themselves.

i love you, thank you for being here for so long, i'm gonna miss you more than you know x

you guys would make incredible hostage negotiators

you’re convincing me, you’re convincing me……

i love you ad infinitum. thank you for being here with me, and for being such a beautiful soul, and for making this this pastime such a pleasure. i cherish you all wholeheartedly

there’s no need to miss me, i’m always right where You say i am, we appear apart only in the mind. 💕

endless hugs and kisses my angel 🥹

Ahhh I really hope you don’t deactivate-your account has been such a great source for me and I go back to it often when I need reminders. Of course, I understand if you choose to! I just want to say thank you so much for your kindness in all your posts and answers-you really bring me comfort! That being said-I do have 1 question. I know I know the answer…but this one thing feels like I can’t drop it.

Is it really truly just a matter of knowing thy Self and collapsing all these false concepts of lack and separation? I feel like I know these things, yet I find myself feeling confused at times….maybe I just need to recognize that anything from the mind is not me and leave it all alone? Sorry for this being all over the place! I really just wanted to send an ask before you’re gone 😘

"maybe I just need to recognize that anything from the mind is not me and leave it all alone?"

i couldn’t have put it more succinctly myself if i tried. you got it in one baby🌟

the confusion isn’t You, the feeling that you’re not there yet isn’t You.

but it’s truly ok that the confusion is there… let it be… it doesn’t last forever, and i promise with every fibre of my being that this long and arduous process you think you’re stuck in right now, you’ll come to look back on with nothing but unimaginable peace and love. where you once saw pain, you’ll soon see only perfection. 🩵

thank you for your gratitude and loveliness my darling. :]

noooooo blu please don't deactivate:(( 💔💔💔

don’t do this to meee

i’m weak-willed and susceptible to sad faces 😓

Hey blu,

I hope you’re doing well ! I can’t wait till be able to experience life as you are now having learned all of this and accomplished what everyone is striving for!

My question is regarding learning more about the nature of what I am. Rupert Spira mentioned that it’s not enough to know that one is awareness. He emphasizes the importance of exploring the nature of it. Ex. Knowing it’s infinite, knowing the world is in it or a modulation of it. So my question is what’s the best way to figure this out. My mind cannot know of awareness so is asking questions about the nature of it really beneficial ? The next option would be experiencing it/being it. I know that I’m it all the time but when I try to go deeper and get to a place where it’s just awareness, I find that thoughts/perceptions/sensations are never ending and I want to experience it without these things, like we do in sleep.

Regarding sleep, if it’s our true nature with the absence of objective things, why doesn’t sleep bring us closer to understanding awareness if we experience it daily.

Is it because we don’t know the context of what it actually means? - if this makes sense

Thank you, I appreciate your time 💗

hi love! :] 🩵 longgg post ahead woweee i apologise.

in response to the first part of your ask:

i can only extrapolate based on the limited context, but i imagine rupert spira was emphasising the importance of not just simply knowing that what i call "me" or "i" (the person) is unreal, but that the entirety of the dream and everything in it is unreal too. you are not just an illusory form/projection of Awareness interacting with a real, separate, immovable world. the whole of the world and all of its contents, everything that is imaginable and conceivable, all physical and mental activity is nothing but a form of Awareness taking place within Awareness. the reason Awareness is infinite is because it is boundless. and time is a boundary. if Awareness is subject to time i.e. if it has a beginning/end, tell me what could possibly come before/after it? and notice that whatever answer you can offer is an answer produced by the mind, meaning it is yet another form of Awareness in and of itself. whatever you imagine could take place before/after (aka ‘outside of’) Awareness, requires Awareness in order to imagine it (i.e. in order for it to exist). therefore, Awareness inherently surpasses all limits and bounds. it is all-pervading and all-powerful.

as for how i suggest you come to this understanding, simply self realise. everything else will take care of itself. there are zero questions or doubts left when knowing is ultimate. reality becomes self obvious. simply keep remembering that nothing you are conscious of can be you …so what are you? what is the single unchanging element of all changing phenomena? what remains when all else goes?…

continually keep in mind the absolute and all-encompassing nature of Awareness. i have people all the time tell me "i know i’m Self, but …" and then they go on to spiral about a particular "problem" or circumstance. if you truly knew, you’d treat everything with the calm indifference that you do your dreams. there’d be no ifs or buts or maybes. if you understand that this thing/person/event/thought is unreal, why would that one be any different? if you know this thought is illusion, why is that thought somehow real? if you know that ideas are unreal and meaningless, why do they still trigger you? why do you still spiral? why do you fight to change/get rid of/affirm against what you see? because the knowing is incomplete and unsustained, that’s why. we remember our true nature for a little, and then something happens that feels very serious and scary and we forget again. we go back to believing in the world. the solution is just to keep at this ‘practice’ until it’s permanent, until you remember all of the time. then the need for any practice or remembering is over. you are just Being, forever, regardless of whatever costume (character) You playfully put on.

i know you said you want to go deeper beyond thoughts, but thoughts won’t stop for as long as you’re wanting or willing them to. the good news is, that’s fine! thoughts exist because You exist first. they are an indication of Awareness, not a hindrance of it. the only reason you can know of them in the first place is because you are. use them as an opportunity to remember your true Being instead of seeing them as a problem to overcome. let them be, watch them the way you’d watch bustling traffic from your bedroom window; sometimes it’s loud and crowded, sometimes it’s quiet and empty, but either way You stand apart from it. observe. the noise will fall away on its own i assure you.

as for sleep:

this person talks about how sleep brought them closer to understanding awareness.

in deep dreamless sleep, personal consciousness vanishes. the world, the body, the mind, the sense of "i am" all cease to exist. the lack of sense objects leaves only pure, primordial Awareness (distinction explained here).

even in deep sleep, You (Awareness) are. that’s why you do not say "i ceased existing last night" even though the person technically did (and that’s because You are not the person, therefore You continue even when the person does not!!! think on that). now imagine this state of deep sleep, except without ever waking up. You would be no-body in no-thing forever, formless and shapeless and undivided. yet you cannot say You wouldn’t exist, because it is into this state that you (the character and world) submerges (falling asleep) and re-emerges (waking up) every day. there must be something (= Awareness) within which the world and person can dissolve and arise. so in short, You are the space/canvas for the entire universe. preeeetttttyyy cool right? : ))

but yes, for the vast majority of people, they awaken from sleep and immediately assume the identity of a person in the world. it appears very much that the world is already there upon awakening, and you are a mere victim of it. memories of the past are carried into every new moment, and it’s this apparent continuity/cause and effect within the dream which gives it its sense of reality. the illusion you have set up for yourself is a very convincing one. hence the advice to behave as if you were bodiless and mindless, spaceless and timeless, effectively embodying (mentally) the state of deep sleep.

this is why i recommend meditation, yes as often as possible, but especially before sleep and after waking. seek to extend this meditative state, in which you are allowing everything its being whilst remaining undisturbed and unattached, further and further into the day until you’re in it constantly, until you realise it is your natural way of being and the activities of the world can no longer bind you.

when i speak of meditation, i don’t mean you must force yourself to sit only in one place in a particular position with your eyes closed and total silence surrounding you. yes, it can help in the beginning to find somewhere private to sit peacefully, but you can very much meditate all of the time regardless of what the body is doing… essentially what this anon described here, in what is one of my favourite posts ever.

ramana maharshi has lots of interesting quotes about sleep that you can find simply by googling. here’s one:

nisargadatta maharaj also has a quote that’s only semi-related to sleep but i love it so much that i’m including it here anyways :p

hey blu ill miss you very dearly your post have helped me !!! i hope you dont deactivate because you do have some good spiritual pictures and posts on here i always return to, but if you do of course i understand. im kinda just at a point where i havent really changed anything which is fine but am like “im aware of everything “ even it a unicorn or a million dollars appear. its gotten very easy to tell when “the ego” shines through and “asking questions”. i did try to find your story that you sent to 4dkelly(i think?) but couldnt and was always confused when people said when you know youll be able to do something youll do it. your page has comforted “me” knowing that someone also went thru the things i went through and still managed to create something beautiful. maybe its because im “waiting” and i dont know what for anymore. im not sure if theres any more advice you can say to me because the me isnt real but alas. thank you thank you for answering my asks because i have sent you many lol 🥹 mind may not know it but we were all one so this isnt really goodbye, i hope i can get to the peaceful creative space you and sophie and ada are without needing to rely on senses, love you blu blu!!!!

hi my love!

this was the ask i sent to kelly, back in december 2024.

knowing is being. whatever you know, is. that is why people say that "when you know you’ll be able to do something you’ll do it". when you know that you are no-body, that all bodies are equally yours, you’ll express whichever one you wish instantaneously and without thought. that is already what is happening now, You are choosing this person every moment without needing to think any thoughts to make it so. it is as effortless and natural as that for the expression of all things, at all times.

you can’t get there any faster by wanting it more. you can only let go of the wanting, let go of the waiting, let go of the expectations. to wait for something is to declare it as not happening now. and unless you know it to be happening now and to you, it isn’t.

my advice is always the same: think only of your Being. rest in it, wherever and whenever possible, no matter what you’re doing/seeing. focus on "i am", to the exclusion of all sense objects. remember it over and over until it is never forgotten. be undisturbed by what you see, let there be no pressure to maintain the "good" nor to get rid of the "bad". all exists because You exist first, act like it and pay whatever you are conscious of no mind. all else takes care of itself. : )

thank you for such sweet words honey, i love you lots 💕💕💕

Hello blu !!

I've seen your latest post , where you said that you'd eventually stop coming back here , so I thought it be more it to send a last ask :)

even tho I have no idea of what to ask really ? not gonna lie , I felt like my heart was dropping , thinking I'll never have this realization if everyone is gone 😭😭😭 Anyway , I've heard countless times that all troubles comes from what I think am , which makes a lot of sense . But what troubles is me how could it not be me ? if anything I find it easier to find ways to reinforce that i'm just a mere human being . Knowing about this stuff and still repeating the same old stories bruh 😐 I don't get it , you could say that I get angry at this , how am I supposed to be all awareness when I have the same stuff showing up 😐 wow so powerful right 😐 not only that , but I think that I take the "physical" as too much of a feedback , still the same.stuff.? yep I didn't realize shit . can't think of something else ?.that's on me . On top of it , i'm starting to see how i'm creating my own misery and choosing this life specifically as well 😭 it's weird as hell !

anyway , back to my ask ;

what are the post that you'd recommend the most to read to realize who we are ? I think that it is time for me.to. leave Tumblr for good and stick to only a few posts and see where it gets me.

Finally , i want to say how much you have bought comfort to me and probably other anons . while i'm still not realized yet , I can say for sure that your posts are the ones that I resonate the most , I love how much sense they actually make ,.not only that , but you also give clear explanations , practical exemples and also kindness and understanding , it's refreshing really !!! I feel like just like ada and Sophie ,.you have your own wording too , I hope that you will spend a great summer !

hallooo!!

in response to the things you mentioned, these posts might help you:

"I felt like my heart was dropping , thinking I'll never have this realization if everyone is gone"

the road is shorter when you rely on your own inner voice

"Knowing about this stuff and still repeating the same old stories"

"4D" can't come to fruition while you're still aware of a 3D that is there & is completely different from what you'd wish it to be

"you could say that I get angry at this , how am I supposed to be all awareness when I have the same stuff showing up"

Don’t get frustrated or angry at yourself, be patient, the calmer you are, the easier it will get to drop more of these ideas of what you think you are.

Most of you can't change because you are so desperate TO change…

"I think that I take the "physical" as too much of a feedback , still the same.stuff.? yep I didn't realize shit"

If you're not seeing what ego wants is simply because you're aware of yourself living in a world you don't want.

To be aware means to be. If the thing isn't it means you're not and that's all the feedback you need.

"can't think of something else ?.that's on me"

You fight the thoughts or try to get rid of them because you think they're you or yours

You only feel the need to "right your thoughts" when you identify yourself with an idea.

i can’t suggest any singular post(s) as THE post that will "make you realise" because that’s not how it works. you can keep reading for another 50 years… you won’t truly see what’s being pointed at if you’re looking outwards for a truth that can only be realised inwardly. that’s how people end up spending thousands on spiritual retreats for decades without ever feeling like they’ve "got" it.

that being said… i did admittedly read a lot. i read everything of ada’s and everything of sophie’s (there are literally hundreds of posts in those links & they’re all worth their weight in gold). there isn’t a post from either of them that i’ve not seen (and read, several times). i also read a lot from kelly, especially after sophie deactivated.

but that much reading is not at all necessary. i wouldn’t swear against it, so to speak, because it didn’t hinder me... but i will always promote acting in what you’ve read over reading more and more. the reading is futile if it is without experimentation. i read so much because i was scared; scared that i wasn’t capable yet, scared that my problems would get worse, scared that it was all a lie, scared that i’d lose the parts of blu that i liked, scared that i’d miss out on some golden nugget of info from a blogger that was finally gonna make it all click. i see now that the fear was childish, but there’s no reason for regret when time is never "wasted"… everything can just be reversed or revised when it has no solid existence in reality to begin with. besides, every choice i made that looked at the time like a "mistake" still led me to where i am now. everyone is doing the best with the tools/knowledge/maturity they have, so i don’t judge anyone’s journey… everyone was a newbie once… you overcome the fear eventually🤷

in short: stick to the blog(s) you trust. if you wish, look through and choose a handful of the posts that resonate the most. like ada said, every post is a guide if you want it enough (ironically, that post is genuinely a very good guide lol). it really doesn’t matter which posts/how many/if any at all you rely on. then, and this is most important: try just Being, throughout the day, every day, where and when you can. if you get fearful, try just sitting with the fear instead of looking for a dopamine hit in a tumblr post. try to face the fear as opposed to caving to it. and if you forget, if you get caught up in the events or emotions of the day again, that’s fine! just take a deep breath, close your eyes, come back to Being. remember to remember — "who am i? what am i? to whom does it all happen?". i am that i am. all is well.

btw, the only reason i don’t link/recommend my own posts is because i have no memory of anything i’ve ever written ☠️. i write an answer and then immediately move on, i don’t reread any of it. rest assured, there’s nothing on this blog that i have written/liked/reblogged that i don’t still agree with. i only started writing on here once i had a knowing of my own, so as not to backtrack or mislead. everything i say/share, i can vouch for :]

thank you for your kind words my angel, you’ve made my day 💕 may your summer too, and every experience thereafter, be as beautiful as your heart 🩵 : )))

reopened my inbox for the last time, any final Qs are welcome <3

i won’t be on tumblr beyond the month of may (might deactivate? idk). it has been a loooongggg time coming & i am barely around these days

life is very fast paced (in the best way imaginable) and there is so much beautiful experience to be had outside of the internet that i want to fully enjoy, especially now summers on its way :-)))

my tumblr era was a rollercoaster & i’m so grateful for the unfathomable peace and freedom and love that ada (& soph) opened my eyes to💓🫂, but all of my favourite bloggers left long ago and everything has been said 100x

thank you to everyone who has sent me msgs/asks over the last year. thank you to everyone who has interacted with my posts. i notice all of you, especially the ppl who interact regularly!! :) ily all. keeping my blog so lowkey means ive been able to foster this tiny alcove of the sweetest souls in the world💕💕💕. i wish nothing but the loveliest of experiences for you all

i discovered self realisation (or ""nondualism"") this time 3 years ago, whilst in the most hopeless desperate agonising circumstances, & there has been nothing more beautiful than being able to look back with genuine gratitude for all of it, with the understanding now that it was all just play all along :’]

freedom is Yours, and it’s here and now. this life exists solely so You can get the very best out of it. please have the courage to spend not a second more of it being needlessly afraid. and for the love of god go have funnnnn!!! experience!!!!!!!! run freeeee 🩵

heavy stuff mentioned here

it’s hard to even think of all of this stuff when i know people are suffering across the world. racism, misogyny, war. i feel like i can’t detach when i know that genocide is occurring or some child in a place is going hungry. i saw someone say that we’re not supposed to care about the epstein files because it doesn’t concern us lmao. i just can’t be apathetic to these things and do self realization, or, at that, believe in nonduality at all when this stuff is happening.

You already are ""detached"" from the world. world is in You, not You in it. the only reason you believe it to be otherwise is because you see the body in the world and believe "that’s me".

you can do good in the world. you can act kindly and selflessly. in fact "selfless service" (sometimes known as seva or dāna depending on the culture) is typically the highest regarded form of sadhana (spiritual practice) in the pursuit of self realisation. the same way you can still eat, drink, wash, sleep, go to work/school, spend time with friends and family… you can equally still donate to charities, support small businesses, attend marches and protests, sign petitions, volunteer at refugee & homeless shelters, rescue/foster animals, reduce your carbon footprint, etc. why would this ever not be the case? why would i ever advocate for a way of living that does not co-exist with my own morals? why would i offer help on this app if i didn’t believe in the principle of helping generally?

what better way of seeing the Oneness of all, than treating others as though they are yourSelf (because they are)? when you act out of jealousy, greed, spite, anger, superiority… you set things apart. you become the "i" wanting to take from/oppress/hurt the "other". it becomes a matter of me vs you, us vs them.

take, for example, your finger. stretch it out far in front of your face. you can see it, right? it appears in the space "out there". now bring it in close to you. keep bringing it closer until it is pressed in the space between the inner corner of your eye and your nose, laying flat against your skin. now you can barely see it at all. what appeared separate and "out there" when kept at arms length, disappears entirely when you allow it close to you. do the same, metaphorically, with people and feelings. everything that you deem separate, all the good and the bad, the positive and the negative. love and accept all of it so deeply that the line between ""you"" and ""it"" vanishes. until you merge. until two become One.

you needn’t cut your finger off to make it disappear, you can just bring it in close. similarly, you needn’t turn your back on others in order to "awaken". instead, simply look at others and see only yourSelf.

"to love another person is to see the face of God."

if you want to cease the suffering in a dream, is the best solution not to wake up?

in ada’s words:

You can do whatever you want at any point in your life, same goes for believing in whatever you want. Your being, however, is not a belief or a view. You can spread joy, work at making the world a better place - those are very noble goals. Any work that is not in favor of what you take to be yourself will bring you closer to your self. But there are no others out there and what you're doing is still for yourself.

thank you for your ask, and for being a good person with a good heart. 🩵

Hi Blu, I don't know where to begin. I used to be someone who constantly read about ND and manifesting, and constantly "tried to manifest." But then I really got tired of it and gave up. I started living as if I'd never heard of manifesting, as if I'd erased the concepts I'd learned from my head. I became materialistic, started living according to the "rules" of the world, and stopped hoping for anything. While my journey towards becoming a materialistic human being is progressing as I'd hoped, there's something that bothers me. Were these concepts I was researching, these things I was striving for, real? Although I wish I could stop thinking about these things and just move on with my life as normal, I can't help but think about them. Is it real? Or just a waste of time? How can I know?

hi my love.

be careful not to conflate manifestation with nd, they are not the same and trying to merge the two is futile.

either you want your realisation or you want to get things in the world.

as for your question: the only thing that is real is Awareness. all else is impermanent, dependent, transitory, unreal.

so long as you know yourself as a person trying to get, that is all you will experience being: a person trying to get. that’s why you got tired. you tried diligently and earnestly to know yourself as the person you wish to be, without truly understanding that neither the person you wish to be nor the one that wishes are real.

and no, the solution is not to "know yourself as a person that has". how can you? how can you jump from knowing yourself as a person in unfavourable circumstances to a person in favourable circumstances? you’ve tried that already, and to no avail.

instead, know yourself as you really are: no-thing. behave as if you were pure awareness, bodiless and mindless, spaceless and timeless, beyond 'where' and 'when' and 'how'.

don’t try to know yourself as any particular person. investigate the one that is aware of the person.

this person had similar concerns to you, you might find soph and kelly’s responses comforting. :]

i always suggest people act now because now is all there ever is, and why wait for your freedom? but, equally, i am in no position to push anyone into anything, my encouragement means nothing if your heart isn’t really in it. if/when you’re meant to embark on this path, you will. everything happens spontaneously and perfectly. i myself "wasted" several months sitting on this information without applying any of it because i was both too scared and too complacent to act. but like you, i couldn’t move on from what i read, i couldn’t forget it. it wasn’t until my life got really bad that i took my self realisation seriously, because i was finally sick of being troubled by worldly matters. after, i saw that the fear and complacency were silly and unnecessary (but perfect nonetheless). there’s never anything to be afraid of. why delay?

i wish you the very best with whatever you pursue. 🩵

iamthat-iam

The post to end all seeking.

From Being_is_IT on Twitter:

https://x.com/Being_Is_IT/status/1762169629449867389

^ this is the core message of all that i teach.

have lots and lots of fun. be free and experience. refuse all stories and definitions. simply Be.

love yourSelf enough to actually finally fully just do it. commit wholeheartedly, with every ounce of your Being. don’t be afraid to let go, and have the courage to never look back.

you can do it, you just have to know you can do it.

i wish you the very best that this life has to offer. 🩵

hi and sorry for this ramble, this isn't really a question i just feel so pathetic for having this information at my disposal and still suffering on the daily. i also accidentally internalized a pattern i noticed, which is that as soon as i grow emotionally attached to someone or something things start going south for them or it gets taken away from me. this applies to people i know personally in my own life, friends, family, other acquaintances, but even artists, athletes, celebrities that i'm a fan of or i'm rooting for. everything is going ideally for them, their life is perfect, and then as soon as i start caring about them bad things start happening. it's like i a curse everyone i love. i enter their life when they're at their peak and then it suddenly all goes downhill. and i'm being told it's only a belief and to just drop it, but i can't. i don't know how. even when i pretend i don't care about them, i know i do, and things still keep going wrong and i feel like it's my fault and i desperately wish i could fix/undo/revise everything. maybe i'm just not cutout for this, i just hate that the people who mean a lot to me get dragged down because of me.

hi! don't apologise, you're all good. :]

based on your ask, you don't yet seem to understand that there is no "me" nor "i". you're so deeply entrenched in this belief in a separate self that you're now deeply analysing the illusory 'cause and effect' that this separate self is having on the lives of """other""" """separate""" beings. rather than learning to see through this false identity via surrendering/un-identifying/self-enquiring/meditating/etc (you can check my pinned post to learn more), you're instead exerting all of your energy into worrying about the concerns and affairs born out of the belief in this false identity. it's like being overwhelmingly concerned with the subplots in a dream instead of just realising that it's ***literally*** ALL a dream. the point isn't to focus on the contents of the dream, but the fact that it IS a dream. i can tell you right now that you are dreaming up the "you" AND the "others", but what good does me saying that do for you? do you trust it? does it mean anything? probably not. it all just sounds like a pipe dream when you've not yet proven it to yourself. you have to investigate independently, and you can only do that if you turn your attention INWARD as opposed to OUT THERE at what """you""" can see.

here is nisargadatta's advice in his own words: "just turn away, look between the thoughts, rather than at the thoughts. when you happen to walk in a crowd, you do not fight every man you meet. you just find your way between. when you fight, you invite a fight. but when you do not resist, you meet no resistance".

the way you drop thoughts is by revoking your identification with them. there's a misconception that dropping thoughts means that those thoughts must never ever occur again and if they do, you've failed. this isn't true. you can't force yourself to never think about something again. and the harder you try to control or get rid of thoughts, the more of a mess you'll find yourself in.

LET THEM BE. all of these stories you described... OK!!!... LET IT BE!!! just stop inserting YOU in the story!!!

for example, rather than thinking "i am sad", simply recognise "there is sadness". rather than constantly thinking of it as "my body" and "my life", learn to see how these things are just there. they're just appearing. there appears a body. there appears a life (what even is a life anyway... a bundle of memories that exist solely in the mind...). see how this simple reframing instantly makes these things impersonal? it's not about dismissal. it's not about denial. it's not about pretending there isn't sadness or a body or a life, but instead acknowledging that it doesn't have to be YOURS. really ask yourself, why should it have to be YOURS? why should it have to be saying something about YOU? why can these things not just BE THERE? they're there!!!!! ok!!!!!! you cannot do anything about the fact they're there!!!!! haven't you tried that already??? you've tried to revise them, undo them, fix them, make them go away, and what did that do!??!?!?!?! NADA. so what's the one thing you haven't tried yet???? surrendering!!!! not identifying!!!!

and this surrendering/un-identifying doesn't have to be some grand cathartic moment. it's something you can practice in small ways all of the time. take a look at your actions. maybe you have a habit of obsessing over your own or other people's circumstances, stalking people's social media, constantly looking for reassurance or validation, spiralling internally about hypothetical situations... it might not even be anything glaringly obvious but simply in the 'little thoughts' that play on a loop and gnaw away at us, like "ugh i wish i hadn't said that..." or "god why did i do that". whatever the case may be, when you find yourself in one of these moments (even if the moment passed 10 minutes/hours/days/years ago and you're only just remembering it), take a second to pause and breathe. ask yourself if this HAS to be YOUR story. ask yourself if you're really actually truly obligated to keep carrying this burden around. and if you think you are, if you think that you truly have no choice... ask yourself WHO is thinking that, WHO is telling you that? it's literally all just you. even if someone was telling you that you ought to feel shame or guilt or ANYTHING of the sort... no one can actually impose that on you. at every moment, you are totally in charge of the thoughts and feelings you're identifying with. the thoughts and feelings will come on their own, and once again, that. is. fine!!!!! i cannot emphasise this enough. IT'S FINE IT'S NORMAL IT'S OK IT WAS THAT WAY FOR ME TOO!!! don't concern yourself with the contents of the thoughts and feelings, just know that they are not you or yours!!!! YES, feel them!!! YES, accept that they are there!!! but KNOW that YOU are beyond them.

in short, do this.

another quote by nisargadatta to end: "simply look at whatever happens and know that you are beyond it". and yes, when he says whatever, he really means whatever. there are no exceptions to this rule. your circumstances are not special, that goes for everyone. you are just as cut out for this as i was. there is no need to fret, simply do the best that you can each day. : ) 🩵

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