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Searching for Something

Jedi Survivor: Cal Kestis x F!Reader

Word Count: 8.6k

Summary: you're a prospector on Koboh, under the impression that you're assisted by simple luck and good hunches. When you catch the eye of the local Jedi, you slowly realize that it might not just be a case of good luck after all. And maybe, just maybe, your paths crossed for a reason.

Teaser:

“You’re the Jedi,” you mumbled, and the smile dropped from Cal’s face as your anxiety coursed through the air. It was jarring, overwhelming, for him to receive those emotions through the force this close to you.  “Yes. I just… heard you calling,” he said slowly, and you just glared at him, lips parting in surprise.  “I didn’t call anyone,” you stuttered out, the hand holding the blaster out faltering.  “That’s not true. And I think you know that,”

Cal stood from his meditative stance, stretching his neck from side to side and releasing the breath he had been holding. The lights flickered above his head, a brief pause from the constant low hum they emitted. He could feel the familiar beat of a song BD-1 particularly enjoyed from the cantina’s setlist reverberate through the floor. The noises here never bothered him, not after all those years on Bracca where the sounds of jacks, drills, stuttering ship engines, and screeches of saws had chewed into his brain night after night. No; here the sounds reminded him of comfort, of the pleasant but bustling atmosphere of Greez’s saloon that he had begun to recognize as his temporary home base these last few weeks. The trunk in the corner had slowly begun to fill up higher and higher with his belongings. Cal wasn’t surprised to see BD-1 lounging with both legs extended out beside him. The little droid tilted his head to the side, antennae twitching as he greeted Cal with a series of chirps. 

“Yeah bud, I’m ready,” Cal said down to him with a soft smile. BD-1 sprang up, scampering up to his usual perch across Cal’s back. 

“Let’s go find Greez.” 

***

The doors to the main room opened, unleashing the music and swarm of overlapping voices at full volume. It was a sharp contrast to the quiet peace that followed his daily meditation, but Cal welcomed it with open arms. He shuffled past a few familiar faces, nodding to Mosey as she raised her half empty glass in greeting. It seemed like the cantina was getting busier and busier every day, but today there were more fresh faces of prospectors lining the bar than Cal had ever seen in one place. They spoke in excited but hushed voices, the eccentric music provided by DD-EC, who had a tendency to keep the volume a few ticks too high. Despite the complaints, the droid had refused to budge, saying something about the fragile ears of organics. 

Cal continued to maneuver his way past the small crowd, sliding into the stool next to Greez. He laid one hand to rest on the cool bar top, head quirked to one side as he tried to overhear the commotion. 

“Greez- what’s with all the excitement today?” He asked the latero, who was busy shuffling around the concepts for his new menu items. 

“Cal! I couldn’t tell you what those guys are all worked up about. All I know is that they showed up with healthy appetites and have been slinging credits all over the place. I need to prep a new menu. You can be my test sampler,” he said with excitement. Cal chuckled at that. He was never one to turn down Greez’s homemade creations.

“Sure, Greezy-Money. I’ll be back later- BD and I have some things to look into today,” he explained, mind already wandering back to the meditation chambers that he had yet to explore. He longed to hear the centuries old-lessons of Santari Khri, to feel the awe that accompanied the massive and intricate builds. It was a similar feeling to what he had felt in training sessions with Master Topal, and again years later with Cere. Though Santari Khri was long dead, Cal had begun to foster an understanding of her teachings, and through them, an understanding of the Jedi herself. She had wisdom to share, if he only took the time to listen. BD-1 seemed to enjoy their journeys in the chambers as well, the hours of exploring often accompanied by countless relics for him to scan.

“Back to the wilderness he goes,” Greez muttered as he flipped back and forth between two displays on his datapad. “As long as you’re back for supper,” he added pointedly. 

“Sure thing,” Cal said, pushing off the bar and out of the stool once more with a creak. As he passed by, he heard one of the prospectors, a short human man, trying to wrangle his companions. 

“We should just ask her! I’ve spent two weeks in that sector and pulled up nothing. She must have found a deposit hidden away in the cave system. There’s no other explanation. Maybe there’s another spot she knows of,” he said, and he was met with faces of doubt. 

“You’re not listening, Isaiah. There’s no mystery gold mine we skipped over. The girl has a talent for this sort of thing,” another man whispered, and he wiggled his fingers.

“There’s gotta be a little something special at work there, if you ask me,” he said, with a serious expression. 

A scoff rang out.

“She probably just has a background in geology, that’s all. Identifying the mineral content and locating the deposits, that’s the only explanation. The girl has keen eyes and an education. Don’t start with your psychic banthashit again,” another prospector snipped back. 

Cal’s eyebrows rose at that. So, a successful prospector. That’s what had drawn in all these prospectors to Rambler’s Reach. Cal didn’t often feel a need to interfere with prospector business- aside from the group that went missing. His nose turned up slightly as he remembered the giant claws of the Rancor emerging from behind the big stone pillar down in the mine. Yeah, that had turned him off prospecting for the most part. Though, he and BD-1 had their fair share of luck in stumbling across priorite shards. 

Continuing past the group, Cal let their bickering and hyper force signatures fade into the background. He stepped out of the saloon, the blazing Koboh sun striking his face. Cal allowed himself to fall into a comfortable rhythm on his way to the stables, feeling the familiar weight of his saber swing gently against his hip. His blaster was tucked safely within the holster that ran across his chest. The heat was thick today, and he had left his jacket behind, letting the slight breeze cool his arms. 

“BD- how far are we going again?” He asked, and his companion pulled up the holomap quickly. The beacon was further than Cal remembered. But the itch to revisit the chamber, without the constraint of time weighing on him, was too strong to deny. 

“Alright. Let’s go,” Cal vaulted over the fence of the stables, and approached the blue Nekko that he had brought in the night before. 

“Hi again, friend. Feel up to some more exploring?” The Nekko nuzzled its head down into the palm of Cal’s hand, and he took that as a yes.

***

You strained, arm pulling at an uncomfortable angle that made your teeth grit and muscles burn. The rock wall you were currently dangling on had seemed like a simple enough climb. That was before the rock shelf began to quake, the series of handholds you had mapped out for yourself coming loose and cracking down into the depths below. Confusion had deemed you temporarily frozen in place, until you put together the sounds of mechanical drilling and clipped tones from the path through the rock ahead. Damn stormtroopers. You weren’t sure what they were searching for, but you weren’t pleased to find yourself this close to whatever the operation was. 

Your fingers burned and you couldn’t help but grimace as the jagged edge of the rock face dug into your palms. This wasn’t ideal. Swinging your legs as much as you could bear, you cursed and swung your arm up. The ascension cable shot forward, finding its mark in the jumble of vines at the top of the cliff. You dropped momentarily, and then were pulled forward roughly as the cable tugged you along its arc. Your side slammed into the rock, knocking the air from your lungs and leaving you gasping for breath. 

“Oh, come on,” you wheezed out, bloodied fingers clutching the vines tightly, grateful to have found purchase. The cloth of your gloves had shredded in the journey, and you rendered them useless.The air was dense with the scent of lush greenery, and it crowded your nose almost uncomfortably.

Still clutching the vines, you breathed air in, then back out. In, and out, until your racing heart calmed enough that you no longer feared it would burst from your chest. You continued the trek through the greenery, boots tucked securely amongst the tangled jumbles and fingers sticky from where your nails had cut into the vines. The top of the cliff face was nearing, and you sighed with relief once you finally pulled yourself over its edge. The rocky terrain seemed to be behind you for now; ahead was a new world of bright colour and exotic floral scents. Like a rainforest, almost. But more overpowering than the scents and the visual picture of the new landscape was the instinct driving you forward, insistent and sure.

You could feel something coursing through the air here. Something refreshing, powerful. In some of these little pockets of Koboh, you felt strangely integrated into the environment. The sounds of the strange insects, birds, the path of the wind as it wound through the rock columns with a gentle whistle. It was at times like this, when you felt ultra connected to the world around you, that your best priorite finds came to be. Today, you would be lucky. You could feel it. Like all the other prospectors fluttering around this planet, you were simply doing your job. You just happened to be really, really, good at it. And your hunches had yet to steer you astray.

A modulated voice barked out words you couldn’t quite make out, and you ducked behind the dense foliage. You tugged your blaster free from where it was lodged in your belt, and you couldn’t help wincing as your blistered fingers found their grip. Shucking off your shredded and blood spotted gloves, you peered through the branches, trying to catch a glimpse of the imperials ahead. A team of two stormtroopers blocked the path, one of which was operating some sort of drill, the other pointing and trying to direct his companion. Squinting, you realized they were trying to bust their way into the old metal doorway partly masked by vines and built into the rock. 

You’d given up on those mystery doors a long time ago, same as everyone else on Koboh. Without any real permanent residents, there wasn’t exactly a historian you could consult. They remained one of those unsolvable Koboh oddities. And those troopers could throw every power saw and explosive they had at that thing. It wouldn’t open.

Shrugging the fabric of the thin shawl out of your face, you adjusted your crouched stance and raised your blaster into position. You couldn’t help the look of disgust that crossed your face as you watched the fools bicker back and forth. Tired of hearing their voices, you poised your finger over the trigger and silenced one of them. The blaster smoked at the end, the plasma having sent the first trooper down to the ground. Too easy. The second whirled at the noise, dropping the drill with a clunk and raising his own blaster. Before he could locate your position, you dealt with him too. 

Stepping out of your concealment, you made your way over to the fallen troopers. The dirt crunched beneath your boots, the songs of avian species you couldn’t name ringing out into the ravine ahead. As you passed, you peered at the drill dropped at the feet of the troopers. You couldn’t blame the empire for wanting into that doorway. Your curiosity piqued as you reached forward to trace the strange doorway with your fingertips. It was cool to the touch, and remained undented despite the rocks that had undoubtedly crashed against its surface. They had been trying to drill underneath the entranceway without much luck. With one last look at the slumped forms of the troopers, you continued on with your search. You had credits to earn.

After another hour of hiking through the thick, dry vegetation, your boots were coated with dust and your muscles ached with the effort of climbing. The area around you was all jutting rock columns and dry moss. There were ruins of old watchtowers and outposts here too, though your focus remained further beneath the ground. The path you followed curved down sharply, revealing an extremely worn lift platform. The control panel was partially busted, and sparks flew sporadically when you pushed the level into position. After a moment of flickering lights, a deep hum rumbled through the ground. The platform rose quickly, sliding into place with just a bit of turbulence. Cursing, you stepped onto the platform, praying for the best. It lurched beneath your feet, and you spread out both arms, knees bending to maintain your balance. You tried not to think about how old this thing was. It brought you down into the depths of the rift, and your heart raced with anticipation. 

Stepping off the lift, you marveled at the large fallen basalt columns. There was stone everywhere, and light vegetation scattered many of the rock faces around you. You scampered over columns, climbed pillars and vine covered cliff sides until you could feel that you were there. Ahead, a sheltered alcove was tucked beneath a curtain of stringy yellow-green vines. You ducked inside, and took a breath. Closing your eyes, you let your hands fall upon the walls of the miniature cave, feeling where you needed to go with both your fingers and with that instinct in your mind leading you. After a few minutes of searching, you knew you had it when your index finger slid upon a new texture. The shard was formed into the layers of rock, and with a little pressure, it would give away. Flipping a small toolbelt down from your waist, you grabbed a pick, flicking on your lightstick and setting your eyes upon the shard. It was a decent size, the iridescent shimmer of the priorite glistening in the odd blue-ish hue of the lightstick you held. You pried it free, tucking it safely into the small leather pouch concealed within the pocket of your vest. Satisfied, you stood to your feet and shifted the vines aside. The journey back would be simple, with your path already charted and grappling points readily available. 

You had made it back to the old doorway again when you felt a wave of alertness course through you. It was an odd sensation, and one that left you sucking in a quick breath. You climbed high into one of the massive trees, crouching back against its pale beige trunk. You blended in nicely, in your sand-coloured shawl covering and faded trousers. The blaster you always travelled with was clutched in your hands once more, tight enough to worsen the sting of your blisters. You couldn’t see anything, even from this high vantage point. It was time to head back to Rambler’s Reach.

***

Cal flung himself to the next cliff face with ease, assisted here and there by a quick tug of the force and an encouraging chirp from the droid on his shoulder. The sun blazed even higher in the sky now, and he longed for the darkness and coolness of the meditation chamber. He was nearly there, according to the holomap. The lush nature of the far reaches of Koboh were a small comfort to Cal, and he found himself revelling in it. The trees and dangling vines thickened significantly, though they were dealt with by one twitch of Cal’s hand, lightsaber drawn and emitting a cool white light. Continuing to trek his way forward, Cal tried not to stumble as BD-1 flung himself down in front of Cal, one metal leg tapping the ground desperately as he beeped and whirred. 

“Find something, BD?” Cal asked, and the droid scanned something laying in the dropped leaves of the foliage. Cal frowned. A pair of shredded gloves lay discarded in the underbrush. He dropped into a crouch, inspecting them briefly. 

“Huh. Not sure, BD-1. Let’s keep moving,” Cal muttered. Continuing on, he spotted the metallic glint of the chamber doors, still sealed, before he noticed the bodies of the stormtroopers littered at its front. Cal frowned, and unclipped his lightsaber from his belt cautiously. BD-1 chirped again, scuttling forward and scanning the bodies and equipment that lay beside them. 

“They won’t get in by brute force. I wonder what they want from down there.” Had someone else managed to find their way into the old order chambers? The placement of the bodies seemed to imply it. Cal had yet to run into company in any of the other chambers. But he had to be ready for anything. 

Igniting his saber, he clicked the device in his pocket and the door unlocked. Stepping over the fallen stormtroopers, he was about to step foot on to lift inside when he felt something that make his head snap up immediately. 

“There’s someone nearby,” he said, heart fluttering in his chest. There was something unique about the force signature that he was sensing. Someone was brushing through the force, scattering little murmurs through it. It must have been deliberate- after all, most force sensitives knew to cloak their signatures to avoid detection of the inquisitors. Cal had a rising suspicion that this was just some sort of new trick by the empire. After he had destroyed the holocron, he had dreamt of finding more force sensitives. But things hadn’t exactly gone the way he had dreamt they would. It was best to stay on high alert.

Cal stepped away from the mediation chamber, his plans for the day forgotten. He followed the little echoes of the force, leading him further and further into the basalt rift ahead. 

***

Taking out the pouch once again, you shifted the priorite shard between your thumb and index finger. You had started the venture back to the old loft apartment you rented in town, but had the majority of your journey still left ahead of you. Despite having found a decent haul, you still felt an itch to keep looking. Like there was something close, something you should search for. You felt strange, like there was an energetic, almost twitchy presence nearby. It was accompanied by that same twinge of alertness you had felt earlier, but you didn’t necessarily feel like running this time. Your curiosity almost urged you to seek it out, to find the source of the sensation. But Koboh could be dangerous, and curiosity on this planet tended to get people killed.

Tucking the shard away once more, you patted your blaster and sprang up. Continuing on with your hike, you slipped past another squadron of troopers, creeping quietly though the brush as you skirted around them. They weren’t worth your time. 

***

Cal ran through the rocky hills, dodging the spine-covered creatures rolling along the path. He desperately followed the force, sensing that he wasn’t far behind now. Voices could be heard up ahead, and his excitement peaked. Bounding forward, saber unlit but held easily in his palm, Cal bounded into the clearing and narrowed his eyes. No, unless one of the stormtroopers happened to be a force user, this little squadron was not the source of his intuition. 

“Hostile spotted!” One of them shouted, firing his blaster immediately. Cal ignited his saber, deflecting the plasma shot directly back to the chest of the trooper. With a flick of Cal’s wrist, the other two went cascading down the cliff face. A final trooper stood, arms trembling as he raised his blaster. 

“Jedi! It’s just you and me, now,” he called out, firing a string of blaster shots in Cal’s direction. Cal sent them flying in different directions, tugging the trooper forward and dispatching him with one swift arc of his saber. 

That had cost him a few minutes. He continued on with an even more determined pace than before, whistling for the Nekko to meet him. 

***

In the distance, a hooded figure was scaling the rock face quickly, jumping from ledge to ledge, agile fingers maneuvering carefully through branches and vines. Beige wrapping covered their arms from the elbows to the wrist, and Cal squinted, trying to make out if there were weapons concealed beneath that thin hooded cloak.

“Let’s get a little closer, BD,” Cal cautioned, dismounting the Nekko with a gentle pat on the side of its neck. 

The figure ahead reached the top of the stone pillar they had been scaling, disappearing over the side with a little leap forward.

Cal put his upgraded ascension cable to work, springing to the top of the pillar with a grunt. 

As Cal stood to his feet, BD-1 chirped in alarm from his back. Spinning around quickly, Cal stopped with his fingers wrapped around his saber. Looks like he had found that force signature. It was pulsating into his awareness in the force, almost like a tracking fob. 

A blaster was trained on his chest, the bandaged hands grasping it held steady and firm. 

“You’re trailing me,” a female voice drawled from beneath the hood. Your gaze flicked down to his hand, which hovered hesitantly on his saber. 

“Don’t even bother. I’m not a bounty hunter and I don’t get paid for racking up corpses. What do you want?” You asked, tone still neutral despite the weapon pointing at his vital organs. 

“I’m Cal. This is BD-1,” he started, lowering his hand away from his saber. 

“And I’m not interested, sorry. I keep telling you people I don’t want a partner. I do my searching alone. If you want some tips, we can talk it over at the saloon like everyone else,” you said.

“Searching?” Cal questioned, honest confusion coating his words. 

You sighed. The hand not trailing him with the blaster coming up to toss the hood out of your face. Your features were smudged with dust and dampened with sweat, sporting an expression of fatigue combined with exasperation. 

“You’re… not a prospector then?” You ask, more cautiously now. Stepping back from him then, your eyes narrowed as you assessed him. Your gaze raked over his form, from his windswept hair to the droid clinging to his back. Your eyes caught on the unlit saber hanging from his belt, and they widened, skipping again to his fiery hair. 

“Oh,” you said, a little dumbly. Cal offered you a shrug and a polite little smile. His reputation had begun to spread throughout Koboh, even amongst the prospectors that didn’t spend much time in town. 

“You’re the Jedi,” you mumbled, and the smile dropped from Cal’s face as your anxiety coursed through the air. It was jarring, overwhelming, for him to receive those signals in the force this close to you.

“Yes. I just… heard you calling,” he said slowly, and you just glared at him, lips parting in surprise. 

“I didn’t call anyone,” you stuttered out, the hand holding the blaster out faltering. 

“That’s not true. And I think you know that,” the Jedi said softly, as if not to frighten you.

You took another step backwards, deciding that this Jedi was a lunatic. You’d heard rumours that Jedi were incredible warriors of course, but that they could also be cult members, following a strange code. 

“I don’t know what you mean,” you say, with a finality in your tone. Shuffling back another step, trying to put more distance between you and this Jedi, you went back too far and your left foot teetered back over the edge of the rock pillar you stood on, your heart dropping to your stomach. 

The Jedi darted forward, two fingers gripping your belt and preventing gravity from clawing you down to the chasm below. Stunned, your blaster fell to the ground with a clatter, and you gripped onto the Jedi’s forearm with both hands. You could feel the muscles of his arm as he held your weight. He tugged you forward gently, enough for you to land both feet back safely on the rock before he released you, stepping back and giving you space. 

“Kriff,” you gasped out, heart still racing. You braced one hand on your knee, and looked up at the Jedi.

“Thanks for the save,” you said, and he nodded.

“You all good?” He asked, handing you back your blaster, the handle facing you. You tucked it back into your belt, and looked back up at him.

“Yeah, yeah. Sorry,” you said, embarrassment flushing your cheeks pink. 

“Look, I wasn’t trying to freak you out-” he starts up again, and you sigh. 

“I’ve been alone all day. And I certainly wouldn’t be making all sorts of noise calling you over here. Not with all the imps crawling around,” you said, disgust evident in your voice.

Cal hesitated before answering. Were you playing dumb, or did you really not know the ability you had been tapping into in order to communicate with him? He couldn’t help but feel a little distraught. This was a new situation- was he supposed to try and explain the workings of the force to you? To insist, against your protests, that you had indeed been reaching out to him through it? He made his choice.

“My mistake,” he settled for, and you shot him a funny look.

“What are you doing out here, anyway? A little far from town, aren’t you?” You asked quizzically. Cal shrugged his shoulders. 

“I’ve just been exploring. There’s a lot to see on Koboh,” 

“Yeah. Sure is. I was just heading back to town. And if you decide to quit the whole Jedi Knight thing, this is a great area to get into prospecting,” you said with a smile. 

Cal laughed.

“Right. I’ll keep that in mind,”

“Sorry about the uh,” you nodded down to your blaster. 

“It wasn’t personal. You just can’t be too careful these days,” you explain, offering an apologetic half-smile. 

“I hear you. Between the troopers and the raiders,” 

BD-1 chirped, scurrying down Cal’s pant leg and pausing in front of you. You glanced down, flinching under the brief but bright green light of his scanner. 

“BD-1, we’ve talked about this,” Cal chastised him lightly, and you laughed. 

“Hi little guy,” 

BD-1 beeped at that, which you took as a good sign. 

“I’d better get going. See you around, Jedi,” you said, tucking your blaster away.

He smiled.

“Cal,” he reminded you, and you nodded, face bright with a little amusement.

Continuing on foot, you trudged back towards Rambler’s Reach, only turning back once a few minutes had gone by. The further you walked, the less you felt that flicker of warmth, the strange presence that seemed to have awoken. In the distance, you could’ve sworn you saw the mysterious metal doors slide open and close, with only a flash of red hair as a clue to how it had opened. 

***

It was a few days before you ran into the Jedi again. You walked the streets past Pyloon’s Saloon, head pounding in the sweltering heat that persisted even into the late evening. After another day of hiking, climbing, and doing your best to dodge the imperial squadrons littering Koboh, you’d decided that you had earned at least one glass of spotchka. It was becoming a bit of a habit of yours.

The security droid guarding Pyloon’s Saloon trained its red gaze on you, and you dug the tip of one scuffed boot into the dirt impatiently. After another moment’s delay, the doors opened with a gentle whir of air, and you sighed in relief as the controlled air cooled the sweat sticking to your sun-warmed skin. 

The cantina playlist was kriffing awful, as always, and you winced as it invaded your eardrums. Patrons were scattered across booths, tables, and crowding the bar. 

Over the chatter, you heard someone shout your name, and you turned expectantly towards the sound. Oh, here we go again. 

“Hey guys,” you greeted the group of your fellow prospectors. You recognized Isahiah, Klotho, and Vedi amongst the group, and smiled at them. While they were sort of your competition in the priorite industry, you’d made a point to keep friendly and on good terms with anyone else you ran into on Koboh. Though, you couldn’t help but to keep them all at an arms length away. The last time you’d made a friend, it had ended poorly. Your heart lurched at the thought of the one person in the world you had let in, and how they had been taken from you. The empire had taken them from you.

Your mind jumped back to the present.

“Any good finds today?” Klotho asked you, and you shrugged.

“Nothing too exciting. I kept running into those damn stormtroopers today. It’s getting harder to get around them,” you explain with a sigh. The others nod; murmuring their agreement. 

“We thought maybe you had another one of your hot spots on the map,” Isahiah probed, and you offered him an apologetic smile.

“Sorry, no luck this time, Ahiah,” you admitted, tossing his nickname in to soften the blow. When business was slow, you tried to give some help where you could. But between the imps and raiders, business wasn’t exactly booming. 

“That’s okay, kiddo,” he says, and you clap him on the back gently. 

“I’ll come find you if anything changes,” you yelled, over your shoulder. You spotted a free stool in one corner, collapsing down into it and raising a hand in greeting to the bar droid. 

“The usual?” It asked, and you nodded with a smile. The glowing blue liquid sloshed into the glass, and you raised it in tired cheers to the droid. 

You were about to take that much anticipated first sip when you felt something. Swiveling slightly in the stool, you straightened your back and faced the entryway for a moment. The chatter of the room was still swallowed up by the music, and you held your breath as you waited. The door remained closed, and you turned the stool back to face the bar. Stupid. You had thought maybe, just for a moment, that you had felt the Jedi from the other day. It was like knowing when someone was watching you, but turning to find nobody there. Maybe your intuition was worn down, replaced by paranoia. After all, you weren’t a psychic. And you certainly weren’t a Jedi. 

The spotchka burned down your throat, the initial sweetness of the liquor lingering on your tongue. You were about to down the remainder of the glass when you felt, or rather, heard, the saloon door open with a whir. 

Cal walked through the doors, and they shut closed behind him with a faint woosh. The alcohol turned to lead in your stomach, and you sucked in a sudden breath at the sight of him. The confirmation of your senses was as discomforting as it was shocking. Fear, alarm, and distress flooded your mind, and you let the rest of the alcohol in your glass glide down your throat. 

Cal paused in the entryway, head tilting a little as if he were scanning the room for someone who had called his name. The gesture caught you off guard, and your eyes widened of their own volition. At that moment, Cal’s gaze snapped over, eyes locked on yours. You tried to look away quickly before he caught you watching, without success. You had a sudden flashback to the other day, to the way he had shot forward reflexively quick. The thought of his fingers gripping the front of your belt so easily suddenly felt inappropriate, and you tried to push away the image of his tensed muscles as he had held you from plummeting off a cliff. 

“Hi,” he called out over the music as he approached you, leaning against the bar. His little droid stood tall and proud as ever on his shoulder. 

“Hi,” you managed to say, and his gaze dropped down to your empty glass. 

“Long day?” He asked, and you nodded. The long sleeves of his shirt were pushed back to the elbows, and he wore a leather bandolier draped across his chest. This time, your eyes caught on the unlit weapon clipped to his belt. You tried not to stare. 

“Yeah. Something like that. It’s funny, I swear I could tell you were about to-” you broke off with a slight shake of your head. 

He waited patiently for you to continue, but you didn’t, opting instead to twirl the empty glass against the bar top. 

“You never told me your name, the other day,” he points out, and your cheeks flushed with warmth. Right. Simple courtesies. 

You gave it now, reaching a hand forward in a gesture that seemed to fit the scenario. He reached his own hand forward, hesitating for just a moment. Your eyebrow tugged down at that, and you were considering whether or not you should have taken offense when he slid his hand into yours, shaking once quickly before releasing. You try not to wince at the pain still residing on your blistered hands. 

You were suddenly hyper aware of the fact that your hands were still partially wrapped with thin strips of bamadages, making you look like one of those professional fighting athletes from coruscant. Your blisters were in the slow healing process from your rough climb the other day, and you were well overdue for a break from the rough terrain.

“You all good there?” He asked, eyes dropping down to your wrapped hands. 

You nodded dismissively. 

“Yeah, just a rough climb the other day. My gloves are shot and the damn scrapes won’t stay closed,” you muttered.

“Hey, can I ask you something?” You shot out, before he had the chance to spark up any more pointless small talk. Cal fought back the urge to narrow his eyes at the urgency in your tone. He nodded, urging you to go ahead. BD-1 booped curiously, tapping one foot as he fought the urge to scan your bandaged hands. Cal appreciated his restraint. 

“Back in the Basalt rift the other day- some troopers were trying to bust in those metal doors. They were going to town on it with drills and explosives, and they couldn’t make a dent. But I could’ve sworn I saw you get the Kriffing thing open when I was heading back to town,” you elaborated, staring at him and awaiting his response. 

Cal smirked.

“You were watching me,” it was more of a statement than a question, you realized.

Pink creeped up your neck and to your ears. 

“I wasn’t,” you started, feeling embarrassed for a moment before snapping out of it.

“If I’m remembering correctly, and I’m pretty sure that I am, you trailed me through the woods,” you said with a sniff. 

Cal chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck with his right hand before letting it fall back down. Your eyes jumped to the veins webbing across the back of it briefly before you focused your attention back on his face. 

“I told you yesterday- I was just following the force,” he said with a shrug. You frowned at that. The force. 

“I was in the meditation chamber though,” he admits, and you leaned forward, eyes narrowed intently. 

“What?” 

“The doorway you mentioned. It’s an opening to a lift, from centuries ago. It leads to ancient Jedi meditation chambers. They’re all over Koboh,” he explains, and you have to admit your interest has been piqued, thoughts flying around quickly in your head. 

“Well, how’d you do it? People have been trying to get in there for ages. And nobody had any clue what could’ve been down there. For as long as I’ve been here at least,” 

“It’s a long story,” he said, but he reached into his pocket and pulled out something with a dull sheen. In between his index and middle finger rested a disc long worn by time. A passkey, then. 

“Jedi chambers, huh. What’s it like down there?” You probed, voice lowering and laced with genuine curiosity.

“It’s strong, down there. The force presence is so rich. I haven’t felt that many other places. This whole planet is connected. And the abyss…” he trails off then, a thoughtful determination painted across his features. One hand reached up to rub at the stubble lining his jaw, and he sighed.

“I don’t like that the empire is sniffing around them. I’m not sure what they plan to do once they get down there, but I don’t think we want to find out. You made quick work of them the other day,” he said, a complimentary lilt in his voice. 

You wondered inwardly when the two of you had become a ‘we’, but were surprised to find that it was a little comforting. It was tiring, being the only one striking back against the empire’s presence on Koboh. Even if it wasn’t for entirely selfless reasons. At least Cal had BD-1. Unlike him, you were completely alone. 

“Yeah, well, I don’t particularly like running into them either. Between the troopers and the Bedlam raiders, it can get pretty ugly. They’re spreading out further, too. I’ve been seeing them pretty much everywhere, even the more remote areas,” you say, with a shake of your head. 

“Yeah, the raiders are a whole other issue. We’ve had quite a few run-ins with them too, haven’t we, BD? Not to mention the bounty hunters,” The droid beeped his agreement. You started at that. Bounty hunters? 

Cal just continued on speaking. 

“They’re looking for something bigger here. And Rayvis… There's a lot of interest in Koboh. But BD-1 and I still have a few other chambers to explore. You’re welcome to tag along sometime,” he says, and you consider the offer for a moment. 

You reminded yourself that you don’t know this guy- and you weren’t sure if you could trust him, Jedi or not. But the draw of the underground chambers tugged at something deep in your chest. You wanted to see it, and now more than ever, you wanted to know if you would feel anything there. 

“Yeah, maybe. Thanks,” you say, and he just nods, standing back up straight. 

“Sure. I’ll see you around,” he says, pushing off of the bar top and skirting his way around the crowd, disappearing into the back of the cantina. You didn’t have to watch him. Even with eyes still trained in the bottom of your empty glass, you could feel him drawing further and further away. 

***

Two days later, you’re sipping on spotchka again, enjoying the warm dull sensation that coursed through you. Arms crossed over the bar top, you decided to rest your eyes for a moment. The bar was nearly empty, the sun long since set. Most of the town had gone to bed hours ago. You knew that sleep wouldn’t find you tonight, so why not quit while you were ahead? If you had enough to drink, maybe you’d get lucky and pass out right here. It wouldn’t be the first time.

A more somber tune than usual played from the sound booth in the corner. Given the hour and lack of customers in the saloon, it was easier than ever to wave down another glass to replace the empty one in front of you. Your head was light and airy, and your limbs were flooded with a tingly warmth. Enjoying the feeling, you let out a long breath. Closing your eyes again, you had an idea.

Focusing on what you could hear, you noted the sound of the whirring refrigerators, the shuffle and clinking noise of a glass being filled with ice. The grumble of voices, maybe from the upstairs section of the bar, followed by a quick cheer. And behind that, further away, the chirping of night insects. 

Still pinching your eyelids closed, you moved along to the sensation of touch. The bartop was cool against the skin of your forearms, and you suppressed a shiver. The glass you grasped with both hands had been sweating, dampening your fingers. Breathing in, you could smell the sterile scent of cleaner, and the sweetness of artificially flavoured alcohol behind it.

Another breath out through your nose. Rolling your shoulders back gently, you reached with your mind. It was difficult to tap into that awareness- for a moment, you had felt it, but then it disappeared just the same. It kept just out of reach, and you strained to grip onto it again. A flicker in your mind sparked, and you tried not to get too excited at the success. Something skirted just at the edge of your mind, and you could feel something. No, not something, but someone. Maybe it was just the buzz you had worked up talking, but you weren’t so sure. Like a campfire burning in the distance, you could feel the emitting bit of energy. It was warm, almost cozy. You felt drawn to it, but just as you began to consider what you were even doing, or how you were doing it, the feeling vanished completely. Once again, you were just a drunk idiot, sitting alone at the bar with your eyes squeezed shut and head in the clouds. 

Downing the rest of your drink, you stood up on your tiptoes, leaning your chest over the bar. Where did that damn droid go?

“Hello?” You asked, trying not to wince at the loud sound of your voice. Nothing answered you, just that low buzz of the appliances and distant footsteps from upstairs. Did that droid have to get charged? Maybe you had actually fallen asleep a moment ago, and you had been dreaming after all. 

Another few minutes went by, and you picked at the hem of your shirt idly as you waited for the droid to return. The empty glass on the bar taunted you.

With a loud sigh, you glanced around in a quick swivel of the barstool. There was nobody else on the lower level, at least. And you did consider yourself a friend of Greez, the cantina owner. Maybe he wouldn’t mind if you skipped behind the bar, just this once. 

Standing up again, you looked around once more before boosting yourself up onto the bar, then dropped down behind it. The bar looked different from back here, giving you a full view of the floor and booths that were usually crowded with patrons. Scanning the row of bottles on the shelving, you searched for the familiar bright blue alcohol that you were craving. 

You had to hand it to Greez- having a droid bartender meant that the bar was perfectly polished. It was organized well, except for a giant pile of papers labelled “menu ideas” that featured a messy drawl of handwriting and some poorly drawn doodles of dishes and presentation inspirations. 

The glowing blue of the spotchka bottle caught your eye, and you snatched it up quickly, popping the lid off and whirling around to grab your glass. You were in the midst of pouring a hearty serving when you heard the mechanical whoosh of a door opening. Your heart dropped to your stomach as you fumbled to re-cap the bottle, mind stuttering as you tried to find its home on the organized shelf. Placing it back with a clink, you turned around. The front door of the saloon remained closed, and you tilted your head to the side slightly in confusion. Had you just hallucinated hearing the door? 

But no, you could feel the dull thump of footsteps approaching, and you realized with a pang of dread that it had been the inner door, the one leading from the basement level to the bar. Stars, Greez was going to be pissed.

Hands braced on top of the bar, you were attempting to silently scoot your way back across to the patron side when Cal appeared from around the corner. You froze, and he stopped in his tracks for a moment too. He looked confused for a moment, his eyebrows lifted as he took in the sight of you, ass plunked on the bartop with your legs dangling over the edge. 

You swallowed nervously. 

“Hey, Cal,” you said, scooting the rest of the way down. Your boots hit the floor with a thud, and you offered him a strained attempt at a smile. He said your name back in a slow greeting, and you could do nothing but watch as his gaze shifted from your reddened cheeks to the overfilled glass sitting next to you.

Cal smirked as he put the pieces together. 

“I didn’t know Greez let customers make their own drinks,” 

You shrugged. 

“Yeah, well. He should get better bartenders. Empty ship over here,” you gestured to the deserted bar. Since you were already caught, you plunked down onto the stool once again and picked up your glass. Spotchka sloshed over the sides, adding another coat of alcohol to the already sticky bartop. 

“Are you gonna sit down or what?” You asked him, using the toe of your boot to pull out the stool next to you. Cal let out a soft chuckle, then took his place next to you. BD-1 chirped in greeting.

“Hi bud,” you said back, and he booped again before scampering off of Cal’s back and into the bar. His little head tilted to the side and you were blinded by that familiar green light again.

“Stars, BD-1, my eyeballs,” you groaned, and Cal shot you an apologetic look. BD-1 chirped a string of binary, and Cal frowned in response. You weren’t used to seeing him frown, and the sight of it alarmed you a little. You squinted at them both- your binary was rusty on a good day, and was considerably worse through the fog of spotchka clogging your senses. 

“Agreed,” Cal said back to the little droid. And then you were holding your breath as his head dipped close to yours, your heart thudding quickly in your chest. This close, you could see the freckles dusting his cheeks, his surprisingly long lashes. You noticed the scars that jutted across his nose and eyebrow, but your gaze didn’t linger on them; you had your own fair share of scars. 

Cal plucked the glass out of your hand and leaned away again, and your brain finally caught up. 

“Hey-”

“BD-1 is concerned by your blood alcohol level. He’s identified some symptoms that you might be in for a nasty headache. His scanner doesn’t lie- you’ll be thanking us tomorrow,” he said matter-of-factly, just before he dipped his head down and took a steady sip of the alcohol himself. 

“I thought Jedi weren’t supposed to drink,” you muttered with a bit of a pout, drumming your fingertips against the bar idly. 

“All things in moderation,” he said simply. You hummed in response.

“What are you doing here so late?” He asked.

“What does it look like?” sighing, you scooted your stool closer to his, and he looked at you expectantly. Leaning in close, you tilted your head as you studied the green of his eyes again. You waited for him to look away, to let you win this little staredown you had started. He didn’t. He just watched you back, a calm neutrality painted across his features. 

“I was winding down. I don’t know what happened, though. I must’ve dozed off or something. I was just-” you broke off, with a slight shake of your head.

“You were just what?” 

“What?”

“You do that a lot. You start to tell me something, but then you back out,” he stated. You frowned.

“I don’t know. I was sitting here. Resting my eyes, just listening. But I must have fallen asleep and I guess I had a weird dream for a couple of minutes. I could feel this light, and I wanted it. I wanted to be near it,” you explained poorly. Cal shook his head softly. 

“You weren’t dreaming,” 

“And you must be a lightweight,” You laughed with a small snort, and reached over to steal your drink back.

“Don’t pretend like you don’t know what I’m talking about,” he said gently. 

You took a small sip of your drink, but it was sour and harsh against your tongue and burned all the way down. Fear prickled across your skin like little needles, and you suddenly felt the heat of Koboh catch up to you, even in the controlled cooled air of the saloon. 

“It’s not something you need to be afraid of,” he explained, shifting in his stool to face you properly. You remained silent, downing the rest of the glass. The alcohol hit you quickly, and you welcomed it. 

“You never asked what I was doing here,” he pointed out, and you grabbed the change of subject while you still could. 

“Okay. What are you doing here, Cal?” You probed, your throat dry. 

“I could feel you, reaching out. And I know you could feel me too,” 

“Cal, come on. Enough. I really don’t-” your words came to a halt as you spotted Cal’s hand extended towards you, his palm facing the ceiling.

“What are you doing?” You ask, disbelief and irritation creeping into your words.

“Go on. See if it feels familiar,” he suggests. 

“I’ve shaken your hand before,” you point out. 

“I’m showing you this time. No holding back, no shielding,” he says.

“Showing me what?” You barked out, and he just nodded down to his hand. BD-1 stands still as a statue atop the bar, observing the interaction. 

You scoffed, and decided it was worth it just to shut him up. Your hand shook, and you took a deep breath in before daring to touch him.

Your fingers slid atop his, and he welcomed the touch, letting his eyes flutter closed. His thumb settled atop your hand and brushed across your knuckles. 

You gasped, and though your eyes were wide open and your mind was fuzzy, you immediately recognized the energy, the warmth. It was the same presence that was teasing your dreams and coaxing you gently towards it more and more each time. Cal. That tug you had felt all those days ago, the instinctual draw within you to keep searching for something you couldn't name. Now that you could see him like this, feel him, your mind was calm for the first time in a long time. 

Cal opened his eyes, and gently let go of your hand. You fought the urge to reach forward and grasp it once again, to feel the quiet peace that his touch seemed to bring to your mind.

“There you are,” he smiled. “You weren’t dreaming earlier. You were meditating. And I came here because I could feel you reaching, wanting me to come to you. Through the force,” 

“The force? Come on, Cal. I feel things sometimes, but I’m not like you,” you tell him, crossing your arms over your chest defensively. He shook his head slowly.

“No, you’re not like me. I’ve been trained for this since I was a child. Did you ever even know what you are? What you could be?” He asked, more intently now. 

“I don’t know what you want me to say. I don’t know anything about the Jedi. I don’t know anything about the force, and I’m not sure I even want to,” you say simply. 

“Look," Cal spoke softly, a sympathetic expression across his face.

"Whether you meant to or not, you’ve been calling me through the force for weeks. It’s like you’ve been sending out a ping, calling anyone with a connection to the force straight to you. If there were an inquisitor in this system, they would be on your tail before you could even try to run. And trust me. You don’t want to know what they would do to an untrained force sensitive like you,” he warned, and even through your fading buzz you could hear the bitterness in his voice, feel the darkness in his words.

“Let me help you. I can show you, just enough to hide your force signature and keep yourself safe, if that’s all that you want,” he offered, leaning forward. His eyes searched yours for something, and after a moment, he saw it.

“Okay,” you whispered, and he sucked in a breath, some of the tension melting away from his face.

"Okay," he agreed.

[pinkolve]

Cal Kestis- Forget About Me (How Could I Ever?)

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Summary: After the crew splits up you settle down on Bogano. Cal promises to visit at some point...he's about four years late. You're angry, but you bring him inside and learn things you never thought could be real.

Genre: Fluff, smut, angst if you squint real hard

CW: Fem!Reader, she/her pronouns, no use of y/n, use of pet names (baby and sweetheart by Cal, Red and baby by you), Healer!Reader (has force healing), Reader calls Cal 'Red' and he lowkey loses his mind, whimpering Cal Kestis because...hot, brief Sub!Cal, idiots in love, unprotected p in v (it's for the plot, don't follow this fics example!!), creamp!e (I will not apologize), aftercare ofc, Reader is a bit violent and Cal thinks it's hot (he's a freak), Cal has a happy trail because I said so, possible ooc Cal?? Idk I think its accurate enough, I think that's it???

Word Count: 4.8k

A/N: Have been stuck writing a lot of Cal fics after finishing the games. They have me in a chokehold, as does he. I've written a lot for him and I'm planning on posting them all at once so...look out for those if you're interested!! There aren't a lot of Cal fics so this is my contribution 💕💖💕😋😋

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You stand around the holotable with the rest of the crew, eyes watery as you hold back tears. You glance at Cal more than anyone else, unsure how you’re going to leave without him. “You can have the Mantis, kid.” Greez says suddenly, eyes locked on Cal.

“What? Seriously?” He asks with wide eyes.

“Yeah…what I can’t be nice now?” He huffs and Merrin smirks.

“You can…it is just very unusual.” Everyone chuckles at that except for Greez. He suddenly walks back into the cockpit, coming back with something in his hands.

“Speaking of me being nice…” He trails off as he hands you the object wrapped in fabric. “I got this for ‘ya.”

“For me?” You ask with sparkling eyes, looking down at the heavy item.

“As a sort of ‘goodbye gift,’ you know, so you don’t forget me.” He smiles and you smile back.

“I could never forget you, Greezy Money.” You tease, but your words remain true.

“Yeah, yeah.” He waves you off. “Just open it, would ‘ya?” You can see how nervous he is so you quickly pull back the fabric, revealing a pink blaster. You gasp as you stare down at it, holding it in one hand as you feel the grip.

“Greez…” You breathe, still staring at the blaster.

“You mentioned wanting a pink blaster to match all your other pink stuff…I figured it may be a bit expensive to get on your own so I-“ He stops, hands wringing together. “Do you like it?”

“Greez.” You huff out a disbelieving laugh. “I love it…I can’t believe you remembered that.” You look back at him with tear-stained cheeks. “This is incredible, Greez, thank you.” You finally kneel down and pull him into a tight hug.

“Cere and Merrin helped me pick out the right shades to paint it.” He says, pointing at the two girls instead of taking all the credit.

“Thank you guys too then.” You smile at them and they nod, Merrin giving you a gentle ‘of course.’

You’re the last one to leave that night. Everyone else had said their goodbyes and left for their respective planets, while you stayed with Cal a bit longer in the Mantis. You’re leaning against him in the lounging area, feet up on the table since Greez isn’t here to yell at you for it.

“You can still stay with me if you want. You know that right?” Cal mutters, staring off into the distance.

“I know, Cal.” You sigh. “I want to but…we’re going different ways. You want to continue going on missions and working to stop the Empire. I just want to explore and settle down somewhere quiet. If I stayed with you I’d only be in your way.”

“You’re never in my way.” He quickly retorts with a frown. You stare back at him with an exasperated expression.

“We both know that’s a lie, Cal.” You shake your head as he frowns. “Look…even though I’m going off on my own, that doesn’t change anything. We’re still going to be best friends and you can visit me anytime you want…you know, when you have a break from saving the galaxy.” Cal chuckles and you grin at him.

“Promise?” He asks quietly, holding out his pinky to you.

“Promise.” You wrap your pinky around his and shake them together once to ‘seal the deal.’ “And you know I never break pinky promises.” Cal nods with a smile.

“Oh, I know.” He still remembers the one time a few months ago, when he finally realized how seriously you took pinky promises.

“I don’t want you getting hurt!” Cal yells, eyes wide and frantic as he looks at you.

“I won’t get hurt! I can handle myself just fine!”

“I know you can, that isn’t the problem!”

“Then what is?!” You huff out, hands flailing around.

“I don’t know how many Troopers there will be, or how many droids, or even beasts. I can’t risk you getting hurt while I’m distracted…I wouldn’t forgive myself.” You frown at him.

“Cal, I swear to you, I’ll be fine.” You whisper.

“Pinky promise me.” He says, holding his pinky out.

“What?” You ask, eyes widening.

“If you swear you won’t get hurt, then pinky promise me.” You take a step back and scowl at him.

“You did that on purpose.” You huff.

“Yes, I did, because I know you can’t guarantee that. You said you never break pinky promises so…” He trails off, waving his pinky finger before letting his hand fall back at his side.

“I never should have told you that, now you’re using it against me.”

“I’m not using it against you.” He says roughly, stepping forward to rest his hands on your upper arms. “I’m using it to keep you safe.”

“Okay.” You whisper, unable to argue when he’s being so sweet.

“I’ll be right back.” Cal blurts out, standing up abruptly and walking back to his room. You wait patiently on the couch, looking over at the holotable and getting lost in the colors. You look back up when you hear him walk over, finding him holding his old lightsaber.

You jerk your head back up to meet his gaze, eyes wide. “Cal?” You whisper.

“I didn’t want to give it to you earlier and steal Greez’s moment.” He laughs shyly.

“Cal, there’s no way I can take this.” You say, standing up in front of him.

“I want you to take it.”

“It was your master’s…it’s so important to you!”

“You’re important to me.” He says it so smoothly, with such finality. He says it like it’s undeniably true, like you’re more important than everything else.

“Cal…”

“Please.” He pushes it forward and into your hands. You pout down at it, fingers smoothing over the newly welded switch.

“You’re abusing your power. You know I can’t ever say no to you.”

“Yeah, I do know.” He smirks and you roll your eyes, wiping away a stray tear.

“I should get going.” You whisper, almost inaudible.

“Right.” He nods glumly. He pulls you into a bone-crushing hug and you eagerly reciprocate. You stand there for a while before you finally pull away, pressing a barely there kiss to his cheek.

“I’ll see you soon, Red.” You whisper, sending shivers down his entire body. He always loved it when you called him that, the way your voice dropped every time you did. You reserved that nickname for private moments, when you were both alone.

“Soon.” He parrots, watching you walk to your own ship and fly out of the hangar.

***

You settle down on Bogano after a few months of exploring. You visited Cere on Jedha and went digging for a while. You found several old blasters and lightsabers to add to your collection. After that you visited Greez on Koboh and had a few drinks at his cantina.

After visiting Merrin on the planet she’d be exploring at the time, you went back to Bogano. You built a small house that took almost a year to completely finish. You loved it on Bogano. It was quiet and peaceful, devoid of any piece of the Empire or other people who could turn on you.

You bonded easily with the animals there, always having a way with them. You even managed to tame some of the Oggdo’s down in the swamps. You were mostly close with all the Boglings, spending your days running barefoot with them.

You also gained the trust of the Binog, whom you built your house right next to. He was a sweet thing, very docile and mostly slept when he wasn’t accepting belly rubs from you.

You were happy, incredibly so. But no matter how good of a day you had, something always felt wrong. It felt as if something was missing. It wasn’t until you remembered the second lightsaber sitting beside your own on a shelf, that you realized the problem.

Everything felt pointless when you couldn’t share it with him. It all felt so empty and meaningless, because he wasn’t there with you. This realization sent you into a downward spiral upon remembering that he hadn’t visited you. He hasn’t even bothered to call you for the last four years.

You try to meditate after that, sitting crisscrossed in your backyard. It worked well, not perfectly, but well. You spent almost the entire day in your yard, mind beautifully blank as you shut your eyes.

Today is no different, sitting in the backyard as Boglings jump around you and chirp at each other. You’re so calm and relaxed you don’t notice his presence. You only feel him after he’s rounded the corner of your house and stepped into the yard.

Your eyes fly open and you hold a hand out without a second thought. Your lightsaber is inside so you adapt. You watch him fly several feet and land on a poorly placed rock. The familiar flash of red hair and his pained groan makes your heart drop.

“Blast!” You run over and kneel beside him, helping him sit up. “I’m so sorry! I didn’t know it was you!” You panic as you scan him for injuries.

“You’re getting really good at that.” Cal jokes with a chuckle, which makes him wince.

“Where are you hurt?” You ask quickly, tugging at his arm that’s laced around his side.

“Nowhere, I’m fine.” He says, quickly standing to his feet. You have to catch him when he starts to sway, almost falling over.

“Don’t lie to me right now.” You warn. “I’m already angry with you, don’t make it worse.”

“Why are you angry with me? I just got here.” He says with a pout. You scowl as you grab the sleeve of his jacket, leading him inside.

“Yeah, exactly.”

“What?” He only seems more confused by your response, groaning as he falls into one of your wooden chairs.

“My stars, men are always so blasted oblivious.” You huff in annoyance, pulling up another chair to sit in front of him.

“I’m not oblivious.”

“That’s exactly what an oblivious person would say.” You retort, eyes shut as you take a deep breath and focus. “I knew you were lying. You have a broken rib.” You frown and shake your head. “I swear I didn’t mean to throw you that hard.” You reach forward to pull up his shirt and he quickly grabs your wrist.

“What’re you doing?” He asks, making your brows furrow.

“Healing you? We’ve done this dozens of times.” Cal nods slowly and lets you go, apologizing quietly. “Why are you being so weird? I’ve seen you shirtless countless times.” You shake your head at him.

“It’s been a while.” Is all he replies with. You frown as you pull at his shirt again, having helped him discard his jacket.

“What does that even mean-“ You stop when you pull his shirt up.

“That’s what I mean.” He mumbles, looking to the side with pink cheeks. You stare for a lot longer than you intend to, hypnotized by the sight. His shoulders are broader, arms thicker and strong, still littered with those beautiful freckles. His stomach is hard and toned, looking almost like a statue. It’s what you find below that though, that really drives you crazy. A very obvious happy trail, running down and disappearing under his pants.

You swallow the lump in your throat and finally pull your eyes away, hand resting over his side. He jumps a little at the touch and you apologize.

“Sorry…for staring.” You manage to choke out.

“It’s fine.” Cal mutters, still avoiding your eyes with pink cheeks.

“I’m gonna have to…keep my hand here for a while.”

“Yeah, I know.” He’s still looking away from you.

“Okay, spill.” You say suddenly. “Are you acting all weird because you’re embarrassed or what?”

“Partially.”

“What’s the other part?”

“I’d rather not answer that.” He winces and you can’t tell if it’s from his rib or the situation.

“Well, you don’t have to be embarrassed.” You say gently. “It’s been years, obviously you’re going to look different. I definitely do.”

“That’s not the same.” He replies mindlessly.

“How?” You ask with knotted brows.

“It’s not just my face, my entire body changed.” He says quietly.

“And you think mine didn’t?” You ask, head tilting to the side as you watch him.

“Well…yeah. I mean…not that I was looking! I just- uh-“ He panics and trails off, cheeks tinting darker by the second.

“I guess it’s hard to tell with these baggy clothes.” You say, looking down at your attire. “Hold on.” You say, pulling your hand away as you stand up. You pull your sweater off and pull your oversized shirt over your head, tossing both onto the table. You hold your arms out a bit as you stand in front of him, left in your bra.

“See?” You sigh as you sit back in your chair, hand returning to his side. You look up at him and find his gaze locked on your chest. You give him a few moments but he still doesn’t look away. “Okay…I know I stared at you too but you’re starting to make me feel like they look weird or something.” You say, glancing down at your chest then back at him.

“What?” He seems to snap out of a trance as he meets your eyes again. “Oh-“ His eyes widen. “Oh, no! No, they don’t look weird! They look-“ He stops himself, glancing back down and making you roll your eyes.

“You’re supposed to add an adjective after that.” You tease. “You’re doing a real bad job at comforting me, Red.” The nickname falling past your lips makes something inside him snap.

“Perfect.” He whispers, meeting your gaze. His eyes are dark with something you’re too scared to name.

“Huh?” You ask, eyes wide as your head jerks back in shock.

“The adjective.” He says, voice dipping lower. “You’re perfect.”

“Oh.”

“You’ve always been perfect.” His eyes shine with an adoration you always longed to see from him.

“I’ve always thought you were perfect too.” You say softly. “Unfairly so.” Cal chuckles as he leans closer to you, face inches from yours.

“Is that so?” He smirks and something in your stomach flutters.

“Am I reading this whole thing wrong?” You ask anxiously.

“Depends…how are you reading it?”

“That you…like me and want to kiss me right now.”

“I do want to kiss you, but ‘like’ isn’t a strong enough word for how I feel about you.” Your heart jumps at that, thighs clenching together involuntarily.

“Well…you’ve kept me waiting long enough, Red. You gonna make me wait even longer?” You lean in just a bit closer and he laughs.

“I wouldn’t dare.” He grins and connects your lips, hand gripping the edge of the table. You can hear it creak under the force of his hold, and you know exactly what he’s doing, or more accurately, what he’s trying to stop himself from doing.

You know Cal Kestis better than he knows himself, even in a moment such as this. This is completely uncharted territory for you, yet you can still read him like a book. You reach over with your free hand, grabbing his and moving it over your left breast.

He groans into your mouth and squeezes, making you whimper into his mouth. You tilt your head to the side, deepening the kiss as his tongue slips past your lips. When you pull away to catch your breath and release another quiet whimper, Cal seems to lose all his restraint.

He quickly grabs you and pulls you onto his lap with an almost animalistic groan. You squeak in surprise and your hand falls away from his side.

“Cal, your rib.”

“Don’t care.” He drags you back in and captures your lips with his own. You sigh into his mouth and tangle your hands in his hair. You like it like this, longer and windswept.

Cal’s hands are gripping the fat of your waist, grinding you down against him. You whine into his mouth, pulling away when you can’t stifle your sounds anymore. You start to move your hips on your own, taking what you want, and what you want is him…this is a fact that drives him crazy.

“Cal?” You ask breathily.

“Hm?” He hums in response, waiting for you to ask. You used that tone you always use when you want to ask him something…he also knows you better than you know yourself.

“Are you planning on doing this again…with me? Or…?” You ask shyly.

“This and a lot more, if you let me…preferably forever.” He says with a rumbling voice.

“Forever sounds perfect.” You whisper, lips grazing his.

“I agree.” You kiss him roughly and desperately, saying all the things you can’t form with words. You pull away suddenly after raking your hands down his torso. They stop at his happy trail, tracing the hair with your fingertips until he whimpers.

“One more thing.”

“Uh-huh.” He gasps.

“You ever get rid of this and I will literally kill you.”

“Like it that much?” He teases with a smirk.

“Drives me crazy.” You mumble, still brushing your fingers along the trail of hair as you lean in to press kisses to his neck. “Gets me so wet for you, Red.” You whisper near his ear before biting his jaw. He groans and throws his head back, eyes rolling.

“You have to stop calling me that.” He grunts, hips bucking up instinctively as he seeks more of your touch.

“You don’t like it?”

“I like it too much.”

“Oh yeah?” You pull away to meet his eyes, pupils blown wide and eyelids hooded as he stares back at you.

“You keep calling me that and I won’t last very long here.” He grunts and bucks his hips up again when you hook your fingers in the waistband of his pants.

“Just because of a nickname?” You tease, reaching inside his pants and taking him in your hand. He gasps at the touch, head thrown back as he whines for you. He bucks into your hand as his grip on your waist tightens.

“That nickname’s been driving me crazy for four years, sweetheart.” He stutters out through moans and grunts.

“Stars.” You breathe, panting like you don’t know how to get air back into your lungs. “You call me that again and I’ll be the one who won’t last.”

“What?” He says with a smirk. “Sweetheart?” You moan and tighten your grip around his dick, making him whimper.

“Don’t get so cocky, Red.” You say back. Cal’s breathing falters as his hips buck up relentlessly into your hand.

“I-I can’t…” He chokes out. “You really need to stop.”

“Do you want me to stop?”

“N-No, but-“

“I think it’s incredibly hot that you’re this close already.” You whisper into his ear. “So I’m gonna keep going…and you’re going to cum for me. You got it, Red?” Your words make that knot in his stomach draw tighter.

Cal pants through more pathetic whimpers, jaw slack as he nods mindlessly to your orders.

“Such a good boy, aren’t you Red?” You whisper into his neck. These are the words that finally push him over the edge, making him spill into your hand with a strangled whine. “Do you like when I call you a ‘good boy?’” You ask with a smirk, pulling away from his neck to look at him.

“Don’t you dare make fun of me right now.” He warns as he desperately tries to catch his breath.

“I wasn’t making fun. I was asking for confirmation so I could make a mental note…make sure to call you it again.” Cal gasps when you finally release him from your grip.

“Then yes, I do.” He replies, watching you with hooded eyes. You lift your hand to your mouth without hesitation, licking his spend off your palm and fingers. He watches you with a slack jaw, eyes wide with lust. You finally finish licking it all away and look at him, brows furrowing.

“What?” You ask, head tilting to the side.

“Just come here.” He growls, pulling you in by the nape of your neck and connecting your lips. He tastes himself on your tongue and he groans.

“I need you.” You pant, pulling away from his lips.

“In what way, sweetheart?” You whine at the name and squeeze your eyes shut tightly.

“I need you inside of me…please.” You whisper.

“Yeah?” He asks with a smirk, head tilted as he stares back at you.

“Stars…when did you get this confident?” You say, cheeks flushed.

“I’m not quite sure…but I like that it makes you react like this.” He grins.

“Cal…” You sigh. “Please…don’t make me ask again.”

“You didn’t have to ask at all.” He mutters. “I was already planning on doing that.”

“Well hurry up, will you?”

“You want me that badly, huh?”

“No, I *need* you that badly. I’ve waited four blasted years for this, and I was entirely sure you had a thing for Merrin and not me. So if you don’t hurry up and fuck me I may just stab you.”

“Seriously?” Cal asks, looking shocked. “You thought I was in love with Merrin?”

“I didn’t say ‘love.’” You breathe. “Are you in love with me?” Your eyes widen.

“I said ‘like’ wasn’t a strong enough word…thought that said enough on its own.” You watch him with a gaping mouth. “Who’s the oblivious one now?”

“Don’t bring that up right now.” You scowl. “I don’t want to be angry, I want to have mind-numbing sex with you.”

“I can make that happen.”

“Then get to it already.” You sigh and kiss him. He picks you up and stands to his feet, making you gasp and pull away. “Cal, your rib is still broken!” You slap his chest.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” He shakes his head and kisses you again, successfully distracting you. “Where’s your bedroom?” He asks between kisses.

“Mm, back and-to the right.” You say between kisses. Cal carries you back to your room and throws you onto your bed before crawling on top of you. He cages you in with his strong arms and you swoon.

“I still don’t know why you’re mad at me.” He mumbles, kissing down your neck.

“I said not now, Cal.” You warn with a rough voice.

“Tell me later?”

“If you’re lucky.” You reply.

“And how do I up my chances of being lucky?” He asks as he bites down to your collarbone.

“Hurry up and give me that mind-numbing sex you promised me.” You say.

“I can never say no to you.” Cal sighs, wrapping his lips around your nipple after pulling your bra down. You arch your back and keen, eyes shut blissfully. He makes quick work of your pants and underwear while you’re distracted by his mouth.

You don’t open your eyes until his fingers are suddenly running through your folds. You gasp and buck your hips, looking down at him. He lifts his head to meet your eyes, pressing gentle kisses to your cheek and forehead.

“Cal.” You gasp. He doesn’t hum this time, because he knows you don’t really have anything else to say…you just want to say his name, and he loves hearing you say it. His fingers slide into you with ease, your slick making it so easy. He hooks his fingers up when he thrusts them inside of you, making your eyes roll back.

“Stars!” You cry out as your hips buck up, back arching as you already start to lose your mind. “So good.” You whine.

“I know.” He whispers against your neck. “So warm, sweetheart. I can’t wait to be inside you.” He says, his own hips grinding down into the bed.

“Now, please.” You beg. “Want you inside now.”

“Are you sure?” He asks, pulling away to look at you, his free hand resting against your cheek.

“I appreciate you asking and being sweet about it, but I need you to cut it out and put your cock inside me before I burn this entire house down.” Cal smirks at you, head shaking.

“Always so violent.” He mumbles, pulling his pants down and off before lining himself up. He grabs your thighs and spreads them wider, wrapping them around his hips.

“I’m a very violent person.” You say.

“I know.” He whispers, slowly pushing his head past your entrance. “I’ve always thought it was incredibly sexy.”

“Will it still be sexy if you’re the victim?” You ask through pants, head thrown back as he pushes deeper inside of you.

“Definitely.” Cal whispers back.

“You’re such a f-freak.” You stutter out, jaw going slack.

“You’re one to talk, sweetheart.” You clench around him at the name and he groans, mouth hung open as he looks down to where you both connect.

“Faster, Red, please.” You beg mindlessly. Cal does exactly as you ask, because he always does. His hips snap up and force a high-pitched whine from low in your throat. Cal becomes determined to draw out every possible sound from you, and to make you scream for him.

His hips thrust up with a relentless pace, smacking against your ass and filling the room with lewd sounds. He pulls your thighs up and pushes them toward your chest, a position that forces his cock deeper and successfully makes you scream.

“Cal!” You cry out, tears trailing down your cheeks. Your head is thrown back, eyes screwed shut as you moan for him.

“Can feel how close you are.” Cal mumbles, face buried in the crook of your neck. “Cum for me, sweetheart, please.” He whines, hips bucking up frantically. His hand trails down to rub clumsy circles over your clit.

“Cal!” You scream. “Cal I-“

“I know, baby, I got you…come on.” He talks you through it with that gentle voice, it immediately sends you over the edge. Your vision goes white as your eyes screw shut, legs shaking and back arching. “So good, sweetheart, that’s it.” His moans quickly turn into pathetic little whimpers as he gets closer, his pace erratic as he chases his release.

“Cum inside me, Red.” You whisper, hand tangled in his hair. Your words push him over the edge, and he does exactly as you request with more strangled whimpers and gasps of your name. He rests on top of you as you both catch your breath, panting until your breathing evens out.

Cal moves to press a kiss to your temple, hand moving up to brush your hair out of your face.

“You okay?”

“Very.” You reply with a blissed out smile.

“Mind-numbing enough for you?” He asks with a smirk, kissing your cheeks and down your neck.

“Mhm. Don’t think I can form a single coherent thought right now.” You say, eyes fluttering closed.

“But you can still use words like ‘coherent,’ makes perfect sense.” You nod at him, humming but not really hearing him. “Come on.” He finally pulls out of you and comforts you when you whine. “We need to get cleaned up.”

“Tired.” You whine.

“We can sleep after we clean up.” Cal smiles and pulls you up, carrying you toward your bathroom.

“You didn’t visit.” You mumble, making his brows furrow as he sets you down on top of the sink counter.

“What?”

“That’s why I was mad at you…” You say, eyes still closed. “You didn’t visit me…didn’t even call me. Thought you-“ You pause to yawn, head swaying with exhaustion. “Found better friends, didn’t need me anymore.” Your words make his heart ache.

“I always need you.” He says softly. “I always will.” He runs a hand through your hair. “I never stopped thinking about you. I’ve been…very distracted, and I’m sorry for that. But I’m here now.”

“Yeah, you are.” You smile and rest your head against his chest. “I love you.” You whisper as your breathing slows. Cal finishes cleaning you both up and carries you back to bed, lying beside you and pulling the blankets up over the both of you.

He watches you sleep peacefully before falling asleep himself.

[multi-fandom-imagine]

«Future, Sex, love, sound || Cal Kestis ||

A/n: Here it is, reader getting fucked by Cal on his work bench.

Song Inspo:

You could see how tense he was from where you were sitting in the saloon. You all had barley managed to escape with your lives and Cal was tense.

You both hadn’t had a chance to be intimate with how busy you both been but now, with the Mantis empty you had a plan to make your red head relax.

Standing up you slipped behind the Jedi, your chin resting on his shoulder. “Cal.”

“Hm?” Cal’s gaze focused a head of him, he didn’t want to snap at you but he was to tense.

Placing a kiss to his cheek you let you fingers trail down his chest. “You know, the Mantis is empty and I’ve been hoping you can show me that work bench of yours.” Your voice dipping as your fingers slipped under his shirt.

Nearly jumping, Cal felt a shiver rush down his spine. Glancing around he quickly stood up then wrapped his arms around your waist. “Are you sure?”

“I’m very sure Cal.”

•

His fingers were digging in your hips as he thrusted into your velvet heat. You felt so good wrapped around him, your whimpers only spurring him to thrust faster. His work bench wasn’t the ideal place he had in mind but you were reading him so damn much he just needed you.

Harsh pants leaving your lips as you clutched the table below you, you tried your best to move until you realized that Cal was using the force to keep you in place.His name falling from your lips as your lover moved your legs around his hips.

Pressing his face into your neck, Cal nipped and sucked at the exposed skin, his cock is a thick lance of heat inside of you. He rocks back and forth, fucking you. It felt so good in this position, to feel you like this, to have you on his work bench where anyone could walk in. His cock pushing into you deeper as the force held in place.

It felt good, he felt like he could lose himself within you, with in your heat as he felt you calm around you as the work bench groaned underneath you both.

Another whimper escaped your lips as you begged Cal for more, more of him. Turning your head you managed to capture his lips for a kiss as you felt his hand message and group your breast as this thumb ran over your nipple.

Your eyes rolling back into your head, resting against the wall behind you. You could feel the familiar warmth spreading in your belly as you did your best to focus on the pleasure Cal was giving you, pushing you closer to the edge. Your tongue gliding over his as you did your best not to shudder as his hips snapped drove into your pussy.

The sharp, wet snap of skin on skin filling the ship, broken up by your cries of pressure followed by Cal’s rough groans. Squeezing your eyes shut you did your best to listen to the sound of his voice, the heat of his body.

Of him.

And soon Cal’s thrust started to grow more sloppy, hasty as he picked up his movements. Shivering, you felt something light, a feathery touch run over your body. The force holding you in place letting go of its hold on you until you felt it press against your clit.

A sharp cry leaving your lips, as you felt your orgasm hit you.His arms wrapping tightly around your waist drawing you in close pushing you hard onto his cock as he nipped at your neck. Walls clenching around his member as his name spilled from your lips, your body shuddering as you felt him spill his cum within you.

Now free you pressed your face into his neck, chest heaving as Cal slumped forward. Laughing weakly, you let your fingers run through his red hair as the man clutched you close doing your best not to move to much as his fun seeped your pussy.

“Feel better.” You teased lighting doing your best to catch your breath.

Snorting, Cal shrugged his shoulders as his thumb ran over your hips. “A lot better, you always make me feel better….but uh…we should probably move before someone catches us.”

“Boo! You’re no fun.”

[multi-fandom-imagine]

Accidentally Bonded || Cal Kestis ||

A/n: I love Cal so much, I love everyone in this game.

Tagging: @br422ify

The temple should have been abandoned.

That was the first problem.The second problem was that ancient Force relics apparently had the survival instincts of explosive landmines.

And the third problem....The truly catastrophic one...

Was Cal Kestis.

“This is absolutely your fault,” you informed him while ducking beneath a collapsing stone arch.

“How is this my fault?!” Cal shouted back.

“You touched the glowing thing!”

“You touched it too!”

“Yes, but I touched it second. That makes you more responsible.”

“That’s not how responsibility works!”

The entire chamber rumbled violently beneath your feet as ancient blue symbols flared brighter along the walls. Somewhere above you, stone cracked with a deafening roar.

BD-1 shrieked from Cal’s shoulder.

“See? Even BD thinks you’re stupid.”

The little droid beeped indignantly.

“I don’t think that’s what he said,” Cal snapped.

Before you could respond, the relic exploded with light.

Not figuratively.

Literally.

Blinding blue energy surged through the chamber and slammed directly into both of you.

For one horrifying second, the world disappeared and everything was silent, like you were suddenly sucked into a void.

You felt, cold, you felt fear, loneliness. Grief so immense it nearly stopped your heart.

And then....Nothing.

Back aboard the Mantis, things somehow became worse.

You stormed into the common area still furious, dusty, and emotionally violated.

“This idiot did something and now we have a Force bond or whatever.”

Cal entered behind you looking equally miserable. “I did not do it on purpose.”

“Fascinating,” Cere murmured as she looked you two over.

You narrowed your eyes at her immediately.“You’re enjoying this.”

“I’m observing...Force bond's are exceedingly rare."

“You’re smiling.”

“I’m really not.” She absolutely was.

Greez looked between the two of you nervously. “Okay, hold on—what kinda Force bond are we talking here? Like spooky Jedi destiny stuff or murder curse stuff?”

“We don’t know yet,” Cere admitted.

And immediately a wave of exhaustion, stress, and lingering guilt slammed into your chest so hard you physically staggered.

You grabbed the table “Oh, stars...why am I suddenly sad?”

Cal blinked then coughed into his hand. “…that’s me.”

You stared at him in horror. "Well stop it.”

“I can’t just stop being stressed.”

“Well now I’m stressed!”

“You think this is fun for me?”

The irritation in his voice exploded directly into your nervous system.

Your eye twitched violently as you then pointed at him accusingly. “THAT. I just felt THAT.”

Cal looked equally horrified. “You can feel that?”

“Yes! Unfortunately!”

Cere folded her hands calmly. “The bond appears emotional in nature.”

“Fantastic,” you muttered. “So now his problems are my problems.”

“You have no idea how insulting that sounded.”

“Oh trust me, I meant it insultingly.”

Greez slowly backed away from both of you. “I’m gonna go lock my door.”

The next few days were unbearable.

Not dramatic unbearable.

Actually unbearable.

Because apparently the Force had decided neither of you deserved privacy anymore.

You felt everything.

Every spike of Cal’s anxiety before missions.

Every flash of guilt whenever someone mentioned the Jedi Order....or even the events of Order 66.

Every exhausted slump hidden beneath his calm expression.

And unfortunately....He could feel you too.

The first time it happened accidentally, you nearly died from embarrassment.

Cal had just finished training.

Shirtless.

Sweaty.

Hair damp and messy.

You looked up from the lounge for one second, one single innocent second.

And suddenly your entire brain betrayed you.

Oh no.

He’s hot.

Like REALLY hot.

Those shoulders are unfair, and stars his arms.

Cal choked mid-drink.

You froze.

His face went bright red instantly.

Slowly… painfully slowly… he turned toward you.

“No.”

You covered your face immediately. “I didn’t say anything.”

“You thought it very loudly.”

“This bond is evil.” You muttered to yourself keeping your gaze from him.

“You were staring at me!”

“You walk around built like that and expect me not to?!” You blurted out.

Silence.

Then from the cockpit...because as if this could not get any worse.

“I can still hear you idiots!” Greez yelled.

You groaned into your hands.

It got worse after the dreams started.

The Force bond blurred strangely at night.

Memories leaked.

Emotions tangled.

One night you dreamed of rain and fire and endless running.

You woke up shaking.

The next morning, Cal looked exhausted too. "You saw it?”

“You were terrified,” he said quietly.

You hated how gentle his voice sounded. “I didn’t exactly enjoy reliving your trauma either.”

“That wasn’t my memory.”

You blinked.“....Oh.”

His expression softened slightly. “That was yours.”

Your stomach dropped.Because suddenly you realized,Cal had felt it all.

Your fear.

Your loneliness.

The endless ache you carried around like a second skeleton.The things you never spoke about as you then looked away immediately. "Well,” you muttered weakly. “That’s humiliating.”

Cal didn’t answer right away.

But through the bond, you felt something warm flicker.

Understanding.

Sympathy.

Care.

Which honestly felt worse.

The real problem started during missions.

Because the protective instincts became impossible to ignore.

You discovered this when a bounty hunter nearly shot you during a supply run on Koboh.

One second you were arguing with a merchant.

The next....Danger.

Before you could even react, a violent surge of panic slammed through the bond so hard it stole your breath.

Not your panic.

Cal’s.

You barely had time to duck before Cal launched across the market like an angry missile.

The hunter hit the ground unconscious three seconds later.

“You okay?” Cal grabbed your shoulders immediately.

You blinked at him.

Not because of the attack.

Because the bond was flooding with emotion so intense it made your chest ache.

Fear.

Relief.

Protectiveness.

You stared up at him slowly. “You were worried.”

“You almost got shot!”

“Yes but...like I'm fine.”

Cal’s ears turned red. “You can stop saying things like that.”

“You care about me.”

“No I....”

The Force bond betrayed him instantly.

Affection crashed into your chest like a tidal wave.

Your jaw dropped. “Oh my stars.”

Cal looked horrified, his body turning to look away from you.

“You LIKE me.”

“I do not.”

“You absolutely do!”

“You are literally impossible.”

“And you’re in love with me!”

From behind the ship’s ramp, Merrin snorted so hard she nearly inhaled her tea.

Neither of you had realized she was standing there.

“Well,” she said dryly, “this explains a great deal.”

“You heard nothing,” Cal muttered.

“I heard enough.” Merrin hummed, smiling smuggly.

After that, things became catastrophically awkward.

Because now you both knew.

And pretending became impossible when the bond kept exposing everything.

Cal would glance toward you during conversations without realizing it.

You’d feel warmth bloom through the bond every time he smiled.

And you both started standing closer together unconsciously.

Shoulders brushing.

Hands bumping.

Finding excuses to stay near one another.

At one point, Greez walked into the lounge, saw both of you sitting pressed shoulder-to-shoulder on the couch pretending to read separate datapads, and immediately turned around.

“Nope....I am not dealing with whatever this....even is."

“We’re not doing anything,” you called after him.

“You’re literally sharing feelings!” he shouted back.

“That’s medically different!"

Then came the meditation disaster.

Cal was attempting to meditate in peace for once.

You genuinely tried not to bother him.

Tried.

Unfortunately your brain apparently worked against you.

Because the moment you walked into where Cal would meditate, your eyes landed on him sitting cross-legged shirtless beneath the dim lights.

Your thoughts derailed instantly.

'Stars....His hair looks soft.....Would he let me touch it...?'

Cal inhaled sharply without opening his eyes.

You slapped both hands over your mouth. "Oh no.”

His concentration shattered immediately. "You have to stop thinking at me.”

“I’m not doing it on purpose!”

“You absolutely are!”

“I’m literally being oppressed by my own brain!”

Cal stood abruptly, frustrated energy flaring through the bond.

Which immediately made you frustrated.

“Oh great now I’m annoyed.”

“Well now I’m annoyed that you’re annoyed!”

“You started it!”

“You were fantasizing!”

“YOU FELT THAT?!”

“Yes!”

You made a noise of pure despair and collapsed face-first onto the floor. “This is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.”

Cal looked down at you.

Then through the bond came something dangerous.

Fondness.

Warm. Amused. Soft.

You slowly lifted your head. “…did you just think I was cute?”

“No!"

The bond immediately proved him a liar.

You pointed at him dramatically from the floor. “LIAR.”

The breaking point came weeks later.

On a mission gone wrong.

You’d gotten separated during a fight inside an Imperial facility.

For ten horrible minutes, Cal couldn’t find you.

And through the bond, you felt every second of his panic.

Not irritation.

Not worry.

Terror.

Pure, overwhelming terror at the thought of losing you.

By the time he finally reached you, both of you were breathing hard.

You’d handled the troopers fine.

But Cal looked furious. “What were you thinking?!”

“Oh don’t start...”

“You disappeared!”

“We got separated!”

“You could’ve died!”

The bond surged violently between you.

Fear.

Relief.

Affection so intense it hurt.

You froze.

Because underneath everything else you could finally feel it clearly.

Love.

Not the vague beginning of it.

Not attraction.

Not curiosity.

Love.

Cal realized you felt it at the exact same moment.

His expression cracked open slightly and stars you knew he could feel yours too.

“Oh,” you whispered.

“Oh,” he echoed.

Silence swallowed the room.

Then both of you started talking at once.

“This is probably just the bond...”

“Maybe it’s influencing us...”

“You drive me insane..”

“You’re impossible to deal with..."

“You stress me out constantly.."

“Well maybe stop almost dying!”

“Maybe stop looking at me like that!”

Cal stepped closer without realizing it. “How am I looking at you?”

“Like you want to kiss me.”

The silence afterward was catastrophic. Because through the bond.

You felt it.

The sharp spike of want.

Affection.

Need.

Cal stared at you for one long second before muttering helplessly. “I do want to kiss you.”

Your breath caught.

Then both of you moved at the same time. The kiss hit like a collision.

Messy. Desperate. Explosive.

Months of tension detonated instantly.

Cal’s hands grabbed your waist hard enough to pull you flush against him while yours tangled in his hair.

And suddenly the bond calmed.

Not disappeared.

Calmed.

Warmth flooded through it instead.

Relief.

Happiness.

Home.

When you finally pulled apart, both of you were breathless.

Foreheads pressed together.

Staring at one another.

Then through the bond came one final emotion from Cal. Adoration so overwhelming it made your knees weak.

You squinted at him suspiciously. “…you’re disgustingly in love with me.”

Cal laughed softly, still holding you close. “You felt that, huh?”

“Unfortunately.”

His grin widened. “You love me too.”

You groaned dramatically and buried your face in his shoulder. “This Force bond ruined my life.”

His arms tightened around you instantly.

And through the bond came that warm, steady feeling again.

Not panic.

Not fear.

Just him.

“You’ll survive,” Cal murmured against your hair.

"Obviously...I mean I have you protecting me."

[calakuna]

he fought because he actually felt safer fighting than running.

[l-kawi]

cozy morning

came up with the idea that BD is hilariously hyperactive in the mornings, and if Cal's doing okay, the unfortunate sleepyhead is attacked by a bored droid

[lukesboyfriend]

Ginger was literally running around the galaxy flashing his lightsaber for everyone to see, beating up Inquisitors on Coruscant, infiltrating top-secret Imperial bases, and working with rebels.

[animatedjen]

Cal “No Bones” Kestis:

[shaythey]

Part two of my Jedi: Fallen Order Moments That Make Me Go Crazy series

[jaxschickenleg]

Ngllllll “Don’t You Know” by Jaymes Young is a good bop for them💔

[animatedjen]

[animatedjen]

Cal “No Bones” Kestis:

[supertaliart]

Happy May the Fourth! I added a second page to this comic from last year!

[animatedjen]

fun fact: normally stim canisters are thrown into the air for Cal to grab, but if his hands are full, BD will administer the stim himself :)

[paper-crane-castles]

"Whilst hunting for a functioning medical bay on a crashed Venator on the dingy scrap planet Bracca, Captain Rex, formerly of the 501st Battalion of the GAR, stumbles upon a little more than he bargained for."

Or, in the grand Star Wars tradition of Accidental Child Acquisition making for the very BEST of dads...Captain Rex adopts a skittish little baby Cal after the traumatic events of Order 66.

Edited to include link to fic!

[aesnawan]

Thank you so much everyone thhat followed the series!