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understand that people will leave your life, you can’t fall apart every time it happens.

Here we go again. I miss you. For the nth time I still miss you. I thought I was already doing okay. But here I am, Going nowhere. I fucking miss you and I hate it cause It fuckin hurts. I hate u for fuckin hurting me. I know that you're okay there wherever you are and that's really awesome. But I also know that you're doing so well I'm not even crossing ur thoughts. Please stop hurting me. I hate myself for missing you so much even though I know that you don't miss me even just for a bit. Why are you doing this to me. How are you doing this to me? How?

I want to be the one u want to tell everything to. I just want to be important in ur life.

unti-tle-d

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A woman is unstoppable after she realizes she deserves better.

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Yep

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The most beautiful thing in this world is the smile of someone genuinely happy.

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You

Hate the fact that I begged too many people to stay in my life. I begged them to accept me. I begged them to be with me. I begged them to not get tired of me. I don't hate the fact that I asked for impossible things but I hate that I actually begged. Never ever ever beg for something or someone you think you deserve because you begging for it only shows that you don't. You don't beg for what you deserve, it will come.

When you're slowly accepting the fact that it's only you and yourself in this world against everybody, that's the time you know you're growing.

dear--charlie

Dear Charlie,

Everybody keeps asking me why I love to help, to make other people happy, love to see them smile. I guess it’s because I don’t think I’m ever going to be happy so I want at least others to be. Even if it’s just for a second.

And yes, I know that I’ll never get back the love I gave to others - but most people don’t unterstand that I’m not loving and helping to get something in return. Maybe at least you unterstand.

Love always, - E.

I really really really want to talk to you but they said that don't force things to happen. If it's meant to be, it will be. But then somebody also said that when you want it, go get it. What the fuck am I supposed to follow? I don't want to feel like I just forced it but I also don't want to feel that I didn't do something for it to happen. THIS IS FCKIN HARD MAN. I did it for 2 months but what's happening now bruh. Why. I need to find that peace again.

And as simple as that, you made my day. Where the fuck is justice in that?

#thingsididntsay

Should I, Should I not?

It is all in my head. All the questions, all the what-ifs, all the should've's and all the regrets. Upon hearing myself say it out loud, I finally heard it. I heard how pathetic I am for letting myself be consumed in these chain of thoughts when there is no actual basis at all. It was me against me. A battle for survival. A battle for the hope of coming back. A battle to exist. But the thing is, even if I know that it is indeed silly, I can't quite figure out how my brain would force my heart to just not feel something when you suddenly appear in my life again. I held my own. I did it for two months. I am so pathetic for wanting to be needed by you so much that it consumes me and my own sense of existence. I am so pathetic for wanting to be a part of your life so much that I am going against the flow of the current to ease my way in your stream. I am so pathetic that I am consuming myself just not to let you be consumed in mine. Am I wrong for wanting to be an important wave in your shore? Am I wrong for wanting to be needed in your perfectly crafted art? Am I wrong to let my own guard be down to let you climb-no scratch that, to let you easily walk yourself into my walls that I have long built. Why can't I just let you go when I know that my own self-regard is being compromised just so that you would not leave. Why can't I walk away when I know that I am not the best tasting apple in your tree though that is just a dream for I don't even belong in the soil you are in. Should I continue hurting for a cause that is beyond my control? Or Should I not continue walking the path that I have long been undestined for?

Should I, Should I not? Validating your existence upon your importance to a person busy in a life of not just existing but rather, living is certainly the most pathetic way of valuing yourself, love.

thegoodvibeco

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Actually. I did. But luckily, I'm stupid.

criwes

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This.

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