Shane Hollander I Have Grown Quite Fond Of You

He/him • Black • Trans • AuDHD • 25 • Queer • Disabled • Special interests: Star Trek 🖖🏾 Musicals 🎼 WWI 🪖 Hyperfixation: Heated Rivalry 🏒

[citizenscreen]

The 100-year-old-man, author of the laughter of our lives. Happy, happy birthday, Mel Brooks. ❤️🎂💯

[bambicoded]

shanebug multipack :)

[hollanovverse]

[aemelia]

Opinion: I'm Not A Jealous Person I Just Hope Every Girl Who Talks To Him Dies // @hollanovbingo

[lavenderprose]

My Vegas breakdown is making the rounds again and I would like to remind people that DOM DROP is real and also Ilya Rozanov has no idea that it's happening to him. Yes Ilya is a mean dom, especially that night, but the cigarette and vodka conversation was not part of the scene and the reason he's choosing not to communicate in that moment is because he is fully in Dom drop and literally feels like he cannot communicate. Shane, sitting next to him, is fully in sub drop and ALSO feels like if he actually opens his mouth to ask for what he wants (Kisses) then he's going to throw up or ask for something insane. Also they're in love and hiding it badly. Also Ilya is going back to Russia in a matter of days. Also Shane has been feeling some version of chewed up and spat out for over six months at this point. They're not doing WELL. And they're not doing it to each other it's just. Happening.

[creamsiclemelt]

today I am thinking about the fact that everything shane knows about what hes into is inextricably linked to ilya. all his kinks are either things ilya introduced him to or things he fantasized ilya doing to him/doing with ilya. yeah there's fantasies about other people (random unnamed older guy on his juniors team who took him under his wing, random unnamed guy on his juniors team who was a little mean in a way that made shane's heart pound, some hockey players when he was younger etc) but ultimately, it all came back to ilya.

sure, if he squints hard enough he can remember the way he liked when things hurt a bit, those times praise lit him up inside. but nothing concrete, not without ilya.

one day, after getting fucked until all the thoughts are gone from his head and coming out of his tongue, spilling out in front of ilya, "you know, sometimes i wonder if you did this to me."

"what, sweetheart?"

"made me like all this. if i'd like all this if you hadn't taught me."

silence

"it's good. i like that i'm custom made for you."

and, well. what's ilya supposed to do other than fuck shane about it?

[bloominflowers]

those funny erling haaland memes but with ilya rozanov because this type of humor is very ilya coded to me

[our-queer-experience]

you all deserve BETTER

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

If you're comfortable accusing anyone of faking disability, you're not a real ally to disabled people

[teaboot]

One time when I was a kid a group of girls and I had to treat another student for hypothermia by ourselves because she had so many invisible health issues that the adults we asked for help didn't believe us. The student in question was actively hallucinating. When I finally ran for help the people I grabbed were slow as shit to respond, casually joking about how "dramatic" the person in question was.

The kid was picked up by an ambulance 30 minutes later.

Now as an adult working in security I get SO MANY folks- upper-middle aged mostly- coming to me to 'rat out' people they think are faking it.

I was once sent into a bathroom because a client demanded that the "fucker won't get out, so go drag them out"- I was NEVER going to do that, so I did a wellness check instead. You know who it was? A person recently released from the hospital after a car accident. They had a hole in their skull and major hearing loss. They couldn't answer the owner because they couldn't HEAR the owner.

Another time about a homeless man who got around town by kicking the ground from his wheelchair. "You know he doesn't actually need that thing, his legs work fine, it's just for pity points"- Oh, so he's not paralyzed, his wheelchair is performative? Funny story Dale, I actually know that guy, he was backed over by a truck and has chronic pain from his shattered pelvis. But sure, let's make him stand up and walk everywhere so nobody feels too bad for him and tries to help him or something.

"She doesn't need that scooter, I've seen her get out of it."

"Look how fat he is, because he just rides around and refuses to get up."

"She doesn't really need that cane- she comes here without it all the time"

Sincerely, truly, from the bottom of my heart- as someone who isn't physically disabled but hears this shit all the time- fuck off

[burntundertones]

[horse-on-a-porch]

why wasn't Shane diagnosed with autism as a child?

Yuna "I am masking at insane levels because of racism and sexism and I love my special boy so so much" Hollander x David "we love our son so so much and obviously he's just like my wife who I love so so much and I've never questioned any of their traits because they're perfect" Hollander.

Next question.

[thisfeebleheart]

Ilya's fluttery hands when he's overwhelmed by Shane (insp by @gloryhollanovjah)

[doffy2]

My dinnar 💪💯❗💥

[doffy2]

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This is one of your worst posts yet man

[textposttropes]

Poverty Food

Visual Innuendo

[doffy2]

You called me dirt sucking poor and told me my carrot looks like a cock

[thepromiscuousfinger]

[godisagooner]

Literally me. Cant even finish my silly fic i started writing 😭

[soup-charades]

every single one of my in memoriam thought are one of these two

[iliketodecompose]

so did in memoriam give anyone else wwi autism and make it even harder to talk to their peers or is it just me. yeah im in my 20s and i carry around a picture of siegfried sassoon like he's my wife and im at war. did you know that he was in a situationship w the kaiser's neph- hey wait where r u going

[revivivivify]