For The Love Of Manga

Overworked office drone in need of escape

[bluestjordan]

Back at rock bottom

Let’s try… again

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Soft boys are the best boys

Ameagari no Bokura ni Tsuite by Rakuta Shoko

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I am a million miles away from where I was

Both geographically and metaphorically.

I have a new job in a new city on a new continent.

My heart is full. I am grateful.

Fearful but grateful.

On a side note, I haven’t read manga in a few months since moving, and I’m definitely craving a huge binge.

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My anxiety is taking over and I don’t know what to do. I can’t eat or sleep. I’m exhausted all the time. I try to rationalize with my fatalistic intrusive thoughts but the breathless sinking feeling in my chest remains. I started to have anxiety over my anxiety attacks. Talk about meta…

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So it has been a long while…

Long story short, I’ve been battling a rare but debilitating illness and had to quit my job (which I wholeheartedly blame for the onset of my illness).

Things were pretty bad at a certain time.

Things are less bad now.

They’re not great.

Not yet, anyway.

I am rebuilding my self piece by piece. In addition to practicing gratitude, I am now trying to practice optimism.

Going through my journal a year ago, I wrote that I felt a shift in the universe and that things might get better soon (especially with my now-former job).

Things got a lot worse after that.

NONETHELESS!!

I’ll keep trying.

I hope to become healed. I hope to move to a better place. I hope to find a well paying job that makes me happy (i.e the opposite of suicidal).

[banana-banshee]

Yuji:1 -  Sukuna:0 This is probably the silliest thing I have ever drawn, no regrets 🌶️

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Life without manga is harder... all the shady sites are down and all the legal ones still don’t have licenses for my region

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“...Hope’s a reptile waiting for the sun” (February, by Bill Chrostophersen)

I quit my job and I am planning on moving and I am so scared and excited

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Spent the last two hours trying to fix something in my computer... technology makes me (un)reasonably(?) terrified and triggers my depression... is this old age? Is my psyche railing against myself becoming obsolete?

Or are my laptop manufacturers shifty bastards bogging down my machine with updates that only eat space without any discernible added value to my laptoping experience?

I have a migraine.

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Waiting for another chance for another chance for another chance for another chance...

Waiting for another life.

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(NOW WE ARE SIXTY, Chris Topher Mathews)

I am still trying not to quit my job

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Berserk

ベルセルク

Kentaro Miura

[pissvortex]

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Are online games all the social interaction I need?

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I wish

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Either my next door neighbor spawned a demon, or there is a cow giving birth to a live chainsaw in their backyard...

Otherwise, I’m doing pretty good. Better I’ve been in a while actually.

Feeling grateful.

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When the art is that good though...!!!!

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“How to Fight” is my newest obsession and brightest spot in my daily routine! I laughed so hard reading this at night, the neighborhood strays started to bark.