Hate & some love too.

my life.

[lysergicdrip]

If you can’t handle me at my 666 then you don’t deserve me at my 420.

Marilyn Monroe (via lysergicdrip)

[kushandwizdom]

25

[words-of-emotion]

Overthinking is the biggest cause of our unhappiness. Keep yourself occupied. Keep your mind off things that don’t help you. Think positive.

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[scifiction]

The Mystery of life isn’t a problem to solve, but a reality to experience. ~ Frank Herbert

[thegoodvibeco]

[words-of-emotion]

Don’t be afraid of change. You may end up losing something good, but you will probably end up gaining something better.

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Just what I need for today. Fresh start.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

White and privileged.

Handsome devil, or so they call me, long climb from the bottom or so they tell me,long dick skinny girl that’s where my mind be. fall from the bottom just to get to the top, rap shits so easy they calling me the new hop..sin is easy and so is the truth, blessed I am fuck that’s the damn truth, pain, tears, lost all these years to this drug now im in shock and awe, my face looking like when your girl take off her bra, haha laugh in your face, oh me oh my im so damn high, no reason for me to tell a lie, or so I thought, I smoke my pot, hit the joint, I told you once I told you twice I think I made my point, got y'all looking at me like I said the nigga, nigga is just a word, look at me im white but im not as innocent as you heard, heard me or so you said but I leave a nasty taste in your mouth like I just did to your girl in your bed, in your head you think your crazy, but the boy been on his grind dont you ever call this boy lazy, amaze me with your toy story, after I leave your girl you can never fill the void where I used to be. One night, baby that’s all I need, five years ago same story boy best believe I planted the seed, seeds grow, hoes come and go, I lie I know, she told you so, This pain its so deep so real, but only time will tell if she’s wounds she left will heal.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Piece of pie.

My family calls me an imposter, they blame me for the drugs that I hooked into their daughter. Kinda hard to forget when she’s sitting in a jail cell, make any big brother go through hell, hell proof is what it made me, a wolf in sheep’s clothing is who I really am, shit I guess this life was never part of the plan, lets make a man out of you or what you’re supposed to be, I wish it was you in jail not her is what my parents telling me. In Arizona I live in my own little slice of hell, what can I do to break this spell, life is hell and hell is life, man oh man im still living at home while everyone else have a life. Pathetic shit, call me a loser, always got beat on by dad he was quite the boozer, loser loser yeah that’s my pops, I started out on bottom but now I’m on top. Funny how drastically your life can Change when you accept the truth about you being angry and filled with rage. Caged inside is something evil, go ahead you can look at my life through your peep hole. Peeing gold or so they told me, 23 years old but your girl treat me like im 30. Propane, cocaine still won’t take away this want for evil than the dead. Wake up in my bed, rub my eyes, guess I was just living the life you want me to, well I’ve got my life together like my laces, tight oh so tight, people say good things cant come from bad places havent you ever seen the star shine in the middle of the night, well that’s me and now its my time im gonna shine so bright, all night all night, yeah haha that’s right. Your boy started from the bottom now everyone wants a piece of the pie.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Signed my life away at birth (death certificate)

Doctor signed my birth certificate take a leap into the future im the reason for my own death. Look at the shit I’ve done it’ll take your breath away, breathless is how I left you while my old girl blow you, give life to something shit, she can breath life into your lungs but I bet you still think with your dick. I hate how I look im insecure thinking people are calling me ugly, but all I want in life is for a pretty girl to love me, hug me, leave me breathless, just like the first Time I saw my first tits. Leaving me in shock. In awe, like the marks on my back I call that shit tough love, pick yourself up off of the ground and tell yourself you’re loved. Someones out there waiting for you, not like that, but to show you love. No more drugs to fill the empty void in my heart, when my old girl left me my life was falling apart, call her cupid because she shot my heart, my soul it hurt to deep, showing me places I didn’t know would exist, dark so dark as dark as the Abyss. Pissed that after it all this is how you left me, got me thinking two weeks ago I almost asked this bitch to marry me. Marry me and never leave me, leave your mark, love blind is what I be and that’s what you are too. The sooner we realize This the more pain you will prevent, left me lying in my own tears cold cold as cold can be. Got myself thinking is This all my life can be, be me and the rest will come my way, I cant wait till she make me feel like the first Time I got laid, laid down on my bed sipping on that crown..Royal is what I can be, god cant save me from everything so I’ve got my gun on the Side of me, no safety needed, fully loaded, that’s how I live life, didnt your dad Teach you dont bring a knife to a gun fight? Well mine didn’t, but my life is more important than yours, got your opening your mouth about me more than a cab drivers doors, say what you want because I know me Better than I know you, shoot me shoot me please put me out of this painful trip that we all call life, im so dull they calling me a butter knife. Knifeless, lifeless, like I said that’s how she left me, something dark picked me up off the floor and I let it use me, gone gone now there’s nothing left but the hole you left when your ripped my heart from my chest, you got a tit job now you think you’re the best? Well I know whats underneath and believe me im not impressed.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Pain. Pain. Won't let it get the best of me (or will I)

Im hurt so broken I dont think I can ever recover, my dark thoughts got me lookin down the barrel of this 38 revolver, if I pulled the trigger would it really all be done? Would I leave my family stranded, more surprises around the corner is what your life holds, dont pull the fucking trigger you’re only 23 years old. It’s not worth it, dont listen to him, you pull that trigger your sign over your life to him. Is your life really that hard? Think about it, take a deep breath in and dream about it, Dont be about it unless its doing something good, you moved away from your city just so you could put the old ways behind you, left them there for good. But I left who I was in the city they call California, the devil so deep in my thoughts you would think he drowning ya, but he’s not. Your mind is a powerful tool, dont give into his evil ways, you no mom didn’t raise a fucking fool, forced you to do what you didnt want to but shit that’s called life. This pain you left me with is stabbing me like a knife. Good bye cruel world, that’s what your boy was saying till I heard the truth, I stumbled across the red, and your boy dont rep that blue. Stay in school, graduate, work hard your whole life so you can take that nice girl on a date, ha im not believing the systems lies, ill do my life my own way this is my damn game. God is a mind state, or so they told me, 23 years old or so I thought but my mind so much older got me boiling these damn thoughts, cook them up and never think them again, these boys werent ready but after these song we turned them to men. Done with life and the fronts you put up, bang bang done..its over…I gave the devil what he want. Heres my soul, my name and thoughts its yours for the taking, my life is over and can’t blame nobody but myself, dark thoughts are gone and im glad they belong to him. My soul was never there god lied about Hell. Peace peace or my own twisted version of quiet. Lived a lie my whole life but I thank the devil for showing me the truth. Truth truth once upon a time justin was, but blood on the wall is all he left. Just..in time for the truth he called himself the fortunate youth. man but you all know that wasn’t true. Blue in the face I think I missed you, strung out, hung over this lie cant be true, so before you take your life out of the blue, think about the sins you will take with you. So kids, listen to this story, look down the barrel of the 38 if you wanna be like me. Shit I would go back and do it over again. Silly story turned these little boys into men. This is where my dark story begins. Or ends. Wait what do we do? Look yourself in the mirror, whats more important. Unemployed is what the future holds look into my dark mind this is where the truth unfolds.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Thanks dad, you made me the fuck up I am today.

Your boys lyrics go so hard I got these bitches calling it asphalt. Breaking down all of these Barriers before y'all lay down the dry wall. Dirty nasty that’s what I got your girl callin me, I look at myself in the mirror and I dont even recognize me. What did I become, who did I let influence be to live a life that y'all are calling dumb, this numb feeling got me wanting more, you say your girl is good, give me 30 seconds ill turn her into a whore. Horror movie livin not talking Freddy or jason, high at home while daddy breaking his back just to bring home the bacon. In high school I got Bullied and pushed into a corner, I wanna go back and thank them because it showed me that fear is real and when I do these drugs I dont have to feel, feelings come and go since you broke my heart, left me lying in pieces, no point in putting them back together, love this life im living, Im so high push these feelings through the ceiling. You call me a loser, I won’t disagree, but I know who I am no reason to tell me. Ill own that shit like I just paid for it, no label for it just hook me up like im paying for it. Paid for it, livin this life I’d its true, shot myself with a gun dont wanna feel this feeling anymore. Brains on the wall and blood all over the floor, got my room looking like a pre teens period. You can call me a bloody mess, I won’t deny it passed this with flying colors no need for your test, blessed shit that’s what I used to be, but when I write these lyrics I feel like this is where your boy is supposed to be. Ha wow, im finally home, one shot..two shots..your boy just took shots to the dome. Run in your grandmas home and steal your life away, you can hate me but im just showing you the colors inside that they don’t want you to see. Follow me all your life and you won’t end up disappointed, left this guy you call justin next to the empty rig on the Side of me, bleeding these colors so bright call me downy. Smile on my face while you hide who you really are, hide your real emotions you wont go to far like an empty gas tank in the homies car. Stupid, idiot, retarted crazy, hit this blunt twice then I remembered this song is all that’s left of me. So next time you’re faced with the choice to stay sober or get high, do what you want you’re the one whos Waving by. By me for me, stupid deranged mind got me feeling funny. So sad so sad, you cry you got beat by your dad. My dad beat me too, but I wanna thank him it made me this thing Im proud to be today. No longer a lame, I got the fortune and fame, I make so many moves I should have my own lane. Bang bang, shots from a dark place, ooops my bad that’s just my nut on your girls face.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

The truth hurts, dont it.

I’ve got a dark mind. All the people I know are going through tough times. Situations like this can make you or break you. Last thing I heard that girl wouldn’t even date you. Its time I do something with this lyrical gift , the only thing im giving this girl is a tip. Not talking about money, stupid bitch used to call me ugly, now im going somewhere and she dont wanna leave me. Haha I laugh in your face, park my car in your driveway then I’ll spit in your face. That’s like most people today, you offer a Hand, you leave then they go back to the old ways. The place you’re going won’t treat you to well and the only thing you’re doing is reserving a spot in Hell. But dad, but dad, dads gone and all he left was the pen on the pad. Im gone forever and all you will remember me by was my little web of lies. Oh how time flies when all you do is spread all of these t’s no dottin the I’s. My mind is a gift and she dont wanna use hash tags all she wanna do is ride my dick. Fine by me, fuck all y'all all I need is me.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Heroin (darkness)

Try me once and your life will never be the same. Now my mom and friends see me and they think im insane . Dont try it and they call you a lame. But this is my life story but not for the fortune or the fame. Y'all can blame me for all your problems. Call me the devil because I brought me and my homies down to his level. But I shook this sickness and since I stopped I have come to my senses aka now I drive clean benzes. Look through the camera lense right that shit down with your pen used to be like little kids but since we stopped they finally callin us men.

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Yeah I'm"nice".

Never scared, nor embarrassed, ask ma ex I gotta bone like a freak, Kevin Ware the sex… whoa. Y'all heard about the kid with the jew flow And jew fro, getting mo sugar than glucose The dude so cold youda so swore he from pluto Ma head so big, it’s like I’m juicing with pujols But look if you thinkin that this jew so nice Then you so right, you rappers lookin’ Bruno’s type The dude’s so bright, I’m rapping like a sumo fight The knee slappin’ unexpected, word to Juno’s tike, I’m out

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

I rise above the shame.

Morphine junky yo they say this shit is random. Two years ago I had my own heaven. Drugs took it away forever, she ain’t ever coming back. Pushed me harder into this shit specially when I was shooting black. Call me wack bitch.. suck my sack bitch. I was given it all in life and just for these drugs I threw it all away but through the hustle and the grind it made me the man im proud to be today. I gave up these drugs, shit will never be the same. #freestyle #darkminds #stonerflow

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

They say I need rehab

But I’m stressing, I can’t relax I swallow my pride and I’m hiding what’s making me mad Everybody say I need rehab Cause I’m speedin' with a blindfold on and won’t be long ‘til they watching me crash And they don’t wanna see that They don’t want me to OD and have to talk to my mother Telling her they could have done more to help me, and she’ll be crying saying that she’ll do anything to have me back

[blurryfaceyaabishh]

Just letting my mind go into dark places. #freestyle#darkthoughts#positiveeffects