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I’ll just drop this here <3

no thoughts, just a six-year-old Andrew Minyard at the doctor’s office with strep throat. A little girl is sitting with him in the waiting room eating a Happy Meal on her mom’s lap. Andrew traces circles into his own hands, thinking that the comforting taste of chicken nuggets and french fries would help him feel better. He knows he’s not supposed to ask for things, but a pang of desperation makes him forget to be cautious. He sits up straight, gathering his courage, and turns to his foster dad to ask if they can get a Happy Meal on the way home.

“No,” his foster dad snaps. “It was already enough of an inconvenience bringing you here.”

no thoughts, just a six-year-old Andrew Minyard shrinking back into himself as tears sting in his eyes. A six-year-old Andrew Minyard learning not to want things.

no thoughts, just a twenty-year-old Nicky Hemmick leaving the doctor’s office with Andrew who probably has strep throat, but wouldn’t let the doctor get close enough to check. Drained from the day, Nicky stops at the McDonald’s drive thru and asks Andrew what he wants. Andrew snaps that he isn’t hungry. Nicky decides to buy him a Happy Meal as a way of avoiding food waste if Andrew truly isn’t hungry, but also so Andrew has something to eat if he actually is hungry.

no thoughts, just a twenty-year-old Nicky Hemmick feeling guilty for not having the energy to make something at home for Andrew to eat, and not knowing he’s given Andrew exactly what he needed.

#ouch #aftg

odyver

alright I've got to do some quick math to explain attitudes towards AI to my boss.

we're looking to create an AI policy, and when we were talking about this, my boss (older millennial) was genuinely shocked to hear that younger people do not (seem) to view AI positively (a la the recent commencement speakers being booed)

please rb for larger sample size!

Question 1/3

What is your age, and do you feel AI is a net positive or net negative in our lives today?

under 18, AI is a net positive

under 18, AI is a net negative

18-29, AI is a net positive

18-29, AI is a net negative

30-45, AI is a net positive

30-45, AI is a net negative

46-60, AI is a net positive

46-60, AI is a net negative

over 60, AI is a net postive

over 60, AI is a net negative

Remaining time: 6 days 11 hours

odyver

Question 2/3

How often do you visit or interact with museums/archives (whether in person or online)?

Frequently (multiple times per month)

Often (multiple times per year)

Occasionally (a couple times per year)

Rarely (once every couple of years)

Never :(

Remaining time: 6 days 11 hours

odyver

Question 3/3

If you saw a museum was using AI in exhibits, marketing, research, etc., would you be more or less inclined to visit that museum?

under 18, more inclined

under 18, less inclined

18-29, more inclined

18-29, less inclined

30-45, more inclined

30-45, less inclined

46-60, more inclined

46-60, less inclined

over 60, more inclined

over 60, less inclined

Remaining time: 6 days 11 hours

Thank you for helping with this data collection. Please rb for as big a sample as possible!

🫶

fragile-things-archive

did you sleep well tonight? (I love you) we should do this one day (I love you) did you eat? (I love you) I brought you this because it's your favorite (I love you) have you taken your vitamins? (I love you) I made this for you (I love you) did you get home safe? (I love you) I made you some tea (I love you) how's the project that you're working on? (I love you) don't forget your umbrella (I love you) take my scarf (I love you) I'll wait with you (I love you) I'll wait for you (I love you) (I love you) (I love you)

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260531 SHINee World VIII The Invert in Seoul Day III

#shinee #onew

blurryflower

”happy” international eating disorder awareness day

ofc its the day before my bday and ofc im doing a terrible job of keeping my weight up. love this illness 🤩🤩🤩🤩

blurryflower

apparently im back to using tumblr as my personal diary so here’s more ed thoughts bc guess who just got kicked out of day treatment? 🤩 Happy bday to me! or something loool

Idk kicked out might not be the right word but basically i started day treatment again bc i was losing weight after inpatient (shocker!) and day treatment was supposed to stop that/help me gain. But since i’ve just continued losing weight its not seen as productive treatment for me anymore and so tomorrow is my last day.

And im gonna be honest, i cant even complain that much bc i severely dislike day treatment!! But also i am now the one responsible for not losing any more weight/gaining if i don’t want ip again and we all know how well that’s gonna go… with the help of my therapist ofc but in the end im the one doing or not doing the work so it is all up to me.

Idk idk. I don’t think i would’ve wanted to continue anyways bc it feels like a waste when clearly its not helping, but also i feel kind of given up on now and like we’re just waiting for IP to have a bed ready when that is not at all what i wish for!!!!

Basically im back to square one and continue to be in a love-hate relationship with this fucking illness. Yay! What a great start to 26 👍🏻

#me #ed talk #tw ed

ED thoughts below be warned

That saying to stop you from eating when you’re not that hungry/just craving something sweet that’s something like ”if you can’t imagine going to the kitchen to eat [something boring] instead of those cookies are you actually hungry or just bored?” or whatever, and it literally never works on me bc i would gladly eat those raw peppers! or a whole packet of dry af crispbread! or plain yoghurt!

The normal conclusion to this would obv be ”so okay elli, you’re clearly hungry! go eat!” but my messed up ED-brain immediately goes ”failure failure failure, fat pig with no self control, kitchen = danger zone Do Not Enter” and i genuinely haaaaate it and at times it makes me cry with frustration bc why won’t you [brain] just let me eat!!!!!!!!

Anyways. Rant of the evening done. Im doing soooooo great 👍🏻

#me #ed talk