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bleach , 19 , it/he/?

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last note for anyone who needs to hear it because there's always someone who does:

if you are ever afraid of your friends, you don't have to be. under any circumstances. anyone who is comfortable with threatening the lives of others over (fan)fiction is not someone who you should keep around not only because its a horrible mindset to have, but because they will not make an exception for you.

i know it can seem scary to commit what is essentially social suicide especially with the environment of the internet today, but you have to do it and be honest with yourself if that's what you need. there's a whole community of people out there on and offline who don't care nearly as much as people say they will.

take care of yourself and what you want first and foremost, and don't make yourself miserable for people who only like a fake version of you.

byeeeee

i probably won't be using tumblr again after this. just wanted to give people some sort of explanation about why im disappearing so suddenly

bmin7

hiiiiieverynyaaaannn i know its been forever and a day since i last posted ^_^;

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explaining my absence to people who might still wonder where ive gone and remember my tumblr under the cut feel free to ignore

ive been forcing myself to comply with a set of standards that i will never be able to meet at all. over my time on the internet, ive spent most of it having to pretend i care at all about meaningless discourse for the sake of covering my ass and i decided that this year, i would stop.

its been making me miserable. ive hated it and i hate who i became to make other people like me. constantly feeling like all my behavior is being observed and scrutinized because what if i like the wrong thing the wrong way? what if people find out that i ship the wrong characters together? its all so ridiculous putting it into words like that and in retrospect i shouldve just been friends with people who didnt care anyways, but i felt i didnt have much of a choice after what happened in 2021.

im letting myself be and ive stopped lying to myself and others about what i am. im allowing myself to make whatever art i want because its my right.

if this seems overly dramatic sorry lollll tldr im a proshipper. idgaf

hiiiiieverynyaaaannn i know its been forever and a day since i last posted ^_^;