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People will always claim they’re there for you. Until you need them. Then they vanish.

#092023

For the first time in my life the skeletons in my closet are banished to their graves.

I love being married. I love getting to do life with you. I love that we're following our dreams together.

When you're six feet under it won't matter who did the dishes more.

#03042021

I miss feeling alive. Before covid and isolation. Back when eating out meant loving on your people instead of a sterilized room of apprehension. When going on adventures was encouraged, not simply banned by foreign leaders. When I could go buy groceries without covering my face, rather than shutter at the sight of others' noses. When I could see infectious smiles of strangers drinking coffee. When not all cops were bastards and Breonna Taylor was alive. Life was not a race to make curfew, but rather an opportunity to openly be you. The world will end in fire and I think we're almost there.

#02022021

I constantly question people who are all in the company they work for. How can you believe all of the empty hopes and dreams they have engrained into you brain. How can you believe that you are more special than any other person. How can you allow yourself to be fully invested into something that will never truly invest in you.

But I too have indulged in chugging the kool-aid of a company who did invest in me; until their need for me disapated and left me devistated.

So before you come to me, with your hopes and dreams and outrageous policies, just remember that I know what you're selling and I am not interested in investing.

I'm so glad I get to live with you.

#040720

You're extraordinarily lame and you give me anxiety and I wish you'd go away and get all of your shit together.

#02202020

I'll love you, even when you're empty.

#01032020

How could I have loved anyone other than you?

#010320

"Don't beat yourself up, you're still learning."

Yeah. Okay. But I am trying so hard to be perfect and every time I fuck up it's like all of my anxieties screaming at once.

#121019

Some days I am overwhelmingly grateful to be alive. I am grateful for the air I breathe; the food I ate; the job I have to pay for the amazing things I have; the man who loves me unconditionally, despite my imbalance; my family and friends who are my lifelong cheerleaders. Some days I am just truly grateful for myself and who I have become.

But then there are days like today, where I struggle to breathe.

#103119

I'm an actual sack of shit.

Why would you ever want to stay?

#092519

It's so strange knowing how loved you are, and yet still feeling entirely alone.

#091519

You won't destroy the things that destroy you.

That's why there's always a hint of distain in your eyes.

#080619

Everything hurts.

Please make it stop.