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oh to shake your butt in the kitchen while your pretty partner actually does most of the work... dan howell when i catch you

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All jokes aside, there's a lot of reflection to be had from this video. I'm happy that Dan and Phil have reached a level of peace to share this even if people (including myself) made that difficult.

I started this blog when I was 14 years old and am blessed to have been a part of such a fun and beautiful community for as long as I was. At 25, I look back on these times with equal parts joy and cringe. I hope that the archives of my blog and everyone else's from that time serve as a gentle reminder that even with good intentions, we can unintentionally be adding fuel to a fire. Getting to experience that relationship scrutiny on a muuuuuuch smaller scale opened my eyes quite a bit too. Even in the tiny pond that I was in, having a personal relationship be put under a very public microscope was a strange feeling. The irony of that was not lost on me at the time either, and once it was over, I quietly disappeared for the most part with a lot to consider.

I'm grateful for the forgiveness they extended. I've occasionally grappled with young and very stupid little Avery, feeling guilty about my online presence. This video wasn't vindicating because we Finally Know The Truth, but it was vindicating because it was the final step in making peace with a time I struggled to reconcile with, despite trying to be one of the "good ones."

At the end of the day, the community was and is a precious memory. I got to bond with so many amazing people and enjoy content with these amazing people. I grew up here, with you, with them. I learned so much about myself, about what I enjoyed doing, about all that the Internet can be. I created, I loved, I laughed, and I left changed for good.

Thanks to Dan and Phil for years of laughter and a community like no other I've ever experienced. Thanks to you all, those who are still here anyhow, for living and growing in that crazy time with me. My heart is full knowing that through it all, they get to live the way they want.

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cold pizza mention in new dan and phil games video? in the year 2023??

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hi averryyyyy i hope you’re doing well, i’ve been thinking of you recently, and all the fun the phandom used to be. anyways best wishes, and no worries if you get this message super late, i know a lot of people have left tumblr ❤️

kendra! omg hello lol. sorry it took me a whole year to get to this, i hardly ever check this stuff anymore. once a year maybe if that

i am doing super well actually! starting to look into phd programs to continue my education, which is scary but exciting. i also have a girlfriend, she’s real swell :)

looking back on this blog is pretty much a time capsule of little 14 year old me, which is wild since i’m 22 now. i’ve changed so much. time doesn’t just fly, it soars. but life has been treating me very well. i hope you’re doing great too! and anyone else who happens to still be lurking here in the depths of the graves of phannie tumblr of course lol

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…for the meme?

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as a phil stan? thriving

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it’s crazy bc i recently watched dan’s recent video and you were one of the first blogs i had to look up and reflect. how are you doing now?

that’s so weird and also super flattering to hear. things are so much different now but that version of me still exists in some people’s minds which is odd. life has changed a lot and i have my days but i’m doing well and living life as authentically as i can

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in which 2015 fucked us all over

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22/06/19

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bitch your url is bondange

christian 👏 blog 👏

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i haven’t been on tumblr for like 3 years ok tho

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dan and phil more like

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relavent

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dan and phil: upload a mukbang eating pizza me, inching out of my cave, covered in cobwebs with harrowingly empty eyes, as if i had once seen too much : m-my brand...... my brand?

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Ooooo are u the avery that had the cute short hair?? I think i remember sending an ask aaaages ago because i was considering cutting mine :'^) (i have a buzzcut now lmao) im glad to see ur doing well as an Adult(tm)

hahaha yes i had real short hair for a while. it’s long n curly now but that’s dope i’m glad you got your hair cut!! i bet it looks bomb

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ARE YOU LOVING COLLEGE? IS IT A TON OF WORK?

it’s actually really not that hard which means it’s gonna smack me in the face later but i’m chillin

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are you nervous about college? also, an all girl school? you’ll be surrounded by cute girls! hope you have a blast!

i am truly at my gayest here you have no idea