Unwritten

I should put something here about this blog being an "outlet" or something but we all know that that's a lie.

[bonespobimbo-blog]

Oops

My eating disorder has 100% turned into drunkorexia. Oops.

[cryingcuts]

Please. Please don’t walk away. Please don’t leave me here crying and begging for your arms around me.

(via cryingcuts)

[skinny-fashion-grunge]

Can you say perfection?😍

[pure-perfect-self]

Do it because success is the BEST revenge

[charlottewinslow]

[i-wanna-be-skinnyxxx]

Do you like having anorexia?

Sure. I mean who doesn’t like having a deadly and serious disorder like anorexia.

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I'm not anorexic because of

I'm not anorexic because of media; I am anorexic because as a child the doctors pinched me saying I could lose weight. I'm not anorexic because my parents abused me; I am anorexic because they talked about the fat family members behind their backs to me. I'm not anorexic because my diet went too far; I am anorexic because my parents gain and lose tens to a hundred of pounds weight from dieting and I started dieting in 8th grade. I'm not anorexic because my ex-boyfriend likes skinny girls; I am anorexic because boys don't like fat girls. I'm not anorexic because I want to lose weight; I am anorexic because I need to. I'm not anorexic to be thinspiration or to be body goals; I am anorexic so I can disappear and maybe someone will stop pointing out my flaws. Yet, they say, I'm not anorexic because of you; I'm anorexic because of me.

[eisprinz-essin-blog]

mind of an anorexic, body of a failure

your voice in my head (via eisprinz-essin)

Yes..

(via slimdreamsx)

[bonespobimbo-blog]

Day 14 & 15

Ultimate goal weight- my lowest is somewhere in the 90s, I'd like to be there again. Vegan/Vegetarian? I'm currently trying to be vegan but I had a bad binge and I don't even remember half of what I ate.

[bonespobimbo-blog]

Day 13- is it healthy?

Am I losing weight healthy or unhealthy? I don't even know which is which anymore TBH. Unhealthy though, most likely.

[bonespobimbo-blog]

Day 12- Eating

What do you normally eat? When restricting, I don't eat hardly anything. When I eat normal, anything really. I decided to go vegan again, and I'm restricting still but eating plant-based.

[bonespobimbo-blog]

Day 11- Favs

Favorite thinspo blog? @the-loveliestbones for sure 👌 (personal friend, I'm a little biased, but she is amazing and keeps me on track)

[bonespobimbo-blog]

Day 10- Sacrifice

I swear I posted this yesterday, but the hardest thing I gave up was going out with friends. There is nothing to do in my hometown except go to Applebee's and eat half-priced apps after 9PM

[skinandboneswonderland]

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Day 9- comments

Did people ever make comments about my weight in a negative way? Uh, yes. Too low and too high both get comments. I was turned down from an eating disorder clinic at 134lbs for "not meeting BMI criteria for treatment" and my parents are always for me losing weight.

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Day 8- Workout

What is your workout routine? -Okay, so this is something I feel strongly about. They always so losing weight is 80% diet, and 20% exercise, so if that's true and you do zero exercise, how are you going to be 100% at your fullest potential? I don't mean you have to go out and do a marathon every day, but at least don't lay in bed 24/7. I work in a retail store so I stand for 5-8 hours straight, and in the past week I have ran 3/7 days. When I run, I run 1 mile and walk 1 back to where I started. It takes about half an hour? I also am never standing or sitting still. I learned this in the hospital, because they always yelled at us for shaking or bouncing our legs, tapping our hands, and walking when we didn't need to.

[bonespobimbo-blog]

I don't want to look like a model. I don't want to look like a "thinspo" girl. I want to look like the best version of myself again.