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Kennedy. 24. Taurus. INFJ. @ me if u see a cool dog 

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hi friends if anyone is still here

life has been a rollercoaster but in a pretty great place right now!

still with the boyfriend (6 years in march!)

I LOVE my job

have a great relationship with food and my body

mental health is managed by exercise but I still should probably go to therapy (shouldn't we all?)

I like the tiktok trend that's like "life didn't end at 17" like I'm still here and kicking!!! despite all of those moments it felt like it was over

at one point tumblr was like my whole life, it's so crazy that it feels like a blip now

anyways thanks for the memories

see you here sometime in the future? (if tumblr still exists - but I think this site refuses to give up on life just like me haha)

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hi besties

I wanna get back into tumblr how do I find people to follow cause my dash is dead omg

also the fact that my bio says I’m 21 when I’m 24 now (turned 24 last week) sheesh

um I got a job (but it’s contract and ending in 4 months yikes) and moved states (but moving home in 4 months unless I find employment before yikes) and I HAVE 2 RABBITS NOW (they keep destroying my phone chargers but that’s my fault...yikes) and I’m vaccinated! and I’m the happiest I’ve been in a hot minute (like since summer 2019 tbh

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oh and my boyfriend and I are still together we celebrated 3 years last month!

but I’m fat now and I haven’t seen him in person (we facetime every day) literally a year and he’s visiting me in 2 weeks and I literally feel like a catfish like that’s how much weight I’ve gained since seeing him last this panoramic has done me in yall

curbside pickup is to blame like I would never have the courage to order 2 chicken biscuits at cfa every day for a week straight if I had to say my order to a person but I just doot doot doot on an app and they bring me the food like a drug deal it’s incredible and also I hate it cause I’m fat now anyways love this missed this

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hi besties

I wanna get back into tumblr how do I find people to follow cause my dash is dead omg

also the fact that my bio says I’m 21 when I’m 24 now (turned 24 last week) sheesh

um I got a job (but it’s contract and ending in 4 months yikes) and moved states (but moving home in 4 months unless I find employment before yikes) and I HAVE 2 RABBITS NOW (they keep destroying my phone chargers but that’s my fault...yikes) and I’m vaccinated! and I’m the happiest I’ve been in a hot minute (like since summer 2019 tbh

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hello

here’s a random update to say I’m not afraid of oblivion anymore???

like I used to be so uncomfortable with the thought of dying and there being nothing 

but then I realized if there’s nothing, I’m nothing, like I won’t even know

I guess the kind of oblivion I was afraid of was like there is nothing, but I’m something, so I would effectively be left alone with my thoughts forever

but forever is so unfathomable...and I gotta believe after like 1000 years of absolute nothingness, your consciousness figures out a way to just vibe hahahah

anyways I jumped out of a plane on my 21st birthday hoping I would meet the ground and die, but I was terrified of what was on the other side. I’m badass for that. 

Now I fear nothing, so maybe I’ll go bungee jumping (which is arguably safer than skydiving but has always scared me more lol).

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okay last post before I disappear for another 2 months raise your hand if you feel personally victimized by corona because you couldn’t get hired after you graduated college so you decided to take a gap year and now your gap year is almost over and the economy is about to be wrecked so your chances of getting hired are even worse now then they were then it’s fine everything is fineeeee

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I’m gonna go crazy if I don’t find a creative outlet!!!!

[exhaled-spirals]

“The ceramics teacher announced that he was dividing the class into two groups. All those on the left side of the studio, he said, would be graded solely on the quantity of work they produced, all those on the right solely on its quality. His procedure was simple: on the final day of class he would bring in his bathroom scales and weigh the work of the “quantity” group: fifty pounds of pots rated an “A”, forty pounds a “B”, and so on. Those being graded on “quality”, however, needed to produce only one pot — albeit a perfect one — to get an “A”. Well, came grading time and a curious fact emerged: the works of highest quality were all produced by the group being graded for quantity. It seems that while the “quantity” group was busily churning out piles of work-and learning from their mistakes — the “quality” group had sat theorizing about perfection, and in the end had little more to show for their efforts than grandiose theories and a pile of dead clay.”

— David Bayles, Art & Fear: Observations on the Perils (and Rewards) of Artmaking

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so lots have happened in 2 months(! wow I can’t believe it’s been 2 months since I just reblogged something lol 3 months since I did a life update) 

I got a big girl job

then my sister died

then I quit my big girl job

now I work at target as a seasonal

but I really like it

I feel kinda lost and not sure what I wanna do with my life still

also feel super weird about my sister’s death (it was expected but still) 

life is weird 

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I could be living the dream traveling with my bf in europe in august :,) 

he got into this cool program in germany, and he asked me to meet him there when it ends so we can do some explorin :,) 

It will work out nicely cause I’ll finish out my summer job in boston and then 2 days later meet him in europe somewhere :,) 

like still don’t have full time employment but will get to go to europe so who’s really counting here

[lilah80]

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Hi

I had an incredible summer mentoring high school girls at one of the US’s most prestigious women’s colleges, and it was truly magical. Like movie-worthy. Those girls gave me enough joy, strength, and courage to last a lifetime

I also gained the freshman 15 in 1 summer so love that for me

I am also kinda sad tumblr is dead 

I will never delete this blog but it’s kinda depressing coming back to a dead dash and no community :(

so thankful for tumblr tho 

but also like maybe I would have done something with my youth if I didn’t have tumblr hahahah

anyways idk what this post is

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hi here’s a ranking of fast food spicy chicken sandwiches that nobody asked for

1. Arby’s Buffalo Chicken Sandwich

2. Chick-fil-a Spicy Chicken Sandwich

3. Zaxby’s Kickin’ Chicken Sandwich

4. Wendy’s Spicy Chicken Sandwich

apparently Burger King has a good one but I will never go to Burger King

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I just wanted to point out I was miles ahead of this debate wow 

I definitely would not keep these rankings though I must have really been struggling to list Arby’s as #1 um why did no one reach out and ask me if I was ok

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[birdasaurus]

Annika Hein

[dankmemeuniversity]

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making plans with someone about how you’re going to spend the rest of your life together is both uniquely invigorating and terrifying

what if they change their mind and give up on the future you’ve been looking forward to? what if they don’t and you live a fairytale romance out to till the end? 

there’s literally no way to tell (well, there is, but denial and not communicating are big bombs that aren’t easy to disarm) 

anyways, here’s to looking forward to a future that might not come to fruition but I really hope it does for you and me both

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