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[borderlinelitt]

Stop seeing only the good. It's killing you.

Remember how she tore you apart without even trying. Remember how she did it again, and then again. Remember how much she lied. Remember her voice as she screamed at you to leave her alone. That she wanted to be alone. Remember how she left, as understanding as you may be of the situation, she left you in such an incredibly dark place that she’d helped put you in. Then left you. Remember her words as she told you she does not want to be any focal point in your life anymore. She doesn’t want to depend on you ever. She doesn’t need you anymore and she doesn’t want to need you. Remember these things because she wants to be alone. She yelled it at you. She doesn’t want you. She has nothing to give you right now and she doesn’t want to. Remember how badly that hurts you and let that pain consume you. Let it consume you and then take it over. Break it down and never let that pain in again. Step the fuck up and get the fuck over it.

But always remember how much you love her. How your door will always be open even when the walls won’t come down.

[borderlinelitt]

Who's writing these?! Who's writing these?!

~ A

[borderlinelitt]

I’m not exactly sure how I’ll be able to after all of this. You’ve been so mean to me, and so selfish, and lacking compassion. No not always, but in the times I need it you lack. You left, you broke me then left to fix yourself but what about the pieces of me you left lying there on the bathroom floor? You always said you cared, you always said you loved me. Your words never matched your actions. I forgive you but do you even love me anymore? How could I have gone through what I’ve gone through since you left and yo not want to just… care, and love, and protect and just scoop me up even for 10 minutes to reassure me “love keep strong, you’ll make it”. I’ll never understand the selfishness. And that’s okay. I’ll learn to cope. I’ll never get over it, I’ll never understand. But I will cope with the pain. I understand I’ve hurt you, but none of the way you treat me now is new, it’s been this way for so long. I don’t think you ever wanted it to change. I wish you’d prove me wrong.

[borderlinelitt]

UGH idr this either ~ A

[borderlinelitt]

No mom I’ll never drink and drive

Beer in one hand steering wheel in the other, just us and the open road! (via borderlinelitt)

You’re an idiot! - K

[borderlinelitt]

okay back to the usual programming of feeling threatened and scared that i’m being replaced

[borderlinelitt]

Uhhhhh and this?! ~ A

[borderlinelitt]

Who are you when no one else is around?

Scared, frantic, and wondering wtf is next (via borderlinelitt)

Who tf wrote this?! ~ A

[borderlinelitt]

We’ll be alright

[x-goodbye-x]

It’s all lies -R

[megurashkarchived]

i am so gentle and kind hearted

[megurashkarchived]

and stupid

[howjuderolls]

Here are some pictures we made with DID terms~May

[andreandkarl]

7.30.15

[unexperience-blog1]

non-systems think The Vast Majority of ppl with DID’s alters tell them stuff like “kill people” and “hide a body in your garbage bin” when in reality one of my alters says “take a fucking sip babes” every time im drinking something and shes co-conscious

[distantdissociative]

Me @ my alters: OK guys we gotta be coordinated and focused

Alters: OK

*5 minutes later*

[howjuderolls]

DID pickup lines

“I Voted and it’s unanimous, you are super cute”

“You’d be a great father figure for my internal children”

“guess what? only one-fourth of us find affection confusing and occasionally reprehensible”

“If I’m not your type, I’m sure I have one who is.”

“What do you think of polyamory without all those other pesky bodies?”

Add on! ~Scarlet

[thepineappledidsystem-deactivat]

We got a professional stylus so we can actually draw digitally without making a mess! It cost £6.99. Legit worth the price.

We were just in WHSmith (for those who don’t know a stationery store in the UK though they might have them in america too…do they?) and Tomas spotted it and said it would be great for the syskids to make art when the’re regressed and also cool to draw stuff without anyone except us seeing (on our phone). So we got it.

Expect a random flow of shitty drawings. -Jenny/Tomas

[multiplicitymemes]

When you’ve been rapid switching for an hour

[liongoatsnake]

When a little wakes up fronting in the middle of the night

[meeresbande]

Dear singlets

Multiplicity is real.

Every multiple system is different.

Every multiple system is valid.

Every member of every multiple system is valid.

Every member of every multiple system is different.

Every system and even member of a multiple system copes with stuff in their own way.

Those ways are valid as long as they’re not hurting others.

No ~romanticising~ multiplicity (whatever the heck you even mean by that) is not hurting others.

Stop trying to figure out if anyone is a fake or hate on those you deem fake or attention seekers – THIS HURTS REAL MULTIPLES FAR MORE THAN ANY FAKES!

Stop policing us and our identities and the words and ways and concepts we use to express them.

Stop trying to speak over us.

Stop pathologizing and/or infantilising and/or romanticising us (There’s a difference between a singlet and a multiple doing that).

Thank you!

[randomistheonlyconstant]

A quick and dirty DID reference

A very special person to us is trying his hardest to understand us and how we relate to each other. Sometimes it is so hard to explain with words so I decided to make these visual aids for him and anyone else who might be going through the same.

Imagine it like a cone, the white being the highest point of awareness and the black being the lowest. Some of us stay higher and some lower. Sometimes we move freely between the areas but sometimes we can’t control it.

We are not always fully in a certain area, sometimes we are between. Occasionally we do something we think of as merging or blurring. We kind of fade into each other and become something between, taking on attributes of both. This often leaves us feeling like we aren’t completely sure who we are.

We all have different relationships with each other. Some of us get along great and hang out a lot, some of us don’t get along. Some of us don’t like socializing at all and avoid people. The relationships can be platonic, romantic, volatile, or like family, it all depends.