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sydney || 22 || she/her bpd, bipolar 1, bulimia nervosa read about & byf self-dx friendly

[borderlinesyd]

living alone is amazing but my god it is terrible for my ed. i havent had a relapse like this in years. i purge DAILY and its wild.

[borderpunchline]

BPD is literally just going, “This is the saddest and emptiest I have ever felt and no human being has ever experienced a depression this intense in the history of ever” three times a day every day for the rest of your life with each time somehow still feeling genuine.

[esthete-god]

Mood swings

[batmoan]

Borderline personality is being called a flirt when you have no idea how to make people like you without seducing them.

Borderline personality is being called a drama queen for having bigger than life emotions and not being able to restrain them.

Borderline personality is not recognizing a photograph of yourself a week after taking it.

Borderline personality is fully understanding you’re being irrational, clingy, or overbearing, and watching yourself fall further instead of fixing it.

Borderline personality is refusing every kind offer because it could possibly be insincere and you won’t let yourself fall for that again.

Borderline personality is being constantly cautious of what you say so you don’t come off as manipulative, and being a pushover when you don’t want to so no one will think of you in that way.

Borderline personality is not being able to love yourself unless someone else loves you, but never fully believing that they could love you.

Borderline personality is thinking of all the ways you could die, today, at this moment, on a loop every waking moment.

Borderline personality is hard. It’s hard to cope. It exhausts you. Treat people with BPD like normal human beings, please. We’re not monsters. We’re tired of our shit, too. Be patient, and i know constant need for reassurance gets annoying, but it’s sometimes so necessary.

[digitally-delusional]

paranoia: why am i getting so sick in the mornings and throwing up? am i perganté?

logic: we’re starving we don’t sleep and we’re experiencing menstrual cramps. that’s why we feel like shit.

paranoia: (looks up pregnancy symptoms)

logic: we’re literally bleeding out of our vagina we aren’t pregnant

paranoia: omg we’re having a miscarriage

logic: oh my fucking god no we aren’t

[coldurs-deactivated20211211]

my shit brain anytime anyone does something to hurt me: kill yourself it’s the only way they will ever feel bad

[1hat3u]

hopeless romantic with trust issues and a sex drive out the roof

[starting-to-feel-just-right]

I’ve never seen anything so accurate though

[bpdelicate-deactivated20190204]

do you ever wonder if your fp talks to other people the way they talk to you?

[bpdbuttercup]

do you ever just remember how Unnecessary you are? How little you’re needed?

[narcissisticprincess]

NPD - being devastated when a person you’re not interested in dates or compliments a person other than you

[planetarily-deactivated20230620]

that npd feeling when you think you miss someone but you later realize that really you just miss the attention and the narc supply you get from being with them

[tppdfw]

tppdfw you wait in the car for your mom while she gets groceries and u panic and think she's dead or she's been kidnapped

[tppdfw]

Tppdfw revenge is always better than forgiveness

[tppdfw]

Tppdfw

Someone: *attacks me personally*

Someone: don’t take it personally

[godlyloser]

Tppdfw you remember the first time you trusted someone and how quickly they betrayed you

[godlyloser]

When people say “I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy” it doesn’t make me think “oh god it must be really bad then” it makes me think “you clearly don’t hate your worst enemy as much as I hate mine”

[thexfiles]

“holding grudges isn’t good for you” yeah well neither is people hurting me and getting away w/ it so here we are