Dont Trust Ppl Own Them

Diary Every thought every feeling open My good my bad .. just me

[borderlinevillain]

Okay bootstraps tight

Amnesia activated

Nothing fucking matters

Im grateful to be here alive the new year . I couldn’t have asked for a better life . I wanted clarity and im grateful 😇

[borderlinevillain]

I’m boo boo the damn fool ..

Just December 7th …

About 22 days ago?!?!

My stomach hurts so bad

I feel crazy scratching at the door like a horror movie

[borderlinevillain]

The new year was coming and I was just about to drop my last egg in the so called basket

All I hear is my moms voice .. “don’t put all your eggs in one basket “

Here I am contemplating the very one rule my moms taught me on love ..

So I decide if ever I’ll check his phone .. just to be certain

Sure enough

[borderlinevillain]

Just 20 days ago my “bf” begged .. and when I say begged I mean BEGGGGGGED HIS EX .. to take him back .

He loves her

She’s his favorite

He needs her

Ugly tears …

Everything that he tells me Dec 7th admits was a lie

I’m exhausted by men

I’m exhausted by trust

I’m exhausted with life

I always know but yet I keep trying

Not to mention he was just on porn sites only fans and hookup sites ..

Meanwhile I’m fucking this man to get pregnant

Like a big stupid fucking idiot

I could slice my own damn neck

Idk

I’ll probably just act normal like I never seen it

Convince my shock that it wasn’t real .. just to avoid the pain .

I’m sick .. I almost hate myself more than I hate him now

[borderlinevillain]

Chile . Same reason we don’t

[borderlinevillain]

Fake ass men .. them too

[borderlinevillain]

Imagine the delusion that comes with the Bible and the driver

[borderlinevillain]

At what point do you understand life .. human nature.. great feelings .. sexual urges .. but not Jesus ✅😫😫😫😫

[borderlinevillain]

It’s .. so delusional.. you desperately in “ church” but fuck men as a man?!?!

[borderlinevillain]

Ask me .. I dare you

[borderlinevillain]

Never in a situation I’ll be dishonest to my real emotions .. I’d rather both be involved.

Much to intellectual to fake a vibe

Bitch

Get

With it

Or get the fuck ASAP

[g5hrs]

[borderlinevillain]

Chile

[borderlinevillain]

Saves lives

[borderlinevillain]

I deactivated my twitter 4lyfe

[borderlinevillain]

Life’s been stumbling in a specific way . I’m 28 with too much wisdom and direction ..

I can’t even be reckless as I once was

I’m poise and understanding

Sometimes life gets you and holds on

[borderlinevillain]

Tiny dick .. annoying ..

[borderlinevillain]

Oh shut the hell up

#datingafrikaiman

-xoxo