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elias | 20 | cute | ♍ hey there. i'm just some college kid training to be a certified drama queen :) { semi-indie OC blog }

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my 2iide doe2n’t exactly matter.  ii ju2t. mmn. ii don’t know iif iit’2 even po22iible two coexii2t wiith hiim among people ii don’t really know yet, 2eeiing a2 the friiend2 ii’d had 2iince ii wa2 twelve diidn’t even 2tiick around once that went 2outh. my be2t friiend 2iince elementary 2chool won’t even talk two me anymore becau2e iit wa2 ju2t that me22y. ii don’t want two make that happen wiith you and your friiend2. that’2 two 2elfii2h, even for me. iit would have been cool iif you weren’t iinvolved wiith eriidan but ii gue22 nothiing ii2 2afe, or whatever.

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i think it matters. he moved back to california though, and we still live in pennsylvania. there doesn’t even have to be coexisting since we only even keep up with him online. the two of you don’t have to deal with each other at all, i wouldn’t ask that of either of you.

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okay. 

2. what exactly ha2 eriidan 2aiid about me? liike. ii need two know what my reputatiion ii2 wiith you all.

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i think lee got the most of it but i recall a lot of really melodramatic stuff about how you broke his heart and basically used him and the sort of things you say when you’re hurt about a break up. as far as your reputation with ME goes, i took it with a pinch of salt?? i, too, am a drama queen. i think maybe lee is concerned that you’re going to break my fragile gay heart though, which is why his hackles are raised like they are. if you wanted to talk about what happened and give your side, though, i’d definitely listen. it sounded like quite a clusterfuck no matter how you look at it. 

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look. my miind really liike2 two confu2e iit2elf about - well, ii mean, iit take2 memoriie2 and feeliing2 and 2ociial cue2 and what-iif2 and kind of ju2t dump2 them iintwo a 2teamiing heap of what-the-fuck-ii2-goiing-on, 2o ii need two clear 2ome thiing2 up.

1. were you for real fliirtiing wiith me? wa2 that a thiing? or wa2 iit more of ju2t platoniic banter that your friiend2 played up a2 fliirtiing two tea2e you when iit really wa2n’t.

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no, it’s okay, me too. sometimes it’s worse than others but the point is i feel you and it’s cool.

i mean i kind of lowkey flirt with everybody including platonic friends, but that’s once it’s established that we’re friends. it was mostly me testing the waters of for real flirting, which was going well until shit hit the fan? so yes, i was for real flirting with you. 

[hiivemiind-blog]

ii2n’t 2he ju2t. 2he’2 the love of my liife.

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i’m sure you’re the love of her (artificial) life, too.

[hiivemiind-blog]

thank2, ii know.

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your robot wife is beautiful.

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your theme looks beautiful.

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cool it’s time to make a porn blog.

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i scream you scream we all scream for

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[hiivemiind-blog]

iidk. ii need 2ome tiime two thiink about iit.

[bosomfriend-blog]

okay. i can’t really say no to that.

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toasterfixer started following you

do you fix toasters for a living or is it more of a hobby?

[hiivemiind-blog]

uh. ii’m not 2ure iif that’2 meant two be rea22uriing or not, but ii’m glad you got iit out of your 2y2tem??

yeah, well, no offen2e, but ii’m not exactly iin a place where ii can be friiend2 wiith 2omeone who2e other friiend2 all hate me becau2e of one of my many romantiic 2crew-up2, and iif ii’m already off on the wrong foot wiith 2omeone 2o apparently formiidable then. iidk. ii really don’t want two deal wiith the ED 2iituatiion anymore, and ii don’t know what he told you guy2 but ii’ve got my own 2hiit two deal wiith re: that whole clu2terfuck al2o. ii liike you but tbh ii’m done cau2iing drama ju2t by exii2tiing iin 2omeone’2 2ociial ciircle.

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it is, yeah. like, i’m the biggest drama queen i know basically so you can’t outdo me, apology accepted and you’re all good is what i meant.

okay, but it’s up to me if i want to talk to you and lee can be a dick sure but he’s not going to go out of his way to harass you. he’s said what he wanted to and i’m going to continue living my life of sin anyways and if anything he’ll just be irritated with me. and my other friends don’t all hate you. lee is just cranky. i don’t want to drag you into any situations or anything and i don’t think you’re a bad person just on account of eridan being a sad sack about a break up, break ups suck and warrant being a sad sack regardless of who’s involved. i guess basically i just want to make it work and anybody who disapproves can suck it because i make my own choices etc etc. i know you have your own shit. so i get it if it’s not a thing you want to bother with. but yeah.

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iit’2 been fiine. look, ii’m 2orry about ye2terday, ii 2houldn’t have reacted a2 2trongly a2 ii diid. iit’2 ju2t a thiing that happen2 2ometiime2, eheh. but, uh. yeah. ii wanted two clear that up and hope that we’re chiill enough two at lea2t part iin peace iif ii’m not 2omeone you want two keep iinvolved wiith, ii’d totally get iif that were the ca2e. al2o ii’m 2orry two have pii22ed your friiend off.

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dude, it’s okay. i went and complained at my sister for like an hour and a half afterward, you didn’t see the extent of me being a shit about it. i throw a MEAN temper tantrum. ;>

lee is really easy to piss off if you start off on just the right wrong foot but if anything i still want to be your friend at least?? if that’s cool. 

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hey, eliia2.

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hey. how’s your day been?

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someone pay attention to me stat.

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i’m going to get offline. i’m sorry for stirring shit up, i didn’t know you knew ED but regardless it was probably a bad idea for me to act like i was anyway, sorry to put a rift between you and your friends or anything. have a good night.

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sollux, you didn’t put a rift anywhere, okay, just stop for a second please. i haven’t been as close with him since he moved back to cali, LEE’S been the one that’s kept contact with him mostly, because he’s been mopey and not very sociable and i kind of gave up?? which is besides the point but what i MEAN to say is nobody needed to go and make it lee’s business OR eridan’s, the only person who gets to decide who i flirt with is ME and honestly, lee’s opinion doesn’t change mine, i still like you and whether you want me to quit flirting with you or not i still want to be friends with you at least. there was nothing that was a bad idea about what you were doing and it’s only going to be a big deal if you let it. it doesn’t have to be. 

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[hiivemiind-blog]

it’s fine. i get it.

[bosomfriend-blog]

no, you don’t, because you haven’t talked to ME about it yet. just ignore lee for a minute because he and i don’t have the same opinion and tell me what you’re thinking, please.